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{t:"First published in Korea as MY Cup overFlows",p:1,x:203,y:961,w:396,h:15},
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{t:"Copyright © 2009 by Hoyeon Choi and Gordon Timbers",p:4,x:114,y:589,w:305,h:15},
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{t:"by permission. All rights reserved.",p:4,x:114,y:771,w:191,h:15},
{t:"A catalog record for this book is available through the Library of Congress.",p:4,x:114,y:799,w:414,h:15},
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{t:"Editorial team: Kay Larson, Daniel Johnson, John Dunham",p:4,x:114,y:869,w:322,h:15},
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{t:"Contents",p:5,x:298,y:94,w:83,h:26},
{t:"Editor’s Note ",p:5,x:115,y:178,w:95,h:19},
{t:"1",p:5,x:556,y:178,w:8,h:19},
{t:"Translator’s Note ",p:5,x:115,y:206,w:126,h:19},
{t:"3",p:5,x:556,y:206,w:8,h:19},
{t:"Foreword ",p:5,x:115,y:233,w:73,h:19},
{t:"7",p:5,x:556,y:233,w:8,h:19},
{t:"About the Author ",p:5,x:115,y:261,w:128,h:19},
{t:"9",p:5,x:556,y:261,w:8,h:19},
{t:"Introduction ",p:5,x:115,y:288,w:94,h:19},
{t:"11",p:5,x:548,y:288,w:16,h:19},
{t:"A Brief History of Korea ",p:5,x:115,y:316,w:174,h:19},
{t:"13",p:5,x:548,y:316,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Political Figures and Individual Names Appearing in  ",p:5,x:115,y:343,w:382,h:19},
{t:"17 ",p:5,x:548,y:343,w:20,h:19},
{t:"This Book ",p:5,x:130,y:363,w:73,h:19},
{t:"Political Figures ",p:5,x:145,y:387,w:117,h:19},
{t:"17",p:5,x:548,y:387,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Individuals Associated with Mang Eui-Soon ",p:5,x:145,y:410,w:306,h:19},
{t:"18",p:5,x:548,y:410,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s Escape Route to the South ",p:5,x:145,y:433,w:304,h:19},
{t:"20",p:5,x:548,y:433,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Part One: A Seed Takes Root ",p:5,x:115,y:468,w:203,h:19},
{t:"21",p:5,x:548,y:468,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Unfailing Legacy ",p:5,x:145,y:492,w:121,h:19},
{t:"21",p:5,x:548,y:492,w:16,h:19},
{t:"A Kendo Incident ",p:5,x:145,y:515,w:123,h:19},
{t:"22",p:5,x:548,y:515,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Piano Performance ",p:5,x:145,y:538,w:137,h:19},
{t:"29",p:5,x:548,y:538,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Korea Divided ",p:5,x:145,y:562,w:102,h:19},
{t:"33",p:5,x:548,y:562,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Peace on Campus ",p:5,x:145,y:585,w:125,h:19},
{t:"42",p:5,x:548,y:585,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Through the Furnace of Trials  ",p:5,x:145,y:608,w:217,h:19},
{t:"45",p:5,x:548,y:608,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Unrequited Love ",p:5,x:145,y:632,w:119,h:19},
{t:"48",p:5,x:548,y:632,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Answering a Call ",p:5,x:145,y:655,w:122,h:19},
{t:"54",p:5,x:548,y:655,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Tempestuous Night ",p:5,x:145,y:678,w:138,h:19},
{t:"64",p:5,x:548,y:678,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Street Preaching ",p:5,x:145,y:702,w:119,h:19},
{t:"72",p:5,x:548,y:702,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Missing His Mother ",p:5,x:145,y:725,w:141,h:19},
{t:"77",p:5,x:548,y:725,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Kwonsa La Chang-Seok ",p:5,x:145,y:748,w:167,h:19},
{t:"78",p:5,x:548,y:748,w:16,h:19},
{t:"A Budding Relationship with Captain Yu ",p:5,x:145,y:772,w:283,h:19},
{t:"82",p:5,x:548,y:772,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Part Two: How Long, Oh Lord? ",p:5,x:115,y:807,w:223,h:19},
{t:"91",p:5,x:548,y:807,w:16,h:19},
{t:"The Communists Strike South ",p:5,x:145,y:830,w:209,h:19},
{t:"91",p:5,x:548,y:830,w:16,h:19},
{t:"False News from the Government ",p:5,x:145,y:853,w:235,h:19},
{t:"95",p:5,x:548,y:853,w:16,h:19},
{t:"Seoul in Turmoil ",p:5,x:145,y:877,w:119,h:19},
{t:"111",p:5,x:539,y:877,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Hiding on Chungnung Mountain ",p:6,x:145,y:95,w:228,h:19},
{t:"117",p:6,x:539,y:95,w:25,h:19},
{t:"In the Courtyard of the Hyangrinwon Orphanage  ",p:6,x:145,y:119,w:348,h:19},
{t:"123",p:6,x:539,y:119,w:25,h:19},
{t:"The Lord Keeps You ",p:6,x:145,y:142,w:141,h:19},
{t:"129",p:6,x:539,y:142,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Escape to the South ",p:6,x:145,y:165,w:140,h:19},
{t:"131",p:6,x:539,y:165,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Lurking Devils ",p:6,x:145,y:189,w:105,h:19},
{t:"136",p:6,x:539,y:189,w:25,h:19},
{t:"A Long Journey to Canaan ",p:6,x:145,y:212,w:187,h:19},
{t:"143",p:6,x:539,y:212,w:25,h:19},
{t:"The Curse of Misunderstanding ",p:6,x:145,y:235,w:221,h:19},
{t:"153",p:6,x:539,y:235,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Part Three: My Cup Overfows  ",p:6,x:115,y:270,w:223,h:19},
{t:"163",p:6,x:539,y:270,w:25,h:19},
{t:"POW ",p:6,x:145,y:294,w:39,h:19},
{t:"163",p:6,x:539,y:294,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Forced Confession ",p:6,x:145,y:317,w:130,h:19},
{t:"164",p:6,x:539,y:317,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Life behind Barbed-Wire Fences ",p:6,x:145,y:340,w:224,h:19},
{t:"173",p:6,x:539,y:340,w:25,h:19},
{t:"The Wilderness Church ",p:6,x:145,y:364,w:166,h:19},
{t:"182",p:6,x:539,y:364,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Enter the Communist Chinese  ",p:6,x:145,y:387,w:213,h:19},
{t:"185",p:6,x:539,y:387,w:25,h:19},
{t:"The Visit of Captain Yu ",p:6,x:145,y:410,w:163,h:19},
{t:"190",p:6,x:539,y:410,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Freedom Refused ",p:6,x:145,y:434,w:123,h:19},
{t:"198",p:6,x:539,y:434,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Insurgence within the Prison Camp ",p:6,x:145,y:457,w:248,h:19},
{t:"206",p:6,x:539,y:457,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Foiled Attempt to Murder God’s People ",p:6,x:145,y:480,w:273,h:19},
{t:"213",p:6,x:539,y:480,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Completing the Journey to Canaan ",p:6,x:145,y:504,w:242,h:19},
{t:"221",p:6,x:539,y:504,w:25,h:19},
{t:"Lonely Pilgrimage ",p:6,x:145,y:527,w:130,h:19},
{t:"227",p:6,x:539,y:527,w:25,h:19},
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{t:"EDITOR’S NOTE",p:7,x:256,y:178,w:170,h:32},
{t:"Free on the Inside, known as My Cup Overfows in Korea, has ",p:7,x:116,y:246,w:453,h:20},
{t:"been a classic for the generations that have read it since it was ",p:7,x:116,y:273,w:453,h:20},
{t:"frst published in 1981. The main character, Mang Eui-Soon, is ",p:7,x:116,y:301,w:453,h:20},
{t:"virtually a household name. He was the consummate patriot ",p:7,x:116,y:328,w:454,h:20},
{t:"at the outbreak of the Korean War, wondering why brothers ",p:7,x:116,y:356,w:454,h:20},
{t:"were killing each other and seeking to reconcile people. He ",p:7,x:116,y:383,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was also a devout Christian who charged people to live peace-",p:7,x:116,y:411,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ably serving one another as servants of Jesus.",p:7,x:116,y:438,w:332,h:20},
{t:"To Koreans, Mang Eui-Soon is much like Jim Elliott is to ",p:7,x:146,y:466,w:423,h:20},
{t:"American Christians. It may take a moment of prompting (“You ",p:7,x:116,y:493,w:453,h:20},
{t:"know, the guys who few into the jungle in South America and ",p:7,x:116,y:521,w:454,h:20},
{t:"were killed by the tribe . . .”), but most will say, “Oh, he was ",p:7,x:116,y:548,w:453,h:20},
{t:"such an amazing man!” After My Cup Overfows, inspired by ",p:7,x:116,y:576,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s life, was penned by a popular novelist and ",p:7,x:116,y:603,w:454,h:20},
{t:"later staged as a critically acclaimed opera, his life became a ",p:7,x:116,y:631,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fxture in the Korean imagination.",p:7,x:116,y:658,w:250,h:20},
{t:"In Korea, My Cup Overfows is known as a novel that is ",p:7,x:146,y:686,w:423,h:20},
{t:"based on a true story. No one doubts that it is a true story. ",p:7,x:116,y:713,w:454,h:20},
{t:"However in America, there is more suspicion about the word ",p:7,x:116,y:741,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“novel” and the value it has for conveying a biographical ",p:7,x:116,y:768,w:454,h:20},
{t:"account. The author, Chung Yeun-Hee, researched her book ",p:7,x:116,y:796,w:453,h:20},
{t:"extensively, interviewing family, friends, and acquaintances ",p:7,x:116,y:823,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and consulting letters to accurately represent Mang Eui-Soon’s ",p:7,x:116,y:851,w:453,h:20},
{t:"story. Thirty years after the events, she approached her task ",p:7,x:116,y:878,w:453,h:20},
{t:"2",p:8,x:85,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:8,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"with the rigor of a biographer. She created a limited num-",p:8,x:115,y:95,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ber of characters and events to fesh out the story. She also ",p:8,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"changed some names to protect people who would not want to ",p:8,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"be identifed in the story for various reasons. The translators ",p:8,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have added relevant Korean history to help Western readers ",p:8,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"place the story in context. ",p:8,x:115,y:233,w:192,h:20},
{t:"As the publisher of the abridged English edition, we ",p:8,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"wrestled with whether to call this book a biography, fction, ",p:8,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"historical fction, or a novel. In the end, we feel that this book ",p:8,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is more biography than novel, as the author has represented ",p:8,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s character and story truly and accurately, ",p:8,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"even in situations that she created to show how he would have ",p:8,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"interacted with those around him. ",p:8,x:115,y:425,w:254,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s story is powerful and life-changing. We ",p:8,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"hope you enjoy it as much as we did.",p:8,x:115,y:480,w:267,h:20},
{t:"John Dunham",p:8,x:115,y:535,w:101,h:20},
{t:"Managing Editor",p:8,x:115,y:563,w:122,h:20},
{t:"Authentic",p:8,x:115,y:590,w:71,h:20},
{t:"3",p:9,x:584,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"TRANSLATOR’S NOTE",p:9,x:224,y:227,w:231,h:32},
{t:"One Sunday afternoon I was looking for reading materials at ",p:9,x:115,y:295,w:453,h:20},
{t:"leisure in our small church library. I was attracted to a paper-",p:9,x:115,y:323,w:450,h:20},
{t:"back entitled My Cup Overfows in Korean. I started to read it ",p:9,x:115,y:350,w:453,h:20},
{t:"there and then took it home. When I fnished, day was dawning, ",p:9,x:115,y:378,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and I found my eyes running with tears. I was held spellbound ",p:9,x:115,y:405,w:453,h:20},
{t:"by this young man who served those prisoners of war whose ",p:9,x:115,y:433,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bodies and spirits were brutalized by war. I dared to start to ",p:9,x:115,y:460,w:453,h:20},
{t:"translate without calculating my capability in English. I have ",p:9,x:115,y:488,w:453,h:20},
{t:"never had professional writing training, and the task was ",p:9,x:115,y:515,w:453,h:20},
{t:"enormous. As the translation progressed, I had an opportunity ",p:9,x:115,y:542,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to discuss the project with Reverend Gordon Timbers, who ",p:9,x:115,y:570,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was then a guest speaker at our English Speaking Ministry, ",p:9,x:115,y:597,w:453,h:20},
{t:"London Korean Christian Church, London, Ontario, Canada. ",p:9,x:115,y:625,w:453,h:20},
{t:"He showed genuine interest, and we worked together. It took ",p:9,x:115,y:652,w:453,h:20},
{t:"over ten years to complete. I felt like an archaeologist excavat-",p:9,x:115,y:680,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing artifacts buried deep underground. In telling this story, ",p:9,x:115,y:707,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the author, Chung Yeun-Hee, gives a poignant and evocative ",p:9,x:115,y:735,w:453,h:20},
{t:"portrayal of the human spirit overcoming the devastating ef-",p:9,x:115,y:762,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fects of war. I also appreciated the author’s lyrical description ",p:9,x:115,y:790,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of the main character and the physical environment. This ",p:9,x:115,y:817,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korean edition has been on all-time Christian bestseller lists ",p:9,x:115,y:845,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in Korea during the last two decades. Fifty-nine years after the ",p:9,x:115,y:872,w:453,h:20},
{t:"4",p:10,x:85,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:10,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Korean War, North Korea now draws international attention ",p:10,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"because of development of a nuclear bomb. This story takes us ",p:10,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"into a forgotten corner of modern history.",p:10,x:115,y:150,w:305,h:20},
{t:"My thanks go to the author, Ms. Chung Yeun-Hee, for al-",p:10,x:145,y:178,w:419,h:20},
{t:"-Hee, for al-",p:10,x:477,y:178,w:87,h:20},
{t:"ee, for al-",p:10,x:494,y:178,w:70,h:20},
{t:"lowing me to translate one of her most reputable novels and ",p:10,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to Reverend Gordon Timbers for sharing in this project to help ",p:10,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bring it to completion. ",p:10,x:114,y:260,w:166,h:20},
{t:"As I complete my work on this project, I thank many ",p:10,x:144,y:288,w:424,h:20},
{t:"people who contributed to the translation of this book: my ",p:10,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"wife, Su-Ok Choi, my family members Sandra, my son-in-law ",p:10,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Dr. Juno Park, Abraham, daughter-in-law Dorothy Choi (Kim), ",p:10,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and my brother-in-law Professor Nam Song-Woo, Pukyong ",p:10,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"National University, Busan, Korea, for their prayers, advice, ",p:10,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and encouragement; Mrs. Elsie Lunn for her willingness to ",p:10,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"discuss this story with me throughout this work and to care-",p:10,x:114,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fully read and correct a draft of the novel; Dr. Regina Joyce ",p:10,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Clark for her passion for this book, encouragement, and ",p:10,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"excellent editing; my heartfelt thanks go out to Rev. Dr. Park ",p:10,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Jae-Hoon who has encouraged, excited, and genuinely dis-",p:10,x:114,y:590,w:450,h:20},
{t:"cussed this work and provided a team photo of the Wilderness ",p:10,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Church members and sermon notes from Mang Eui-Soon; ",p:10,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Professor Young Yoo, University of Toronto, for his insights ",p:10,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"about Korean history and updating me on the geography of ",p:10,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korea; Professor R. W. L. Guisso, University of Toronto, for his ",p:10,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"comments and encouragement; Mr. Ray Wiseman for shar-",p:10,x:114,y:755,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing his expertise on publication and for correcting the draft ",p:10,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of this book; Reverend Murdo Pollock and Mrs. Joyce Pollock ",p:10,x:114,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"for their compassionate comments and discussions about the ",p:10,x:114,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"book; Reverend Dr. James Young-Key Min, Cobden-Queen’s ",p:10,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Line Pastoral Charge, Cobden, Ontario, Canada, for sharing ",p:10,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"5",p:11,x:584,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"Translator's Note",p:11,x:422,y:55,w:172,h:17},
{t:"ideas and encouragement; Dr. Inge Russell, Mrs. In-Soon Choi, ",p:11,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and Mr. David Caravan for their insightful suggestions. I also ",p:11,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"thank Reverend Sheldon Dyck, First Baptist Church, London, ",p:11,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Ontario, who was kind enough to provide support for this ",p:11,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"project and made arrangements for a meeting with Mrs. Elsie ",p:11,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Lunn; Reverend Daniel Dong-Won Lee for his encouraging ",p:11,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"foreword; Mr. Kwon I-Yong and Ms. Lee Mee-Hae in Seoul, ",p:11,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korea, for their assistance with the foreword. And last, but ",p:11,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not least, many thanks are extended to the publisher and staff ",p:11,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Authentic/Paternoster, Colorado Springs, Colorado, USA. ",p:11,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Thank you all. It is my prayer that this book will touch the ",p:11,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hearts of all who read it.",p:11,x:115,y:398,w:178,h:20},
{t:"Hoyeon Choi, PhD",p:11,x:145,y:453,w:131,h:20},
{t:"—",p:11,x:286,y:366,w:106,h:189},
{t:"It is often said that enthusiasm is infectious. That statement ",p:11,x:115,y:557,w:453,h:20},
{t:"has proven true for me in assisting Dr. Hoyeon Choi with this ",p:11,x:115,y:584,w:453,h:20},
{t:"translation of the exciting Korean language book, My Cup ",p:11,x:115,y:612,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Overfows. Dr. Choi had been profoundly affected by reading ",p:11,x:115,y:639,w:454,h:20},
{t:"this story of the life and witness of Mang Eui-Soon and sensed ",p:11,x:115,y:667,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a calling to have this story translated from Korean to English ",p:11,x:115,y:694,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to make it available to a whole new generation of readers. He ",p:11,x:115,y:722,w:454,h:20},
{t:"has worked tirelessly and with a generosity of spirit to provide ",p:11,x:115,y:749,w:454,h:20},
{t:"this vehicle by which English-language readers can discover ",p:11,x:115,y:777,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this poignant, but heartbreaking story. It has been a privilege ",p:11,x:115,y:804,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to assist in this project and to share Dr. Choi’s enthusiasm for ",p:11,x:115,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"telling the story of how Mang Eui-Soon lived a life of service ",p:11,x:115,y:859,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to others for the sake of Jesus Christ. In the midst of political, ",p:11,x:115,y:887,w:453,h:20},
{t:"6",p:12,x:85,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:12,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"economic, and religious upheaval, he lived a life of meaning ",p:12,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and purpose. Mang Eui-Soon’s example of vibrant faith and ",p:12,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"willing service, and the enthusiastic response of his biogra-",p:12,x:115,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"pher Chung Yeun-Hee and translator Dr. Hoyeon Choi, can ",p:12,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"touch the lives of people in our own current time of global ",p:12,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"unrest and upheaval. It is my prayer that readers will become ",p:12,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"enthusiastic in their own desire and willingness to emulate ",p:12,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s ability to lead through loving service to ",p:12,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"others. ",p:12,x:115,y:315,w:54,h:20},
{t:"Sincerely,",p:12,x:145,y:370,w:70,h:20},
{t:"Rev. Gordon Timbers",p:12,x:145,y:398,w:154,h:20},
{t:"7",p:13,x:584,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"FOREWORD",p:13,x:274,y:227,w:131,h:32},
{t:"My Cup Overfows, the novel written by Chung Yeun-Hee, is ",p:13,x:115,y:295,w:454,h:20},
{t:"based on a true story about a young man’s struggle to live a life ",p:13,x:115,y:323,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of meaning and purpose. It is the story of Mang Eui-Soon, who ",p:13,x:115,y:350,w:454,h:20},
{t:"lived during the turbulent times of recent Korean history. The ",p:13,x:115,y:378,w:453,h:20},
{t:"readers will also encounter Jesus Christ in this story because ",p:13,x:115,y:405,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he was the master and inspiration of Mang Eui-Soon’s life. The ",p:13,x:115,y:433,w:454,h:20},
{t:"novel was initiated by the witness of Reverend Dr. Park Jae-",p:13,x:115,y:460,w:450,h:20},
{t:"Hoon (now retired) and by the writings of Chung Yeun-Hee, ",p:13,x:115,y:488,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who described Mang’s life as a “lily that blossomed in the bar-",p:13,x:115,y:515,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ren soil of Korean churches” in that difcult time of civil war ",p:13,x:115,y:542,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and anarchy. Through this novel, the fragrance of that lily still ",p:13,x:115,y:570,w:453,h:20},
{t:"affects and enriches us today.",p:13,x:115,y:597,w:214,h:20},
{t:"We are living in a time of material afuence and spiritual ",p:13,x:145,y:625,w:423,h:20},
{t:"defciency. We are longing for the same kind of overfowing ",p:13,x:115,y:652,w:453,h:20},
{t:"spiritual ",p:13,x:115,y:680,w:65,h:20},
{t:"power ",p:13,x:187,y:680,w:50,h:20},
{t:"that ",p:13,x:245,y:680,w:33,h:20},
{t:"sustained Mang Eui-Soon. My con-",p:13,x:286,y:680,w:278,h:20},
{t:"gratulations extend to Dr. Hoyeon Choi and Reverend Gordon ",p:13,x:115,y:707,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Timbers, both from Canada, who dedicated their time and ",p:13,x:115,y:735,w:454,h:20},
{t:"effort to complete this English-language edition.",p:13,x:115,y:762,w:350,h:20},
{t:"I strongly believe that this book witnesses to the trans-",p:13,x:145,y:790,w:419,h:20},
{t:"forming power of Jesus Christ and will transmit that power ",p:13,x:115,y:817,w:453,h:20},
{t:"beyond the constituency of Korean churches to the wider ",p:13,x:115,y:845,w:454,h:20},
{t:"world to change people’s lives. ",p:13,x:115,y:872,w:226,h:20},
{t:"8",p:14,x:85,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:14,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"The book will enlighten us to value those who lead by ",p:14,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"serving others rather than seeking to dominate others, follow-",p:14,x:114,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing the example of Christ, kneeling at his disciples’ feet with ",p:14,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"towel and washbasin. I wholeheartedly recommend this book ",p:14,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to all of you.",p:14,x:114,y:205,w:90,h:20},
{t:"Reverend Daniel Dong-Won Lee",p:14,x:144,y:260,w:232,h:20},
{t:"A servant for Christ’s kingdom",p:14,x:144,y:288,w:221,h:20},
{t:"The Global Mission Church, Seoul, Korea",p:14,x:144,y:315,w:295,h:20},
{t:"9",p:15,x:584,y:939,w:10,h:13},
{t:"ABOUT THE AUTHOR",p:15,x:223,y:227,w:232,h:32},
{t:"Chung Yeun-Hee was born in 1936 in Seoul, Korea, and earned ",p:15,x:115,y:295,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a BA in Korean literature at Ewha Woman’s University. In 1957, ",p:15,x:115,y:323,w:453,h:20},
{t:"she made her writing debut with her short story Paryusang, ",p:15,x:115,y:350,w:453,h:20},
{t:"winning the spring literature contest award from Dong-A Il ",p:15,x:115,y:378,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Bo (daily news). She subsequently worked as a journalist at ",p:15,x:115,y:405,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Sae-Ke Il Bo (daily news) and as a lecturer at her alma mater. ",p:15,x:115,y:433,w:454,h:20},
{t:"In 1969 as a correspondent, she went on a world tour, writ-",p:15,x:115,y:460,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing a series of travel sketches for the Kyunghyang Shinmun ",p:15,x:115,y:488,w:453,h:20},
{t:"(newspaper). In 1979, she was awarded a Korean Novelists’ ",p:15,x:115,y:515,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Association Award for her novel Makchayo Makcha (It’s a Last ",p:15,x:115,y:542,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Bus) and a Korean Literature Writers’ Award in 1981 for her ",p:15,x:115,y:570,w:453,h:20},
{t:"novel Saramdeuleui doci (The City of the People). She won the ",p:15,x:115,y:597,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korea Literary Award for Nanji Island in 1984. She also won ",p:15,x:115,y:625,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the Yun Dong-Ju Literary Award for The Horn. Chung has regu-",p:15,x:115,y:652,w:449,h:20},
{t:"larly written novels for a number of newspapers and literary ",p:15,x:115,y:680,w:453,h:20},
{t:"journals, including Hyundai Munhak (Modern Literature) and ",p:15,x:115,y:707,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Munhak Sasang (Literary Thoughts). A short story was trans-",p:15,x:115,y:735,w:450,h:20},
{t:"lated into English and published in a Columbia University ",p:15,x:115,y:762,w:454,h:20},
{t:"quarterly, Translations, and Ainu Ainu, a collection of short ",p:15,x:115,y:790,w:453,h:20},
{t:"stories. Chung is currently publisher of Letters to Housewives, ",p:15,x:114,y:817,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a monthly newsletter. She lives in Seoul and serves as presi-",p:15,x:114,y:845,w:450,h:20},
{t:"dent of the Korea Literary Women’s Association.",p:15,x:114,y:872,w:352,h:20},
{t:"11",p:16,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"INTRODUCTION",p:16,x:249,y:227,w:180,h:32},
{t:"The Germination of a Seed",p:16,x:140,y:259,w:398,h:43},
{t:"May 1983",p:16,x:305,y:299,w:69,h:20},
{t:"By Chung Yeun-Hee",p:16,x:268,y:321,w:143,h:20},
{t:"In 1981, one day at dusk, I received a phone call from a woman ",p:16,x:114,y:386,w:453,h:20},
{t:"whose voice was calm and polite, asking for my home address, ",p:16,x:114,y:413,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and then she forwarded a letter to me via local mail written ",p:16,x:114,y:441,w:453,h:20},
{t:"by Dr. Park Jae-Hoon, a well-known hymn composer living in ",p:16,x:114,y:468,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Toronto, Canada. With beautiful penmanship and clarity of ",p:16,x:114,y:496,w:454,h:20},
{t:"thought, the letter expressed a compassionate patriotism for ",p:16,x:114,y:523,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korea that moved me greatly. Dr. Park indicated that an ar-",p:16,x:114,y:551,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ticle of mine in the November issue of the Journal of Christian ",p:16,x:114,y:578,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Thought had given him an idea for an opera he was planning ",p:16,x:114,y:606,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to compose about the March Movement.1 He then asked me to ",p:16,x:114,y:633,w:453,h:20},
{t:"write a script for the opera. I considered this for some time but ",p:16,x:115,y:661,w:453,h:20},
{t:"eventually gave it up as something beyond my competence. I ",p:16,x:115,y:688,w:453,h:20},
{t:"1. ",p:16,x:115,y:747,w:12,h:15},
{t:" On March 1, 1919, there was a mass protest by Koreans against the ",p:16,x:133,y:747,w:375,h:15},
{t:"repressive policies of the Japanese occupying forces. A “declaration of Korean ",p:16,x:115,y:764,w:434,h:15},
{t:"independence” was read, and the people joined in a peaceful demonstration, ",p:16,x:115,y:781,w:428,h:15},
{t:"asking for self-determination. The movement spread across the country, and ",p:16,x:115,y:797,w:427,h:15},
{t:"even though these aspirations were expressed through demonstrations that ",p:16,x:115,y:814,w:422,h:15},
{t:"were acts of nonviolence, some 7,500 Koreans were killed and 45,000 arrested. ",p:16,x:115,y:831,w:438,h:15},
{t:"More than 100,000 people were wounded. Some of the Japanese rules were even-",p:16,x:115,y:847,w:449,h:15},
{t:"tually relaxed, and the military police were replaced by a civilian force. Limited ",p:16,x:115,y:864,w:446,h:15},
{t:"freedom of the press was permitted, but all of that changed back to repression ",p:16,x:115,y:881,w:436,h:15},
{t:"when Japan entered World War II.",p:16,x:115,y:897,w:191,h:15},
{t:"12",p:17,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:17,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"recommended Mrs. Kim Ja-Rim for this task and put them in ",p:17,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"contact with each other.",p:17,x:115,y:123,w:176,h:20},
{t:"During Passion Week that year, I received another letter ",p:17,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"from Dr. Park, which contained four full pages of a personal ",p:17,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"recollection entitled The Story of My Friend, Mang Eui-Soon. ",p:17,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"The emotional impact of these pages brought me to my knees. ",p:17,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I have met neither Dr. Park Jae-Hoon nor Mang Eui-Soon, who ",p:17,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"had died more than thirty years before. I frst came to know ",p:17,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Mang Eui-Soon through this letter. But these two people ",p:17,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"helped me realize that a new shoot was emerging from my ",p:17,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"very soul. A tightly closed seed had been rolling about in a ",p:17,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"deep and dark place within me, and now it suddenly erupted, ",p:17,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and a new consciousness burst forth that would lead me into ",p:17,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"new understandings of my faith and myself.",p:17,x:115,y:453,w:322,h:20},
{t:"How to proceed with The Story of My Friend, Mang Eui-",p:17,x:145,y:480,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Soon remained constant in my heart throughout the spring ",p:17,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and summer of 1981, and by late autumn, it had begun to take ",p:17,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"form. From late October on, I began to search out resource ",p:17,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"people still living, who might be able to tell me about him and ",p:17,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"his life. I met his stepmother, Kwonsa2 La Chang-Seok, who ",p:17,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had loved her stepson dearly, and Reverend Bae Myung-Joon, ",p:17,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who had served the Namdaemun Church during the Korean ",p:17,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"War. In the course of searching for information about him, I ",p:17,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"heard of miracles that were beyond human comprehension. ",p:17,x:114,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Through several sources of information, I was able to be in ",p:17,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"contact and meet with many people who were associated with ",p:17,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon. From them, I obtained many letters that he ",p:17,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"2. ",p:17,x:115,y:864,w:12,h:15},
{t:" This is a title given in most Protestant churches in Korea to women who ",p:17,x:133,y:864,w:404,h:15},
{t:"dedicate themselves to a ministry of pastoral visitation and assisting church ",p:17,x:115,y:881,w:424,h:15},
{t:"leaders. It is a counterpart to the role of a church elder.",p:17,x:115,y:897,w:307,h:15},
{t:"13",p:18,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Introduction",p:18,x:471,y:55,w:123,h:17},
{t:"had written. Some had been written during his early years ",p:18,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"as a prisoner of war and were faintly penciled on the back ",p:18,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of used charts from the war camp hospital because writing ",p:18,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"paper and pencils were scarce. Among other letters received ",p:18,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were eulogies written by his friends and tearful accounts from ",p:18,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Chinese prisoners of war to whom he ministered.",p:18,x:115,y:233,w:360,h:20},
{t:"In November I decided to start writing, but frst I visited ",p:18,x:145,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"the site at Kojeri, Busan, where he had been imprisoned. When ",p:18,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I completed this tour, I was extremely ill and groaned in pain ",p:18,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for ten days. I had encountered the soul of Mang Eui-Soon, ",p:18,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a man who had been endlessly lonely on earth, but who ",p:18,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"had transformed pain and distress into heavenly joy on his ",p:18,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"pilgrimage. I met many people during this time who loved ",p:18,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"this man. He was still joyfully alive to them. For them, he was ",p:18,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"like starlight breaking through the dark storm clouds of the ",p:18,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korean War. His light still shines, his life an example that the ",p:18,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"power of love enables us to transform distress and suffering ",p:18,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"into abundant life.",p:18,x:115,y:563,w:135,h:20},
{t:"A Brief History of Korea",p:18,x:218,y:629,w:242,h:26},
{t:"Korea knew little about the Western world until Korean en-",p:18,x:115,y:677,w:450,h:20},
{t:"voys to Beijing brought home maps of Europe and books on ",p:18,x:115,y:704,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Catholicism during the seventeenth century. Dutch navigators ",p:18,x:115,y:732,w:453,h:20},
{t:"drifting into the southern shore of Cheju Island were rescued ",p:18,x:115,y:759,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and employed in the king’s court. One of them, Hendrik ",p:18,x:115,y:787,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Hamel, returned to Amsterdam and in 1668 published his ",p:18,x:115,y:814,w:453,h:20},
{t:"story of adventures, and Korea was introduced to Western ",p:18,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"countries. Korea has enjoyed fve thousand years of vibrant ",p:18,x:115,y:869,w:453,h:20},
{t:"14",p:19,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:19,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"history and unique culture. The frst recorded history started ",p:19,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with the three kingdoms of the Korean Peninsula in the frst ",p:19,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"century. On the peninsula, Korea was an independent and ",p:19,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"united country for twelve hundred years. ",p:19,x:115,y:178,w:306,h:20},
{t:"In ",p:19,x:145,y:205,w:19,h:20},
{t:"its ",p:19,x:171,y:205,w:21,h:20},
{t:"prime, one ",p:19,x:198,y:205,w:89,h:20},
{t:"of ",p:19,x:295,y:205,w:18,h:20},
{t:"the kingdoms, Goguryeo, ruled ",p:19,x:320,y:205,w:248,h:20},
{t:"Manchuria to the north as well as one-half of the peninsula to ",p:19,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the south. For much of the time, the Korean Choson kingdom ",p:19,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"closed doors to most countries except for China and earned ",p:19,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the name “Hermit Kingdom.” After Japan completed the Meiji ",p:19,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Restoration under the infuence of the West, Korea began to ",p:19,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"open its borders. The superpowers around the world were ",p:19,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"expanding and making colonies to secure raw materials and ",p:19,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"markets. There were desperate efforts by Korean politicians ",p:19,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to modernize the country, some relying on China, others on ",p:19,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Japan or Russia, but all failed. Government corruption and in-",p:19,x:115,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"eptitude, along with the infux of foreign powers, accelerated ",p:19,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the fall of the last kingdom, and Korea became an arena of the ",p:19,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"world powers vying for power: China, Japan, Russia, and the ",p:19,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"United States. After Japan won the war with China and Russia, ",p:19,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"it blatantly annexed Korea for thirty-six years (1910–1945) ",p:19,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and waged war with the United States. Japan used Korea as a ",p:19,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bullet shield and exploited natural and human resources for ",p:19,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"war supplies. ",p:19,x:115,y:700,w:101,h:20},
{t:"As World War II neared its end, the world leaders of the ",p:19,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Allied powers met at Potsdam and Yalta regarding the fate of ",p:19,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korea after Japan lost, and Korea was put under the trustee-",p:19,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ship of international powers: the United States, the United ",p:19,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Kingdom, China, and the Soviet Union. Just a few months be-",p:19,x:115,y:838,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fore the surrender of Japan, Americans had proposed to Russia ",p:19,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that Korea be divided along the thirty-eighth parallel in order ",p:19,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"15",p:20,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Introduction",p:20,x:471,y:55,w:123,h:17},
{t:"to demilitarize the Japanese armies in Korea. The division has ",p:20,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"been in place ever since. Between the years 1945 and 1950, ",p:20,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"prior to the Korean War, right- and left-wing leaders engaged ",p:20,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in extreme confrontation to try to control the hegemony of ",p:20,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"political power backed up by the United States and Russia. ",p:20,x:115,y:205,w:429,h:20},
{t:"Communism had spread throughout Asia by 1950. Red ",p:20,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"China completed the revolution by expelling Chiang Kai-Shek’s ",p:20,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"government to Formosa. Russia spearheaded a national cam-",p:20,x:115,y:288,w:450,h:20},
{t:"paign of bullying in Eastern Europe and Korea. The Korean ",p:20,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Peninsula became an arena for the ideological strife called “the ",p:20,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Cold War.” The early Communist movement in Korea was not ",p:20,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"directly afliated or connected to other Communist regimes. ",p:20,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Its initial motivation was to fght against the occupation of ",p:20,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korea by Japan and to bring about Korean independence. As ",p:20,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this struggle continued, the Korean resistance looked for help ",p:20,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"from outside sources. Japanese repression forced it to go into ",p:20,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"exile and to look to China and the Soviet Union for support. ",p:20,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Some of these exiled Koreans fought the Japanese military as ",p:20,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"guerrillas across Manchuria as part of the Chinese Communist ",p:20,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"People’s Liberation Army. ",p:20,x:115,y:618,w:191,h:20},
{t:"In Korea, strife soon developed between those who were ",p:20,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"pro-Communist and those who were pro-American. Some col-",p:20,x:115,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"laborators who worked for Japan under its occupation later ",p:20,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"found employment with the provisional American government ",p:20,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in Korea (under Hodge) and with the subsequent government ",p:20,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Rhee Syngman. Many of the pro-Communist nationalists ",p:20,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who had fought against Japan had suffered hardships in the ",p:20,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"struggle for independence and felt they had been sidelined.  ",p:20,x:115,y:838,w:441,h:20},
{t:"While Americans established a capitalist, pro-American ",p:20,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"government named the Republic of Korea (ROK) in South ",p:20,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"16",p:21,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:21,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Korea, Russians helped North Korea to enable Kim Il-Sung ",p:21,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to establish a Communist, pro-Soviet government called the ",p:21,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Democratic People’s Republic Korea (DPRK). Korean leaders ",p:21,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"tried hard to unify the country but failed because of internal ",p:21,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"strife and external interference. In the South under the super-",p:21,x:115,y:205,w:450,h:20},
{t:"vision of the United Nations, a general election was held, and ",p:21,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the government was established three years later on August ",p:21,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"15, 1948. The Soviets assisted North Korea to build up military ",p:21,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hardware, and on June 25, 1950, North Korea invaded South ",p:21,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korea. With blitzkrieg tactics, the North Korean troops thrust ",p:21,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"down the peninsula near Busan and its surrounding areas ",p:21,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"(Nakdong River perimeter). With the intervention of the UN ",p:21,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"forces, of which 80 percent were American, General Douglas ",p:21,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"A. MacArthur launched an amphibious assault on Inchon in ",p:21,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"September 1950 and pushed the North Korean troops back ",p:21,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to Yaru River. At this point the Chinese army intervened, and ",p:21,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the UN forces retreated to near the thirty-eighth parallel. The ",p:21,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"war settled into a stalemate, and an armistice agreement was ",p:21,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"signed in July 1953, ending with the demarcation line similar ",p:21,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to that of the prewar state. Casualties from the war were very ",p:21,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"high, with 273,000 Koreans dead from North and South Korea, ",p:21,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"37,000 US soldiers dead, 3,000 UN forces dead (excluding ",p:21,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Americans), and the destruction of infrastructure and disloca-",p:21,x:115,y:700,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tion of Koreans. Ironically the Korean War is not yet over; the ",p:21,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"war in the divided country is just pausing.",p:21,x:115,y:755,w:308,h:20},
{t:"17",p:22,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"POLITICAL FIGURES AND INDIVIDUAL ",p:22,x:129,y:227,w:426,h:32},
{t:"NAMES APPEARING IN THIS BOOK",p:22,x:147,y:257,w:384,h:32},
{t:"Political Figures (see also notes)",p:22,x:177,y:364,w:324,h:26},
{t:"Ahn Jae-Hong (1891–1965). A key member of the Committee ",p:22,x:115,y:409,w:439,h:20},
{t:"for the Preparation of Korean Independence (CPKI) to rebuild ",p:22,x:115,y:434,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the country and a chief civil administrator, 1947–1948.",p:22,x:115,y:459,w:398,h:20},
{t:"Arnold, Archibald V. (1889–1973). Major general, the frst ",p:22,x:115,y:496,w:418,h:20},
{t:"governor-general of South Korea under US Army Military ",p:22,x:115,y:521,w:422,h:20},
{t:"Government in Korea (USAMGIK), 1945.",p:22,x:115,y:546,w:290,h:20},
{t:"Chiang Kai-Shek (1887–1975). A Chinese military and ",p:22,x:115,y:583,w:389,h:20},
{t:"political leader. Chiang attempted to eradicate the Chinese ",p:22,x:115,y:608,w:429,h:20},
{t:"Communists but ultimately failed, forcing his government ",p:22,x:115,y:633,w:426,h:20},
{t:"to retreat to Taiwan, where he continued serving as the ",p:22,x:115,y:658,w:408,h:20},
{t:"director-general. ",p:22,x:115,y:683,w:126,h:20},
{t:"Cho Man-Shik (1882–1959?). A devoted Christian political ",p:22,x:115,y:720,w:419,h:20},
{t:"leader, called a Gandhi of Korea, formed the North Korean ",p:22,x:115,y:745,w:430,h:20},
{t:"Democratic Party, visited North Korea for the unifcation of ",p:22,x:115,y:770,w:435,h:20},
{t:"Korea, but did not return.",p:22,x:115,y:795,w:187,h:20},
{t:"Hodge, John Reed (1893–1963). Lieutenant general, US ",p:22,x:115,y:832,w:397,h:20},
{t:"commander in chief, US Twenty-fourth Corps Tenth Army, ",p:22,x:115,y:857,w:428,h:20},
{t:"military governor under USAMGIK, 1945–1948. He took his ",p:22,x:115,y:882,w:432,h:20},
{t:"18",p:23,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:23,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"corps of the US Tenth Army to Korea under order of General ",p:23,x:115,y:95,w:443,h:20},
{t:"MacArthur landing at Inchon on September 8, 1945. He was ",p:23,x:115,y:120,w:439,h:20},
{t:"a commanding ofcer receiving the surrender of all Japanese ",p:23,x:115,y:145,w:451,h:20},
{t:"troops in Korea south of the thirty-eighth parallel.",p:23,x:115,y:170,w:363,h:20},
{t:"Kim Ku (1876–1949). One of the most honored political lead-",p:23,x:115,y:207,w:437,h:20},
{t:"ers in Korea, and in 1931, he organized a nationalist group ",p:23,x:115,y:232,w:430,h:20},
{t:"to liberate Korea from Japan. Kim was the president of the ",p:23,x:115,y:257,w:430,h:20},
{t:"provisional government of Korea in Shanghai in 1927. Kim ",p:23,x:115,y:282,w:432,h:20},
{t:"was assassinated in 1949.",p:23,x:115,y:307,w:185,h:20},
{t:"Kim Kyu-Shik (1881–1950). A political leader and chairman of ",p:23,x:115,y:344,w:452,h:20},
{t:"the Interim Legislative Assembly in South Korea, 1946–1948.",p:23,x:115,y:369,w:440,h:20},
{t:"Rhee Syngman (1885–1965). A political leader and president ",p:23,x:115,y:406,w:441,h:20},
{t:"of South Korea, 1948–1960.",p:23,x:115,y:431,w:196,h:20},
{t:"Song Chin-Woo (1889–1945). A general manager of the Korea ",p:23,x:115,y:468,w:446,h:20},
{t:"Democratic Party (KDP), working for USAMGIK. Song was ",p:23,x:115,y:493,w:423,h:20},
{t:"assassinated.",p:23,x:115,y:518,w:95,h:20},
{t:"Yeo Un-Hyong (1886–1947). A national fgure, patriot, the ",p:23,x:115,y:555,w:418,h:20},
{t:"chairman of the People’s Labor Party, and chairman of the ",p:23,x:115,y:580,w:429,h:20},
{t:"Provisional Council in 1945. Yeo was assassinated.",p:23,x:115,y:605,w:365,h:20},
{t:"Individuals Associated with Mang Eui-Soon",p:23,x:122,y:684,w:435,h:26},
{t:"Bae Myung-Joon. A minister in charge of the Namdaemun ",p:23,x:115,y:729,w:426,h:20},
{t:"Church when Mang Eui-Soon attended.",p:23,x:115,y:754,w:285,h:20},
{t:"Bae Sook-Kyung. A female classmate at Choson Seminary.",p:23,x:115,y:791,w:418,h:20},
{t:"Chang Hyung-Jin. A friend of Mang Eui-Soon.",p:23,x:115,y:828,w:328,h:20},
{t:"Kang Hui-Dong. POW and a member of the wilderness ",p:23,x:115,y:865,w:399,h:20},
{t:"church in the camp.",p:23,x:115,y:890,w:146,h:20},
{t:"19",p:24,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Political Figures and Individual Names",p:24,x:229,y:55,w:365,h:17},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo. A friend and university classmate of Mang ",p:24,x:115,y:95,w:429,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon.",p:24,x:115,y:120,w:69,h:20},
{t:"La Chang-Seok. Mang Eui-Soon’s stepmother.",p:24,x:115,y:157,w:327,h:20},
{t:"Lee Hoe-Jin. POW and a member of the wilderness church in ",p:24,x:115,y:194,w:447,h:20},
{t:"the camp.",p:24,x:115,y:219,w:71,h:20},
{t:"Lee Sung-Soo. A senior student of Choson Seminary.  ",p:24,x:115,y:256,w:386,h:20},
{t:"Lee Won-Shik. POW and a member of the wilderness church ",p:24,x:115,y:293,w:444,h:20},
{t:"in the camp. ",p:24,x:115,y:318,w:94,h:20},
{t:"Mang Kwan-Ho. Mang Eui-Soon’s father, kidnapped to North ",p:24,x:115,y:355,w:445,h:20},
{t:"Korea.",p:24,x:115,y:380,w:47,h:20},
{t:"Moon Myung-Churl. POW and a member of the wilderness ",p:24,x:115,y:417,w:431,h:20},
{t:"church in the camp.",p:24,x:115,y:442,w:146,h:20},
{t:"Myung Hyung-Churl. Joined the group when Mang Eui-Soon ",p:24,x:115,y:479,w:442,h:20},
{t:"fed to South Korea.",p:24,x:115,y:504,w:143,h:20},
{t:"Yu Chung-In. Army captain, a female friend of Mang Eui-",p:24,x:115,y:541,w:414,h:20},
{t:"Soon.",p:24,x:115,y:566,w:40,h:20},
{t:"In this translation of the true story of Mang Eui-Soon, ",p:24,x:145,y:648,w:423,h:20},
{t:"some names were changed to protect the identities of certain ",p:24,x:115,y:676,w:453,h:20},
{t:"characters.",p:24,x:115,y:703,w:81,h:20},
{t:"20",p:25,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:25,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s Escape Route to the South",p:25,x:124,y:94,w:431,h:26},
{t:"South Korea",p:25,x:311,y:265,w:158,h:37},
{t:"Sunchon",p:25,x:246,y:729,w:52,h:17},
{t:"Cheju Island",p:25,x:226,y:872,w:72,h:17},
{t:"Waegwan",p:25,x:418,y:590,w:58,h:17},
{t:"Inchon",p:25,x:173,y:381,w:41,h:17},
{t:"Seoul",p:25,x:207,y:369,w:33,h:17},
{t:"Samgak Mt.",p:25,x:261,y:367,w:69,h:17},
{t:"Chungnung Mt.",p:25,x:262,y:383,w:93,h:17},
{t:"Baegam",p:25,x:299,y:422,w:48,h:17},
{t:"Juksan",p:25,x:309,y:436,w:40,h:17},
{t:"Geumwang",p:25,x:337,y:448,w:68,h:17},
{t:"Eumseong",p:25,x:345,y:460,w:62,h:17},
{t:"Masan",p:25,x:352,y:474,w:38,h:17},
{t:"Goesan",p:25,x:340,y:487,w:44,h:17},
{t:"Mungyeong",p:25,x:386,y:502,w:72,h:17},
{t:"Maseong",p:25,x:389,y:517,w:54,h:17},
{t:"Jeomchon",p:25,x:393,y:530,w:61,h:17},
{t:"Sangju",p:25,x:395,y:546,w:40,h:17},
{t:"Sunsan",p:25,x:397,y:562,w:42,h:17},
{t:"Indong",p:25,x:410,y:576,w:42,h:17},
{t:"Daegu",p:25,x:428,y:608,w:39,h:17},
{t:"Busan",p:25,x:476,y:694,w:35,h:17},
{t:"Yeosu",p:25,x:283,y:751,w:34,h:17},
{t:"S = 1 : 4,500,000",p:25,x:361,y:845,w:124,h:23},
{t:"21",p:26,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"PART ONE",p:26,x:283,y:227,w:112,h:32},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:26,x:204,y:259,w:270,h:43},
{t:"Unfailing Legacy",p:26,x:255,y:344,w:169,h:26},
{t:"My name is Chang Hyung-Jin, a friend of Mang Eui-Soon. ",p:26,x:115,y:392,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang is remembered as a fower in full blossom that will not ",p:26,x:115,y:419,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wither. He carried his name for twenty-six years and eight ",p:26,x:115,y:447,w:453,h:20},
{t:"months while living in this world. His name may seem strange ",p:26,x:115,y:474,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and banal to those who did not know him, but it still evokes ",p:26,x:115,y:502,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a sense of community for those who knew him or who were ",p:26,x:115,y:529,w:453,h:20},
{t:"associated with him. To me his name means a shining and ",p:26,x:115,y:557,w:453,h:20},
{t:"guiding star. It cannot be compared to any temporal wealth ",p:26,x:115,y:584,w:453,h:20},
{t:"or honors. To call him by his three-word name1 is still insuf-",p:26,x:115,y:612,w:449,h:20},
{t:"fcient and incomplete. His legacy is more than a name, Mang ",p:26,x:114,y:639,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon—like clothes that still carry the warmth of the body ",p:26,x:114,y:667,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that wore them. ",p:26,x:114,y:694,w:120,h:20},
{t:"In departing from this world and leaving his name behind, ",p:26,x:144,y:722,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he left an immortal spirit with which we can identify. Through ",p:26,x:114,y:749,w:453,h:20},
{t:"even the mention of his name, we can recollect his life and ",p:26,x:114,y:777,w:453,h:20},
{t:"character and appreciate the true identity of the human being ",p:26,x:114,y:804,w:453,h:20},
{t:"1. ",p:26,x:115,y:864,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Most Korean names consist of three words, although some have two words ",p:26,x:133,y:864,w:421,h:15},
{t:"and others four words. The frst word is the last name, and the next two are the ",p:26,x:115,y:881,w:444,h:15},
{t:"frst name, with no middle name.",p:26,x:115,y:897,w:185,h:15},
{t:"22",p:27,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:27,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"who faced deep sorrow with the inherent limitation and vul-",p:27,x:115,y:95,w:450,h:20},
{t:"nerability of mortality, but with an eternal spirit. His name ",p:27,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"inspires us to embrace an eternity with a profound sense of ",p:27,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"indwelling comfort and hope. ",p:27,x:115,y:178,w:220,h:20},
{t:"A Kendo Incident",p:27,x:252,y:244,w:174,h:26},
{t:"I frst met Mang Eui-Soon at the Pyongyang Secondary School ",p:27,x:115,y:292,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in 1940.2 Although we were classmates, I did not take much ",p:27,x:115,y:319,w:453,h:20},
{t:"notice of him at frst because he didn’t stand out in class or ",p:27,x:114,y:347,w:453,h:20},
{t:"at recess. It was nearly a year later during our kendo3 class ",p:27,x:114,y:374,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that the Japanese kendo teacher warned Mang several times ",p:27,x:114,y:402,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that he was not showing any enthusiasm for the class. Mang ",p:27,x:114,y:429,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was neither shorter nor weaker than his classmates, but all ",p:27,x:114,y:457,w:453,h:20},
{t:"kendo equipment seemed cumbersome to him: the round ",p:27,x:114,y:484,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bamboo stick made up of four pieces of bamboo, the face ",p:27,x:114,y:512,w:453,h:20},
{t:"mask, the shield to protect the chest and stomach, the woven ",p:27,x:114,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"long-sleeved gloves, and the headpiece to protect the neck; he ",p:27,x:114,y:567,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wanted to throw it all away. The teacher blasted him, “If you ",p:27,x:114,y:594,w:453,h:20},
{t:"don’t behave yourself now, I will challenge you.” Calling for ",p:27,x:114,y:622,w:454,h:20},
{t:"such a sparring match from a teacher meant an outright attack ",p:27,x:114,y:649,w:454,h:20},
{t:"on the student, and ominous thoughts fashed into my mind. ",p:27,x:114,y:677,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Despite stern warnings, Mang Eui-Soon seemed nonchalant. ",p:27,x:114,y:704,w:441,h:20},
{t:"If the teacher found the student unsatisfactory, he would ",p:27,x:145,y:732,w:424,h:20},
{t:"declare a match against him and order the student to attack ",p:27,x:114,y:759,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him frst. If the student resisted, he would lash out at him ",p:27,x:114,y:787,w:453,h:20},
{t:"2. ",p:27,x:115,y:864,w:12,h:15},
{t:" The educational, political, and economic systems were entirely under ",p:27,x:133,y:864,w:391,h:15},
{t:"Japanese control.",p:27,x:115,y:881,w:96,h:15},
{t:"3. ",p:27,x:115,y:897,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Kendo is a form of fencing and is a component of Japanese martial arts.",p:27,x:133,y:897,w:399,h:15},
{t:"23",p:28,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:28,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"ruthlessly. Once the student started to defend himself, the ",p:28,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"teacher’s anger was already afame. Even if the student’s face ",p:28,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was bruised and streaked with tears under the mask, the beat-",p:28,x:115,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing would not stop until the teacher’s madness had died out. ",p:28,x:115,y:178,w:443,h:20},
{t:"The beating went on longer and seemed harsher than any ",p:28,x:145,y:205,w:424,h:20},
{t:"previous punishments. Yet, from the beginning, Mang Eui-Soon ",p:28,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"did not intend to defend himself. The teacher interpreted this ",p:28,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"act of nonresistance as though Mang considered the kendo ",p:28,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"uniform itself disgraceful to him. Even when the teacher ",p:28,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was panting with the effort, Mang Eui-Soon still showed no ",p:28,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"emotion.",p:28,x:115,y:370,w:64,h:20},
{t:"The teacher shrieked, “Tell me why you dare not do your ",p:28,x:145,y:398,w:424,h:20},
{t:"best even though you can!” But Mang kept silent. The teacher ",p:28,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"gasped and cried out, “You are deliberately shunning kendo. ",p:28,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Why?” Mang said nothing. ",p:28,x:115,y:480,w:196,h:20},
{t:"When it was over, his face was horribly disfgured. The ",p:28,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"teacher had whipped him using a leather slipper taken from ",p:28,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the sole of a Japanese army boot. He turned his swollen face ",p:28,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"toward me and smiled gently. I saw a marvelous peace in him. ",p:28,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"This was his potential power. Despite beatings and pain, his ",p:28,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"spirit glowed brilliantly.",p:28,x:115,y:645,w:175,h:20},
{t:"On our way home, he did not speak much, and we parted ",p:28,x:145,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"company at the crossroads. It was several days later, again ",p:28,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"on our way home from school, that I said, “I’ve thought about ",p:28,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what happened at our last kendo class. Tomorrow we will ",p:28,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"have class again. How do you feel about it?”",p:28,x:115,y:783,w:320,h:20},
{t:"“They call it discipline,” he said, “but that is not what it is. ",p:28,x:145,y:810,w:424,h:20},
{t:"It is an impediment in our way of searching for a new direc-",p:28,x:115,y:838,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tion. I am dismayed by the stupidity of it all and our helpless ",p:28,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"acceptance of it.” ",p:28,x:115,y:893,w:129,h:20},
{t:"24",p:29,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:29,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“But we don’t have a choice,” I retorted. “What will you do ",p:29,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"in the future?”",p:29,x:114,y:123,w:106,h:20},
{t:"“I will not pursue a cowardly path,” he responded. ",p:29,x:145,y:150,w:372,h:20},
{t:"Japan occupied Korea from 1910 to 1945, engaging in ",p:29,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"war throughout the Pacifc region.4 To promote the war effort ",p:29,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"across the country, it forced military training upon all school-",p:29,x:114,y:233,w:450,h:20},
{t:"children. The Japanese teachers shaved their heads to make ",p:29,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"their appearance more menacing. They often gave us group ",p:29,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"punishment, disguising it as “mental rearmament,” designed ",p:29,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to toughen us up. ",p:29,x:114,y:343,w:130,h:20},
{t:"The physical punishment started again when the teacher ",p:29,x:145,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"became annoyed because we did not grab rifes quickly. He ",p:29,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"beat us on our buttocks while we were in the pushup position. ",p:29,x:114,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"He then made us march in the squat position for a long period ",p:29,x:114,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of time. Even though we were exhausted from the marching ",p:29,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and bruised and swollen from the beatings, Mang Eui-Soon ",p:29,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"did not finch. I glanced at him and saw that he radiated a ",p:29,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"marvelous power I had never seen before. ",p:29,x:114,y:563,w:313,h:20},
{t:"Our punishment ended at dusk, and I went to Mang Eui-",p:29,x:145,y:590,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Soon. “You stood up well today.” ",p:29,x:114,y:618,w:238,h:20},
{t:"He responded with a smile. “I was lucky today to have a ",p:29,x:145,y:645,w:424,h:20},
{t:"mild punishment.” ",p:29,x:114,y:673,w:141,h:20},
{t:"But when he pulled up his pant leg and I saw that his legs ",p:29,x:145,y:700,w:424,h:20},
{t:"had been beaten by wooden sticks and the skin was broken ",p:29,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and bloodied, I was shocked. ",p:29,x:114,y:755,w:213,h:20},
{t:"4. ",p:29,x:115,y:864,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Japan launched a surprise attack on Pearl Harbor, Hawaii, on December ",p:29,x:133,y:864,w:407,h:15},
{t:"7, 1941. In response, the United States declared war on Japan and became a ",p:29,x:115,y:881,w:420,h:15},
{t:"combatant in the Second World War.",p:29,x:115,y:897,w:205,h:15},
{t:"25",p:30,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:30,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"After pulling down his pant leg and putting on his gaiters, ",p:30,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he said, “It could have been worse. Even if you finch from ",p:30,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hurts, it will not help pain.”",p:30,x:114,y:150,w:201,h:20},
{t:"“Pain is still pain,” I replied. ",p:30,x:145,y:178,w:207,h:20},
{t:"While I kept pressing him with questions, he got dressed. ",p:30,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Finally he said, “When we grow up, we will see more pain than ",p:30,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this. We are getting good training for the future.”",p:30,x:114,y:260,w:357,h:20},
{t:"I was quite at a loss as to what to say. I was suspicious of ",p:30,x:145,y:288,w:424,h:20},
{t:"his motivation because I thought he was hiding his feelings ",p:30,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"by being cunning, showing his hidden heroism. He fnished ",p:30,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dressing and got up quickly, saying nothing further. He waited ",p:30,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"until I had fnished getting dressed and took hold of my hand ",p:30,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to help me up. Then he offered some earnest responses to my ",p:30,x:114,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"questions.",p:30,x:114,y:453,w:74,h:20},
{t:"“My hatred of the Japanese is so intense that it has given ",p:30,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"me the strength to overcome my pain. I contemplated the ",p:30,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"meaning of suffering as I experienced this hatred, and the ",p:30,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"more I concentrated on the suffering, the better I was able to ",p:30,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"overcome the pain.” He was so serious and frm in what he ",p:30,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was saying that I could make no response.",p:30,x:114,y:618,w:307,h:20},
{t:"It was getting dark by this time, and he stood in the corner ",p:30,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"of the schoolyard like an evergreen tree growing tall, despite ",p:30,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"suffering. After the kendo incident and group punishment, ",p:30,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"everyone avoided him. ",p:30,x:114,y:728,w:171,h:20},
{t:"It was not until the next spring that he came to my atten-",p:30,x:145,y:755,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tion again. A few Japanese teachers had conspired together to ",p:30,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fnd some fault against him. When they found him teaching ",p:30,x:114,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a Korean Bible class in Sunday school, they seized on the op-",p:30,x:114,y:838,w:450,h:20},
{t:"portunity to punish him. They beat him to a pulp. When he ",p:30,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"returned to the classroom, a few friends were waiting for him, ",p:30,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"26",p:31,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:31,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"packing his schoolbag. Seeing him they were terrifed and ",p:31,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"extremely agitated. ",p:31,x:115,y:123,w:145,h:20},
{t:"“**** Japanese. Wipe out the ******** ,” they said. Along ",p:31,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"with my friends, I stood there with my fsts clenched and my ",p:31,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"whole body shaking. ",p:31,x:115,y:205,w:154,h:20},
{t:"“How long do we have to suffer these insults?” I cried in ",p:31,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"frustration. Mang Eui-Soon, picking up his schoolbag, said ",p:31,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"quietly, “I am sorry.” ",p:31,x:115,y:288,w:153,h:20},
{t:"“What do you mean by that?” I asked. “Do you think that ",p:31,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"we are being harassed because of you? You are talking foolish-",p:31,x:115,y:343,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ness. This is not just about harassment. This is our country at ",p:31,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"stake. We should take revenge upon the Japanese.”",p:31,x:115,y:398,w:370,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon continued to talk quietly. “We were just ",p:31,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"beaten and abused. With our afictions, we will take revenge.” ",p:31,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Tears welled up from his bruised eyes as we challenged ",p:31,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"his nonsense. How could our suffering be a way of taking ",p:31,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"revenge?",p:31,x:115,y:535,w:66,h:20},
{t:"“By beating us viciously, their days become numbered. We ",p:31,x:145,y:563,w:424,h:20},
{t:"should be thankful and comforted.”",p:31,x:115,y:590,w:260,h:20},
{t:"In response to our challenge, Mang Eui-Soon stressed that ",p:31,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"our comfort would come from God. This provoked a ferce ",p:31,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"argument from me. I called him a hypocrite and stupid, but he ",p:31,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"only cautioned us to stop what we were saying.",p:31,x:115,y:700,w:344,h:20},
{t:"One by one, we dispersed and walked to the schoolyard ",p:31,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"gate. When we were some distance away from the school, I ",p:31,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"approached Mang Eui-Soon, who was striding along as if noth-",p:31,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing had happened to him. I asked him what he would do now ",p:31,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"about his involvement with the Sunday school. He declared ",p:31,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that he would quit.",p:31,x:115,y:865,w:138,h:20},
{t:"“Is this because of the harassment?” I asked. ",p:31,x:145,y:893,w:326,h:20},
{t:"27",p:32,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:32,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"He replied that he could put up with being beaten, but ",p:32,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"he feared that his minister might be thrown into prison. ",p:32,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"The Japanese had been spying on any religious activities ",p:32,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"other than their own Shinto form of worship, which promoted ",p:32,x:114,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Japanese nationalism. We had surrendered to their military ",p:32,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"invasion, but they continued to beat us down. Mang Eui-Soon ",p:32,x:114,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was distressed about the possibility that his minister might be ",p:32,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"put into prison and that his own actions could be responsible ",p:32,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for such a punishment.",p:32,x:114,y:315,w:169,h:20},
{t:"“Don’t you hate them?” ",p:32,x:145,y:343,w:173,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon answered, “I am a sinner too. I have no ",p:32,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"right to hate them.”",p:32,x:114,y:398,w:142,h:20},
{t:"“Did ",p:32,x:145,y:425,w:36,h:20},
{t:"you ",p:32,x:191,y:425,w:31,h:20},
{t:"pray ",p:32,x:231,y:425,w:37,h:20},
{t:"to ",p:32,x:278,y:425,w:18,h:20},
{t:"God ",p:32,x:306,y:425,w:33,h:20},
{t:"for ",p:32,x:349,y:425,w:25,h:20},
{t:"this ",p:32,x:385,y:425,w:30,h:20},
{t:"insight?” ",p:32,x:425,y:425,w:68,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:32,x:503,y:425,w:9,h:20},
{t:"asked ",p:32,x:523,y:425,w:45,h:20},
{t:"sarcastically. ",p:32,x:114,y:453,w:97,h:20},
{t:"But Mang Eui-Soon answered my question faithfully. “Yes,” ",p:32,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he said, “I prayed while I was being beaten up. I thanked God ",p:32,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that I was not in a position to harm them. I prayed that I would ",p:32,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"gain the insight that God would forgive them and save them.”",p:32,x:114,y:563,w:448,h:20},
{t:"This seemed complete nonsense to me, and I asked him if ",p:32,x:145,y:590,w:424,h:20},
{t:"he were mocking our anger with his sophisticated arguments. ",p:32,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"He responded to this challenge by gazing up into the night sky. ",p:32,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"His face was torn, but he was not at all ugly. I wondered why ",p:32,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he was gazing up with such rapt attention. ",p:32,x:114,y:700,w:314,h:20},
{t:"He turned to me and said, “We should have indignation; ",p:32,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"we need social justice. This is an indispensable requirement ",p:32,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for life in this world. God works to eliminate these evils so that ",p:32,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we can understand his will and follow him. Without this, we ",p:32,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cannot achieve peace.”",p:32,x:114,y:838,w:167,h:20},
{t:"“Who are we to follow? Who is ‘he’?” I asked Mang Eui-",p:32,x:145,y:865,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Soon.",p:32,x:114,y:893,w:40,h:20},
{t:"28",p:33,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:33,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“His name is Jesus.”",p:33,x:145,y:95,w:144,h:20},
{t:"I said nothing because his answer seemed so strange and ",p:33,x:145,y:123,w:423,h:20},
{t:"absurd. When I got home, I could not go to sleep and spent ",p:33,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"most of the night awake, thinking. One part of me was en-",p:33,x:114,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"gulfed by my hatred of the Japanese, a feeling that fared up ",p:33,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"like fames in a furnace. Another part of me was aficted by ",p:33,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my inability to believe in the possibility of peace. But when I ",p:33,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"thought calmly about Mang Eui-Soon and how he had stared at ",p:33,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the night sky, my anger dissolved, and I felt a sense of comfort ",p:33,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and assurance. It was indeed possible that I could be free of ",p:33,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hatred. It was a strange and mysterious phenomenon. ",p:33,x:114,y:370,w:398,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon, who had never seemed to me to be ",p:33,x:144,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"outstanding in any other way, was transformed through his ",p:33,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sufferings into a person with a powerful charisma. That night ",p:33,x:114,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"I felt that I was approaching an understanding that still eluded ",p:33,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"me. Mang Eui-Soon possessed something quite different, ",p:33,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"something that other people did not. Finally, near dawn, I fell ",p:33,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"asleep with the image of Mang Eui-Soon’s face in my mind. ",p:33,x:114,y:563,w:432,h:20},
{t:"The next day he came to school with a disfgured face. ",p:33,x:144,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"His classmates were agitated at seeing this and wanted to ",p:33,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"know what had happened to him, but he himself was calm, ",p:33,x:114,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"as if nothing had happened. I felt myself drawn to him like a ",p:33,x:114,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"magnet.",p:33,x:114,y:700,w:59,h:20},
{t:"“Can you stand the pain?” I asked. “Your face looks so ",p:33,x:144,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"bad.”",p:33,x:114,y:755,w:38,h:20},
{t:"He smiled in response, and as he smiled, I felt the pain of ",p:33,x:144,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"his scars. “If you know that this is not my real face, then that’s ",p:33,x:114,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"all right.” He gave me an affectionate glance that touched my ",p:33,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"heart. Tears welled up in my eyes. Mang Eui-Soon went on to ",p:33,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"say that each man has his own true face. “What we see and ",p:33,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"29",p:34,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:34,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"experience is not everything. I may look disgusting now, but ",p:34,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my real face is intact. So it is with everyone. Beatings, hatred, ",p:34,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"exploitation, and revenge are not everything. It is important ",p:34,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to believe that what we see is not all there is.”",p:34,x:115,y:178,w:333,h:20},
{t:"After a moment, he asked me if I had trouble sleeping the ",p:34,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"night before.",p:34,x:115,y:233,w:94,h:20},
{t:"“How did you know?” I asked.",p:34,x:145,y:260,w:219,h:20},
{t:"“I was with you.”",p:34,x:145,y:288,w:125,h:20},
{t:"I took in a deep breath of air and clearly saw marks en-",p:34,x:145,y:315,w:419,h:20},
{t:"graved on the life and person of Mang Eui-Soon. Who gave ",p:34,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him these marks? What do they mean? What is the power that ",p:34,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"underlies his suffering and distress? These questions stirred ",p:34,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"me greatly.",p:34,x:115,y:425,w:80,h:20},
{t:"Piano Performance",p:34,x:242,y:492,w:195,h:26},
{t:"Soon after this incident I went with Mang Eui-Soon to his ",p:34,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"church. I was amazed as I watched him: his skillfulness in ",p:34,x:115,y:567,w:453,h:20},
{t:"playing the piano, his singing voice when he taught hymns to ",p:34,x:115,y:594,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the children, and his posture when he sang. As I listened to ",p:34,x:115,y:622,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the songs, I felt joy and freedom from my hatred and revenge ",p:34,x:115,y:649,w:453,h:20},
{t:"toward the Japanese and the uncertainty about my future. I ",p:34,x:115,y:677,w:453,h:20},
{t:"saw him, not as a seventeen-year-old boy anymore, nor as an ",p:34,x:115,y:704,w:453,h:20},
{t:"adult, either. I saw something in him, a presence from which ",p:34,x:115,y:732,w:454,h:20},
{t:"emanated a peace. ",p:34,x:115,y:759,w:139,h:20},
{t:"“Your piano performance is wonderful! I never imagined ",p:34,x:145,y:787,w:423,h:20},
{t:"that you were a musician,” I told him afterward. He smiled ",p:34,x:115,y:814,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and told me that he had enjoyed my piano practicing at school. ",p:34,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I was pleased—I had not known he had paid attention to my ",p:34,x:115,y:869,w:453,h:20},
{t:"30",p:35,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:35,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"piano sessions. Having no piano in my house, I had to wait my ",p:35,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"turn to use the piano at school. I asked Mang Eui-Soon why he ",p:35,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"didn’t play at school, given that he had such a fne ability.",p:35,x:115,y:150,w:417,h:20},
{t:"When he protested that his playing was not good enough ",p:35,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to show others at school, I commented that from what I had ",p:35,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"just heard, he must have been practicing for some time.",p:35,x:115,y:233,w:406,h:20},
{t:"“We have a piano in my house,” he said. “My sister majored ",p:35,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"in piano. I learned to play by watching over her shoulder. She ",p:35,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was married last year. These days, when I play the piano, I ",p:35,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"think of her.” ",p:35,x:115,y:343,w:101,h:20},
{t:"I was discovering new things about him and his family. The ",p:35,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Japanese war propaganda claimed their victory on all fronts, ",p:35,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and food, clothing, and other commodities were extremely ",p:35,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"scarce. Koreans lived in poverty and had to accept this as their ",p:35,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fate. Less than 10 percent of the population had enough to eat. ",p:35,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Sending a daughter to college to study piano at such a time ",p:35,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"revealed his family’s wealth. Sometime later I was surprised ",p:35,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to fnd out that he was the son of Elder Mang Kwan-Ho, a ",p:35,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"well-known pillar of the Changdaeche Church and, perhaps, ",p:35,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the wealthiest man in Pyongyang City. But Mang Eui-Soon was ",p:35,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"unassuming and lived a very simple life. His mother was as ",p:35,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cheerful as his father was solemn. Mang Eui-Soon had a mar-",p:35,x:115,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ried sister, an older brother attending a junior college, and a ",p:35,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"younger sister. Peacefulness surrounded his family. ",p:35,x:115,y:728,w:380,h:20},
{t:"I frequently visited his home, and music brought us close, ",p:35,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"but I much preferred listening to his playing than playing my-",p:35,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"self. He was a fountain of music, and his music illuminated his ",p:35,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"very soul. His singing projected a message of peace. I learned ",p:35,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"new selections of Beethoven, Mozart, and Schumann from ",p:35,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him. ",p:35,x:115,y:893,w:37,h:20},
{t:"31",p:36,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:36,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"While he was playing the piano, Mang’s clear eyes shim-",p:36,x:145,y:95,w:419,h:20},
{t:"mered. “Chopin was sentimental, except in his polonaises,” ",p:36,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he told me. “He had a majestic patriotism, while exhibiting a ",p:36,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"subtlety and elegance, and to play polonaises requires a mas-",p:36,x:114,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tery of performance techniques. Thinking of his fatherland, of ",p:36,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Poland, Chopin grieved over the occupation of his country by ",p:36,x:114,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the Russians, and his soul glowed through his music.” When ",p:36,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon was playing a polonaise, he was not a boy, but ",p:36,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a giant, carrying an immense sorrow.",p:36,x:114,y:315,w:273,h:20},
{t:"A similar thing happened when he played Schumann or ",p:36,x:144,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"when he sang “Wanderer” or “Winter’s Journey.” He sank ",p:36,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"into the solitude and sorrow of Schumann’s poetry and music. ",p:36,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"When he sang Schubert or Gounod’s “Ave Maria,” he assumed ",p:36,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a solemn piety and posture of prayer.",p:36,x:114,y:453,w:273,h:20},
{t:"When we were together, we felt no sense of the anger, ",p:36,x:144,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"hatred, or anguish inficted by Japanese teachers. This world ",p:36,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"belonged to us. This amazing and beautiful time during my ",p:36,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"boyhood became a secure fortress that offered an undisturbed ",p:36,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"peace.",p:36,x:114,y:590,w:46,h:20},
{t:"But just over the wall from our fortress, pain and despair ",p:36,x:144,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"were lurking, waiting to devour our peace. Mang Eui-Soon’s ",p:36,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"married sister died during our last school year. His love for ",p:36,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"her was intense. “My sister is my music. She is the fountain of ",p:36,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my songs,” he had told me. I wept with him.",p:36,x:114,y:728,w:320,h:20},
{t:"One day when his parents were out, he played Mozart’s ",p:36,x:144,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Rondo in A Major. It was like new sprouts pushing through ",p:36,x:114,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the earth toward the sun. I can remember the music: Köchel ",p:36,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"no. 512 in A Major. The music expressed something beginning ",p:36,x:114,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to bloom like a shy moss rose, a yearning of joy and also a ",p:36,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"32",p:37,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:37,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"rising sorrow. The rhythm of the music was a wailing more ",p:37,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"profound than any crying.",p:37,x:115,y:123,w:192,h:20},
{t:"“This music is my sister. This is the sound of her music. I ",p:37,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"have wanted to play this piece of music so much, but I haven’t ",p:37,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"been able to because it would affect my parents too much.” He ",p:37,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"repeated the piece from the beginning, his face wet with tears. ",p:37,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"At that moment I realized for the frst time that we should ",p:37,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"accept the grief we feel when we are parted from the people ",p:37,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we love. ",p:37,x:115,y:315,w:64,h:20},
{t:"A few months later we heard that his brother, who had ",p:37,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"been conscripted into the Japanese army while still a student, ",p:37,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had been killed in battle. I wondered then what the pain ",p:37,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"threshold would be for Mang Eui-Soon. No one could begin ",p:37,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to fathom the depths of his suffering. Yet he came to school as ",p:37,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"before. He calmly attended “the labor mobilization” through ",p:37,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"which Japanese authorities forced students to join the labor ",p:37,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"force, using various reasons and excuses as Japan neared the ",p:37,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"end of the war. ",p:37,x:115,y:563,w:114,h:20},
{t:"I could not offer him any words of condolence. For a while ",p:37,x:145,y:590,w:424,h:20},
{t:"I did not even visit him. I could not summon up enough cour-",p:37,x:115,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"age to face his parents. He was as warm and calm as ever, and ",p:37,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"I could only imagine the weight of pain and misery that had ",p:37,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to be racking him. I could see that a spark had been lit within ",p:37,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him that had its own fame. He had an unexpected aura about ",p:37,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"him, a sign of the fre that was building deep inside.",p:37,x:115,y:755,w:377,h:20},
{t:"33",p:38,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:38,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"Korea Divided",p:38,x:267,y:94,w:144,h:26},
{t:"We graduated from the school at the time of Korea’s liberation ",p:38,x:115,y:141,w:453,h:20},
{t:"from Japan.5 But while everyone celebrated the liberation of ",p:38,x:115,y:169,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the country, Mang Eui-Soon suddenly disappeared. When he ",p:38,x:115,y:196,w:454,h:20},
{t:"reappeared, I asked him where he had been. He just smiled, ",p:38,x:115,y:224,w:453,h:20},
{t:"so I continued to question him, accusing him of acting as if he ",p:38,x:115,y:251,w:454,h:20},
{t:"were not Korean and even challenging him to admit that his ",p:38,x:115,y:279,w:453,h:20},
{t:"personal tragedies were suppressing his ability to feel joy at ",p:38,x:115,y:306,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the liberation. I was upset because we were not sharing the ",p:38,x:115,y:334,w:454,h:20},
{t:"joy of freedom together. ",p:38,x:115,y:361,w:179,h:20},
{t:"He looked up at me and said very slowly, “Now this country ",p:38,x:145,y:389,w:423,h:20},
{t:"will begin to suffer. The Yalta Conference6 signed last February ",p:38,x:115,y:416,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was a bad omen for Korea. And the Potsdam Declaration7 will ",p:38,x:114,y:444,w:453,h:20},
{t:"be toxic to Korea’s future. We will soon leave Pyongyang.”",p:38,x:114,y:471,w:422,h:20},
{t:"I wondered what he meant. Was he planning to leave? I ",p:38,x:145,y:499,w:423,h:20},
{t:"believed that he was wrong. I was hot blooded in my youth, ",p:38,x:114,y:526,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and the joy of liberation was too exciting to see it as bad news ",p:38,x:114,y:554,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for our country. He was being too pessimistic about our na-",p:38,x:114,y:581,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tion’s future. ",p:38,x:114,y:609,w:97,h:20},
{t:"5. ",p:38,x:115,y:697,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Korea gained independence on August 15, 1945, when Japan was defeated in ",p:38,x:133,y:697,w:430,h:15},
{t:"the Second World War.",p:38,x:115,y:714,w:128,h:15},
{t:"6. ",p:38,x:115,y:731,w:12,h:15},
{t:" The Yalta Conference took place on February 4, 1945, in Crimea (Yalta). The ",p:38,x:133,y:731,w:422,h:15},
{t:"heads of the Allied governments met together to discuss issues arising from ",p:38,x:115,y:747,w:421,h:15},
{t:"the defeat of the Axis nations in the Second World War. It was determined that ",p:38,x:115,y:764,w:439,h:15},
{t:"Korea would be put under the trusteeship of international powers (the United ",p:38,x:115,y:781,w:434,h:15},
{t:"States, the United Kingdom, and Soviet Union) for a signifcant period of time ",p:38,x:115,y:797,w:430,h:15},
{t:"(twenty to thirty years). The Soviet Union secretly agreed to enter the war ",p:38,x:115,y:814,w:412,h:15},
{t:"against Japan within three months of Germany’s surrender and was promised ",p:38,x:115,y:831,w:435,h:15},
{t:"Sakhalin, the Kuril Islands, and an occupation zone in Korea.",p:38,x:115,y:847,w:338,h:15},
{t:"7. ",p:38,x:115,y:864,w:12,h:15},
{t:" On July 17, 1945, the Allied forces met to clarify and implement agreements ",p:38,x:133,y:864,w:424,h:15},
{t:"previously reached at the Yalta Conference. This declaration reconfrmed the ",p:38,x:115,y:881,w:430,h:15},
{t:"plan to put Korea under an international trusteeship.",p:38,x:115,y:897,w:295,h:15},
{t:"34",p:39,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:39,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"But soon we were making plans to leave Pyongyang to go ",p:39,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"south of the thirty-eighth parallel, the dividing line between ",p:39,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"South and North. The Russian army had already landed in ",p:39,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"North Korea, and some fghting had broken out.",p:39,x:114,y:178,w:349,h:20},
{t:"The US Twenty-fourth Corps landed in South Korea under ",p:39,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the leadership of Lieutenant General John R. Hodge, and on ",p:39,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"September 8, 1945, it was announced that South Korea would ",p:39,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"be under his military rule, and three days later, Major General ",p:39,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"A. V. Arnold was appointed as military governor to take politi-",p:39,x:115,y:315,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Arnold was appointed as military governor to take politi-",p:39,x:150,y:315,w:414,h:20},
{t:"cal control.",p:39,x:114,y:343,w:81,h:20},
{t:"Two days before the Americans landed in South Korea, a ",p:39,x:145,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"pro-Communist government formed to seize power by taking ",p:39,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"advantage of the vacuum of the politics. They put up a sign ",p:39,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"declaring themselves the Committee for the Preparation of ",p:39,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korean Independence (CPKI). They selected ffty-fve represen-",p:39,x:114,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tatives on September 14, 1945, and announced the formation ",p:39,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of the Korea People’s Republic (KPR).8 These Communists held ",p:39,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"meetings every day and announced the names of their cabinet ",p:39,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ministers. With lightning speed, they plastered the country ",p:39,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with red posters. The political parties on the right felt a great ",p:39,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"uneasiness about the provocative actions of those on the left. ",p:39,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Later many political factions of both the pro-Communist and ",p:39,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"anti-Communist split and engaged in acrimonious fghting, ",p:39,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and this accelerated political instability and contributed to ",p:39,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"solidifying the permanent national division.",p:39,x:114,y:755,w:321,h:20},
{t:"8. ",p:39,x:115,y:814,w:12,h:15},
{t:" An opposing view insists that the KPR government represented the full ",p:39,x:133,y:814,w:399,h:15},
{t:"political spectrum of Koreans: it included anti-Communist groups, Communists, ",p:39,x:115,y:831,w:444,h:15},
{t:"and leftists. This was a genuine attempt to create a popular coalition government ",p:39,x:115,y:847,w:453,h:15},
{t:"but was short lived because the US-led provisional government (under Hodge) ",p:39,x:115,y:864,w:436,h:15},
{t:"refused to recognize it. The KPR was founded by Yeo Un-Hyong, a popular ",p:39,x:115,y:881,w:412,h:15},
{t:"nationalist and cofounder of the Korean Provisional Government (KPG).",p:39,x:115,y:897,w:399,h:15},
{t:"35",p:40,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:40,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"The Korean Peninsula was like a simmering pot into ",p:40,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"which anything and everything was thrown whether it was ",p:40,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"benefcial or not. Everyone rushed toward the kettle, but no ",p:40,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"one was yet in possession of it. The contents splashed out and ",p:40,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"spilled over in all directions. Some got burned and others got ",p:40,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hurt in the crush, and everyone blamed someone else. Oh, ",p:40,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what a wretched country, already stomped over repeatedly, ",p:40,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"brutalized, and occupied by stronger neighbors9—plus blood ",p:40,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"feuds! It was as if the shame of the country was laid bare and ",p:40,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"its nakedness uncovered because of the arrogant behavior of ",p:40,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the people in not recognizing their own accountability.",p:40,x:115,y:370,w:399,h:20},
{t:"Desperate and brutal fghting broke out, and everyone ",p:40,x:145,y:398,w:424,h:20},
{t:"claimed ownership of the bread called “freedom” being of-",p:40,x:115,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fered by other countries, and each prevented the other from ",p:40,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"taking it. The spirit of liberation turned into a shambles, and ",p:40,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the joy of freedom turned into battle. There seemed to be no ",p:40,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"one who thought about the future of the country with patri-",p:40,x:115,y:535,w:450,h:20},
{t:"otic fervor and an open heart. Everyone attempted to stand ",p:40,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"up and wield force. No one was willing to listen to anyone ",p:40,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"else. Numerous political parties and social groups ebbed and ",p:40,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fowed, and among them, the Communists, with their interna-",p:40,x:115,y:645,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tional network and experience, were most active.",p:40,x:115,y:673,w:360,h:20},
{t:"We had to leave for the South, which was by that time a ",p:40,x:145,y:700,w:424,h:20},
{t:"powder keg ready to explode. We promised to meet again in ",p:40,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Seoul and left separately to reach safe ground. It was early ",p:40,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"9. ",p:40,x:115,y:831,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Because of Korea’s proximity to mainland China and Japan, it suffered in-",p:40,x:133,y:831,w:410,h:15},
{t:"numerable invasions from these countries throughout its history. Some notable ",p:40,x:114,y:847,w:443,h:15},
{t:"invasions took place in the seventh and seventeenth centuries by China (Sui, ",p:40,x:114,y:864,w:426,h:15},
{t:"Tang, and Quing), in the thirteenth century by the Mongols, and in the sixteenth ",p:40,x:114,y:881,w:445,h:15},
{t:"and early twentieth centuries by Japan.",p:40,x:114,y:897,w:219,h:15},
{t:"36",p:41,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:41,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"December when I arrived in Seoul. Rhee Syngman,10 who had ",p:41,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"fought for Korean independence, had returned from Hawaii ",p:41,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"on October 16, 1945; and shortly after this, on November 23, ",p:41,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a group of prominent nationalists of the Korean Provisional ",p:41,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Government (KPG)11 arrived from Shanghai. These included ",p:41,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Kim Ku12 and Kim Kyu-Shik.13 The political situation was be-",p:41,x:115,y:233,w:449,h:20},
{t:"coming more complicated, and confict was imminent. ",p:41,x:114,y:260,w:401,h:20},
{t:"Then ",p:41,x:145,y:288,w:41,h:20},
{t:"from ",p:41,x:194,y:288,w:40,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:41,x:242,y:288,w:27,h:20},
{t:"resolutions ",p:41,x:277,y:288,w:85,h:20},
{t:"adopted ",p:41,x:371,y:288,w:63,h:20},
{t:"in ",p:41,x:443,y:288,w:18,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:41,x:469,y:288,w:27,h:20},
{t:"Moscow ",p:41,x:505,y:288,w:63,h:20},
{t:"Conference ",p:41,x:114,y:315,w:87,h:20},
{t:"of ",p:41,x:209,y:315,w:18,h:20},
{t:"Foreign Ministers14 ",p:41,x:235,y:315,w:149,h:20},
{t:"in ",p:41,x:392,y:315,w:18,h:20},
{t:"December 1945 ",p:41,x:418,y:315,w:124,h:20},
{t:"in ",p:41,x:550,y:315,w:18,h:20},
{t:"Moscow, the United States, Russia, and Great Britain declared ",p:41,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"10.  Rhee lived in exile for many years in America while working for Korean ",p:41,x:115,y:414,w:424,h:15},
{t:"independence. He became the frst elected president of South Korea (1948–1960) ",p:41,x:115,y:431,w:448,h:15},
{t:"but remains a controversial fgure. He was a strong anti-Communist but used ",p:41,x:115,y:447,w:431,h:15},
{t:"harsh tactics to eliminate his political opponents. His presidency ended in resig-",p:41,x:115,y:464,w:443,h:15},
{t:"nation because of charges of illegal election activities. Some conservative circles ",p:41,x:115,y:481,w:447,h:15},
{t:"still regard him as a founder of the nation, but others consider him a sinister and ",p:41,x:115,y:497,w:452,h:15},
{t:"dangerous political leader.",p:41,x:115,y:514,w:148,h:15},
{t:"11.  On April 13, 1919, ten Korean leaders in exile came together in Shanghai to ",p:41,x:115,y:531,w:440,h:15},
{t:"establish the Korean Provisional Government (KPG). Their aim was to coordinate ",p:41,x:115,y:547,w:453,h:15},
{t:"a systematic and efcient resistance against Japan. This promoted the demand ",p:41,x:115,y:564,w:438,h:15},
{t:"for Korean independence and imbued this movement with an underlying ideol-",p:41,x:115,y:581,w:442,h:15},
{t:"ogy and philosophy.",p:41,x:115,y:597,w:110,h:15},
{t:"12.  Kim spent his entire life working for Korean independence and is still re-",p:41,x:115,y:614,w:426,h:15},
{t:"vered by many Koreans as a patriotic nationalist. He served as a president of the ",p:41,x:115,y:631,w:449,h:15},
{t:"Korean Provisional Government (KPG). He organized a Korea Patriotic Legion ",p:41,x:115,y:647,w:434,h:15},
{t:"to replace the Japanese army and political leadership. He also established the ",p:41,x:115,y:664,w:432,h:15},
{t:"Korean Liberation Army to fght against Japan. Because of his strong objection to ",p:41,x:115,y:681,w:451,h:15},
{t:"the international trusteeship and the division of the country, he was not favored ",p:41,x:115,y:697,w:448,h:15},
{t:"by the US-sponsored provisional government led by Hodge. In 1949, Kim was ",p:41,x:115,y:714,w:429,h:15},
{t:"assassinated by Ahn Doo-Whi, which suggested the involvement of a right-wing ",p:41,x:115,y:731,w:443,h:15},
{t:"conspiracy either by Rhee or the CIA, but no details of such conspiracies have ",p:41,x:115,y:747,w:432,h:15},
{t:"ever been revealed.",p:41,x:115,y:764,w:109,h:15},
{t:"13.  Kim was a leading member of the KPG along with Kim Ku. Kim opposed ",p:41,x:115,y:781,w:422,h:15},
{t:"the South Korean election of 1948 because of the nonparticipation of the North. ",p:41,x:115,y:797,w:443,h:15},
{t:"After his failed efforts to broker reunifcation, he retired from politics.",p:41,x:115,y:814,w:390,h:15},
{t:"14.  This conference called for Korea to be put under an international trusteeship ",p:41,x:115,y:831,w:452,h:15},
{t:"for a defned maximum period of fve years. A meeting was convened and ",p:41,x:115,y:847,w:414,h:15},
{t:"attended by the foreign ministers of the United States, Great Britain, and Russia ",p:41,x:115,y:864,w:443,h:15},
{t:"to discuss issues raised by the end of the war. They reconfrmed the agreement ",p:41,x:115,y:881,w:441,h:15},
{t:"on Korean issues made in the earlier Yalta Conference and Potsdam Declaration.",p:41,x:115,y:897,w:446,h:15},
{t:"37",p:42,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:42,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"that Korea was to become the object of an international trust-",p:42,x:115,y:95,w:450,h:20},
{t:"eeship for fve years. This trusteeship proposal outraged many ",p:42,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Koreans.",p:42,x:115,y:150,w:64,h:20},
{t:"The Korea Democratic Party (KDP),15 since it was associ-",p:42,x:145,y:178,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ated with the US military government, took control of politics ",p:42,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and fnances by supporting Rhee Syngman as ",p:42,x:114,y:233,w:367,h:20},
{t:"its ",p:42,x:487,y:233,w:21,h:20},
{t:"leader. ",p:42,x:514,y:233,w:54,h:20},
{t:"This did not allow any room for nationalist Kim Ku and the ",p:42,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korean Provisional Government (KPG). In the beginning, the ",p:42,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Communists opposed the trusteeship, but they changed sud-",p:42,x:114,y:315,w:450,h:20},
{t:"denly because Russia was part of the trusteeship.",p:42,x:114,y:343,w:358,h:20},
{t:"I met Mang Eui-Soon in Seoul in January 1946 as extreme ",p:42,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"cold was sweeping through the city. People were panic stricken ",p:42,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"when they heard that the general manager of the KDP, Song ",p:42,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Chin-Woo, working for the American military government, ",p:42,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had been assassinated in his home. The entire country was ",p:42,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"gripped by fear that more assassins would go on the rampage ",p:42,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"through the country. We were chilled to the bone and felt that ",p:42,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"our country was rushing headlong into disaster. We had no one ",p:42,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to turn to and no place to go. We were completely confused.",p:42,x:114,y:590,w:436,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s family arrived in Seoul empty-handed. ",p:42,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Fortunately, they found a friend who attended Namdaemun ",p:42,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Church and stayed in his house, but the future was grim for ",p:42,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them.",p:42,x:114,y:700,w:42,h:20},
{t:"“I am so thankful to see that both of us are still alive,” ",p:42,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"I said to Mang Eui-Soon when we were fnally able to meet ",p:42,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"15.  On September 4, 1945, the right-wing conservative leaders formed a new ",p:42,x:115,y:831,w:428,h:15},
{t:"political party, the Korea Democratic Party (KDP), which supported the KPG. This ",p:42,x:115,y:847,w:451,h:15},
{t:"party combined many small parties, such as the Korea Democratic Party, Choson ",p:42,x:115,y:864,w:449,h:15},
{t:"National Party, and Korea National Party. On January 26, 1949, the KDP was ",p:42,x:115,y:881,w:421,h:15},
{t:"dissolved, and a new party, the Democratic National Party, was formed.",p:42,x:115,y:897,w:395,h:15},
{t:"38",p:43,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:43,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"again. At frst he and I just shared the joy of reunion, but a ",p:43,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"few days later I grew worried about his future and that of his ",p:43,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"family. “What has happened to you and your family?”",p:43,x:115,y:150,w:392,h:20},
{t:"“We found someone who was moving luggage across the ",p:43,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"border, a professional mover. We entrusted our luggage to ",p:43,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him. We paid in advance as a token of appreciation because ",p:43,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"it was dangerous to go across the thirty-eighth parallel even ",p:43,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"without luggage. At the designated time and place, we waited ",p:43,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"for him, but he did not show up.” ",p:43,x:115,y:315,w:246,h:20},
{t:"“Oh no,” I said to him, dismayed. “You left the luggage with ",p:43,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"him and walked off? You should have kept your valuables ",p:43,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"aside,” I said. “Oh, how naive your father and you are!” ",p:43,x:115,y:398,w:407,h:20},
{t:"“Well, our possessions did not just disappear. It is very ",p:43,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"likely that someone is using them now. He probably didn’t ",p:43,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cheat us on purpose. You must understand how dangerous it is ",p:43,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"just trying to cross the border without carrying anything. We ",p:43,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are not as desperate as many other people. My father found ",p:43,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"someone from his hometown who owed him money, and he ",p:43,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"has promised to pay it back.”",p:43,x:115,y:590,w:211,h:20},
{t:"After Mang Eui-Soon and I talked about how we would ",p:43,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"catch up on our studies, I began to argue about the need for ",p:43,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ambitious leaders to secure the future of our country—patriotic ",p:43,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"politicians and businessmen to build economic development ",p:43,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and lawyers and judges to implement justice.",p:43,x:115,y:728,w:330,h:20},
{t:"My friend listened to me very attentively and seriously ",p:43,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"until I fnished. When I stopped, he disagreed. “Don’t misun-",p:43,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"derstand me,” he said. “I don’t mean that your ideas are wrong. ",p:43,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"But I must serve someone else. It is extremely important for ",p:43,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"us to have good politicians and to live decent lives. But if our ",p:43,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"soul is not right in this life, we cannot fnd any meaning in ",p:43,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"39",p:44,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:44,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"anything. I have to live as a servant to the Lord. I think this is ",p:44,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the only way people should live on this earth.”",p:44,x:115,y:123,w:338,h:20},
{t:"“Are you saying that only by faith can we govern ourselves ",p:44,x:145,y:150,w:424,h:20},
{t:"rightly?” I asked.",p:44,x:115,y:178,w:123,h:20},
{t:"“Yes, I am. And it is possible if only those who believe in ",p:44,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the Lord are faithful unto death.”",p:44,x:115,y:233,w:243,h:20},
{t:"Several days later he brought me a book, The Imitation of ",p:44,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Christ16 by Thomas à Kempis. It had the subtitle A Christian’s ",p:44,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Holy Standards. Old, with frayed pages, it appeared difcult ",p:44,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and didn’t appeal to me.",p:44,x:114,y:343,w:177,h:20},
{t:"“It may take you awhile to read it through,” he said. “Pray ",p:44,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"while you read. Starting today, I will also pray for you while ",p:44,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"you read.” ",p:44,x:114,y:425,w:79,h:20},
{t:"After this word from my friend, I could not help but read. ",p:44,x:145,y:453,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Meditating before opening the book, I thought of the author, ",p:44,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Thomas à Kempis, who was born in 1380 at Kempen near ",p:44,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Düsseldorf and who had lived humbly for ninety-one years, ",p:44,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"dedicating himself only to God, and I thought of Mang Eui-",p:44,x:114,y:563,w:450,h:20},
{t:"Soon’s peaceful face and his crystal clear eyes. I found myself ",p:44,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"compelled to kneel down when I considered the hundreds of ",p:44,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"faithful people who had been inspired by this book over the ",p:44,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"last fve hundred years. ",p:44,x:114,y:673,w:176,h:20},
{t:"Everyone naturally desires knowledge but of what use ",p:44,x:145,y:708,w:393,h:20},
{t:"is knowledge itself without the fear of God? A humble ",p:44,x:145,y:735,w:394,h:20},
{t:"countryman who serves God is more pleasing to Him ",p:44,x:145,y:763,w:393,h:20},
{t:"16.  Written by Thomas à Kempis, translated and with an introduction by Leo ",p:44,x:115,y:881,w:430,h:15},
{t:"Sherley-Price. Penguin Books, 1952.",p:44,x:115,y:897,w:197,h:15},
{t:"40",p:45,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:45,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"than a conceited intellectual who knows the course of ",p:45,x:145,y:95,w:393,h:20},
{t:"the star but neglects his own soul.17 ",p:45,x:145,y:123,w:261,h:20},
{t:"The secrets contained in this book opened up my soul. ",p:45,x:145,y:158,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Considering the size of the book, I estimated I could fnish it ",p:45,x:114,y:185,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in a day, but as I began to read, I discovered that I could not ",p:45,x:114,y:213,w:454,h:20},
{t:"read more than twenty pages in a night. I soon realized that ",p:45,x:114,y:240,w:454,h:20},
{t:"it would be impossible for me to truly comprehend it in my ",p:45,x:114,y:268,w:454,h:20},
{t:"lifetime even if I immersed myself in it continuously. The book ",p:45,x:114,y:295,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was not meant for entertainment. It inficted a new, unsettling ",p:45,x:114,y:323,w:453,h:20},
{t:"agony within me.",p:45,x:114,y:350,w:127,h:20},
{t:"I had aspired to establish myself in my country, to build a ",p:45,x:145,y:378,w:423,h:20},
{t:"foundation, a place to erect a framework for success. I could ",p:45,x:114,y:405,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not abandon the idea of being a successful man. The direction ",p:45,x:114,y:433,w:454,h:20},
{t:"I planned to pursue was not the same direction Mang Eui-Soon ",p:45,x:114,y:460,w:454,h:20},
{t:"had taken. The path he had chosen did not appeal to me, being ",p:45,x:114,y:488,w:454,h:20},
{t:"too dull and bland. Even though I liked him dearly, I did not ",p:45,x:114,y:515,w:453,h:20},
{t:"want to take the same path. But while reading the book, I was ",p:45,x:114,y:543,w:453,h:20},
{t:"overtaken by a sense of shame and pain. I went to see Mang ",p:45,x:114,y:570,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon, and we spent that whole spring on readings and ",p:45,x:114,y:598,w:454,h:20},
{t:"prayers.",p:45,x:114,y:625,w:60,h:20},
{t:"Hostility ",p:45,x:145,y:653,w:65,h:20},
{t:"and ",p:45,x:218,y:653,w:31,h:20},
{t:"strife ",p:45,x:256,y:653,w:42,h:20},
{t:"overtook ",p:45,x:306,y:653,w:69,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:45,x:382,y:653,w:27,h:20},
{t:"political ",p:45,x:417,y:653,w:63,h:20},
{t:"landscape. ",p:45,x:487,y:653,w:81,h:20},
{t:"Although all parties insisted that they were true patriots, their ",p:45,x:114,y:680,w:453,h:20},
{t:"goals seemed to be quite different. A joint committee of the ",p:45,x:114,y:708,w:453,h:20},
{t:"United States and Russia was formed to establish a provisional ",p:45,x:114,y:735,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korean government. Parties that were favored either by the ",p:45,x:114,y:763,w:453,h:20},
{t:"United States or Russia were formed, but they were divided ",p:45,x:114,y:790,w:453,h:20},
{t:"over the process of establishing a Korean government and ",p:45,x:114,y:818,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what form this government would take. One major point of ",p:45,x:114,y:845,w:454,h:20},
{t:"17.  Ibid., chapter two, “On Personal Humility,” p. 28. Used by permission.",p:45,x:115,y:897,w:406,h:15},
{t:"41",p:46,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:46,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"agreement lay in their refusal to allow any Communists to be ",p:46,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"part of it and in establishing a government consisting only of ",p:46,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Koreans.",p:46,x:115,y:150,w:64,h:20},
{t:"Rhee Syngman insisted that, without establishing a single ",p:46,x:145,y:178,w:424,h:20},
{t:"government run solely by South Korea, he could not, in prin-",p:46,x:115,y:205,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ciple, resolve anything, while Kim Ku proposed to resolve the ",p:46,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dispute by bringing South and North Korea to the bargaining ",p:46,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"table. Kim Kyu-Shik demanded a joint government of South ",p:46,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and North Koreans. ",p:46,x:115,y:315,w:147,h:20},
{t:"Both Kim Ku and Kim Kyu-Shik wanted the peaceful uni-",p:46,x:145,y:343,w:419,h:20},
{t:"fcation of the country and urged that national unity should ",p:46,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"not be disrupted under any circumstances. However, they ",p:46,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"were too naive to fathom the treacherous schemes of the ",p:46,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Russians. Rhee Syngman revealed his lack of understanding ",p:46,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of the international situation when he insisted on establishing ",p:46,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a single government represented solely by South Koreans. ",p:46,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"He had learned that Yeo Un-Hyong18 and Ahn Jae-Hong were ",p:46,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"preparing the CPKI to rebuild the country, and he was so un-",p:46,x:115,y:563,w:450,h:20},
{t:"easy about the development of local politics that he made the ",p:46,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sudden decision to return home from his exile in the United ",p:46,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"States.",p:46,x:115,y:645,w:47,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon was disappointed with Rhee Syngman’s ",p:46,x:145,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"refusal to work with other parties. “A grand national unity can ",p:46,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"only be achieved by serving each other,” he moaned. We were ",p:46,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"18.  Yeo was a nationalist who formed the Committee for the Preparation of ",p:46,x:115,y:797,w:420,h:15},
{t:"Korean Independence (CPKI) and a founding member of the Korean People’s ",p:46,x:115,y:814,w:427,h:15},
{t:"Party (KPP). He is revered in South and North Korea. He was a journalist, and ",p:46,x:115,y:831,w:432,h:15},
{t:"his ideal was for a unifed Korea represented by parties on the political right and ",p:46,x:115,y:847,w:451,h:15},
{t:"left. Because of his centrist political position, he was attacked by the extremists ",p:46,x:115,y:864,w:440,h:15},
{t:"on both sides. He was assassinated by Han Chi-Geun, a nineteen-year-old refugee ",p:46,x:115,y:881,w:452,h:15},
{t:"from North Korea and an active member of a right-wing group.",p:46,x:115,y:897,w:351,h:15},
{t:"42",p:47,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:47,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"sitting under a cherry tree near the creek; the water was fow-",p:47,x:115,y:95,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing down the valley through Samchung Park. Looking at the ",p:47,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"woods and sky, he said, “The spring is so beautiful, but people ",p:47,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"don’t appreciate it. This fghting has to come to an end!”",p:47,x:115,y:178,w:407,h:20},
{t:"“Do ",p:47,x:145,y:205,w:30,h:20},
{t:"you ",p:47,x:185,y:205,w:31,h:20},
{t:"have ",p:47,x:225,y:205,w:39,h:20},
{t:"any ",p:47,x:274,y:205,w:30,h:20},
{t:"idea ",p:47,x:314,y:205,w:35,h:20},
{t:"how ",p:47,x:358,y:205,w:35,h:20},
{t:"to ",p:47,x:403,y:205,w:18,h:20},
{t:"stop ",p:47,x:431,y:205,w:34,h:20},
{t:"this ",p:47,x:474,y:205,w:30,h:20},
{t:"bloody ",p:47,x:515,y:205,w:53,h:20},
{t:"slaughter?”",p:47,x:115,y:233,w:83,h:20},
{t:"He quietly gazed at my face and whispered, “The Bible ",p:47,x:145,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"tells us that if we had ten righteous people within the city, then ",p:47,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the slaughter could be spared.”",p:47,x:115,y:315,w:227,h:20},
{t:"Peace on Campus",p:47,x:252,y:382,w:175,h:26},
{t:"At the beginning of the fall semester at the university, Mang ",p:47,x:115,y:429,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon registered in theological studies, and I registered in ",p:47,x:115,y:457,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the religious music program. Because of the chaotic political ",p:47,x:115,y:484,w:454,h:20},
{t:"circumstances, people were agitated, their opinions divided. ",p:47,x:115,y:512,w:453,h:20},
{t:"There was very little tolerance toward others. Students were ",p:47,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"easily swayed from supporting one movement to another, and ",p:47,x:115,y:567,w:454,h:20},
{t:"neither ideals nor professors could control them.",p:47,x:115,y:594,w:357,h:20},
{t:"For a time things were quiet, but in October, news of a ",p:47,x:145,y:622,w:423,h:20},
{t:"riot and mass slaughter in Daegu swept the whole nation. It ",p:47,x:115,y:649,w:453,h:20},
{t:"originated in a strike by the members of the railway workers’ ",p:47,x:115,y:677,w:453,h:20},
{t:"union. Once the strike started, a left-wing group convinced ",p:47,x:115,y:704,w:453,h:20},
{t:"forty other factories in Daegu to join the strike in sympathy.",p:47,x:115,y:732,w:435,h:20},
{t:"On the night of October 1, thousands of laborers joined ",p:47,x:145,y:759,w:423,h:20},
{t:"street demonstrations, singing the Communist anthem and ",p:47,x:115,y:787,w:453,h:20},
{t:"advancing upon the hundreds of armed police ofcers who ",p:47,x:115,y:814,w:453,h:20},
{t:"guarded the Daegu railway station. An unexpected blank shot ",p:47,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fred by an armed policeman tore through the dark sky. Using ",p:47,x:115,y:869,w:454,h:20},
{t:"43",p:48,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:48,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"that as a pretext, the crowds spread out and abruptly turned ",p:48,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the area into a hell of stabbing, shooting, and killing.",p:48,x:115,y:123,w:383,h:20},
{t:"Fear ",p:48,x:145,y:150,w:36,h:20},
{t:"and dread overtook ",p:48,x:188,y:150,w:162,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:48,x:359,y:150,w:27,h:20},
{t:"city. ",p:48,x:394,y:150,w:33,h:20},
{t:"The Communists ",p:48,x:435,y:150,w:133,h:20},
{t:"agitated the people, rapidly spreading rumors. Unaware of the ",p:48,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"truth, people were stirred up; emotions fed emotions like oil ",p:48,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"on fames, and Daegu citizens rampaged through the streets ",p:48,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and joined the demonstration. The riot broke out at eleven ",p:48,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"o’clock in the morning on October 2. The police attempted to ",p:48,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"disperse the demonstrators, but the mob swarmed the police, ",p:48,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who panicked as the number of injured colleagues grew, and ",p:48,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they fred wildly into the crowd. The police station was soon ",p:48,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"occupied by hundreds of students, and the homes of the po-",p:48,x:115,y:398,w:450,h:20},
{t:"licemen and their family members were attacked or captured ",p:48,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and their possessions and furniture stolen. ",p:48,x:115,y:453,w:316,h:20},
{t:"The mobs were organized and swiftly mobilized to destroy ",p:48,x:145,y:480,w:424,h:20},
{t:"communication devices, spread propaganda fyers, put up ",p:48,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"posters, and capture vehicles. The rioters drove the captured ",p:48,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"vehicles while singing the Communist anthem. They also set ",p:48,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"out to smash the homes of government ofcials.",p:48,x:115,y:590,w:349,h:20},
{t:"In one day, the riot claimed the life of the chief investiga-",p:48,x:145,y:618,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tor and many other ofcers and policemen at the Daegu police ",p:48,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"station and surrounding areas. The seriously injured police-",p:48,x:115,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"men were taken to the hospitals, but the hospitals responded ",p:48,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"that unless the police stopped shooting, they would not admit ",p:48,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them for treatment. ",p:48,x:115,y:755,w:148,h:20},
{t:"That evening the US Army was mobilized along with ",p:48,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"provincial police forces, and the riot was subdued. The place ",p:48,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of the slaughter in downtown Daegu looked like a devastated ",p:48,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"battlefeld. Twenty police ofcers had been killed, ffty had ",p:48,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"44",p:49,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:49,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"been wounded, and thirty were missing. Statistics for rioters ",p:49,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and civilians were not available. ",p:49,x:115,y:123,w:241,h:20},
{t:"The riot did not stop there. It spread to Dalseong County. ",p:49,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Rioters captured the police chief, the chief of the township ",p:49,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ofce, and clerks in a police station and set the station on fre. ",p:49,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"The riot put the Young Nam area into a state of lawlessness.",p:49,x:115,y:233,w:434,h:20},
{t:"Hearing the news, we were speechless. We lost any moti-",p:49,x:145,y:260,w:419,h:20},
{t:"vation for studying. Why had things gotten so ugly? How could ",p:49,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"our own people do such things? Was this the direction we ",p:49,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"would pursue after thirty-six years of shame under Japanese ",p:49,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"rule? Before one outbreak of violence could be fully investi-",p:49,x:115,y:370,w:450,h:20},
{t:"gated or understood, more would take place. I felt empty and ",p:49,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hopeless. ",p:49,x:115,y:425,w:71,h:20},
{t:"Despite this chaos, the hills behind the granite buildings, ",p:49,x:145,y:453,w:424,h:20},
{t:"covered with dazzling autumn-colored oak, chestnut, alder, ",p:49,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and aspen trees, gave me a sense of peace. This was a refuge, ",p:49,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a fortress protecting us all from the madness of the outside ",p:49,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"world. But outside the oasis of the autumn-colored hills, the ",p:49,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"serenity of the campus was vulnerable. We were all chang-",p:49,x:115,y:590,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing—the university system, the lecture rooms, professors, the ",p:49,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"atmosphere of classes. ",p:49,x:115,y:645,w:167,h:20},
{t:"I was with Mang Eui-Soon most of the time because we ",p:49,x:145,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"took many of the same courses. He seemed to be always in a ",p:49,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"state of ultimate happiness. His family lived at Hapdong vil-",p:49,x:115,y:728,w:450,h:20},
{t:"lage near to the Seodaemoon. Because the house was located ",p:49,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"between the Namdaemun Church and the university, he was ",p:49,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"able to attend early morning services at the church and then ",p:49,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"go to school without any inconvenience.",p:49,x:115,y:838,w:293,h:20},
{t:"One fall afternoon, we sat together in the woods on piles of ",p:49,x:145,y:865,w:424,h:20},
{t:"dry, brittle leaves. The sky was vivid and clear, and the berries ",p:49,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"45",p:50,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:50,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"of the wild roses under our feet were brilliant crimson. All ",p:50,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was still, and I was peaceful. Mang Eui-Soon lay asleep on a ",p:50,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"heap of the dried leaves, a deep smile on his face. I was con-",p:50,x:115,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"vinced again that God’s love imbued him and that he trusted ",p:50,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"God without reservation.",p:50,x:115,y:205,w:183,h:20},
{t:"I thought of his daily routines. At fve o’clock he attended ",p:50,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"the early morning church service and then visited Severance ",p:50,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Hospital to help patients, changing their beds or leading wor-",p:50,x:115,y:288,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ship services. After returning home for breakfast, he hurried ",p:50,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to school. When I tried to persuade him to stop his morning ",p:50,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hospital visitations, he responded with his peculiar smile.",p:50,x:115,y:370,w:420,h:20},
{t:"“This ",p:50,x:145,y:398,w:41,h:20},
{t:"church was built by Dr. Horace N. Allen,19 an ",p:50,x:192,y:398,w:376,h:20},
{t:"American missionary and medical doctor, for patients and ",p:50,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"staff from the hospital. The hospital is within the premises of ",p:50,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Namdaemun Church; Severance Hospital belongs to the family ",p:50,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of Namdaemun Church. The visits to the hospital are the fruit ",p:50,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of my early morning prayers. How could I pray only for myself ",p:50,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and not do anything for them? I don’t do this by myself,” he ",p:50,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"said. “He who is in me does it. I just follow him.”",p:50,x:115,y:590,w:353,h:20},
{t:"Through the Furnace of Trials ",p:50,x:188,y:657,w:309,h:26},
{t:"The sense of comfort and security enveloping Mang Eui-Soon’s ",p:50,x:115,y:704,w:453,h:20},
{t:"four family members did not last the year. Mang Eui-Soon’s ",p:50,x:115,y:732,w:453,h:20},
{t:"mother, who had just turned ffty, died suddenly of a stroke. ",p:50,x:115,y:759,w:453,h:20},
{t:"19.  Horace N. Allen was the frst American medical doctor missionary who ",p:50,x:115,y:831,w:418,h:15},
{t:"arrived in 1884 and consulted with King Kojong, the second-to-last Korean ",p:50,x:115,y:847,w:414,h:15},
{t:"emperor. Allen founded the frst Western hospital and medical school in 1885, ",p:50,x:115,y:864,w:436,h:15},
{t:"in Seoul, now called Severance Hospital, and was the founder of Korea Mission ",p:50,x:115,y:881,w:440,h:15},
{t:"Work.",p:50,x:115,y:897,w:33,h:15},
{t:"46",p:51,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:51,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"This was the third death in his family. I could only watch him ",p:51,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"suffer. He dearly loved his mother, but his grief did not stop ",p:51,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"there. A few days after his mother’s funeral, his remaining ",p:51,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sister died after a short illness. ",p:51,x:115,y:178,w:228,h:20},
{t:"With all the tragedy affecting Mang Eui-Soon, I began to ",p:51,x:145,y:205,w:424,h:20},
{t:"doubt the existence of God, and my faith was unsettled. Where ",p:51,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is the God of mercy? Where is God’s righteousness in all that ",p:51,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is happening? What is wrong with Mang Eui-Soon that God ",p:51,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"should take what is so precious to him? Why can’t God see his ",p:51,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"loyalty and the purity of his soul?",p:51,x:115,y:343,w:243,h:20},
{t:"Then the thought occurred to me that God might not be ",p:51,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"doing this. Maybe the devil had devised this scheme to shake ",p:51,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s faith and his commitment to God. Perhaps ",p:51,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the devil was testing him like Job to see if he really would love ",p:51,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"God under these circumstances. God had promised his love, ",p:51,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but God’s power had not prevented the loss of those whom he ",p:51,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"loved so much. The poison of doubt worked within me.",p:51,x:115,y:535,w:401,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s home was a picture of desolation and ",p:51,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"mourning because of these tragedies happening so quickly ",p:51,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"together. With the sudden loss of his wife and children, the ",p:51,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"elder Mang, who had possessed such a strong faith and deter-",p:51,x:115,y:645,w:450,h:20},
{t:"mination, now looked like someone about to collapse. I spent a ",p:51,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"night with Mang Eui-Soon at his house in Hapdong. Later that ",p:51,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"night, he confded to me his feelings about his mother.",p:51,x:115,y:728,w:396,h:20},
{t:"“Only the human being possesses the word ‘mother,’ and ",p:51,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"it is more than a word; it is the echo of a soul. Even if I lost ",p:51,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"all ability to speak except for the word ‘mother,’ the means to ",p:51,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"communicate, to love, would still be alive.”",p:51,x:115,y:838,w:313,h:20},
{t:"“When all these things happened to you, I struggled to ",p:51,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"keep my faith,” I told him honestly. “How could this terrible ",p:51,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"47",p:52,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:52,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"thing happen to such a pious and faithful family? I cannot ",p:52,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"come to terms with this.”",p:52,x:115,y:123,w:183,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon was silent for a while, almost in a trance. ",p:52,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“While going through this grief, I felt as if the sky were collaps-",p:52,x:115,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing over me. I thought about Job. Sleepless at night, I read the ",p:52,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Book of Job. At frst it did not console me at all, because I could ",p:52,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not identify with him. Job was a legendary character, but I am ",p:52,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a living human being. Rather than comforting me, it amplifed ",p:52,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my grief and pain. I could not pray, either. This scared me. ",p:52,x:115,y:315,w:430,h:20},
{t:"“Then I saw myself as one who had boasted of offering ",p:52,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"many things to God. My pride had given me a high score in my ",p:52,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"eyes. I was shocked as I recognized my attempts to force my ",p:52,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"own standards onto God, and I thought to myself that God had ",p:52,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"good reasons to take so many things away from me. I fasted ",p:52,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"several days and confessed my wrongdoings and the shame ",p:52,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and sorrow of human limitations that I could not overcome. ",p:52,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Then the Holy Spirit instructed me to open my eyes to the ",p:52,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"meaning of the sufferings Job had undergone.”",p:52,x:115,y:563,w:341,h:20},
{t:"I spoke up. “I’m confused. Job was blameless and upright, ",p:52,x:145,y:590,w:424,h:20},
{t:"one who feared God and who turned away from evil. God ",p:52,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was proud of him and loved him, but Satan challenged his ",p:52,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"sincerity.”",p:52,x:115,y:673,w:73,h:20},
{t:"He responded quietly, “God let Satan do this.” ",p:52,x:145,y:700,w:335,h:20},
{t:"This answer annoyed me, and I raised my voice, “How can ",p:52,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"you call this love?”",p:52,x:115,y:755,w:137,h:20},
{t:"“God wanted to offer Job a victory,” Mang Eui-Soon an-",p:52,x:145,y:783,w:419,h:20},
{t:"swered. “He wanted him to be a winner. He wanted him to be ",p:52,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a son who would not be crushed by evil or suffering. Don’t you ",p:52,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"think that this is genuine love? A victory or defeat from God’s ",p:52,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"perspective is totally different from the world’s view. How can ",p:52,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"48",p:53,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:53,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"we understand God’s purpose when he chastens us in order to ",p:53,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"shape us? We understand it after the suffering. Job confessed: ",p:53,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"‘I had heard of thee by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye ",p:53,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"sees thee; therefore I despise myself, and repent in dust and ",p:53,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ashes’ (Job 42).",p:53,x:115,y:205,w:108,h:20},
{t:"“Trials and human suffering are able to break down our ",p:53,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"egocentric standard. I could not yet view myself through the ",p:53,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"eyes of the Lord but through my own eyes. I grieved for my ",p:53,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"mother, sisters, and brother because I did not know the joy ",p:53,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they now experience in heaven.”",p:53,x:115,y:343,w:240,h:20},
{t:"I challenged him by saying, “This kind of suffering will not ",p:53,x:145,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"have a positive impact on non-Christians.”",p:53,x:115,y:398,w:309,h:20},
{t:"“That is also a human judgment,” he responded. When ",p:53,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"his smile revealed such peace and warmth, I could not believe ",p:53,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"his grief had ended in such a short time. There was a mystery ",p:53,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"about him—his unshakable determination to embrace his ",p:53,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"faith and stand ready for any hardships.",p:53,x:115,y:535,w:294,h:20},
{t:"Unrequited Love",p:53,x:254,y:602,w:170,h:26},
{t:"Because American missionaries had established the univer-",p:53,x:115,y:649,w:450,h:20},
{t:"sity, students attending the school were encouraged to follow ",p:53,x:115,y:677,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the motto of the university and conform to the Christian code ",p:53,x:115,y:704,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and ethics even though the founding spirit had died out for ",p:53,x:115,y:732,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the most part. The Christian Student Fellowship was one of ",p:53,x:115,y:759,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the oldest organizations on campus. They held their worship ",p:53,x:115,y:787,w:453,h:20},
{t:"meetings around eight o’clock in the morning. Only about ",p:53,x:115,y:814,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ten members attended this morning service regularly. The ",p:53,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"worship room was unheated, and we warmed our hands by ",p:53,x:115,y:869,w:453,h:20},
{t:"49",p:54,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:54,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"blowing on them. It was a quiet place to visit for meditation or ",p:54,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to read the Bible. ",p:54,x:115,y:123,w:128,h:20},
{t:"I became acquainted with a girl whose name was Kim ",p:54,x:145,y:150,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Young-Joo. The second daughter of a businessman and church ",p:54,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"elder, she was studying English language and literature. She ",p:54,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"became a member of the core group of our Christian Student ",p:54,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Fellowship. Her vibrant presence enlivened a room. She was ",p:54,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"intelligent, friendly, and perceptive, and her humor made us ",p:54,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"laugh. She was spontaneous and exuded confdence as she per-",p:54,x:115,y:315,w:450,h:20},
{t:"formed piano solos or accompanied others during Christmas ",p:54,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"activities in our Christian Student Fellowship. ",p:54,x:115,y:370,w:337,h:20},
{t:"One morning, coming out of the prayer room, Kim Young-",p:54,x:145,y:398,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Joo stopped me and asked, “I have noticed that at this time of ",p:54,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the week you go to the library. Today, could we talk instead?”",p:54,x:115,y:453,w:445,h:20},
{t:"I readily agreed to this, and while we were walking, my ",p:54,x:145,y:480,w:424,h:20},
{t:"heart beat faster as I tried to imagine why she wanted to talk ",p:54,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with me. It was too cold to talk outside, so we found an empty ",p:54,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"lecture room. As soon as Kim Young-Joo sat down, she blurted ",p:54,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"out something that she had obviously had great difculty in ",p:54,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"holding back.",p:54,x:115,y:618,w:98,h:20},
{t:"“How is Mang Eui-Soon doing these days?” she asked. ",p:54,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Unable to grasp her intention, I was at a loss as to what I could ",p:54,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"say to this totally unexpected question. “Are you a close friend ",p:54,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Mang Eui-Soon?” she asked. “I imagine that you helped him ",p:54,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a lot at the time of his mother’s death and more recently at the ",p:54,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"loss of his sister.”",p:54,x:115,y:783,w:126,h:20},
{t:"“I don’t think I helped him a lot,” I answered, “but I have ",p:54,x:145,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"tried to be with him through all of this.”",p:54,x:115,y:838,w:291,h:20},
{t:"“Why did you not inform me of these things?”",p:54,x:145,y:865,w:334,h:20},
{t:"50",p:55,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:55,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"I responded that they were personal and that only a few ",p:55,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"close friends knew about them.",p:55,x:114,y:123,w:228,h:20},
{t:"“Because I am a woman?” she asked. ",p:55,x:145,y:150,w:272,h:20},
{t:"“No,” I exclaimed. “He did not want it.”",p:55,x:145,y:178,w:284,h:20},
{t:"She raised her voice. “It isn’t important whether he wants ",p:55,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"it or not; we are all family members in Christ.”",p:55,x:114,y:233,w:339,h:20},
{t:"I apologized to her and said that I hadn’t realized she was ",p:55,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"so concerned. “Mang Eui-Soon is doing well by relying on his ",p:55,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Christian faith,” I said.",p:55,x:114,y:315,w:163,h:20},
{t:"She turned away and spoke in anger. “You said that he ",p:55,x:145,y:343,w:424,h:20},
{t:"was supported by his faith. What is faith? Why do people as-",p:55,x:114,y:370,w:450,h:20},
{t:"sign hard things in life to faith? The sorrow in human life is ",p:55,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"still sorrow, and grief is still grief. I heard that you and Mang ",p:55,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon live as close as brothers. Death has left him bereft ",p:55,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of his mother and sisters, and he has only his father. Are you ",p:55,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"going to throw him away to faith? Do you think that a faithful ",p:55,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"person has no sensitivity? Do you mean that the only way of ",p:55,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"coping is to become like an iron man?” Kim Young-Joo con-",p:55,x:114,y:563,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fronted me acrimoniously while tears welled up in her eyes. I ",p:55,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"stood there dumbfounded. ",p:55,x:114,y:618,w:198,h:20},
{t:"“That is not what I mean,” I said. “I don’t understand him ",p:55,x:144,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"either. He said that the Christian faith enables us to overcome ",p:55,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hardships by means of love. He said that God wants us to be ",p:55,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"winners. I believe that he is pressing toward that goal. It is ",p:55,x:114,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ludicrous for me to feel sorry for him. I am more miserable ",p:55,x:114,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"than he is! His strength is beyond my comprehension.”",p:55,x:114,y:783,w:400,h:20},
{t:"Signs of the coming of spring were evident outside the ",p:55,x:144,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"window, and I realized that an entirely new world was opening ",p:55,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"up to Kim Young-Joo. It wasn’t that it was right or wrong, good ",p:55,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"or bad, happy or sad; but more that an ominous end loomed. ",p:55,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"51",p:56,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:56,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"I had thought of her as a naive, innocent female student, and ",p:56,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"I felt awkward thinking of her with Mang Eui-Soon. Who was ",p:56,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I to advise her?",p:56,x:115,y:150,w:111,h:20},
{t:"Her deliberate and persistent approach to Mang Eui-Soon ",p:56,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"surprised me. She was like a lark, futtering around him. ",p:56,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Contrary to my worries, Mang Eui-Soon’s response to her was ",p:56,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"completely natural, spontaneous, and amicable. Kim Young-",p:56,x:115,y:260,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Joo now regularly attended early morning service at the ",p:56,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Namdaemun Church and also accompanied Mang Eui-Soon to ",p:56,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Severance Hospital for the visitation service. Of course I never ",p:56,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"discussed this with him. But I was curious about the mysteri-",p:56,x:115,y:370,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ous harmony between them.",p:56,x:115,y:398,w:209,h:20},
{t:"—",p:56,x:286,y:311,w:106,h:189},
{t:"The sunny spring gave way to summer, and Kim Young-",p:56,x:145,y:502,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Joo often visited me. We walked along the trails among the ",p:56,x:114,y:529,w:454,h:20},
{t:"trees in the hills behind our campus as if we were intimate ",p:56,x:114,y:557,w:454,h:20},
{t:"friends or lovers. One day she suddenly spoke with great anxi-",p:56,x:114,y:584,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ety. “Do you know that Mang Eui-Soon is planning to leave the ",p:56,x:114,y:612,w:454,h:20},
{t:"school?”",p:56,x:114,y:639,w:61,h:20},
{t:"“Really?” I asked with astonishment.",p:56,x:144,y:667,w:266,h:20},
{t:"“Did he ever talk to you about this? I thought that because ",p:56,x:144,y:694,w:424,h:20},
{t:"you are studying in the same department, you might have ",p:56,x:114,y:722,w:454,h:20},
{t:"discussed his determination to become a minister. This school ",p:56,x:114,y:749,w:453,h:20},
{t:"does not provide much help to students who want to become ",p:56,x:114,y:777,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ministers,” she said. ",p:56,x:114,y:804,w:150,h:20},
{t:"We had once discussed that possibility, and I recalled that ",p:56,x:144,y:832,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon was worried about it. But why tell Kim Young-",p:56,x:114,y:859,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Joo, instead of me? I was hurt to be hearing this from her and ",p:56,x:114,y:887,w:453,h:20},
{t:"52",p:57,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:57,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"blurted, “Mang Eui- Soon is the type of person who can handle ",p:57,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"his problems by himself, and once he has made his decision, ",p:57,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he sticks with it. I am rather surprised that he has discussed ",p:57,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"it with you.”",p:57,x:115,y:178,w:90,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo understood quickly what I meant. “You ",p:57,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"think that I have discussions with him? For heaven’s sake, ",p:57,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"no! We talk like strangers, in spite of our long friendship. I ",p:57,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"suggested to him that he transfer to another department ",p:57,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"because I think theology is a waste of time. Imagine Mang ",p:57,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon studying such a sterile subject as theology! He is too ",p:57,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"bright and talented for that! Religious Christians insist that all ",p:57,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"things are meant for the glory of God, but why do they confne ",p:57,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"themselves to theology or church-related careers? Do they ",p:57,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"think that is the only way to glorify God? Do they think that ",p:57,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"it is not possible to contribute to the glory of God by enjoying ",p:57,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"beauty or nature, the vitality of youth, or the joy of learning ",p:57,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and studying? He could work on literature. His writing is very ",p:57,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"moving and inspirational. Yes, he could be a novelist, a poet. I ",p:57,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"even asked him to transfer to commerce, political science, or ",p:57,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"law. Even the arts, like music, would be fne. You are studying ",p:57,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"music, and I begged him to study music with you.”",p:57,x:115,y:645,w:367,h:20},
{t:"“Why did you beg him?” I asked.",p:57,x:145,y:673,w:237,h:20},
{t:"“I do not want him to graduate in theology.”",p:57,x:145,y:700,w:319,h:20},
{t:"I asked her for whose beneft she was acting.",p:57,x:145,y:728,w:327,h:20},
{t:"“He is bright, and I cannot imagine he would rather be-",p:57,x:145,y:755,w:419,h:20},
{t:"come a minister,” she answered.",p:57,x:115,y:783,w:237,h:20},
{t:"“Then I presume that your intention is to ft Mang Eui-",p:57,x:145,y:810,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Soon into your own plans,” I commented. ",p:57,x:115,y:838,w:306,h:20},
{t:"She blurted, “I don’t know! I don’t know!” She threw her ",p:57,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"face on her hands, pulling up her knees. Because she could ",p:57,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"53",p:58,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:58,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"not change her plans to ft those of Mang Eui-Soon, she was ",p:58,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"determined to bring him into line with her own agenda. She ",p:58,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hadn’t experienced many problems or poverty, having grown ",p:58,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"up in a wealthy environment. She was disappointed to fnd ",p:58,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that he stood frm in his own plan. “Whatever I say, he accepts ",p:58,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"me, but he never looks into my world.”",p:58,x:115,y:233,w:284,h:20},
{t:"I didn’t want to listen to her anymore, but she continued. ",p:58,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“Why can’t it just be a delight? Why does love sometimes mean ",p:58,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"such deep sorrow? You are one of his closest friends. You know ",p:58,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"him. What should I do? Even though I need him desperately, I ",p:58,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"don’t really know him at all. Why is that? He is far away from ",p:58,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"me, in a place that I cannot reach.”",p:58,x:115,y:398,w:254,h:20},
{t:"What could I tell her about Mang Eui-Soon? Although we ",p:58,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"spent our boyhood together, and I watched him grow up and ",p:58,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"remembered his painful past, can I say that I know him? His ",p:58,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"family, background, character, hobbies, talents, and the sor-",p:58,x:115,y:508,w:450,h:20},
{t:"row and pain he carries? Do these really sum up what I know ",p:58,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"about him? When he was young, he seemed to have something ",p:58,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"unique, a mark that set him apart. I still see the mark at times, ",p:58,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but I still don’t know what that means. He has a childlike na-",p:58,x:115,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"iveté but also enormous potential energy. Sometimes I think I ",p:58,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"know all there is to know about him, but other times I feel that ",p:58,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I really do not know him at all. We don’t have to talk a lot, and ",p:58,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I never feel any discomfort when we are quiet, but I often feel ",p:58,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"as if I had conversed with him on a deep level because of the ",p:58,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"insights I gain. He has a mystique about him. ",p:58,x:115,y:783,w:332,h:20},
{t:"He is big and confdent, but he has a soft smile unlike any-",p:58,x:145,y:810,w:419,h:20},
{t:"one else’s. While studying for his classes, he is also involved ",p:58,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in many other things, but he never appears overburdened. No ",p:58,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"54",p:59,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:59,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"one notices how hard he is working because he makes himself ",p:59,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"available to anyone who comes to him for help.",p:59,x:115,y:123,w:346,h:20},
{t:"When I think of him, I think about God, too, and I am ",p:59,x:145,y:150,w:424,h:20},
{t:"genuinely thankful, but I also fear these feelings about him. I ",p:59,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"am afraid that liking him so much, and longing to be like him, ",p:59,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"might be affecting my perception. As a friend of Mang Eui-",p:59,x:115,y:233,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Soon, I can’t ignore Kim Young-Joo’s agony, but how can I help ",p:59,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"her? How could I solve her problems with Mang Eui-Soon? I ",p:59,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"concluded that my part was just to listen to her story.",p:59,x:115,y:315,w:387,h:20},
{t:"Answering a Call",p:59,x:254,y:382,w:170,h:26},
{t:"I often spotted Mang Eui-Soon and Kim Young-Joo together. ",p:59,x:115,y:429,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Sometimes they were walking on the campus, eating lunch ",p:59,x:115,y:457,w:453,h:20},
{t:"together in the woods, or sitting on a hillside at the back of ",p:59,x:115,y:484,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the school of theology building. They appeared to be in love. ",p:59,x:115,y:512,w:453,h:20},
{t:"It looked like Mang Eui-Soon would do what Kim Young-Joo ",p:59,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wanted, and they would eventually marry. If he did not intend ",p:59,x:115,y:567,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to accept Kim Young-Joo’s plan, why was he so openly close to ",p:59,x:115,y:594,w:454,h:20},
{t:"her? ",p:59,x:115,y:622,w:36,h:20},
{t:"Then he told me that he was going to Choson Seminary. ",p:59,x:145,y:649,w:423,h:20},
{t:"This was a great shock to me, and I tried to persuade him ",p:59,x:115,y:677,w:454,h:20},
{t:"not to go. He replied, ",p:59,x:115,y:704,w:171,h:20},
{t:"“This university cannot provide me ",p:59,x:288,y:704,w:280,h:20},
{t:"with a diploma qualifying me to be a minister. I love this ",p:59,x:115,y:732,w:453,h:20},
{t:"school, and I had thought that we could spend fve years ",p:59,x:115,y:759,w:453,h:20},
{t:"here together.” ",p:59,x:115,y:787,w:118,h:20},
{t:"I could imagine how much agony he had undergone in ",p:59,x:145,y:814,w:424,h:20},
{t:"coming to this decision, and I wanted to cheer him up, but ",p:59,x:115,y:842,w:454,h:20},
{t:"instead I asked him, “Do you really want to be a minister?”",p:59,x:115,y:869,w:428,h:20},
{t:"55",p:60,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:60,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"He dropped his head and was quiet. “I don’t know yet,” he ",p:60,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"said. “But I have to follow that path.”",p:60,x:114,y:123,w:269,h:20},
{t:"For a few days before the term examinations, we did not ",p:60,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"see Kim Young-Joo at school. I was anxious about her. Then ",p:60,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon came to me and asked my advice. He said that ",p:60,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"her father, an elder of a church, had sent a messenger saying ",p:60,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that he wanted to see him. ",p:60,x:114,y:260,w:196,h:20},
{t:"“Why ",p:60,x:145,y:288,w:45,h:20},
{t:"does he want ",p:60,x:196,y:288,w:114,h:20},
{t:"to ",p:60,x:317,y:288,w:18,h:20},
{t:"see ",p:60,x:342,y:288,w:27,h:20},
{t:"you? Do you have any ",p:60,x:377,y:288,w:191,h:20},
{t:"hunches?”",p:60,x:114,y:315,w:76,h:20},
{t:"“Her father might have heard Kim Young-Joo’s story,” ",p:60,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon said. ",p:60,x:114,y:370,w:152,h:20},
{t:"“What did she say?” I asked. “Did you give her some ",p:60,x:145,y:398,w:424,h:20},
{t:"promise?” ",p:60,x:114,y:425,w:78,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon smiled. “Do you believe I was that close to ",p:60,x:145,y:453,w:424,h:20},
{t:"her?” he asked. His attitude made me uneasy. While he went ",p:60,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to visit to Kim Young-Joo’s father, I had waited nervously for ",p:60,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him in his house. When he came back in the late evening, the ",p:60,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"long summer sun almost set, it was as if he had returned from ",p:60,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the battlefeld. ",p:60,x:114,y:590,w:110,h:20},
{t:"“How did it go?” I asked.",p:60,x:145,y:618,w:178,h:20},
{t:"“She is sick, so sick she may not be able to write her ex-",p:60,x:145,y:645,w:419,h:20},
{t:"aminations. She had nagged her father,” he said tersely. ",p:60,x:114,y:673,w:410,h:20},
{t:"“How did she persuade him to call you? How did he treat ",p:60,x:144,y:700,w:424,h:20},
{t:"you?”",p:60,x:114,y:728,w:41,h:20},
{t:"“He was friendly, but stern. He asked the same questions ",p:60,x:144,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"that his daughter had asked me,” he said. “He wanted me to ",p:60,x:114,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"withdraw my application for studying for the ministry.”",p:60,x:114,y:810,w:407,h:20},
{t:"“How could an elder of the church ask such a thing?”",p:60,x:144,y:838,w:386,h:20},
{t:"“Because he loves his daughter so dearly,” he said. “Her ",p:60,x:144,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"father is probably puzzled by me now.”",p:60,x:114,y:893,w:286,h:20},
{t:"56",p:61,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:61,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“Did he show any interest in trying to understand you?”",p:61,x:145,y:95,w:407,h:20},
{t:"“He feels sorry for his daughter,” he said. ",p:61,x:145,y:123,w:304,h:20},
{t:"“She may even miss the term examination.” ",p:61,x:145,y:150,w:323,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon looked so dejected. ",p:61,x:145,y:178,w:255,h:20},
{t:"Observing his attitude, I asked, “Why does Eros pick a ",p:61,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"reluctant suitor? There are many young men who are drawn ",p:61,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to her. I don’t understand either her stubbornness or, in fact, ",p:61,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"yours. You could persuade her to follow you, to be by your ",p:61,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"side.”",p:61,x:114,y:315,w:40,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon shook his head. “Do you have any real ",p:61,x:145,y:343,w:424,h:20},
{t:"reason to shun her?”",p:61,x:114,y:370,w:151,h:20},
{t:"He gazed at me and said frmly, “I cannot let her hold on ",p:61,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to me.”",p:61,x:114,y:425,w:52,h:20},
{t:"I thought I understood what he was saying. “Yes, she is dif-",p:61,x:145,y:453,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ferent from your mother or your sisters. They were delicate, ",p:61,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but solid . . . calm and loving. She doesn’t have what you want. ",p:61,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"She’s bright, agile, intelligent, and sharp, but not for you!”",p:61,x:114,y:535,w:421,h:20},
{t:"“No,” he said. “That is not the reason.” He stopped me ",p:61,x:144,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"with a painful glance and talked very carefully, as if he were ",p:61,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"showing hidden artifacts to me. “She is not able to cope with ",p:61,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the pain.”",p:61,x:114,y:645,w:71,h:20},
{t:"“Why not? Is it because she is too spoiled, because she has ",p:61,x:144,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"been brought up in a rich family?”",p:61,x:114,y:700,w:251,h:20},
{t:"“No, not necessarily,” he answered. “There are two types ",p:61,x:144,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"of people. One that can handle pain and one that cannot, and ",p:61,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"she is the latter type. I don’t want to see her suffer because of ",p:61,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"me. I really love her; therefore, she is the cause of my anguish, ",p:61,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my pain. But it cannot be, ever!”",p:61,x:114,y:838,w:235,h:20},
{t:"“You have made a hasty conclusion,” I challenged. “Love ",p:61,x:144,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"can be nurtured over a lifetime together.”",p:61,x:114,y:893,w:305,h:20},
{t:"57",p:62,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:62,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"He answered, “But I don’t have time. I don’t have the time ",p:62,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to spend on it.”",p:62,x:114,y:123,w:110,h:20},
{t:"This was one of those moments when the mark shone ",p:62,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"on him. He was looking at me with clear eyes, but protesting ",p:62,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"against himself. I cruelly grilled him with more questions. ",p:62,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“The comment that you made, that you don’t have time, seems ",p:62,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to be a calculated selfshness, meaning that when you serve ",p:62,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"God, you think that all other things will distract you.”",p:62,x:114,y:288,w:388,h:20},
{t:"“No,” he said. “I feel that I don’t have such time to spend. ",p:62,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Not on such things.”",p:62,x:114,y:343,w:146,h:20},
{t:"Even though he appeared to want me to stop, my ques-",p:62,x:145,y:370,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tions went on. “She is very sick. Are you going to leave her ",p:62,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"alone like that?”",p:62,x:114,y:425,w:118,h:20},
{t:"“I cannot go to her. That’s out of bounds. I really cannot ",p:62,x:144,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"go. There are other people who desperately need my help. She ",p:62,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is not the one before whom I should be kneeling down.”",p:62,x:114,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"I retorted, “Is there a distinction between the love of Christ ",p:62,x:144,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and of people? Everyone is our neighbor, and whenever they ",p:62,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"need help, we should help them.”",p:62,x:114,y:590,w:243,h:20},
{t:"“There is always a priority.”",p:62,x:144,y:618,w:203,h:20},
{t:"“What if something serious happens to her? Is she really ",p:62,x:144,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"ill? Her father called you for help.”",p:62,x:114,y:673,w:254,h:20},
{t:"He replied, “Children should know when to stop insisting, ",p:62,x:144,y:700,w:424,h:20},
{t:"when their tactics do not work. Soon she will be fne,” he said. ",p:62,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“She will come to school for the term exam.”",p:62,x:114,y:755,w:324,h:20},
{t:"His predictions were correct. Kim Young-Joo came to ",p:62,x:144,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"school and wrote the examinations for all her courses. It was ",p:62,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not only Kim Young-Joo who was pale. Mang Eui-Soon was ",p:62,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"pale and haggard as he wrote his exam. He seemed so tired ",p:62,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"after the examination that I commented on this during lunch. ",p:62,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"58",p:63,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:63,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“You know that at the new semester you will move to ",p:63,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Choson Seminary. Why, then, did you work so hard preparing ",p:63,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for this exam? You said that courses taken in this university ",p:63,x:114,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"are not even going to be taken into account. You look gaunt. ",p:63,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Take a rest.”",p:63,x:114,y:205,w:90,h:20},
{t:"“It is not because of the exam,” he said.",p:63,x:145,y:233,w:285,h:20},
{t:"Then I thought of Kim Young-Joo. Mang Eui-Soon was ",p:63,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"caught in a peculiar predicament: he could not continue to see ",p:63,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"her as if nothing had happened between them, nor could he ",p:63,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"stop seeing her, nor treat her like a stranger, as if something ",p:63,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"serious had happened between them.",p:63,x:114,y:370,w:274,h:20},
{t:"He was in agony. ",p:63,x:145,y:398,w:141,h:20},
{t:"“Is ",p:63,x:290,y:398,w:23,h:20},
{t:"the most difcult time over?” I ",p:63,x:318,y:398,w:250,h:20},
{t:"asked.",p:63,x:114,y:425,w:46,h:20},
{t:"He shook his head. “Nothing is more difcult for a person ",p:63,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"than fghting against himself.” He dropped his head dismally, ",p:63,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"as if he were confessing his own sins. I could see that he was in ",p:63,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"agonizing turmoil: between his logic that he could not accept ",p:63,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo, while at the same time fnding that he could ",p:63,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not liberate himself completely from a desire for her. I could ",p:63,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not say anything. In the face of his soulful anguish, my friend-",p:63,x:114,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ship was no help to him.",p:63,x:114,y:645,w:178,h:20},
{t:"When the exams were nearly over, the city of Seoul be-",p:63,x:144,y:673,w:419,h:20},
{t:"gan to undergo more turmoil. The chairman of the People’s ",p:63,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Labor Party, Yeo Un-Hyong20, was assassinated. The nineteen-",p:63,x:114,y:728,w:449,h:20},
{t:"year-old assassin, proud of his act, said during interrogation, ",p:63,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"“Regardless of the right or left, anyone who disturbs the ",p:63,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"political situation of the country for the sake of our unifca-",p:63,x:115,y:810,w:450,h:20},
{t:"20.  See footnote 18.",p:63,x:115,y:897,w:109,h:15},
{t:"59",p:64,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:64,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"tion should be eliminated, that scum wiped out. I am not a ",p:64,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"murderer. I am a righteous man.” ",p:64,x:115,y:123,w:250,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon and I sat facing each other, lamenting the ",p:64,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"situation. He was seriously worried. “This is just the begin-",p:64,x:115,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ning. Where is this country heading?”",p:64,x:115,y:205,w:276,h:20},
{t:"His remarks made me afraid for our country. He went on. ",p:64,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“The leaders of this country devoted their entire lives to our ",p:64,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"independence. Having returned to their liberated country, ",p:64,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"why do they live in hostility against each other? Why can’t ",p:64,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they accept each other? Why should they be slaughtered in ",p:64,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this land for which they devoted their whole lives? Oh, I can-",p:64,x:115,y:370,w:450,h:20},
{t:"not understand all this!",p:64,x:115,y:398,w:171,h:20},
{t:"“Man is like a fower in the feld,” he continued. “‘For the ",p:64,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"sun rises with its scorching heat and withers the grass; its ",p:64,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fower falls, and its beauty perishes’ (James 1). While our lives ",p:64,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"may blossom, in the end they will fade away. What we should ",p:64,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"seek is something that will not wither.” ",p:64,x:115,y:535,w:289,h:20},
{t:"The skepticism crouching deep in my heart erupted. “It is ",p:64,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"impossible to fnd!” ",p:64,x:115,y:590,w:146,h:20},
{t:"“The answer does not come from this world. The process ",p:64,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"is more important than the result.”",p:64,x:115,y:645,w:255,h:20},
{t:"I challenged him then. “But you have a goal, a clear one, ",p:64,x:145,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"not of this world. But I don’t have the willpower to let go of ",p:64,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this material reality.”",p:64,x:115,y:728,w:154,h:20},
{t:"He went on speaking, with warmth, “What is there for ",p:64,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"us in the world? It is not a matter of either holding on or let-",p:64,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ting go of this world. When we are obsessed with how to get ",p:64,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"something out of this world, we fall into a trap. This world is ",p:64,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a stepping-stone to eternity and a shadow of what is to come. ",p:64,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"We are afraid to let go of this world because we believe there is ",p:64,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"60",p:65,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:65,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"something, an offering of pleasure, in this world. It is eternity ",p:65,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we are pursuing. There is nothing worth attaching ourselves ",p:65,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to or even hating in this world.”",p:65,x:115,y:150,w:232,h:20},
{t:"I sharply retorted, “What about this country, our native ",p:65,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"land? If we had a country free of troubles, we wouldn’t have ",p:65,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to suffer such miseries.”",p:65,x:115,y:233,w:176,h:20},
{t:"“It is our destiny, and we should face it. It is important that ",p:65,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"we embrace any conditions or circumstances. We are meant ",p:65,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to fnd the meaning rather than whine about why we have to ",p:65,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"suffer,” he chuckled. ",p:65,x:115,y:343,w:154,h:20},
{t:"—",p:65,x:286,y:256,w:106,h:189},
{t:"That autumn, Mang Eui-Soon took the entrance examina-",p:65,x:145,y:447,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tion for Choson Seminary and enrolled in the preparatory ",p:65,x:114,y:474,w:453,h:20},
{t:"course. He moved, and we rarely saw each other, but whenever ",p:65,x:114,y:502,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we did meet, we were always comfortable with each other. ",p:65,x:114,y:529,w:434,h:20},
{t:"Choson Seminary was near the Dongja-Dong neighbor-",p:65,x:144,y:557,w:419,h:20},
{t:"hood. After visiting his school, I was disappointed with the ",p:65,x:114,y:584,w:454,h:20},
{t:"size of the campus and the facilities. He noticed my reaction ",p:65,x:114,y:612,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and grinned in explanation. “I am very happy to live close to ",p:65,x:114,y:639,w:453,h:20},
{t:"school. Since the church and Severance Hospital and school ",p:65,x:114,y:667,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are so close, I can walk back and forth from school to church. ",p:65,x:114,y:694,w:453,h:20},
{t:"As you know, Ms. La Chang-Seok is nearby. Whenever I miss ",p:65,x:114,y:722,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my mother, I can visit her. I am just thankful.”",p:65,x:114,y:749,w:338,h:20},
{t:"Despite his hectic schedule, he carried out his responsi-",p:65,x:144,y:777,w:419,h:20},
{t:"bilities faithfully. It was difcult for him to allocate time other ",p:65,x:114,y:804,w:453,h:20},
{t:"than for school and church, but he could usually make himself ",p:65,x:114,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"available to me. ",p:65,x:114,y:859,w:120,h:20},
{t:"61",p:66,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:66,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"He took charge of the class of the middle school in the ",p:66,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"church and almost lived with them. The class grew immensely ",p:66,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"under his leadership. It started with ten students, soon grew to ",p:66,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a hundred, and eventually reached 150 students. They worked ",p:66,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hard together in Bible class, choir, and mission service. ",p:66,x:114,y:205,w:405,h:20},
{t:"—",p:66,x:286,y:119,w:106,h:189},
{t:"We met often to prepare the winter program, and Kim ",p:66,x:145,y:309,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Young-Joo also worked with us. She wanted to participate ",p:66,x:114,y:337,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in any activities organized by Mang Eui-Soon, even after he ",p:66,x:114,y:364,w:453,h:20},
{t:"moved. As her summer fever had clearly healed, Kim Young-",p:66,x:114,y:392,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Joo once again was lively and witty. She behaved naturally ",p:66,x:114,y:419,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with Mang Eui-Soon and seemed not to recall the summer ",p:66,x:114,y:447,w:454,h:20},
{t:"incident of his rejection of her. His attitude toward her was ",p:66,x:114,y:474,w:453,h:20},
{t:"consistent. He was kind to her without closeness. ",p:66,x:114,y:502,w:361,h:20},
{t:"It was December, and the weather was unusually mild as ",p:66,x:145,y:529,w:423,h:20},
{t:"if preparing to snow, but things were still very heated on the ",p:66,x:114,y:557,w:453,h:20},
{t:"treacherous political scene. A general election in Korea was ",p:66,x:114,y:584,w:453,h:20},
{t:"proposed by the United Nations, and the motion was passed ",p:66,x:114,y:612,w:454,h:20},
{t:"after hot debate. The Korea Committee, consisting of eight ",p:66,x:114,y:639,w:453,h:20},
{t:"countries—France, Canada, Australia, India, the Philippines, ",p:66,x:114,y:667,w:454,h:20},
{t:"El Salvador, China, and Ceylon—began its work. Meanwhile, ",p:66,x:114,y:694,w:453,h:20},
{t:"another leader, Chang Deuk-Soo, a political director of the ",p:66,x:114,y:722,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korea Democratic Party, was shot to death. The winter forest ",p:66,x:114,y:749,w:454,h:20},
{t:"around the university now had a lonely and silent beauty. The ",p:66,x:114,y:777,w:454,h:20},
{t:"barren branches had lost their leaves and were surrounded ",p:66,x:114,y:804,w:453,h:20},
{t:"by gray winter clouds. It was extremely gloomy and lonely, ",p:66,x:114,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"except for the birds fying over the trees. ",p:66,x:114,y:859,w:301,h:20},
{t:"62",p:67,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:67,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"It was at that time that Kim Young-Joo visited me. We ",p:67,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"walked together to Namdaemun Church, where I had agreed ",p:67,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to assist her with the choir and a drama for the middle-school ",p:67,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"students. Kim Young-Joo walked ahead as if she had forgot-",p:67,x:114,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ten someone was beside her. I followed silently behind her. ",p:67,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Suddenly she stopped and stared at me and said, ",p:67,x:114,y:233,w:388,h:20},
{t:"“I ",p:67,x:507,y:233,w:16,h:20},
{t:"don’t ",p:67,x:527,y:233,w:41,h:20},
{t:"understand him. But I love him. You thought that I had given ",p:67,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"up, didn’t you? But I cannot give him up.” ",p:67,x:114,y:288,w:307,h:20},
{t:"Her eyes were burning, and I could not look at her. ",p:67,x:144,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“Anytime and anywhere he is always with me, in my thoughts. ",p:67,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"But I realize that he will never be mine. The closer he is to me, ",p:67,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the clearer it becomes that he is in his own world.”",p:67,x:114,y:398,w:370,h:20},
{t:"When I asked if she would be able to change her attitude ",p:67,x:144,y:425,w:424,h:20},
{t:"toward him, she replied, “I want to show him a more profound ",p:67,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"meaning of life. I believe that his awkward way to faith is not ",p:67,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"all there is to life. It is so eccentric. He can sacrifce and devote ",p:67,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"his life to other miserable and unhappy people, so why does ",p:67,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he ignore my misery? Isn’t that hypocrisy, the worst kind of ",p:67,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hypocrisy?”",p:67,x:114,y:590,w:86,h:20},
{t:"“I’m sorry. I don’t understand him either, but he loves you ",p:67,x:144,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"dearly,” I replied.",p:67,x:114,y:645,w:126,h:20},
{t:"“Can he only follow the will of God by becoming a minis-",p:67,x:144,y:673,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ter? I don’t think so. I think such stubborn and persistent faith ",p:67,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"comes from a sick kind of heroism,” she said.",p:67,x:114,y:728,w:328,h:20},
{t:"“No!” I retorted. “That isn’t his motivation. He is trying to ",p:67,x:144,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"do his best to remain faithful to God.”",p:67,x:114,y:783,w:274,h:20},
{t:"She blurted, “I am annoyed that he wastes his talents for ",p:67,x:144,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"music, literature, and other things.”",p:67,x:114,y:838,w:260,h:20},
{t:"63",p:68,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:68,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"“God never loses. It is God who gave him talent. God will ",p:68,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"use his talent to the fullest, and God will give him even more ",p:68,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to use.”",p:68,x:114,y:150,w:54,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo dug into the fallen leaves with her foot. “He ",p:68,x:145,y:178,w:424,h:20},
{t:"is such a slave to that middle-school class. I visited the middle-",p:68,x:114,y:205,w:450,h:20},
{t:"school class of K Church, which claims to be comparable to his ",p:68,x:114,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"class. The atmosphere was quite different. The kids were very ",p:68,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"refned and vibrant. After fnishing the program, they could ",p:68,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"become very competitive and successful. But the kids under ",p:68,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"his direction are lamentably fragile and feeble. Young people ",p:68,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"should demonstrate passion and strength. Sometimes he takes ",p:68,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them to the overnight prayer meeting. He is like a man always ",p:68,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"racing towards misery.”",p:68,x:114,y:425,w:174,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo seemed frozen. I felt her pain, but who can ",p:68,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"heal the pain of love? Heavy hearted, I wanted to help her in ",p:68,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"whatever way I could. I spoke honestly to her. “I don’t think ",p:68,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"any human will be able to make him change his mind.”",p:68,x:114,y:535,w:402,h:20},
{t:"“Then who can?” she asked.",p:68,x:145,y:563,w:203,h:20},
{t:"“Only God can,” I said. “When we suffer, we think it will ",p:68,x:145,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"never end. But this will end. In time, you and I will have a ",p:68,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"good friend, a minister. Then we can help him with our special ",p:68,x:114,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"friendship.”",p:68,x:114,y:673,w:87,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo laughed ironically with a look that matched ",p:68,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the gloomy winter sky. “He has inficted so much pain on me. ",p:68,x:114,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Now he wants to be a holy minister?”",p:68,x:114,y:755,w:272,h:20},
{t:"She said this as a joke, but I was as shocked by the words ",p:68,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"as if stabbed by a knife. ",p:68,x:114,y:810,w:175,h:20},
{t:"64",p:69,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:69,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Tempestuous Night",p:69,x:242,y:94,w:195,h:26},
{t:"Despite the bloodshed and social upheaval, the change of sea-",p:69,x:115,y:141,w:450,h:20},
{t:"sons proceeded unhindered. The poet Lee Sang-Hwa asked, ",p:69,x:115,y:169,w:454,h:20},
{t:"“Will spring return to a captured land?” We wondered how ",p:69,x:115,y:196,w:454,h:20},
{t:"we dare sing about the return of spring when the land lay pil-",p:69,x:115,y:224,w:450,h:20},
{t:"laged and divided. What kind of spring would it be?",p:69,x:115,y:251,w:378,h:20},
{t:"On February 28, 1948, ",p:69,x:145,y:279,w:186,h:20},
{t:"the Korea Committee of ",p:69,x:336,y:279,w:198,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:69,x:541,y:279,w:27,h:20},
{t:"United Nations passed a resolution by a vote of thirty-one ",p:69,x:115,y:306,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to two to hold a general election on May 10. The plan was ",p:69,x:115,y:334,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to establish a separate government of South Koreans. But ",p:69,x:115,y:361,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Kim Ku and Kim Kyu-Shik insisted that the division of the ",p:69,x:115,y:389,w:453,h:20},
{t:"country should be blocked at any cost. They proposed talks ",p:69,x:115,y:416,w:453,h:20},
{t:"between South and North Korea and were optimistic about ",p:69,x:115,y:444,w:453,h:20},
{t:"persuading Kim Il-Sung in North Korea by appealing to his ",p:69,x:115,y:471,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korean patriotism. ",p:69,x:115,y:499,w:146,h:20},
{t:"Meanwhile, a riot broke out on Cheju Island, which was ",p:69,x:145,y:526,w:424,h:20},
{t:"isolated from the mainland. Early on the morning of April 3, ",p:69,x:115,y:554,w:454,h:20},
{t:"1948, after well-organized planning, the rioters attacked a stor-",p:69,x:115,y:581,w:450,h:20},
{t:"age room, stealing ammunition and weapons. They captured ",p:69,x:115,y:609,w:454,h:20},
{t:"other armories, attacked police stations in Cheju City, damaged ",p:69,x:115,y:636,w:454,h:20},
{t:"government ofces, set fres, and killed people. Springtime in ",p:69,x:115,y:664,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Cheju Island was shoved aside ruthlessly. The island became ",p:69,x:115,y:691,w:453,h:20},
{t:"an altar of blood afoat in the ocean.",p:69,x:115,y:719,w:264,h:20},
{t:"The storm of rioting was not easily subdued. The popula-",p:69,x:145,y:746,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tion of this formerly quiet island had been only 150,000, but ",p:69,x:115,y:774,w:453,h:20},
{t:"after the liberation from the Japanese, thousands of Koreans ",p:69,x:115,y:801,w:453,h:20},
{t:"taken captive who had served the Japanese army or the ",p:69,x:115,y:829,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Chinese Eighth Route Army were returned to this island, ",p:69,x:115,y:856,w:453,h:20},
{t:"almost doubling the population. The island provided a refuge ",p:69,x:115,y:884,w:453,h:20},
{t:"65",p:70,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:70,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"for those who were engaged in criminal activities or who ",p:70,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"wanted to avoid prosecution.",p:70,x:115,y:123,w:212,h:20},
{t:"At that time, the South Korea Labor Party, which had ",p:70,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"created chaos in Seoul right after the liberation, infltrated ",p:70,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Cheju Island. They harshly criticized the government, and the ",p:70,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"islanders were persuaded to join with the party to wage a full-",p:70,x:115,y:233,w:449,h:20},
{t:"scale antigovernment uprising. They had plenty of weapons ",p:70,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and ammunition, which had been recovered from the de-",p:70,x:115,y:288,w:450,h:20},
{t:"feated Japanese or captured at police stations. Furthermore, ",p:70,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the dense forest and the gorges provided a natural fortress. ",p:70,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Antimissile caverns made by the Japanese army, which could ",p:70,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"accommodate more than 200,000 people, provided an advan-",p:70,x:115,y:398,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tage for their guerrilla warfare. Many of the government of-",p:70,x:115,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fcials were sympathetic to the guerrillas, and this gave them ",p:70,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"another advantage over the regular army forces.",p:70,x:115,y:480,w:356,h:20},
{t:"The guerrillas rampaged and killed more than a hundred ",p:70,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"policemen and members of their families. They also killed ",p:70,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"government ofcials and civilians. Every night, they attacked ",p:70,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and plundered civilians. ",p:70,x:115,y:590,w:181,h:20},
{t:"Even though this occurred on an isolated island, it could ",p:70,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"not be overlooked. The army was not able to quell the rebel-",p:70,x:115,y:645,w:450,h:20},
{t:"lion quickly. The bloodshed continued. Our country had faced ",p:70,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"many invaders and had suffered many disasters, but somehow ",p:70,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we had come through them all. Why were we suddenly will-",p:70,x:115,y:728,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing to attack, shoot, and destroy one another, just as we had ",p:70,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"became free from the poisonous teeth of an occupying power? ",p:70,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"This rebellion was localized, but no one knew how it might ",p:70,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"eventually develop. ",p:70,x:115,y:838,w:147,h:20},
{t:"Kim Ku and Kim Kyu-Shik returned home from their trip ",p:70,x:145,y:865,w:424,h:20},
{t:"to North Korea, both of them having been manipulated by Kim ",p:70,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"66",p:71,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:71,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Il-Sung. His plan was to establish his People’s Republic over all ",p:71,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korea. The delegates announced that they had received three ",p:71,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"promises from the North. First, they would continue to deliver ",p:71,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"electricity to the South; second, they would open the Yeonbaek ",p:71,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"water reservoir; and third, they would allow the return of Mr. ",p:71,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Cho Man-Shik to the South. However, no one believed them, ",p:71,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not even the children.",p:71,x:115,y:260,w:160,h:20},
{t:"The newly liberated country was extremely poor. People, ",p:71,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"hungry and in rags, roamed the countryside for food but found ",p:71,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"nothing to fll their stomachs. Electricity was only available for ",p:71,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"short periods at night; candles were so scarce that kerosene ",p:71,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"lamps were usually used.",p:71,x:115,y:398,w:184,h:20},
{t:"What made us most miserable was not hunger or poverty ",p:71,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"but the lack of faith and trust in the future of our country and ",p:71,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"our people. We were perplexed because there was no clear ",p:71,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"reason for a division among our people. We wanted to do some-",p:71,x:115,y:508,w:450,h:20},
{t:"thing to make it better, to repair what had been torn apart. We ",p:71,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"often gathered for prayer meetings and to help farmers, for ",p:71,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this was their busiest season of the year. We worked on gospel ",p:71,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"outreach and medical service as much as we could.",p:71,x:115,y:618,w:373,h:20},
{t:"One day in May I had arrived early for an appointment ",p:71,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and was shocked to see Kim Young-Joo entering the room, her ",p:71,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"face fushed with anger. She walked straight toward me, and I ",p:71,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"stood up awkwardly because I could not fgure out what was ",p:71,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wrong.",p:71,x:115,y:755,w:51,h:20},
{t:"“Would you please come outside with me for a moment?” ",p:71,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"she said, her eyes piercing.",p:71,x:115,y:810,w:196,h:20},
{t:"“Why?” I asked. “It’s almost time for my appointment.”",p:71,x:145,y:838,w:399,h:20},
{t:"“It will only take few minutes,” she insisted. Being un-",p:71,x:145,y:865,w:419,h:20},
{t:"comfortable with Kim Young-Joo’s anger and embarrassed by ",p:71,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"67",p:72,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:72,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"her behavior, I looked around the room. She apologized but ",p:72,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"repeated her request.",p:72,x:115,y:123,w:157,h:20},
{t:"I asked her again what was going on, and again she re-",p:72,x:145,y:150,w:419,h:20},
{t:"sponded with anger. “You’ll see when we get there. Then you’ll ",p:72,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"understand. You may even feel sorry for me. I’m not angry. I ",p:72,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"feel a great sadness.”",p:72,x:115,y:233,w:153,h:20},
{t:"Regardless of what she said, she was angry. I kept quiet and ",p:72,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"followed her. She walked across the Insa-Dong neighborhood ",p:72,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"intersection to the tram tracks and entered Pagoda Park. She ",p:72,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"moved quickly, as if someone were waiting for her. I almost ",p:72,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had to run to keep up with her. There were people gathered ",p:72,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"under the shade of the few trees, and I heard the beat of a ",p:72,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"drum. ",p:72,x:115,y:425,w:49,h:20},
{t:"Then ",p:72,x:145,y:453,w:41,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:72,x:191,y:453,w:9,h:20},
{t:"saw Mang Eui-Soon, beating a drum hanging ",p:72,x:206,y:453,w:362,h:20},
{t:"around his neck and crying out, “Repent! Heaven is at hand. ",p:72,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ. Then you and your household ",p:72,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"will be saved!” ",p:72,x:115,y:535,w:111,h:20},
{t:"The many students gathered around him began to sing ",p:72,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"hymns loudly as they handed out leafets. I was stunned as I ",p:72,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"watched them. After the singing, Mang Eui-Soon started shout-",p:72,x:115,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing again, “Repent! Brothers and sisters, repent! Remember ",p:72,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah. God blessed us and ",p:72,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"gave us freedom, but we were neither humble nor thankful. ",p:72,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"We are still killing each other, shedding blood and plotting ",p:72,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"destruction. Jesus said, ‘If you do not turn from your sins, you ",p:72,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"will all die like those who were killed when the tower fell on ",p:72,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them.’ Repent!” ",p:72,x:115,y:810,w:117,h:20},
{t:"His voice was clear and frm, calling out with an underly-",p:72,x:145,y:838,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ing strength to those on that dusty street. He was drenched ",p:72,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in sweat from his exertions, and many people on the street ",p:72,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"68",p:73,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:73,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"ignored him. Others laughed at him, seeing him as little more ",p:73,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"than a wild man.",p:73,x:115,y:123,w:123,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo looked at me with a strange coldness in her ",p:73,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"stare. In tears, she asked, “Did you see him? Why does he do ",p:73,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that? Why is he ignoring reality and humiliating himself in ",p:73,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this way?”",p:73,x:115,y:233,w:75,h:20},
{t:"I stared back at her. “This is the freedom he has found. ",p:73,x:145,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"It’s wonderful and beautiful, and no one can dare to imitate ",p:73,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"it. Let him go his way. This is the way he has chosen.” I looked ",p:73,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"away from Kim Young-Joo to watch Mang Eui-Soon beating his ",p:73,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"drum.",p:73,x:115,y:370,w:45,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo turned her back and walked quietly away. ",p:73,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"I wasn’t sure if she was heading back to our meeting place ",p:73,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"or somewhere else, but I could not follow her, because Mang ",p:73,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon’s voice beat in my heart louder than any drum.",p:73,x:115,y:480,w:411,h:20},
{t:"The street outreach being carried on by the students of ",p:73,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Namdaemun Church became the subject of gossip. Mang Eui-",p:73,x:115,y:535,w:450,h:20},
{t:"Soon’s drum reverberated everywhere. He visited the Seoul ",p:73,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"railway station, which was a gathering point for people who ",p:73,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had fed to the South from North Korea. The gaunt luggage car-",p:73,x:115,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"riers, people sitting dejectedly on their few possessions, people ",p:73,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who were anxious and dislocated—all heard Mang Eui-Soon’s ",p:73,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"drumbeat and the message he proclaimed: “Are we seeking ",p:73,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"only visible things? All that we see or feel is temporary. What ",p:73,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we should seek is not what we see with our eyes. Believe that ",p:73,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Jesus is with us, even though we cannot see him or touch him. ",p:73,x:115,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"His kingdom is not transient, but invisible. Believe in what ",p:73,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is eternal. We can enter his eternal kingdom by trusting the ",p:73,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Spirit of Jesus, by trusting his eyes and his hands.”",p:73,x:115,y:865,w:366,h:20},
{t:"69",p:74,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:74,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"People who were cold and hungry got angry with him. ",p:74,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"“Crazy *******!” someone shouted at him. “Does Jesus feed ",p:74,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"you? You have three meals a day, but if your stomach was ",p:74,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"empty, would you still cry out for Jesus?”",p:74,x:114,y:178,w:297,h:20},
{t:"After hearing these charges, Mang Eui-Soon began to ",p:74,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"fast before he went out to preach on the street. He asked his ",p:74,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"students not to drink or smoke. He stressed that we could not ",p:74,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"overcome poverty unless we frst tighten our own belts. ",p:74,x:114,y:288,w:410,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s street missions continued, even though ",p:74,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"some people disapproved. There were those who said he was ",p:74,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"doing too much. Some of the more “intellectual” members ",p:74,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of his congregation expressed concern about his outreach ",p:74,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"methods. They felt his approach to evangelism was outdated ",p:74,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and inefcient—too old-fashioned for the times. Others were ",p:74,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"perplexed that a man of his education would go out into the ",p:74,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"streets, beating a drum and calling on people to repent and ",p:74,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"believe in Jesus. One complained, “If people were interested ",p:74,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in Jesus, Mang Eui-Soon would scare them away!” ",p:74,x:114,y:563,w:366,h:20},
{t:"Parents criticized him for gathering his students around ",p:74,x:145,y:590,w:424,h:20},
{t:"him. “They are together day and night,” one said. “After morn-",p:74,x:114,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing devotions, they visit the Severance Hospital to care for the ",p:74,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"patients, and then right after school, they go back to the church ",p:74,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for Bible study and choir practice. The cycle never ends. They ",p:74,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"spend every Friday night in prayer.” Despite the complaints ",p:74,x:114,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of some parents, the enrollment of students at Namdaemun ",p:74,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Church grew to over three hundred.",p:74,x:114,y:783,w:264,h:20},
{t:"People wondered from where he drew his power. They ",p:74,x:144,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"knew he was a seminary student, and they also knew of his ",p:74,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"personal tragedy in the abrupt and untimely loss of four family ",p:74,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"members. They saw how he reached out for Jesus. However, ",p:74,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"70",p:75,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:75,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"some were offended by his seeming claim to greater faith and ",p:75,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"spiritual superiority. ",p:75,x:115,y:123,w:154,h:20},
{t:"There was a clear change in Kim Young-Joo’s attitude after ",p:75,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the incident at Pagoda Park, however. Now there was a chill ",p:75,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"between us whenever we met. I did not have another chance ",p:75,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to talk to her because she intentionally avoided me. My rela-",p:75,x:115,y:233,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tionship with her was strained.",p:75,x:115,y:260,w:227,h:20},
{t:"Questions kept nagging at me. Why was what Mang Eui-",p:75,x:145,y:288,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Soon was doing such a shock to her? She, a confessed Christian ",p:75,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and her father an elder in the church, had boasted about the ",p:75,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"lineage of Christians in her family. Why, then, did she treat ",p:75,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon like a criminal? Considering her attitude, how ",p:75,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"could she say that she loved him? She had claimed that she ",p:75,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"could not give him up. What does she love about him? Does ",p:75,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"she understand him, even though she professes to cherish ",p:75,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him?",p:75,x:115,y:508,w:36,h:20},
{t:"Despite the criticism spreading around Mang Eui-Soon, ",p:75,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he continued on in the same way. He was like a living tree, ",p:75,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"thanking the sun when it rises and being grateful for water ",p:75,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"when it rains. ",p:75,x:115,y:618,w:104,h:20},
{t:"Whenever I was with him, or thinking about him, I was re-",p:75,x:145,y:645,w:419,h:20},
{t:"minded of a quotation from the writings of Thomas à Kempis: ",p:75,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Strive to withdraw your heart from the love of things, and ",p:75,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"direct your affections to things invisible.” I believe that Mang ",p:75,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon saw clearly what others could not, and he moved ",p:75,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"toward that goal with a single-mindedness, undivided by dis-",p:75,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tractions. I was annoyed that I could not yet see as he saw. ",p:75,x:115,y:810,w:428,h:20},
{t:"My friend Mang Eui-Soon held the same viewpoint as ",p:75,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Thomas à Kempis. They experienced a union with God that ",p:75,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"transcended time and space.",p:75,x:115,y:893,w:208,h:20},
{t:"71",p:76,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:76,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"Truly, we have eyes and see not. For what concern ",p:76,x:145,y:95,w:393,h:20},
{t:"to us are such things as genera and species? Those to ",p:76,x:145,y:123,w:393,h:20},
{t:"whom the Eternal Word speaks are delivered from ",p:76,x:145,y:150,w:393,h:20},
{t:"uncertainty. From one Word proceed all things . . . ",p:76,x:145,y:178,w:393,h:20},
{t:"Without Him, no one can understand or judge aright. ",p:76,x:145,y:205,w:393,h:20},
{t:"But the man to whom all things are one, who refers ",p:76,x:145,y:233,w:393,h:20},
{t:"everything to One, and who sees everything as in One, ",p:76,x:145,y:260,w:393,h:20},
{t:"that man is enabled to remain steadfast in heart, and ",p:76,x:145,y:288,w:393,h:20},
{t:"can abide at peace with God.21 ",p:76,x:145,y:315,w:223,h:20},
{t:"I could not understand why I could not share their view. ",p:76,x:145,y:350,w:424,h:20},
{t:"I knew that I didn’t belong, but I didn’t know why. What was ",p:76,x:114,y:378,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I seeking? What is eternity? Why do people constantly long ",p:76,x:114,y:405,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for eternity, even though they do not comprehend it? Why ",p:76,x:114,y:433,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are we afraid? Finally, I came to the conclusion that eternity ",p:76,x:114,y:460,w:453,h:20},
{t:"could not be proved with our limited perception, and yet ",p:76,x:114,y:488,w:454,h:20},
{t:"eternity exists in our awareness. The essence of humanity ",p:76,x:114,y:515,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is eternal, and that is the reason why we ceaselessly aspire ",p:76,x:114,y:543,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to it. We were cut off from eternity; and now, through our ",p:76,x:114,y:570,w:453,h:20},
{t:"suffering in this fawed and chaotic world, we yearn for our ",p:76,x:114,y:598,w:453,h:20},
{t:"original essence.",p:76,x:114,y:625,w:124,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon and Thomas à Kempis were in alignment ",p:76,x:145,y:653,w:424,h:20},
{t:"with eternity and with someone who could lead them to it. ",p:76,x:114,y:680,w:453,h:20},
{t:"They gave witness that this someone was Jesus. I could say ",p:76,x:114,y:708,w:454,h:20},
{t:"that I believed in Jesus, but I could not say that I was one with ",p:76,x:114,y:735,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Jesus. This was a great anguish for me.",p:76,x:114,y:763,w:282,h:20},
{t:"What is faith all about? I think I believe, but what do I ",p:76,x:145,y:790,w:423,h:20},
{t:"believe? I did not quite understand. How could I be like them? ",p:76,x:114,y:818,w:454,h:20},
{t:"21. Written by Thomas à Kempis, translated and with an introduction by Leo ",p:76,x:115,y:881,w:427,h:15},
{t:"Sherley-Price. Penguin Books, 1952, p. 30. Used by permission.",p:76,x:115,y:897,w:345,h:15},
{t:"72",p:77,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:77,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"I should be like them, shouldn’t I? It was very confusing. I was ",p:77,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"afraid and felt as if I were crazy.",p:77,x:115,y:123,w:235,h:20},
{t:"I spent the summer traveling, thinking that this would be ",p:77,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"a way to escape these thoughts. I avoided the Christian Student ",p:77,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Fellowship activities and volunteer work with farmers, includ-",p:77,x:115,y:205,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing mission work, medical service, and summer Bible school. ",p:77,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"I sent Mang Eui-Soon a few post cards, informing him of my ",p:77,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"location, but not writing about anything serious. I wandered ",p:77,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the country restlessly.",p:77,x:115,y:315,w:159,h:20},
{t:"Three ",p:77,x:145,y:343,w:46,h:20},
{t:"years ",p:77,x:200,y:343,w:43,h:20},
{t:"after ",p:77,x:252,y:343,w:39,h:20},
{t:"liberation, ",p:77,x:299,y:343,w:79,h:20},
{t:"chaos, ",p:77,x:387,y:343,w:49,h:20},
{t:"bloodshed, ",p:77,x:445,y:343,w:83,h:20},
{t:"and ",p:77,x:537,y:343,w:31,h:20},
{t:"murder buffeted our country. The political situation was ",p:77,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"extremely unstable. On May 10, 1948,22 a general election was ",p:77,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"held in South Korea. A constitutional assembly was convened ",p:77,x:114,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"on May 31, and on July 2, the National Assembly passed the ",p:77,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"constitutional organization. On July 17, the National Assembly ",p:77,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"proclaimed a constitution and named the country the Republic ",p:77,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Korea, and on July 24, Rhee Syngman was elected president ",p:77,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with Lee See-Young as vice president. On August 15, three ",p:77,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"years after Korea’s liberation, the government of the Republic ",p:77,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Korea was established, and the new republic was ofcially ",p:77,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"inaugurated.",p:77,x:114,y:645,w:94,h:20},
{t:"Street Preaching",p:77,x:255,y:712,w:168,h:26},
{t:"The pace of school life settled into routine as the fall semester ",p:77,x:115,y:759,w:453,h:20},
{t:"began. Trees started to turn from green to the colors of au-",p:77,x:115,y:787,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tumn. Thoughts and work that had been set aside during the ",p:77,x:115,y:814,w:453,h:20},
{t:"22.  South Korea held its own general election under UN supervision, and on ",p:77,x:115,y:881,w:425,h:15},
{t:"August 15, 1948, the Republic of Korea was established.",p:77,x:115,y:897,w:306,h:15},
{t:"73",p:78,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:78,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"summer were now taken up again. One day, Mang Eui-Soon ",p:78,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"made an unexpected visit to school to meet me. He said that he ",p:78,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had missed the autumn forest.",p:78,x:115,y:150,w:222,h:20},
{t:"It had been a long time since we had been in the forest ",p:78,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"together. In the beauty of the natural surroundings we took ",p:78,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"time to consider not only the turn of the seasons, but also our ",p:78,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"own lives.",p:78,x:115,y:260,w:73,h:20},
{t:"“Are you still preaching in the streets?” I asked. “Don’t you ",p:78,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"have other things to do? Your studies? Why must you do this ",p:78,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"kind of preaching?”",p:78,x:115,y:343,w:144,h:20},
{t:"“Because when I do, I feel my heart burning inside me. It ",p:78,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"is not I, but someone within me expressing love. Can you not ",p:78,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"see it?”",p:78,x:115,y:425,w:52,h:20},
{t:"I told him that Kim Young-Joo had totally changed her ",p:78,x:145,y:453,w:424,h:20},
{t:"mind about him after she had watched him in the street ",p:78,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"from a distance. His shoulders dropped. Looking down at the ",p:78,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ground like a child who was being scolded, he scuffed his feet ",p:78,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in the dry grass. At that moment, I saw the struggle in his face, ",p:78,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a loneliness coming from his conviction that he must hold on ",p:78,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to the truth as he saw it, even if others did not understand. He ",p:78,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"slowly lifted his face and looked at me.",p:78,x:115,y:645,w:282,h:20},
{t:"“Are you convinced that what I do is so bad?” he asked.",p:78,x:145,y:673,w:402,h:20},
{t:"“It’s not a matter of good or bad,” I responded. “But this ",p:78,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"doesn’t need to be the only method you choose for outreach.”",p:78,x:115,y:728,w:447,h:20},
{t:"“Whose opinion is that? Yours or someone else’s?”",p:78,x:145,y:755,w:365,h:20},
{t:"I was quite at a loss and extremely embarrassed by the sud-",p:78,x:145,y:783,w:419,h:20},
{t:"den exposure of my cowardice. At frst, when Kim Young-Joo ",p:78,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"had taken me to see him preaching at Pagoda Park, I had been ",p:78,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"moved by his attitude. But then I heard other people belittle ",p:78,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"his style of outreach as something outdated, a mistake, and I ",p:78,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"74",p:79,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:79,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"joined them. Angry at my weakness and myself, I answered ",p:79,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"him, “Why are you asking that? It’s your strange way of doing ",p:79,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"things that I don’t like.”",p:79,x:115,y:150,w:171,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon responded tersely, “It may look bad, but I ",p:79,x:145,y:178,w:424,h:20},
{t:"don’t have a choice. It is urgent. Time is short.”",p:79,x:115,y:205,w:342,h:20},
{t:"“Why are you the only one in a hurry? Everyone else ",p:79,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"seems to be all right.”",p:79,x:115,y:260,w:157,h:20},
{t:"He buried his face in his hands. “I only know that there is ",p:79,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"a great urgency. I cannot resist the call to preach.” He took a ",p:79,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Bible out of his briefcase, opened it to Jeremiah 25, placed it ",p:79,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in front of me, and read, “Thus the Lord, the God of Israel, said ",p:79,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to me: ‘Take from my hand this cup of the wine of wrath, and ",p:79,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"make all the nations to whom I send you drink it.’”",p:79,x:115,y:425,w:369,h:20},
{t:"After reading these verses, he said, “This is about Judah. ",p:79,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"It’s the history of Judah, conquered by Babylon. God controls ",p:79,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the history of the world. The things that are happening in this ",p:79,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"country are inviting the cup of the wine of wrath. As I prayed, ",p:79,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"God showed me the entire land devastated. I saw corpses ",p:79,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"strewn on the ground. I cannot erase this vision.”",p:79,x:115,y:590,w:359,h:20},
{t:"I was at a loss as he described all this to me. “Is there ",p:79,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"something we can do? Can the youth of this country set an ",p:79,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"example of righteousness? Can we do something to bring hap-",p:79,x:115,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"piness to the people as we struggle for social justice?”",p:79,x:115,y:700,w:389,h:20},
{t:"“Did you say ‘justice’?” He took his hands away from his ",p:79,x:145,y:728,w:424,h:20},
{t:"face as he spoke again in anguish. “So many people are shout-",p:79,x:115,y:755,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing about justice. They are killing each other with swords in ",p:79,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the name of justice.” ",p:79,x:115,y:810,w:153,h:20},
{t:"With certain reluctance, I asked, “Then what preparation ",p:79,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"do we need?”",p:79,x:115,y:865,w:97,h:20},
{t:"“Love.”",p:79,x:145,y:893,w:53,h:20},
{t:"75",p:80,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:80,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"I was so disappointed at his reply that I laughed. “Love?” ",p:80,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"I could agree with him that everyone claimed to love, but ",p:80,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"he maintained that love belongs to God and that we should ",p:80,x:114,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"love through Jesus, the body and soul of love. I asked, “If love ",p:80,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"belongs to God, doesn’t justice also?”",p:80,x:114,y:205,w:267,h:20},
{t:"“Yes, God owns everything. But I strongly feel that justice ",p:80,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"must be sublimated into love. If justice exists as mere justice, ",p:80,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that will bring on more fghting, because each person will ",p:80,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"pull it to his own advantage. Love transcends justice and em-",p:80,x:114,y:315,w:450,h:20},
{t:"braces both, fusing them into a powerful and complete form. ",p:80,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Enforcing justice without love will surely result in hurting ",p:80,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"others as well as ourselves in the end. The ultimate choice ",p:80,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"offered to the human being is either to fnd his or her place ",p:80,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of humility and kneel down before the Lord, or to reject him. ",p:80,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Where people are able to kneel down together, a fountain of ",p:80,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"living water wells up, and they can all drink together.”",p:80,x:114,y:508,w:398,h:20},
{t:"The thought of bending my knees made my legs numb, ",p:80,x:145,y:535,w:424,h:20},
{t:"and I stood up right away. Disappointed in myself, I turned on ",p:80,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon. “Are you going to continue this preaching?” I ",p:80,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"asked him for a second time.",p:80,x:114,y:618,w:209,h:20},
{t:"“That is not what I am doing,” he said.",p:80,x:145,y:645,w:277,h:20},
{t:"“What do you mean you are not doing it?”",p:80,x:145,y:673,w:306,h:20},
{t:"“Someone in me is doing it.”",p:80,x:145,y:700,w:205,h:20},
{t:"I stared at him in surprise. He must have entered some ",p:80,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"kind of madness. His unbearable grief after the loss of his lov-",p:80,x:114,y:755,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing family members must have caused him to lose his mind.",p:80,x:114,y:783,w:438,h:20},
{t:"—",p:80,x:286,y:696,w:106,h:189},
{t:"76",p:81,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:81,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"On October 29, a Communist insurgency took place in the ",p:81,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"cities of Yeosu and Sunchon. President Rhee Syngman had ",p:81,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"gone to Tokyo at the invitation of General Douglas MacArthur. ",p:81,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"The rebel army spread a false rumor that the president had ",p:81,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fed to Japan. Riots coincided with the anniversary of the ",p:81,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Russian Revolution, and about three thousand US soldiers ",p:81,x:114,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"from the Fourteenth Regiment stationed in Yeosu City were ",p:81,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ordered to move. Suddenly, the rebels fred on the soldiers ",p:81,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"indiscriminately. Some forty members of the pro-Communist ",p:81,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Namro (the South Labor) Party, led by Kim Chee-Hee, had been ",p:81,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"clandestinely working within the army. The destruction by the ",p:81,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"rebels did not end there. ",p:81,x:114,y:398,w:183,h:20},
{t:"On November 2, with the rebels in Yeosu and Sunchon ",p:81,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"still active, a riot broke out in the Sixth Regiment stationed ",p:81,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in Daegu. Members of the Namro Party killed some South ",p:81,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korean army ofcials in their barracks and then attacked ",p:81,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"major government ofces. The rebel soldiers were estimated ",p:81,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"at only about four or fve hundred in number, with a few ",p:81,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"civilians among them, but they were able to wreak havoc and ",p:81,x:114,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"devastation upon Daegu City.",p:81,x:114,y:618,w:212,h:20},
{t:"Our liberated fatherland continued to suffer the crisis of ",p:81,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"a divided self. Before one incident could be resolved, trouble ",p:81,x:114,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"broke out elsewhere. People fought against their own people; ",p:81,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"brother fought against brother. They continued to stab, injure, ",p:81,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and kill each other. How do people become like that? When ",p:81,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"will the bloodshed stop? August 15, 1945, was meant to mark ",p:81,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"our liberation with our people released from the chains of ",p:81,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"slavery. We should have helped and comforted each other. ",p:81,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Instead we fought with one another.",p:81,x:114,y:865,w:265,h:20},
{t:"77",p:82,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:82,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"Missing His Mother",p:82,x:242,y:94,w:195,h:26},
{t:"When winter came, we hoped Christmas would be a sea-",p:82,x:145,y:141,w:419,h:20},
{t:"son of some joy for our gloomy hearts. One night I came to ",p:82,x:114,y:169,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Namdaemun Church to see Mang Eui-Soon. I expected him to ",p:82,x:114,y:196,w:453,h:20},
{t:"be there with the students preparing the Christmas program. ",p:82,x:114,y:224,w:449,h:20},
{t:"From a dimly lit middle-school classroom came the sound ",p:82,x:144,y:251,w:423,h:20},
{t:"of a tenor voice singing “Ave Maria.” Electricity was restricted ",p:82,x:114,y:279,w:453,h:20},
{t:"then, so the overhead light was not on, but a kerosene lamp ",p:82,x:114,y:306,w:453,h:20},
{t:"softly illuminated the room. I stood beside the window, closed ",p:82,x:114,y:334,w:454,h:20},
{t:"my eyes, and listened. It was not music, but a prayer begging ",p:82,x:114,y:361,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the world to stop the rampage. It was a voice calling the world ",p:82,x:114,y:389,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to stop its ruthless greed, competition, and hatred. When the ",p:82,x:114,y:416,w:454,h:20},
{t:"song was over, the room was silent. ",p:82,x:114,y:444,w:263,h:20},
{t:"I opened the door; he was alone. The kerosene lamp ",p:82,x:144,y:471,w:424,h:20},
{t:"fickered as he sat beside the closed piano, crying. From the ",p:82,x:114,y:499,w:453,h:20},
{t:"evidence of cleaning tools, he must have cleaned the room ",p:82,x:114,y:526,w:453,h:20},
{t:"after sending out his students. Stooped over, crying, he hadn’t ",p:82,x:114,y:554,w:454,h:20},
{t:"noticed me. In that moment, the weight of the world pressed ",p:82,x:114,y:581,w:454,h:20},
{t:"heavily on both of us. ",p:82,x:114,y:609,w:161,h:20},
{t:"He sat up straight when he noticed my approach, his face ",p:82,x:144,y:636,w:423,h:20},
{t:"soaked with tears. “I miss my mother so much,” he said quietly. ",p:82,x:114,y:664,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Tears rolled down his face, but he did not wipe them away. ",p:82,x:114,y:691,w:433,h:20},
{t:"In June 1949, there was a riot in the same parliament in ",p:82,x:144,y:719,w:424,h:20},
{t:"which we had proclaimed our independence. About ten young ",p:82,x:114,y:746,w:453,h:20},
{t:"members of parliament were found to be under the direct in-",p:82,x:114,y:774,w:450,h:20},
{t:"fuence of the Namro Party, and they had agreed to help pass a ",p:82,x:114,y:801,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bill to order the withdrawal of foreign soldiers. With sixty-two ",p:82,x:114,y:829,w:454,h:20},
{t:"names supporting their petition, they were about to send it to ",p:82,x:114,y:856,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the Korea Committee of the United Nations. But the situation ",p:82,x:114,y:884,w:453,h:20},
{t:"78",p:83,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:83,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"did not turn in their favor. For an independent country to have ",p:83,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a foreign army stationed within its borders is not an honorable ",p:83,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"thing. But in light of the international and national situation, it ",p:83,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was appropriate. This was no time to urge withdrawal of these ",p:83,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"troops from South Korea. All of this showed how blatantly the ",p:83,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Communists worked to disrupt South Korea.",p:83,x:115,y:233,w:323,h:20},
{t:"As the Communists had penetrated the South Korean ",p:83,x:145,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"parliament, it was almost impossible for civilians to expect ",p:83,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"security. While the Namro Party was causing unrest in the ",p:83,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"parliament, the country lost another bright star. National ",p:83,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"leader Kim Ku was shot to death on June 26, 1949. He had ",p:83,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"sought national independence without relying on outside ",p:83,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"help. He had entreated us to bravely follow our own path, ",p:83,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to push aside the interference of other countries. He had ",p:83,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wanted us to be united and had given his life for his country ",p:83,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and his people.",p:83,x:115,y:508,w:112,h:20},
{t:"Seoul was frozen by fear and sadness, even in the heat ",p:83,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"of summer. Everyone was in shock, crying and wailing. On ",p:83,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"July 5, 1949, the country observed a national funeral ceremony. ",p:83,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Everyone wore black mourning bands. There were torrents ",p:83,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of tears, and this martyred man was eulogized with genuine ",p:83,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"grief. ",p:83,x:115,y:673,w:42,h:20},
{t:"Kwonsa La Chang-Seok",p:83,x:224,y:739,w:231,h:26},
{t:"Early in the new year, I received a letter from Mang Eui-",p:83,x:115,y:787,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Soon.",p:83,x:115,y:814,w:40,h:20},
{t:"79",p:84,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:84,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"January 1950",p:84,x:115,y:99,w:123,h:16},
{t:"My Dear Friend,",p:84,x:160,y:130,w:109,h:20},
{t:"Though it isn’t necessary to say, it still is true that one ",p:84,x:190,y:158,w:379,h:20},
{t:"year goes and another comes, but this new year will be ",p:84,x:160,y:185,w:408,h:20},
{t:"special. I have been kneeling in prayer, and midnight has ",p:84,x:160,y:213,w:409,h:20},
{t:"just passed. I am thinking of you as I write.",p:84,x:160,y:240,w:294,h:20},
{t:"New Year! We begin with a new day as the sun rises. Or ",p:84,x:190,y:268,w:378,h:20},
{t:"rather, we rise to embrace the new day. I am afraid. I don’t ",p:84,x:160,y:295,w:408,h:20},
{t:"know what lies ahead for us in this year 1950. ",p:84,x:160,y:323,w:318,h:20},
{t:"What will it bring to me and to our people? I feel ",p:84,x:190,y:350,w:379,h:20},
{t:"weight beyond measure on us. The fear that consumes ",p:84,x:160,y:378,w:409,h:20},
{t:"me is clouding my faith. There are times when I feel like a ",p:84,x:160,y:405,w:408,h:20},
{t:"person without any faith at all, and I am so ashamed. For ",p:84,x:160,y:433,w:409,h:20},
{t:"believers, the future is something beyond this world, and ",p:84,x:160,y:460,w:408,h:20},
{t:"it has nothing to do with our present time and space. But ",p:84,x:160,y:487,w:408,h:20},
{t:"I cannot help but think about things that we will eventu-",p:84,x:160,y:515,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ally face. Sometimes I dream wonderful dreams about this ",p:84,x:160,y:542,w:409,h:20},
{t:"world, building my future and achieving my own goals.",p:84,x:160,y:570,w:376,h:20},
{t:"Entering the sixth year of Korean independence, how ",p:84,x:190,y:597,w:378,h:20},
{t:"are we nurturing our young country? It is like a cloth ripped, ",p:84,x:160,y:625,w:409,h:20},
{t:"stitched, and torn at the hands of others. We are biting and ",p:84,x:160,y:652,w:408,h:20},
{t:"slashing each other. What will the year 1950 bring?",p:84,x:160,y:680,w:349,h:20},
{t:"Again I pray for this new year, that it would confrm our ",p:84,x:190,y:707,w:379,h:20},
{t:"vitality and that we would see our lives in new perspective. I ",p:84,x:160,y:735,w:408,h:20},
{t:"wish you a happy, meaningful, and beautiful year.",p:84,x:160,y:762,w:343,h:20},
{t:"Love, ",p:84,x:160,y:797,w:39,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon",p:84,x:160,y:825,w:103,h:20},
{t:"80",p:85,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:85,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon had a new stepmother, Kwonsa La Chang-",p:85,x:145,y:95,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Seok. She had been working in the Youngnak Boin Nursing ",p:85,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Home and Orphanage operated by Youngnak Presbyterian ",p:85,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Church and was a devoted Christian in her ffties who had never ",p:85,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"married. She radiated elegance and demonstrated warmth and ",p:85,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"determination in her work with the elderly and orphans.",p:85,x:114,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"What surprised us was that she had changed her mind ",p:85,x:145,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"about marriage and had consented to become the wife of Elder ",p:85,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang. She had worked as the superintendent of Pyongyang ",p:85,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Women’s ",p:85,x:114,y:343,w:70,h:20},
{t:"Seminary ",p:85,x:193,y:343,w:74,h:20},
{t:"(formerly ",p:85,x:275,y:343,w:74,h:20},
{t:"Pyongyang Women’s ",p:85,x:357,y:343,w:162,h:20},
{t:"Bible ",p:85,x:527,y:343,w:41,h:20},
{t:"School) and then with Reverend Han Kyung-Jik as a pastor ",p:85,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for eight years at Second Shineuijoo Church and later at an ",p:85,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"orphanage run by the church, where she supervised the kin-",p:85,x:114,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"dergarten teachers. At the time of Korean independence, she ",p:85,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"became director of a nursing home also run by her church, as ",p:85,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"well as the director of the orphanage. ",p:85,x:114,y:508,w:277,h:20},
{t:"There was severe famine at this time, and Miss La’s or-",p:85,x:144,y:535,w:419,h:20},
{t:"phans had only tree bark to eat. She had come to South Korea ",p:85,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to seek food, intending to stay for a week, but the road was ",p:85,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"blocked when she attempted to return. Miss La then started ",p:85,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to work in Youngnak Boin Nursing Home and Orphanage, but ",p:85,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"she planned that when the road opened she would go back to ",p:85,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the North and the hundred or so orphans and elderly persons ",p:85,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"who were waiting for her at Namshineuijoo Orphanage. ",p:85,x:114,y:728,w:413,h:20},
{t:"Apparently it was Mang Eui-Soon who eventually con-",p:85,x:144,y:755,w:419,h:20},
{t:"vinced Miss La to marry Elder Mang. I knew her well, having ",p:85,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"met her when I visited Youngnak Boin with Mang Eui-Soon. ",p:85,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"She always treated us with warmth and special kindness every ",p:85,x:114,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"time we visited. She was gentle and affectionate but frm and ",p:85,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"resolute and always devoted to her work. Now that he had a ",p:85,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"81",p:86,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:86,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"woman to call “Mother,” he became livelier and happier. He ",p:86,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was very proud of her.",p:86,x:115,y:123,w:166,h:20},
{t:"One day in early spring, we had dinner together at my ",p:86,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"house. He joyfully confded in me that he had waited to see ",p:86,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what the year 1950 would bring to him, and it had given him ",p:86,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a mother who was prudent, meticulous, and wonderful. He ",p:86,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"believed that the year would be a happy one.",p:86,x:115,y:260,w:328,h:20},
{t:"“Why are you so excited? She has been a mother for many ",p:86,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"people, for orphans, kindergarten teachers, and even people ",p:86,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with senile dementia. Now you have a monopoly on her. You ",p:86,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"should apologize!” I teased. “Now I would like you to sing ",p:86,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"while I accompany you on the piano,” I said. “And I want you ",p:86,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to sing until I let you stop.”",p:86,x:115,y:425,w:195,h:20},
{t:"He sang through his repertoire of songs from Beethoven, ",p:86,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Schubert, and Mendelssohn. He sang all the songs with such ",p:86,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"zeal that he forgot I was there. How exquisite is the sound that ",p:86,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"comes from the human vocal cords, both soft and powerful. ",p:86,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Now I knew why Kim Young-Joo loved him so much. So much ",p:86,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"that she stamped the foor in frustration about him. When I ",p:86,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"heard his singing, the crazy world stopped its spinning and ",p:86,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"became silent, listening. He sang, not caring what others felt ",p:86,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"about his singing. ",p:86,x:115,y:673,w:132,h:20},
{t:"“Tell me more about your parents. How are they? Does ",p:86,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"your father still call your stepmother ‘Madame Kwonsa,’ even ",p:86,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"though they are sharing the same bedroom?”",p:86,x:115,y:755,w:329,h:20},
{t:"“I guess so, but he cannot help it,” he replied. “My father ",p:86,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"promised her before they were married that he would call her ",p:86,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Madame Kwonsa. He not only calls her by her title, but he pays ",p:86,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the utmost respect to her.”",p:86,x:115,y:865,w:193,h:20},
{t:"“That seems a bit unusual,” I said.",p:86,x:145,y:893,w:247,h:20},
{t:"82",p:87,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:87,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“Not really. They like things this way. It makes them feel ",p:87,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"comfortable. They suit each other. My stepmother is a won-",p:87,x:114,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"derful woman. Isn’t she still beautiful? And she cares for our ",p:87,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"family so well. Taking all this into account, I wonder why she ",p:87,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had not thought of marriage before. I believe that she is an ",p:87,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"angel who has come to restore our devastated home.”",p:87,x:114,y:233,w:391,h:20},
{t:"“God must have felt sorry for a son and a father left alone ",p:87,x:144,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"in this world.” ",p:87,x:114,y:288,w:108,h:20},
{t:"“I guess so,” he said, smiling. “I’m going to the army hospi-",p:87,x:144,y:315,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tal in Bupyung tomorrow. As God gave my new mother to me, ",p:87,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I interpret it as a reason to double my workload.”",p:87,x:114,y:370,w:360,h:20},
{t:"“The army hospital in Bupyung? That’s a surprise.”",p:87,x:144,y:398,w:371,h:20},
{t:"“A nurse army captain working at that hospital asked our ",p:87,x:144,y:425,w:424,h:20},
{t:"minister to send a pastor. He could not fnd a suitable pastor, ",p:87,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"so he asked me to go.”",p:87,x:114,y:480,w:160,h:20},
{t:"I stood there in the dark as he walked away. While watch-",p:87,x:144,y:508,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ing his receding silhouette, I felt a strange desolation, like a ",p:87,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"cold wind sweeping my heart. He was happy now. He had a ",p:87,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"new mother, he was studying what he wanted to study, he was ",p:87,x:114,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"fnding meaning in his church ministry, and he was doing new ",p:87,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"things. He was not a lonely man now, nor carrying an undue ",p:87,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"burden of sorrow. But I sensed a tragedy hovering over him. ",p:87,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I tried to dispel this notion, but I could not shake off these ",p:87,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"feelings.",p:87,x:114,y:728,w:61,h:20},
{t:"A Budding Relationship with Captain Yu",p:87,x:137,y:794,w:405,h:26},
{t:"After the spring semester began, Kim Young-Joo attended a ",p:87,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"morning worship service, breaking her long hibernation. As ",p:87,x:115,y:869,w:453,h:20},
{t:"83",p:88,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:88,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"the bell chimed to end the frst class, the boisterous students ",p:88,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"moved out. The air was flled with a spring haze, and build-",p:88,x:115,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ings and people seemed to be bursting with energy. Smiling as ",p:88,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"she approached, she said that she had come to see me. “We’ve ",p:88,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"known each other for a long time, but you don’t really know ",p:88,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"me,” she said. “Why don’t we take a walk together on this ",p:88,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"beautiful day?”",p:88,x:115,y:260,w:111,h:20},
{t:"I could not refuse her. We went outside. She was smiling. ",p:88,x:145,y:288,w:424,h:20},
{t:"I had heard rumors of her dating other young men, and I ",p:88,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"knew that she had not recently been attending early morning ",p:88,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"devotions nor participating in volunteer hospital work. I was ",p:88,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"curious about her relationship with Mang Eui-Soon, but I also ",p:88,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"thought that it would be better for them to go their separate ",p:88,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ways.",p:88,x:115,y:453,w:41,h:20},
{t:"She talked about the lovely spring weather as we walked ",p:88,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"along the trail. I didn’t respond because I realized that she was ",p:88,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"avoiding the real subject. “Nature is so mysterious and exqui-",p:88,x:115,y:535,w:450,h:20},
{t:"site,” she said. “It calms the mind, as we appreciate its beauty ",p:88,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and charm. But humans are quite different. Mang Eui-Soon is ",p:88,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"different. I cannot understand him.”",p:88,x:115,y:618,w:265,h:20},
{t:"I kept silent and continued to walk beside her. This re-",p:88,x:145,y:645,w:419,h:20},
{t:"sponse was what I had feared. I was embarrassed to hear that ",p:88,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"she was still struggling with this problem. With a deep sigh ",p:88,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"she asked if I knew about his recent situation, that he had been ",p:88,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"going to the army hospital to conduct the Sunday services.",p:88,x:115,y:755,w:424,h:20},
{t:"“Yes,” I said. “I heard about this from him.”",p:88,x:145,y:783,w:314,h:20},
{t:"“But you do not know that he has been having fun with a ",p:88,x:145,y:810,w:424,h:20},
{t:"young girl while working there,” she said with a short laugh.",p:88,x:115,y:838,w:442,h:20},
{t:"I was at a loss to say anything. Finally I asked, “What do ",p:88,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"you mean ‘having fun’ while working there?”",p:88,x:115,y:893,w:331,h:20},
{t:"84",p:89,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:89,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“He works for God and has dates with a girl.” She was ",p:89,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"laughing, but it was not sincere laughter. It covered an unbear-",p:89,x:114,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"able pain and anger that lingered on her face like a shadow. “I ",p:89,x:114,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"have seen them.”",p:89,x:114,y:178,w:125,h:20},
{t:"“With your own eyes?” I asked.",p:89,x:144,y:205,w:227,h:20},
{t:"“Several times I have seen them walking together.”",p:89,x:144,y:233,w:371,h:20},
{t:"“Just seeing them walking together is no proof that they ",p:89,x:144,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"are in love,” I protested.",p:89,x:114,y:288,w:175,h:20},
{t:"Kim Young-Joo continued her story. “When I saw them the ",p:89,x:144,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"frst few times, I thought that they might just be friends. But ",p:89,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"last weekend when I saw them coming out of the cinema, I ",p:89,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"could see that they were defnitely a couple. The movie has ",p:89,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"explicit erotic content. They are in a relationship, even if they ",p:89,x:114,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"try to hide it.”",p:89,x:114,y:453,w:101,h:20},
{t:"“Whoever he is going with, I’m sure that she is safe,” I ",p:89,x:144,y:480,w:424,h:20},
{t:"said.",p:89,x:114,y:508,w:34,h:20},
{t:"“The woman is seven years older than he is,” Kim Young-",p:89,x:144,y:535,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Joo continued. Her face was pale and she spoke with a chill in ",p:89,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"her voice. ",p:89,x:114,y:590,w:75,h:20},
{t:"“She is a nurse, an army captain, working in the army ",p:89,x:144,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"hospital in Bupyung,” I said. “A beautiful woman. From the ",p:89,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fact that he hasn’t introduced you, you have deduced that she ",p:89,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is very dear to him.” I laughed.",p:89,x:114,y:700,w:225,h:20},
{t:"“Why are you laughing? Is it silly? She is older than him ",p:89,x:144,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"by seven years and could be an expert in anything. She will do ",p:89,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"more for him than I will.”",p:89,x:114,y:783,w:187,h:20},
{t:"“Kim Young-Joo,” I said, “your hasty conclusion is making ",p:89,x:144,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"you miserable. Why are you letting this happen?”",p:89,x:114,y:838,w:361,h:20},
{t:"85",p:90,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:90,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"“I don’t know. I don’t understand what attracts me to him, ",p:90,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"but I cannot give him up. I thought that my feelings had been ",p:90,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"buried, but they have resurfaced.”",p:90,x:114,y:150,w:250,h:20},
{t:"The bright sun contrasted with her wretchedness. She ",p:90,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"shook her head as if making an important decision. “I will not ",p:90,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"give up. Wherever he goes, and whoever he associates with, is ",p:90,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not my business, but it is impossible for me to let him go.” ",p:90,x:114,y:260,w:425,h:20},
{t:"I did not visit Mang Eui-Soon specifcally to discuss Kim ",p:90,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Young-Joo, but when I saw him next, I could not hold back. ",p:90,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Who is the young woman who accompanied you to the cin-",p:90,x:114,y:343,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ema?” I asked, feeling remorseful about asking, but watching ",p:90,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"for his reaction.",p:90,x:114,y:398,w:116,h:20},
{t:"“The lady is Miss Yu. She is a nurse army captain from ",p:90,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the army hospital. We went to a movie together,” came his ",p:90,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"answers, without hesitation. His calmness made my question ",p:90,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"seem crass. “It is true that I was with her,” he said, “but I don’t ",p:90,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"know why this would upset people.” He was smiling as he said ",p:90,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this, in contrast to Kim Young-Joo’s behavior. ",p:90,x:114,y:563,w:330,h:20},
{t:"“I like to spend time with her. Miss Yu is very comfortable ",p:90,x:145,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to be with. If some people think she is my girlfriend, they are ",p:90,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wrong. She is not that kind of person.”",p:90,x:114,y:645,w:280,h:20},
{t:"I reminded him that she was an older woman. “Yes, I ",p:90,x:145,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"guess so,” he said. “Why are people even discussing this? She ",p:90,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is different.”",p:90,x:114,y:728,w:91,h:20},
{t:"“Human ",p:90,x:145,y:755,w:65,h:20},
{t:"nature ",p:90,x:219,y:755,w:53,h:20},
{t:"is ",p:90,x:280,y:755,w:15,h:20},
{t:"not ",p:90,x:304,y:755,w:28,h:20},
{t:"as ",p:90,x:341,y:755,w:19,h:20},
{t:"simple ",p:90,x:368,y:755,w:52,h:20},
{t:"as ",p:90,x:429,y:755,w:19,h:20},
{t:"you ",p:90,x:457,y:755,w:31,h:20},
{t:"think,” ",p:90,x:497,y:755,w:53,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:90,x:559,y:755,w:9,h:20},
{t:"responded.",p:90,x:114,y:783,w:81,h:20},
{t:"“If you don’t trust my judgment, you can see for yourself. ",p:90,x:145,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"You will notice this right away.”",p:90,x:114,y:838,w:230,h:20},
{t:"Our conversation was candid, and his response was so nat-",p:90,x:145,y:865,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ural, that my questions and doubts put me to shame. Changing ",p:90,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"86",p:91,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:91,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"my attitude, I said, “Then I would be delighted to meet her.” ",p:91,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"He promised to introduce us on the coming Sunday.",p:91,x:115,y:123,w:377,h:20},
{t:"—",p:91,x:286,y:36,w:106,h:189},
{t:"The May sunlight, blazing as we traveled by train to the ",p:91,x:145,y:227,w:423,h:20},
{t:"city of Inchon, made everything we saw from the train win-",p:91,x:114,y:254,w:450,h:20},
{t:"dows like a colorful dance. Behind the army hospital were low ",p:91,x:114,y:282,w:453,h:20},
{t:"rising hills. Even though old and gloomy, the hospital came ",p:91,x:114,y:309,w:453,h:20},
{t:"alive in the bright sunshine, but inside, the army hospital was ",p:91,x:114,y:337,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dark. The dimly lit corridors emitted a pungent stench coming ",p:91,x:114,y:364,w:454,h:20},
{t:"from the seriously wounded patients. The smell of antiseptic ",p:91,x:114,y:392,w:453,h:20},
{t:"almost overwhelmed me. I was shocked as we walked through ",p:91,x:114,y:419,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the main hall and entered the ward. Then I heard a woman’s ",p:91,x:114,y:447,w:453,h:20},
{t:"voice. “Welcome, I was expecting you.”",p:91,x:114,y:474,w:284,h:20},
{t:"My friend stood beside me to greet her, but all I could ",p:91,x:144,y:502,w:424,h:20},
{t:"do was stand still and stare at her. She was like the stem of a ",p:91,x:114,y:529,w:454,h:20},
{t:"magnolia tree. She wore a uniform, but more than that, her ",p:91,x:114,y:557,w:454,h:20},
{t:"beauty, poise, and elegance no uniform could cover up. More ",p:91,x:114,y:584,w:453,h:20},
{t:"than her physical appearance surprised me, for she carried ",p:91,x:114,y:612,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a weight of sorrow, although “sorrow” does not seem an ad-",p:91,x:114,y:639,w:450,h:20},
{t:"equate word to describe it. It was something bigger than that. ",p:91,x:114,y:667,w:454,h:20},
{t:"She did not seem to notice my apprehension and approached ",p:91,x:114,y:694,w:454,h:20},
{t:"us happily.",p:91,x:114,y:722,w:80,h:20},
{t:"“You are a friend of Mr. Mang Eui-Soon, aren’t you? We ",p:91,x:144,y:749,w:423,h:20},
{t:"welcome you.” She was spontaneous and friendly as if we ",p:91,x:114,y:777,w:454,h:20},
{t:"had met before. “We still have some time before the worship ",p:91,x:114,y:804,w:454,h:20},
{t:"service, time for a tea break. I’ll be right back after fnishing ",p:91,x:114,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my work.”",p:91,x:114,y:859,w:76,h:20},
{t:"87",p:92,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:92,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"Graciously she showed us to her room. In the well-lit ",p:92,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"room, I looked closely at her. She was elegant and beautiful. ",p:92,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Why had I had some premonition when I frst saw her? ",p:92,x:114,y:150,w:407,h:20},
{t:"I had not given much thought as to how serious the condi-",p:92,x:145,y:178,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tion of some of the patients would be, despite the strong odor. ",p:92,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"On entering the corridor, I saw a pale young man lying on ",p:92,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"his bed and staring at us with big eyes, totally paralyzed. In ",p:92,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"another bed, a middle-aged man was paralyzed in the lower ",p:92,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"part of his body.",p:92,x:114,y:315,w:118,h:20},
{t:"Captain Yu and my friend Mang Eui-Soon sat beside these ",p:92,x:144,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"men, holding their hands and praying for them. They sang ",p:92,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hymns while they massaged their bodies. Mang Eui-Soon ",p:92,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"cared for the middle-aged man, while Captain Yu massaged the ",p:92,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"younger one. The younger patient, stricken by grief, despair, ",p:92,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and fear, showed no emotion. The older man was full of anger. ",p:92,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"He had no peace in his eyes, only rage and bitterness. They ",p:92,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"helped the patients change position every fve or ten minutes. ",p:92,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"While singing hymns and offering physical care, their actions ",p:92,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"seemed natural and well matched.",p:92,x:114,y:590,w:252,h:20},
{t:"Then Mang Eui-Soon moved silently to the chapel for ",p:92,x:144,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"the worship service. There were about two hundred mobile ",p:92,x:114,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"patients who were singing while waiting for the service to ",p:92,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"start. While he gave a message from the pulpit, he seemed like ",p:92,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"someone new to me. There was an aura about him. After the ",p:92,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"worship service, he returned to the room where the serious ",p:92,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"patients were. He again gave them massages while singing ",p:92,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hymns. He ate dinner with the patients, and then he left.",p:92,x:114,y:810,w:412,h:20},
{t:"On the train ride home, he said, “For me, this hospital ",p:92,x:144,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"is a symbol of the pain and fear that is all around us. I am ",p:92,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"angry about human wickedness and despair when I see these ",p:92,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"88",p:93,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:93,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"patients who are totally paralyzed and cannot even die by ",p:93,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their own will. They were young and full of vigor, and sud-",p:93,x:115,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"denly, bullets devastated their lives. Is war worth it? In olden ",p:93,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"times, fghts were between tribes who fought because of their ",p:93,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"differences. These young men were told that they were brave ",p:93,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to fght for their country. What has the country gained from ",p:93,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their sacrifce? Are things any different or any better? In the ",p:93,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"face of their misery, there is nothing to be said. I feel sorrow ",p:93,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and shame.”",p:93,x:115,y:315,w:91,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon gazed at the sunset. Tears rolled down his ",p:93,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"cheeks. “Societal and structural evils are eroding our country, ",p:93,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and individuals are powerless. Each person in those hospital ",p:93,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"beds has given his whole life to the cause of war. But the gov-",p:93,x:115,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ernment counts them and gives them a number. Individuality ",p:93,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"is pushed aside in the name of the country. It seems that God ",p:93,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is ignoring them. That is painful and frightening. When I ",p:93,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"meet someone whose life has been devastated like that, I feel ",p:93,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"pushed away. I have no courage to ask God why these things ",p:93,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"happen.”",p:93,x:115,y:590,w:66,h:20},
{t:"The old train was jolting along on its journey. At this ",p:93,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"hour on a Sunday, the other passengers were sitting quietly, ",p:93,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wrapped in their own thoughts. They did not seem to take any ",p:93,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"special notice of us. Many dozed in their seats in response to ",p:93,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the vibrations of the train. I tried to comfort my friend.",p:93,x:115,y:728,w:401,h:20},
{t:"“You are giving these patients physical comfort,” I said.",p:93,x:145,y:755,w:401,h:20},
{t:"“How much does it help those who are facing such a ",p:93,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"wretched fate? My prayers, my songs, they seem like tricks or ",p:93,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"terrible hypocrisy. I feel like beating myself up.”",p:93,x:115,y:838,w:350,h:20},
{t:"“Don’t despair,” I said.",p:93,x:145,y:865,w:163,h:20},
{t:"89",p:94,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"A Seed Takes Root",p:94,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"He wept. “What do you mean ‘despair’? It’s a luxury for ",p:94,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"anyone to despair. It’s an escape for those of us who have a ",p:94,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"normal body, but they have no room for despair. I don’t un-",p:94,x:114,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"derstand why they have to bear this burden while they are ",p:94,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bedridden. I really don’t know.”",p:94,x:114,y:205,w:232,h:20},
{t:"I found myself feeling very small, as if I were stuck be-",p:94,x:144,y:233,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tween two huge mountains named Anguish and—a new one ",p:94,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"encountered today—Endless Sorrow.",p:94,x:114,y:288,w:269,h:20},
{t:"A page of Mang Eui-Soon’s sermon notes",p:95,x:70,y:49,w:304,h:21},
{t:"91",p:96,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"PART TWO",p:96,x:282,y:227,w:115,h:32},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:96,x:189,y:259,w:301,h:43},
{t:"The Communists Strike South",p:96,x:190,y:344,w:299,h:26},
{t:"On the dull and rainy Sunday morning of June 25, 1950, ",p:96,x:115,y:392,w:453,h:20},
{t:"people were taking the opportunity to sleep in. The heavy ",p:96,x:115,y:419,w:454,h:20},
{t:"rain signaled the start of the monsoon season. For some, this ",p:96,x:115,y:447,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was cause for grumbling, but for others, there was optimism ",p:96,x:115,y:474,w:454,h:20},
{t:"for prolifc rice crops. Most of the 1.5 million citizens of Seoul ",p:96,x:115,y:502,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were expecting a quiet day of rest. But the Christians going to ",p:96,x:115,y:529,w:454,h:20},
{t:"church for Sunday worship were anxious because of rumors ",p:96,x:115,y:557,w:453,h:20},
{t:"circulating around the city—rumors that the North Koreans ",p:96,x:115,y:584,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had invaded the South, crossing the thirty-eighth parallel. ",p:96,x:115,y:612,w:424,h:20},
{t:"There was talk back and forth. “We’ve heard these rumors ",p:96,x:145,y:639,w:423,h:20},
{t:"before, but this time it may be serious.”",p:96,x:115,y:667,w:287,h:20},
{t:"“Don’t worry too much; worry invites calamity.” ",p:96,x:145,y:694,w:354,h:20},
{t:"“Will ",p:96,x:145,y:722,w:41,h:20},
{t:"God spare us a catastrophe? We have enough ",p:96,x:192,y:722,w:376,h:20},
{t:"misery.” ",p:96,x:115,y:749,w:64,h:20},
{t:"Just weeks earlier, on June 8, North Korea put a statement ",p:96,x:145,y:777,w:423,h:20},
{t:"in its newspaper from the Central Committee of the Unifcation ",p:96,x:115,y:804,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Fatherland Democratic Front. The ultimate objective of ",p:96,x:115,y:832,w:454,h:20},
{t:"this action was to implement a call for a general election on ",p:96,x:115,y:859,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the unifcation of North and South Korea by August 15, 1950, ",p:96,x:115,y:887,w:453,h:20},
{t:"92",p:97,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:97,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"the ffth anniversary of Korean independence. Many people ",p:97,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ignored this tactic as stereotypical Communist propaganda, ",p:97,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but others saw it as a warning. They quoted a Korean maxim, ",p:97,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“If something is mentioned often enough, something serious ",p:97,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"will happen.” ",p:97,x:115,y:205,w:102,h:20},
{t:"As ",p:97,x:145,y:233,w:21,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:97,x:174,y:233,w:27,h:20},
{t:"international ",p:97,x:208,y:233,w:100,h:20},
{t:"political ",p:97,x:316,y:233,w:63,h:20},
{t:"situation ",p:97,x:387,y:233,w:68,h:20},
{t:"developed ",p:97,x:463,y:233,w:79,h:20},
{t:"in ",p:97,x:550,y:233,w:18,h:20},
{t:"precarious directions, people were afraid that the blast of ",p:97,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"gunshots from afar might signal local fghting. The govern-",p:97,x:115,y:288,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ment of China collapsed after Generalissimo Chiang Kai-Shek ",p:97,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and his army left the mainland. The Communists in China ",p:97,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"then took control of the mainland. Unsettled situations in ",p:97,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Czechoslovakia and Berlin were ominous, and the Indochina ",p:97,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"war, stirred up by the Communists, forecast a bleak future. ",p:97,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Parallel to this international strife, the fghting, murder, and ",p:97,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"destruction continued in a divided country. Neither pessimists ",p:97,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"nor optimists could predict the future. ",p:97,x:115,y:508,w:283,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon awoke to the rain, knelt down, and medi-",p:97,x:145,y:535,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tated as usual. Quietly, so that he did not disturb his father ",p:97,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and stepmother, he made preparations for the outing he had ",p:97,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"planned for that day. As if hearing his thoughts, his stepmother ",p:97,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"knocked softly on the door to his room. “You should have ",p:97,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"something to eat,” she said. “You might miss lunch going to ",p:97,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Bupyung.”",p:97,x:115,y:700,w:76,h:20},
{t:"The roasted soy and rice cakes tasted sweet and cool. ",p:97,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“Where did you get this?” Mang Eui-Soon asked. “Save it for ",p:97,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the two of you. When I go to church, I will have lots of chances ",p:97,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to eat delicious snacks. Still, everything is very tasty.”",p:97,x:115,y:810,w:387,h:20},
{t:"Outside, the rain fell heavily, but inside, all was cozy. ",p:97,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"He was happy. How could this compare with anything else? ",p:97,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"93",p:98,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:98,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"Warm tears welled up. “Mom,” he repeated, “I think I am too ",p:98,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"spoiled.”",p:98,x:115,y:123,w:63,h:20},
{t:"“God has granted you this happiness,” she responded, ",p:98,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“and we thank him for you.”",p:98,x:115,y:178,w:208,h:20},
{t:"After devotions at predawn and a visit to Severance ",p:98,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Hospital with four or fve of the middle-school students from ",p:98,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"his church, Mang Eui-Soon came back with them for worship. ",p:98,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"The rain had cleared, and the morning sun made everything ",p:98,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"glisten. ",p:98,x:115,y:315,w:56,h:20},
{t:"But around ten, the ground began to shake. Army jeeps ",p:98,x:145,y:343,w:424,h:20},
{t:"sped around the city with microphones blaring, “Soldiers, ",p:98,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"return to your company immediately!” The people, enjoying ",p:98,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the summer Sunday morning, only briefy wondered what ",p:98,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was happening as they continued their outings to churches, ",p:98,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"palaces, riversides, theaters, and department stores. ",p:98,x:115,y:480,w:384,h:20},
{t:"The students, however, were shaken by the news. “Mr. ",p:98,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Mang,” they said, “the situation seems serious. This time, it ",p:98,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"won’t be just a local war.”",p:98,x:115,y:563,w:188,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki, a high school senior and president of the ",p:98,x:145,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"church student council, spoke with great anxiety. “For a while, ",p:98,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"South Korea was too arrogant. Rather than embracing her ",p:98,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"independence with humility and thankfulness, we ruthlessly ",p:98,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"oppressed others and murdered so many. Now we deserve ",p:98,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"punishment.” ",p:98,x:115,y:728,w:103,h:20},
{t:"Another student disagreed. “Why should the South be ",p:98,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"punished? It was the Communists who disturbed the South.”",p:98,x:115,y:783,w:441,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki retorted, “Were our troubles initiated by ",p:98,x:145,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"them? Was it the Communists who killed our patriots, the ones ",p:98,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who risked their lives for our independence and freedom? Mr. ",p:98,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang, what do you think?” ",p:98,x:115,y:893,w:200,h:20},
{t:"94",p:99,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:99,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon said nothing for a moment. Then he said, ",p:99,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“There are many who made mistakes. There are many politi-",p:99,x:114,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"cians and businessmen who work only for their own interests ",p:99,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"while pretending to be patriotic. Because they desire power, ",p:99,x:114,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they try to get rid of people who are against them. They ruin ",p:99,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"others to get money for themselves. But we have to win our ",p:99,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"own battle. We should live victorious lives every day. Victory ",p:99,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"means to stand on God’s side. It means living every day as if it ",p:99,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were our last. We cannot afford to look at the mistakes of oth-",p:99,x:114,y:315,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ers and get angry. And we cannot pray to avoid punishment, ",p:99,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"because we cannot change God’s plans. But we should pray ",p:99,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to remain true to God’s precepts, even in times of trial and ",p:99,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"suffering.”",p:99,x:114,y:425,w:77,h:20},
{t:"While some continued debating the political situation, ",p:99,x:144,y:453,w:424,h:20},
{t:"others were happily excited about their picnic plans. One frst-",p:99,x:114,y:480,w:449,h:20},
{t:"year high-school girl said to Mang Eui-Soon, “This morning I ",p:99,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"complained about the weather spoiling our picnic plans, but ",p:99,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"now it has cleared. I was awake all night preparing food. Mr. ",p:99,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang, please fnish the Bupyung service as quickly as possible ",p:99,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and join us.”",p:99,x:114,y:618,w:92,h:20},
{t:"But Mang Eui-Soon said he would not be able to attend ",p:99,x:144,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the picnic. “I will be quick enough in Bupyung, however, so I ",p:99,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"can catch up with you for the evening service of praise. Since ",p:99,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the picnic is already planned, you should go ahead with it, ",p:99,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but I suggest you offer a few moments of prayer for the many ",p:99,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"young people at the thirty-eighth parallel who are being in-",p:99,x:114,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"jured or even killed in battle. We are indebted to them that ",p:99,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we can gather here and worship together. Behave well today. ",p:99,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Meditate on the cross of Christ, and remember those engaged ",p:99,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in war at the front.”",p:99,x:114,y:893,w:145,h:20},
{t:"95",p:100,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:100,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"The day shone brilliantly after the rain. The sky was a ",p:100,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"crystal blue, and the new leaves on the trees breathed fresh-",p:100,x:114,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ness into the air. During the worship service, the choir flled ",p:100,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the church with its songs of praise. People one after another ",p:100,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"knelt humbly in prayer.",p:100,x:114,y:205,w:173,h:20},
{t:"What a contrast to the chaos Mang Eui-Soon experienced ",p:100,x:144,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"at the Seoul station on his way to Bupyung! The loudspeakers ",p:100,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"on the army vehicle blared out that soldiers should return ",p:100,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"immediately to their barracks. Radios blasted the same urgent ",p:100,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"message. Soldiers were running. Grim-faced ofcials sped ",p:100,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"back to their ofces. Boys delivering the daily newspaper ",p:100,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"shouted, “Extra! Extra!” and people rushed to pick up a copy ",p:100,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of the paper. In it they read, ",p:100,x:114,y:425,w:223,h:20},
{t:"“At four o’clock this morning, ",p:100,x:340,y:425,w:228,h:20},
{t:"North Korean communists invaded the South through the ",p:100,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"thirty-eighth parallel. Our men are confronting and expelling ",p:100,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them.” Another army truck rolled by, shouting for soldiers to ",p:100,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"return to their base. ",p:100,x:114,y:535,w:150,h:20},
{t:"Soldiers ",p:100,x:144,y:563,w:62,h:20},
{t:"and ofcers were swarming ",p:100,x:214,y:563,w:229,h:20},
{t:"into ",p:100,x:450,y:563,w:33,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:100,x:490,y:563,w:27,h:20},
{t:"Seoul ",p:100,x:525,y:563,w:43,h:20},
{t:"train station. Some soldiers took a tramcar in the direction ",p:100,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Chungyangri, while others tramped restlessly looking for ",p:100,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"shortcuts back to their barracks. Mang Eui-Soon closed his ",p:100,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"eyes while waiting for his train and prayed fervently, “Lord, ",p:100,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what has happened? Father, what is waiting for us? For what ",p:100,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and how should we prepare?”",p:100,x:114,y:728,w:219,h:20},
{t:"False News from the Government",p:100,x:171,y:794,w:337,h:26},
{t:"The clear sky turned overcast by afternoon. At Bupyung Army ",p:100,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Hospital things were quiet, as if no one knew about the war. ",p:100,x:115,y:869,w:453,h:20},
{t:"96",p:101,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:101,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"A group of volunteers from the Patriotic Women’s Association ",p:101,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were chatting, wrapping gauze, and cutting cotton balls. Mang ",p:101,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon entered the room in the hospital reserved for wor-",p:101,x:115,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ship and saw Yu Chung-In. As she looked at him with her big ",p:101,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dark eyes, she smiled and said, “You made it! How is Seoul?”",p:101,x:115,y:205,w:439,h:20},
{t:"“Soldiers are being called back to duty. On my way here, ",p:101,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"I saw them returning to their barracks. A lot depends on how ",p:101,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"strong the attack is. Have you heard any new developments?” ",p:101,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“It seems that north of Kaesong, Dongdoochun and the ",p:101,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"east front were attacked all at once. The radio said our sol-",p:101,x:115,y:343,w:450,h:20},
{t:"diers are doing well and we should not have to move. We are ",p:101,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"winning.”",p:101,x:115,y:398,w:72,h:20},
{t:"“Well, are we winning really? I’m not sure that’s true, con-",p:101,x:145,y:425,w:419,h:20},
{t:"sidering the situation in Seoul where we are under attack.” ",p:101,x:115,y:453,w:434,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, don’t be too pessimistic. We have the power ",p:101,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to resist any attack,” she said trying to console him, but her ",p:101,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"face showed her deep worry. She could not hide the ominous ",p:101,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and oppressive feelings she experienced when she heard the ",p:101,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"morning news report on the outbreak of war. ",p:101,x:115,y:590,w:336,h:20},
{t:"After the service, they worked at the intensive care unit ",p:101,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"for a while. As he made his rounds, Mang asked, “Were you ",p:101,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"told what to do in case of a war situation? If an emergency ",p:101,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"arises, we may be affected here at the hospital.”",p:101,x:115,y:700,w:348,h:20},
{t:"“Well, so far we haven’t gotten any orders. That indicates ",p:101,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to me that every thing is still all right.”",p:101,x:115,y:755,w:280,h:20},
{t:"“If something happens, we’ll have to do a lot here. The ",p:101,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"critical patients will have to be moved.” Seeing Yu’s grim face, ",p:101,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon tried to cheer her up by saying, “I think our ",p:101,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"worries may be unfounded. I hope nothing serious happens. ",p:101,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"If so, I would come immediately to help you.”",p:101,x:115,y:893,w:330,h:20},
{t:"97",p:102,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:102,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"“Will you have dinner here tonight?”",p:102,x:145,y:95,w:269,h:20},
{t:"“Not now. I am worried about Seoul, so I must leave now. ",p:102,x:145,y:123,w:423,h:20},
{t:"I will see you next Sunday. If anything happens, I will come ",p:102,x:114,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"right away.”",p:102,x:114,y:178,w:88,h:20},
{t:"But Mang Eui-Soon had an unshakable premonition of ",p:102,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"disaster as he stood there. Their eyes met. “Take care of your-",p:102,x:114,y:233,w:450,h:20},
{t:"self,” they whispered to each other. ",p:102,x:114,y:260,w:261,h:20},
{t:"When Mang Eui-Soon returned to Seoul, the city seemed ",p:102,x:144,y:288,w:424,h:20},
{t:"quieter, ",p:102,x:114,y:315,w:60,h:20},
{t:"but ",p:102,x:185,y:315,w:28,h:20},
{t:"Mang ",p:102,x:223,y:315,w:45,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon ",p:102,x:278,y:315,w:68,h:20},
{t:"watched ",p:102,x:356,y:315,w:66,h:20},
{t:"as ",p:102,x:432,y:315,w:19,h:20},
{t:"panic-stricken ",p:102,x:461,y:315,w:107,h:20},
{t:"American families packed their luggage and rushed in their ",p:102,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cars toward Noryangjin, a suburb. They did not want to ",p:102,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"get hurt while we were shooting and killing each other and ",p:102,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"trampling our own people under our feet. We, however, had ",p:102,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"nowhere else to go. ",p:102,x:114,y:453,w:145,h:20},
{t:"The streets had lost their usual vitality. An occasional ",p:102,x:144,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"army or civilian truck sped by, packed with soldiers. People ",p:102,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who had come out to enjoy the holiday hurried home. Some ",p:102,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"church members were reluctant to leave the evening service ",p:102,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and tried to encourage each other. One said, “War seems to ",p:102,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have broken out, but hopefully it will turn out well for us. ",p:102,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"We must take this as an opportunity to show our strength for ",p:102,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"unifcation.” Another agreed, “Yes, we have often said that ",p:102,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"if and when the North regime provokes us, we will capture ",p:102,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Pyongyang and liberate the people there.” Everyone wanted ",p:102,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to believe that. ",p:102,x:114,y:755,w:112,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon joined people hurrying to get home. A ",p:102,x:144,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"plane few overhead. “An enemy airplane! It’s a Russian recon-",p:102,x:114,y:810,w:450,h:20},
{t:"naissance plane!” This left everyone unsettled and worried as ",p:102,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they scurried home.",p:102,x:114,y:865,w:146,h:20},
{t:"98",p:103,x:85,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:103,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Elder Mang was listening to the radio when Mang Eui-",p:103,x:145,y:95,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Soon got home. “The North is waging a full-scale war. They ",p:103,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have attacked, starting at Ongjin, then Kaesong, Jangdan, ",p:103,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Dongdoochun, Pochun, Choonchun, and Kangnung. They ",p:103,x:114,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"landed from ships on the east coast. Even though the radio ",p:103,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"says that our men are quickly expelling the enemy, we are ",p:103,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"being defeated at Dongdoochun. Maybe we are all right. We ",p:103,x:114,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"must trust our military forces,” his father told him.",p:103,x:114,y:288,w:371,h:20},
{t:"Father and son sat with their ears tuned to the radio. “At ",p:103,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Ongjin, we captured tanks, rifes, muskets, machine guns, ",p:103,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and cannons. We destroyed one Communist battalion. A ",p:103,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Communist regimental commander voluntarily surrendered ",p:103,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"along with his regiment. Details of numbers of soldiers and ",p:103,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their names will be announced when we have them. We have ",p:103,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sunk an armed enemy warship that landed on the east coast.”",p:103,x:114,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s father heaved a sigh of relief. “That’s not ",p:103,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"bad. Our men have endured hardships, but they also have ",p:103,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fought off an assault and shouldn’t suffer too much harm. ",p:103,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Taking into account our competence, we might even end the ",p:103,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"war soon. It will be good if we can achieve unifcation by ",p:103,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"taking advantage of this opportunity, although we will suffer ",p:103,x:114,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"some losses. We could then visit our forsaken hometown.”",p:103,x:114,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon withdrew to his room but could not ",p:103,x:145,y:700,w:424,h:20},
{t:"sleep. The darkness slipped away, and daybreak came as ",p:103,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon headed to the morning worship service. He ",p:103,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"found a few army vehicles at Severance Hospital, unloading ",p:103,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wounded soldiers. Some staggered down from the vehicles on ",p:103,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their own, but the seriously injured lay unconscious, bleeding ",p:103,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"profusely despite the bandages wrapped around their hands, ",p:103,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"legs, shoulders, and eyes. He began to help carry them into the ",p:103,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"99",p:104,x:575,y:939,w:19,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:104,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"hospital. Doctors and nurses, who had been called in at night, ",p:104,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"checked the patients quickly, but there were so many patients ",p:104,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"that they could not care for all of them. ",p:104,x:115,y:150,w:289,h:20},
{t:"A nurse almost cried, overjoyed at his coming. “Oh, Mr. ",p:104,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Mang, thank you for coming. Surely God cares about us.” ",p:104,x:115,y:205,w:419,h:20},
{t:"The wounded soldiers cried out, “The Russian T34 tanks ",p:104,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"are horrifying and devastating! We cannot hold them back!”",p:104,x:115,y:260,w:439,h:20},
{t:"“We don’t have tanks. We don’t have even mines to destroy ",p:104,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"tanks,” said others.",p:104,x:115,y:315,w:139,h:20},
{t:"“It’s not just tanks we are lacking,” grumbled an ofcer ",p:104,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"whose uniform pants had been torn into strips to wrap his ",p:104,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"injured leg. “We only have a few cannons. The enemy is ",p:104,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"equipped with tanks that shoot with precision. If we had ",p:104,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"such equipment, we would not have suffered such a loss.” He ",p:104,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"seemed more concerned with equipment than his injury.",p:104,x:115,y:480,w:415,h:20},
{t:"A soldier lying on a blanket in the corridor cried out, “Give ",p:104,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"us tanks—tanks and cannons! I can go to the front . . . even ",p:104,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"now. My friends were killed. They died right beside me.”",p:104,x:115,y:563,w:413,h:20},
{t:"“We are struggling with a few M1 rifes. We have some ",p:104,x:145,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"mortars and light machine guns, but they are in short supply. ",p:104,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"We were deceived, blackmailed!” Other wounded soldiers, ",p:104,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"sprawled in the corridor, groaned in agreement.",p:104,x:115,y:673,w:352,h:20},
{t:"In October 1945, the year of Korean independence, the ",p:104,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"National Defense Headquarters was established. The following ",p:104,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"January, the National Defense Battalion (which later became ",p:104,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the ROK Army) was formed, designed by the United States. It ",p:104,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"became known as the poorest attempt at military logistics in ",p:104,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korean history. No military equipment was stockpiled, and the ",p:104,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"scarcity of commodities forced them to import US surplus ag-",p:104,x:115,y:865,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ricultural products rather than military supplies. The priority ",p:104,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"100",p:105,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:105,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"was daily food and clothes and commodities. All vehicles were ",p:105,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"mobilized for food transport, so there was no time or money ",p:105,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for military preparation. Furthermore, the US forces stationed ",p:105,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in Korea, as well as the US government, concluded that Korean ",p:105,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"affairs were a recurring nuisance and so made no contingency ",p:105,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"plans.1",p:105,x:115,y:233,w:48,h:20},
{t:"During the Second World War, the United States misjudged ",p:105,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"its ally Russia. By assuming Russia’s good intentions, by not ",p:105,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"analyzing the current situation critically, and by not looking ",p:105,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to the future, the United States blundered greatly and helped ",p:105,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bring about a tragic outcome in Korean history.2 To the United ",p:105,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"States, the Korean army was like a ragged bundle carried by a ",p:105,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"stranger in whom they had no interest at all. ",p:105,x:115,y:425,w:329,h:20},
{t:"When the US secretary of state, John Foster Dulles, vis-",p:105,x:145,y:453,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ited the front, he said the United States would continue to ",p:105,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"give economic aid for the democracy of Korea, but he stated ",p:105,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with an ill-advised confdence that there was no danger of ",p:105,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"war. He was briefed about what weapons the Korean army ",p:105,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had. He was told that eight divisions in the ROK Army were ",p:105,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"equipped with M1 rifes, while guerrilla combat teams had ",p:105,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"only outdated Japanese rifes. The United States supplied ",p:105,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"machine guns and mortars, but the feld artillery defending ",p:105,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the infantry divisions had outdated M-3 howitzers. But to the ",p:105,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Koreans’ chagrin, there were no tanks, no medium-distance ",p:105,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cannons, no 4.2-inch mortars, no recoilless guns, and no spare ",p:105,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"parts for army vehicles. Airplanes were not even considered. ",p:105,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"1. ",p:105,x:115,y:847,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Joseph C. Goulden, Korea: The Untold Story of the War (New York: Times ",p:105,x:133,y:847,w:404,h:15},
{t:"Books, 1982), pp. 30–2; Max Hastings, The Korean War ([PLACE]: Pan Books, ",p:105,x:115,y:864,w:419,h:15},
{t:"1987), pp. 35–6, 43, 45–7.",p:105,x:115,y:881,w:135,h:15},
{t:"2. ",p:105,x:115,y:897,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Ibid., pp. 16–8.",p:105,x:133,y:897,w:84,h:15},
{t:"101",p:106,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:106,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"The United States wanted to take advantage of Korea while ",p:106,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"maintaining popularity in the international arena. John Foster ",p:106,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Dulles stated, “Under United States care, the security of Korea ",p:106,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"is assured. No worry at all.”3",p:106,x:115,y:178,w:207,h:20},
{t:"The Korean Military Advisory Group (KMAG) and the US ",p:106,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Department of Defense controlling the KMAG orchestrated the ",p:106,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"same rhetoric. Two weeks after Dulles left declaring there was ",p:106,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“no danger of war in Korea,” and even before he arrived in the ",p:106,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"States carrying that report, the thirty-eighth parallel collapsed ",p:106,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"miserably. The young and passionate South Korean soldiers ",p:106,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"who had welcomed Dulles with genuine smiles when he vis-",p:106,x:114,y:370,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ited the front were now wiped out by the barrage of enemy ",p:106,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"artillery.4",p:106,x:114,y:425,w:67,h:20},
{t:"More wounded soldiers came in as day broke. Mang Eui-",p:106,x:145,y:453,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Soon stayed to help care for the wounded, under the direction ",p:106,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of nurses and doctors. An early morning radio message by John ",p:106,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Muccio, the US ambassador to Korea, came in. “We spent a day ",p:106,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in excitement and tension. But Korean soldiers are doing their ",p:106,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"best to defend freedom and independence. The status and po-",p:106,x:114,y:590,w:450,h:20},
{t:"sition of the Korean army this morning became strengthened ",p:106,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and it is doing much better compared to last night. The ROK ",p:106,x:114,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"army is praised nationally and internationally for its bravery ",p:106,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and excellence. I believe that the righteous purpose of the ",p:106,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korean people will be achieved. The trial is surprising and ",p:106,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"painful, but important and precious. I am sure that the brave ",p:106,x:114,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"struggle of Koreans will overcome hardship and attain victory. ",p:106,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"3. ",p:106,x:115,y:881,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Goulden, pp. 34, 53.",p:106,x:133,y:881,w:112,h:15},
{t:"4. ",p:106,x:115,y:897,w:12,h:15},
{t:"Ibid., pp. 37–41.",p:106,x:133,y:897,w:87,h:15},
{t:"102",p:107,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:107,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"We are united and will fulfll our duty as individuals or as a ",p:107,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"team until we attain victory.”5",p:107,x:115,y:123,w:217,h:20},
{t:"Everyone was glued to the radio for news. Those who ",p:107,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"listened to the radio felt relieved and thought that we were ",p:107,x:114,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"not alone as long as the United States was concerned with our ",p:107,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"affairs. The Korean Military Press Department announced, “In ",p:107,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the battle in Ongjin area our Seventeenth Regiment captured ",p:107,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Haejoo City, and our army around the thirty-eighth parallel is ",p:107,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"advancing twenty kilometers north of the border.” But there ",p:107,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was no mention of the Kaesong and Yeonbaek areas. ",p:107,x:114,y:343,w:386,h:20},
{t:"“Maybe they are all right, since we are doing well in Ongjin ",p:107,x:145,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"and other areas, too,” one person commented.",p:107,x:114,y:398,w:336,h:20},
{t:"But on his way from the hospital to visit the school, Mang ",p:107,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon could see how different things were in the areas ",p:107,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Namdaemun and the Seoul railroad station. People were ",p:107,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"behaving like refugees, moving toward the Han River to the ",p:107,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"south. Their usual white robes were dusted with yellowish ",p:107,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"clay. Some women had bundles on their heads. The radio ",p:107,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"spread good news, but what had happened to these people? ",p:107,x:114,y:590,w:438,h:20},
{t:"An old farmer was walking a cow. Mang Eui-Soon ap-",p:107,x:145,y:618,w:419,h:20},
{t:"proached him and asked, “What is going on?” ",p:107,x:114,y:645,w:335,h:20},
{t:"“I ",p:107,x:144,y:673,w:16,h:20},
{t:"don’t know. Yesterday, ",p:107,x:166,y:673,w:177,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:107,x:348,y:673,w:9,h:20},
{t:"was working in the feld. ",p:107,x:363,y:673,w:205,h:20},
{t:"Suddenly bullets rained all around me, and I hid on the edge ",p:107,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of the feld until there was a lull in the shelling. Then I took the ",p:107,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cow and walked here.” ",p:107,x:114,y:755,w:171,h:20},
{t:"“Where ",p:107,x:144,y:783,w:60,h:20},
{t:"is ",p:107,x:211,y:783,w:15,h:20},
{t:"your ",p:107,x:234,y:783,w:38,h:20},
{t:"family?” ",p:107,x:279,y:783,w:65,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon asked him. ",p:107,x:351,y:783,w:217,h:20},
{t:"“Where are you going?” ",p:107,x:114,y:810,w:178,h:20},
{t:"5. ",p:107,x:115,y:881,w:12,h:15},
{t:" John J. Muccio, interview by Richard D. McKinzie, http://www.trumanlibrary.",p:107,x:133,y:881,w:430,h:15},
{t:"org/oralhist/muccio3.htm, December 7, 1973.",p:107,x:115,y:897,w:248,h:15},
{t:"103",p:108,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:108,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"“I don’t know. I just came up here. I am humiliated. I ran ",p:108,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"away by myself not knowing the whereabouts of my wife and ",p:108,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"children.”",p:108,x:114,y:150,w:72,h:20},
{t:"“Is the war situation that serious? The radio reported that ",p:108,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"everything was okay.” ",p:108,x:114,y:205,w:164,h:20},
{t:"“We are suffering heavy losses. ",p:108,x:145,y:233,w:245,h:20},
{t:"It’s like lightning bolts ",p:108,x:393,y:233,w:175,h:20},
{t:"striking in a clear sky.”",p:108,x:114,y:260,w:166,h:20},
{t:"People passed by them in a hurry without paying attention ",p:108,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to their conversation. “If you don’t have a destination, what ",p:108,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"will you do now?” Mang Eui-Soon asked.",p:108,x:114,y:343,w:295,h:20},
{t:"“I ",p:108,x:145,y:370,w:16,h:20},
{t:"don’t know,” the man repeated. ",p:108,x:165,y:370,w:247,h:20},
{t:"“I ",p:108,x:416,y:370,w:16,h:20},
{t:"just ran away to ",p:108,x:436,y:370,w:132,h:20},
{t:"escape death.”",p:108,x:114,y:398,w:105,h:20},
{t:"The situation at the school was not much different. Both ",p:108,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"professors and students were panic stricken and focked from ",p:108,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"one place to another. Mang told his classmates and junior ",p:108,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"students that urgent tasks awaited them in the hospital. ",p:108,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Wounded soldiers are fooding the hospital. Doctors and ",p:108,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"nurses are working hard without breaks. We should go there ",p:108,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to help them. Standing here and doing nothing is making us ",p:108,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"despondent and miserable. Let’s go up there.”",p:108,x:114,y:618,w:333,h:20},
{t:"Just as they were leaving the school for the hospital, one of ",p:108,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"them shouted, “Look overhead! An enemy airplane!”",p:108,x:114,y:673,w:385,h:20},
{t:"Suddenly Mang shouted, “Those are Russian YAK fghter ",p:108,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"airplanes. Look, there is another one over there! Move back ",p:108,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"inside!”",p:108,x:114,y:755,w:56,h:20},
{t:"One student complained, “Why haven’t we heard any ",p:108,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"warning sirens? Haven’t the authorities noticed those planes ",p:108,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"overhead?”",p:108,x:114,y:838,w:83,h:20},
{t:"Bullets strafed the ground as the airplanes few toward ",p:108,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Yongsan, obscuring the midday sun. Another student shouted ",p:108,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"104",p:109,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:109,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"in exasperation, “Our antiaircraft guns are being fred at!” ",p:109,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"They could see one of their own airplanes in the sky, but it ",p:109,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"seemed ineffective against the two Russian planes. “That is ",p:109,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"just our training airplane,” the student said. “How can we ",p:109,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"compete against them?”",p:109,x:115,y:205,w:175,h:20},
{t:"The enemy planes invading Seoul few over the city, meet-",p:109,x:145,y:233,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ing no resistance. Leafets were dropped as they few over the ",p:109,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"navy headquarters of the Yongsan barracks near the govern-",p:109,x:115,y:288,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ment ofce building called Central Hall. The students walked ",p:109,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in despair toward Severance Hospital. ",p:109,x:115,y:343,w:282,h:20},
{t:"Mang glanced at the sky over Bupyung. “How is it over ",p:109,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"there?” he wondered. “Can they handle immobilized patients ",p:109,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in the face of such a grim situation? Captain Yu might be back ",p:109,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"home by now because she lives at Sangdo-Dong Neighborhood, ",p:109,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but what is she going to do?” ",p:109,x:115,y:480,w:213,h:20},
{t:"They saw a woman setting a table under the eaves of her ",p:109,x:145,y:508,w:424,h:20},
{t:"small store while listening to the radio. “What does it say?” a ",p:109,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"student asked her.",p:109,x:115,y:563,w:134,h:20},
{t:"She glanced at him and smiled. “We are doing well. A ",p:109,x:145,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"division recaptured the Euichungbu area and routed ffteen ",p:109,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"thousand of the enemy. Not only that, but they also destroyed ",p:109,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"more than ffty-eight tanks. Those ******** who brought in ",p:109,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their arsenals are now deserting, feeing us. War has already ",p:109,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"broken out. I hope the thirty-eighth parallel becomes totally ",p:109,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"broken, and we take advantage of this chance.” In incredulous ",p:109,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"silence, the students left this naive woman and moved on ",p:109,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"toward the hospital.",p:109,x:115,y:810,w:147,h:20},
{t:"The scene at the hospital entrance was unbearable to wit-",p:109,x:145,y:838,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ness. A car rushed in, packed with mutilated soldiers, limbs ",p:109,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"torn apart, bodies covered in blood. Mang Eui-Soon and those ",p:109,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"105",p:110,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:110,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"with him looked on in horror. “Take the wounded into the ",p:110,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"emergency room,” he ordered. “Find some blankets in the ",p:110,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hospital and bring them here. Turn around and move this ",p:110,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"man into . . .”",p:110,x:115,y:178,w:98,h:20},
{t:"“He’s dead,” someone sighed faintly. The man’s body was ",p:110,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"still warm and lay peacefully on the ground. The shrapnel had ",p:110,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"passed through him, and blood was pouring out of his body. ",p:110,x:115,y:260,w:440,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon laid him to one side and knelt before him. ",p:110,x:145,y:288,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Maybe he was lucky to be dead rather than having to suffer ",p:110,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"like those who were still alive. He prayed, “Lord, I entrust his ",p:110,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"soul to your hands.” Tears welled up in Mang Eui-Soon’s eyes, ",p:110,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and his heart sank. “Whose son are you? You are the eye of ",p:110,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"your mother. You are the fortress of your father. You are the ",p:110,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"beloved son, brother, and a pillar for your family, and the ",p:110,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"starlight hidden in the heart of your lover.”",p:110,x:115,y:480,w:316,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon had little time to mourn. A nurse who ",p:110,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"knew him grabbed him. “Mr. Mang, Mr. Mang!” she repeated ",p:110,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"in an urgent tone. “We badly need help. I am so glad you are ",p:110,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"here.”",p:110,x:115,y:590,w:44,h:20},
{t:"When he fnally arrived home that night, Mang Eui-Soon ",p:110,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"found his father listening intently, as before, to the radio news. ",p:110,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Dad, I think they are spreading false news. It still reports ",p:110,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"things favorably for us, but the reality is very different.”",p:110,x:115,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"“No, Son, we should still believe them. We must trust them. ",p:110,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"What would happen if people didn’t trust their government? ",p:110,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"In this time of hardship we must trust and stay united and ",p:110,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"help others. What can the government do if the people do not ",p:110,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"trust it? Never say that!”",p:110,x:115,y:838,w:177,h:20},
{t:"“Dad, I saw a mass of humanity feeing near Namdaemun, ",p:110,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the Seoul railroad station, and on the road to Yongsan. ",p:110,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"106",p:111,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:111,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"The area of Chungyangri was clogged with refugees from ",p:111,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Euichungbu.” ",p:111,x:115,y:123,w:103,h:20},
{t:"“They are impatient. People following the government ",p:111,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"directive are true citizens.”",p:111,x:115,y:178,w:198,h:20},
{t:"The son looked up at his father in silence. Despite a big, ",p:111,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"strong bone structure and broad features, Elder Mang pos-",p:111,x:115,y:233,w:450,h:20},
{t:"sessed a meek heart. “Because we have our own government, ",p:111,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we are protected and can have a good night’s sleep. They are ",p:111,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"human beings, and sometimes they can make mistakes. If we ",p:111,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"blame and criticize them every time, how can they rule the ",p:111,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"country? We have to trust our government.”",p:111,x:115,y:370,w:322,h:20},
{t:"“Yes, Dad. I am working at the hospital, and I might not ",p:111,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"come home tomorrow. Don’t worry about me, and don’t wait ",p:111,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"up for me.”",p:111,x:115,y:453,w:82,h:20},
{t:"—",p:111,x:286,y:366,w:106,h:189},
{t:"Dark clouds settled over the hospital where the will to ",p:111,x:145,y:557,w:424,h:20},
{t:"live and the stillness of death coexisted. Doctors and nurses ",p:111,x:114,y:584,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who had gone sleepless for two days were like machines. ",p:111,x:114,y:612,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Accumulated fatigue and the grim reality they constantly ",p:111,x:114,y:639,w:453,h:20},
{t:"faced deprived them of emotion. Their eyes were bloodshot ",p:111,x:114,y:667,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and their lips were chapped. By midnight of the next day, June ",p:111,x:114,y:694,w:454,h:20},
{t:"26, many soldiers had died after undergoing surgery. Others ",p:111,x:114,y:722,w:453,h:20},
{t:"died where they were, lying in corners and on the sides of the ",p:111,x:114,y:749,w:453,h:20},
{t:"room.",p:111,x:114,y:777,w:43,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon took a soldier who had been shot in the ",p:111,x:145,y:804,w:424,h:20},
{t:"abdomen from the truck and hurried him to surgery. His heart ",p:111,x:114,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ached for him as he carried him and laid him in a bed in the ",p:111,x:114,y:859,w:454,h:20},
{t:"corridor. The soldier grabbed Mang Eui-Soon’s sleeve and ",p:111,x:114,y:887,w:453,h:20},
{t:"107",p:112,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:112,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"cried, “Please don’t go away. Stay with me.” His eyes were as ",p:112,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"black and pure as a deer’s as he stared into the air and mut-",p:112,x:115,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tered, “Mo . . . Mom, Mom.” ",p:112,x:115,y:150,w:204,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon held his hands as the soldier whispered, “I ",p:112,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"am afraid and so sad. Those people who shot me and killed my ",p:112,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"friend used the same language as ours. They looked like me.” ",p:112,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"He began to cry as the soldier continued. “My friend, I left him ",p:112,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in the feld. The corn and beans were growing where he lay ",p:112,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"down. I should be there with him.”",p:112,x:115,y:315,w:254,h:20},
{t:"“I know. I know what it meant to you. Please do not talk. ",p:112,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"First have the surgery, and when you are recovered, we can ",p:112,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"talk more.”",p:112,x:115,y:398,w:81,h:20},
{t:"The soldier nodded, pressed Mang Eui-Soon’s hand, and ",p:112,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"closed his eyes, calling for his mother and his friend still lying ",p:112,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in the feld. Mang Eui-Soon knelt down by his bed. He could ",p:112,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"still feel the soldier’s warmth. But he could not pray. He should ",p:112,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"have prayed, “Lord, embrace his soul,” but he couldn’t. He ",p:112,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wondered if the lingering, thin smile on the soldier’s dry lips ",p:112,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"meant that his soul had met his mother.",p:112,x:115,y:590,w:291,h:20},
{t:"He had to leave him to report the death immediately. The ",p:112,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"empty bed was needed for others. Once a person died, he was ",p:112,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"counted as a casualty. Priority needed to be given to those still ",p:112,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"alive. The dead bodies were moved out, one by one, without ",p:112,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"pause or hesitation. Mang Eui-Soon thought, A body is mean-",p:112,x:115,y:728,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ingless and ugly when breathing stops. Why does God have ",p:112,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"us look at this separation of body from life? His questioning ",p:112,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"became desperate. He was exhausted and unable to move.",p:112,x:114,y:810,w:425,h:20},
{t:"At six o’clock in the morning of June 27, 1950, the tone of ",p:112,x:145,y:838,w:424,h:20},
{t:"the news drastically changed. No longer were we winning the ",p:112,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"war. The government decided to move the capital to Suwon ",p:112,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"108",p:113,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:113,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"temporarily because the surrounding area of Seoul was under ",p:113,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"enemy control. There were no directions for the people about ",p:113,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"what to do. The same news was reported over and over. ",p:113,x:115,y:150,w:412,h:20},
{t:"“No, how could it be?” people asked, feeling betrayed and ",p:113,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"shattered. “Could we not resist for three days? What should ",p:113,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we do?”",p:113,x:115,y:233,w:58,h:20},
{t:"Even at the hospital, there were no directives or special ",p:113,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"information given. Some ofcials and soldiers in charge of ",p:113,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"transporting the wounded took care of them. Mang Eui-Soon ",p:113,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"watched from a hospital window as masses of people passed ",p:113,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"through the Seoul railroad station. Amplifying the chaos, ",p:113,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the shrieking of cannons and missiles resonated nearer and ",p:113,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"nearer. People were feeing south to escape the cannon fre. ",p:113,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"The Yongsan area leading to the Han River was jammed with ",p:113,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"waves of humanity. Cars crowded the roads. Army trucks ",p:113,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"carried wounded soldiers. Trucks were packed tight with refu-",p:113,x:115,y:508,w:450,h:20},
{t:"gees. Vehicles were camoufaged with branches. But the cars ",p:113,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"rolled at the same speed as the walkers. How could they leave ",p:113,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"their homes that easily, abandoning everything they knew and ",p:113,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"loved? Where were they going? What awaited them? Would ",p:113,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the government be able to establish itself at Suwon? ",p:113,x:115,y:645,w:383,h:20},
{t:"The trucks kept bringing in the wounded soldiers, bleeding ",p:113,x:145,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"and crying in agony. Then a voice in the crowd shouted, “The ",p:113,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Euichungbu resistance line has collapsed. We are trapped. We ",p:113,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are fghting with our bare hands. We don’t have enough hand ",p:113,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"grenades. If I had some, I would throw myself at a tank. My ",p:113,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"friend did that and disappeared in a blast. But we don’t have ",p:113,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hand grenades, so we climb over the tanks and fght, smashing ",p:113,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them with hammers and axes under a barrage of machine-",p:113,x:115,y:865,w:449,h:20},
{t:"gun fre.” ",p:113,x:115,y:893,w:72,h:20},
{t:"109",p:114,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:114,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"And still, the radio continued to send news that Euichungbu ",p:114,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"was recaptured, giving false solace to our agony. Nurses in ",p:114,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"army fatigues shouted the news, “Euichungbu is recaptured. ",p:114,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Euichungbu is recaptured.” Through the streams of refugees, ",p:114,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"someone posted the news on the walls to inform the people. ",p:114,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"But the sound of cannons came closer and closer.",p:114,x:114,y:233,w:359,h:20},
{t:"“Isn’t that strange, that we are hearing the cannons grow ",p:114,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"louder and louder when Euichungbu has been recaptured?” ",p:114,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"someone said.",p:114,x:114,y:315,w:103,h:20},
{t:"People felt confused and couldn’t decide whether to re-",p:114,x:145,y:343,w:419,h:20},
{t:"treat or not. Around three thirty in the afternoon, the radio ",p:114,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"fnally announced good news. “Tomorrow morning, June 28, ",p:114,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"at eight o’clock, US forces will join the war. A war ofce has ",p:114,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"been formed in General MacArthur’s headquarters, and the ",p:114,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"operation is under way.”",p:114,x:114,y:480,w:179,h:20},
{t:"While Mang Eui-Soon listened to the news, he felt relieved, ",p:114,x:144,y:508,w:424,h:20},
{t:"but then he suddenly thought: What stupid mentality was this? ",p:114,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Why should we take it for granted that the United States will ",p:114,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"help us? Who will be the target, and who will be killed? And who ",p:114,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are the ones invading from the North, ruthlessly slaughtering ",p:114,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and devastating this land? My face looks like theirs. We are ",p:114,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"brothers, sharing the same blood; but they are getting weapons ",p:114,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"from Russia and engaging in ruthless killing. Why are people in ",p:114,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this land bringing in foreign soldiers to kill our people in order ",p:114,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to govern us? This is a strange and shameful country.",p:114,x:114,y:755,w:379,h:20},
{t:"A long time ago the Korean Peninsula had boasted a uni-",p:114,x:144,y:783,w:419,h:20},
{t:"fed Silla kingdom, but this unifcation was attained through ",p:114,x:114,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the military intervention of Tang China. Four hundred years ",p:114,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"later the Koryo kingdom faced the threat of invasion by the ",p:114,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mongols. There was a difference of opinion about how to ",p:114,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"110",p:115,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:115,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"deal with this threat. The position of the patriotic army, ",p:115,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"called Sambyulcho, insisted on resistance. The government ",p:115,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sought a peace treaty with the Mongols that effectively gave ",p:115,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them control of the country. How did the government handle ",p:115,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"itself in the face of the Mongol invasion? They crushed the ",p:115,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Sambyulcho army, effectively inviting the Mongols to take ",p:115,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"control of the country.6 ",p:115,x:115,y:260,w:171,h:20},
{t:"Another shameful aspect of Korean history is how the ",p:115,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"followers of the Tonghak (Eastern Learning) movement were ",p:115,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"treated. This native religious movement attempted to bring ",p:115,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"about political reform and social justice, minimizing the for-",p:115,x:114,y:370,w:450,h:20},
{t:"eign infuences and enhancing the qualities of the common ",p:115,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"people. The corrupt government of the Yi dynasty (Choson ",p:115,x:114,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"kingdom) invited the Japanese and Chinese armies to halt the ",p:115,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"spread of the Tonghak insurgents, resulting in crushing and ",p:115,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"beating down its own people using foreign troops.7",p:115,x:114,y:508,w:370,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon realized that in order to control Korea, ",p:115,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the North had brought in the Russians to invade and kill the ",p:115,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Korean people, and the South was looking to the United States ",p:115,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for help and security. With the United States joining the war, ",p:115,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon wondered what fate lay ahead for his land, his ",p:115,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"country. “What will happen to us, if we take things so care-",p:115,x:114,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"lessly and do not learn the lessons of the past? Even more, ",p:115,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what is my role, and how should I fulfll it?”",p:115,x:114,y:728,w:320,h:20},
{t:"6. ",p:115,x:115,y:864,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Ki-Baik Lee, A New History of Korea, translated by Edward W. Wagner with ",p:115,x:133,y:864,w:421,h:15},
{t:"Edward J. Shultz (Harvard University Press, 1984), pp. 66–7, 151, 283–90.",p:115,x:114,y:881,w:401,h:15},
{t:"7. ",p:115,x:115,y:897,w:12,h:15},
{t:" Ibid.",p:115,x:133,y:897,w:28,h:15},
{t:"111",p:116,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:116,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"Seoul in Turmoil",p:116,x:255,y:94,w:169,h:26},
{t:"As darkness approached, it began to drizzle. Cannons roared ",p:116,x:115,y:141,w:453,h:20},
{t:"nearby. Despite the rain and darkness, refugees continued to ",p:116,x:115,y:169,w:453,h:20},
{t:"pour onto the roads. On one side of the hospital, the bodies ",p:116,x:115,y:196,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of the dead piled up. Because of the shortage of workers, it ",p:116,x:115,y:224,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was almost impossible to take in the increasing number of ",p:116,x:115,y:251,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wounded soldiers. What was worse was that there were still ",p:116,x:115,y:279,w:453,h:20},
{t:"no directives from the authorities. ",p:116,x:115,y:306,w:254,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon worried about his family. What should ",p:116,x:145,y:334,w:424,h:20},
{t:"he do? Should he be at home with his parents? Should he tell ",p:116,x:115,y:361,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them to fee south? Mang Eui-Soon talked with an army sur-",p:116,x:115,y:389,w:450,h:20},
{t:"geon and a major in charge of transport. “I would like to see ",p:116,x:115,y:416,w:454,h:20},
{t:"my parents for a little while and come back early tomorrow ",p:116,x:115,y:444,w:453,h:20},
{t:"morning.”",p:116,x:115,y:471,w:74,h:20},
{t:"The surgeon smiled and patted him on the back and said, ",p:116,x:145,y:499,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“You have done ten times more than what we have done. I ",p:116,x:115,y:526,w:453,h:20},
{t:"know you are worried about your family. Your dedication and ",p:116,x:115,y:554,w:453,h:20},
{t:"attitude assured me that there is a future for our country. I ",p:116,x:115,y:581,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have a little time now and will take you in my car because it ",p:116,x:115,y:609,w:454,h:20},
{t:"is raining so heavily.” He glanced at his watch. It was past one ",p:116,x:115,y:636,w:454,h:20},
{t:"o’clock in the morning.",p:116,x:115,y:664,w:168,h:20},
{t:"The major urged Mang Eui-Soon into his jeep. Heavy rain ",p:116,x:145,y:691,w:423,h:20},
{t:"pounded down on the stream of refugees. The major left the ",p:116,x:115,y:719,w:454,h:20},
{t:"entrance of Severance Hospital, but the jeep could not get ",p:116,x:115,y:746,w:453,h:20},
{t:"through the lines of people. Mang Eui-Soon said, “I will get ",p:116,x:115,y:774,w:454,h:20},
{t:"out. It will be much faster.” ",p:116,x:115,y:801,w:203,h:20},
{t:"The major turned on the fashlight, glanced at his watch, ",p:116,x:145,y:829,w:424,h:20},
{t:"and nodded. With his fashlight he illuminated Mang Eui-",p:116,x:115,y:856,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Soon’s face. “We couldn’t look each other in the face because ",p:116,x:115,y:884,w:453,h:20},
{t:"112",p:117,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:117,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"we were so rushed with work. Ah, the face of Korea, the face ",p:117,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of conscience. Thank you.”",p:117,x:115,y:123,w:195,h:20},
{t:"The heavy showers quickly drenched Mang Eui-Soon. He ",p:117,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"walked slowly, pushing his way forward as if he were swim-",p:117,x:115,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ming. Endless lines of refugees moved along in a cacophony of ",p:117,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"vocal despair. They had no fnal destination but single-mind-",p:117,x:115,y:233,w:450,h:20},
{t:"edly wanted to cross the Han River. He hurried home. Elder ",p:117,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang and his wife sat in the lamplight in a corner, listening ",p:117,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to the radio. ",p:117,x:115,y:315,w:92,h:20},
{t:"“Oh, my dear, you are soaked from the rain,” his stepmoth-",p:117,x:145,y:343,w:419,h:20},
{t:"er said, delighted at his return. “Wash and dry yourself with a ",p:117,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"towel.” As she poured water over the basin from the cistern, ",p:117,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"she said, “The United States has joined the war reluctantly.”",p:117,x:115,y:425,w:434,h:20},
{t:"The three family members sat quietly. Finally Elder Mang ",p:117,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"asked, “Are there many refugees on the road?”",p:117,x:115,y:480,w:338,h:20},
{t:"“Yes, Dad. They are clogging the road, despite the rain.”",p:117,x:145,y:508,w:403,h:20},
{t:"“What will happen?”",p:117,x:145,y:535,w:152,h:20},
{t:"“I don’t know. The situation is unpredictable. I think our ",p:117,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"countrymen have forgotten one thing that we must do. “",p:117,x:115,y:590,w:410,h:20},
{t:"“What’s that?”",p:117,x:145,y:618,w:104,h:20},
{t:"“Think about why we are in this miserable situation. ",p:117,x:145,y:645,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Everyone is struggling to survive by running away, but nobody ",p:117,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dares to think why we are in this situation. It reminds me of ",p:117,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the words from Jeremiah 4: ‘Break up your fallow ground, ",p:117,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and sow not among thorns. Circumcise yourselves to the Lord, ",p:117,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"remove the foreskin of your hearts . . . lest my wrath go forth ",p:117,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"like fre, and burn with none to quench it, because of the evil ",p:117,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of your doings.’”",p:117,x:115,y:838,w:120,h:20},
{t:"His father closed his eyes and said nothing. The sound of ",p:117,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"rain was all that broke the silence.",p:117,x:115,y:893,w:250,h:20},
{t:"113",p:118,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:118,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"Suddenly, a tremendous din of explosions shook the ",p:118,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"ground. The three of them caught their breath together. A ",p:118,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"bomb drop? An atomic bomb, even? Another explosion and ",p:118,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"then silence and more rain. ",p:118,x:114,y:178,w:205,h:20},
{t:"“It sounded like a bomb, but I could not tell for sure,” said ",p:118,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Elder Mang, irritated. “The world will end like that! Get some ",p:118,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sleep, Son. You look tired. I don’t think anything else will hap-",p:118,x:114,y:260,w:450,h:20},
{t:"pen until dawn.” ",p:118,x:114,y:288,w:126,h:20},
{t:"Mang went to his room and lay on the foor, but he felt ",p:118,x:144,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"suffocated by the rain and the roar of artillery fre. The last ",p:118,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"two days had been like an eternal hell. Afraid to sleep, he also ",p:118,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"longed to forget everything in sleep. Finally, exhausted, he fell ",p:118,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"asleep.",p:118,x:114,y:425,w:50,h:20},
{t:"He awoke to brilliant sunlight shining through the win-",p:118,x:144,y:453,w:419,h:20},
{t:"dow. Guiltily, he sprang from the foor. “I did not wake you up ",p:118,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"because you were so exhausted,” said Kwonsa La, hesitantly. ",p:118,x:114,y:508,w:445,h:20},
{t:"The storm clouds had disappeared completely. The gunfre ",p:118,x:144,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"had stopped. The crystal clear sky revealed a tranquility that ",p:118,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"subdued all the cruel sounds of war.",p:118,x:114,y:590,w:265,h:20},
{t:"“Oh, the hospital! . . . I slept too long. How is Dad?”",p:118,x:144,y:618,w:369,h:20},
{t:"“He fell asleep a moment ago. I want him to sleep because ",p:118,x:144,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he needs it. For some unknown reason, the radio broadcasting ",p:118,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"has stopped. It seems that the enemy troops have retreated.”",p:118,x:114,y:700,w:442,h:20},
{t:"“Maybe,” said Mang Eui-Soon.",p:118,x:144,y:728,w:218,h:20},
{t:"He walked briskly toward the hospital, feeling sorry for ",p:118,x:144,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"those who had worked all night. But suddenly he was afraid. ",p:118,x:114,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Strange tanks plastered with yellow mud stains were rolling ",p:118,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"toward the Yungchun Dongripmoon (Independence Gate), ",p:118,x:114,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"their noisy engines numbing the ears. The tank hatches were ",p:118,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"open, and inside strange soldiers dressed in mustard-colored ",p:118,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"114",p:119,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:119,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"uniforms were aiming their machine guns outside. People lin-",p:119,x:115,y:95,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing the streets were waving hastily made red fags. What are ",p:119,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"these people doing here? thought Mang Eui-Soon, momentarily ",p:119,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"paralyzed. ",p:119,x:115,y:178,w:80,h:20},
{t:"He saw a neighbor walking by, looking exhausted, with ",p:119,x:145,y:205,w:424,h:20},
{t:"his two young sons. He hurried with them into an alley. The ",p:119,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"old man whispered in tears, “Last night we tried to leave. Just ",p:119,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"past midnight, the bridge over the Han River was blown out. ",p:119,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"It was said that our own army did that for tactical reasons, but ",p:119,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"many refugees were killed by the blast or drowned when they ",p:119,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fell into the river. At daybreak, we returned home, only to fnd ",p:119,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Seoul was already in the hands of the enemy. My wife and I ",p:119,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"came home separately in case we were found feeing and the ",p:119,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"enemy killed us. We are doomed to death! Please don’t walk ",p:119,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"around. Hide somewhere.” ",p:119,x:115,y:480,w:201,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon hurried back home. Elder Mang was now ",p:119,x:145,y:508,w:424,h:20},
{t:"awake and had heard the radio announcement that Seoul was ",p:119,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"under control of the enemy. “What curse has come upon us?” ",p:119,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"he cried in panic.",p:119,x:115,y:590,w:126,h:20},
{t:"“Dad, the street is now lined with Communist tanks. I saw ",p:119,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"civilians waving red fags. The explosion last night came when ",p:119,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the Han River Bridge was demolished.”",p:119,x:115,y:673,w:286,h:20},
{t:"Making up his mind to return to the hospital, Mang Eui-",p:119,x:145,y:700,w:419,h:20},
{t:"Soon felt helplessness overwhelm him as he walked along ",p:119,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the street. The crispness of the air washed by rains seemed ",p:119,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to exist without purpose. Thunderous tanks rolled by, and the ",p:119,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"futtering red fags appeared to be a mirage. Neither rampant ",p:119,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"joy nor lamentable despair welcomed the tanks. It was more ",p:119,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"like complete confusion. Seoul was now like a closed, devas-",p:119,x:115,y:865,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tated city. The government had fooled the people by saying ",p:119,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"115",p:120,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:120,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"everything was all right, and then the leaders had run away ",p:120,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with their own possessions, abandoning their citizens. On ",p:120,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Monday, June 26, 1950, the Korean president, Rhee Syngman, ",p:120,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"decided to abandon Seoul because he thought that his army ",p:120,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"could not hold Seoul anymore. The decision touched off angry ",p:120,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"debate in the national assembly. After an hour-long debate, the ",p:120,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"assembly voted, and the decision was made that the majority ",p:120,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"would stay in Seoul with the people. Late on Monday night the ",p:120,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"president’s staff assembled two special trains to carry him, his ",p:120,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"chief advisers, and their families south away from the battle. ",p:120,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"The majority of members of the national assembly who had ",p:120,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"voted only hours earlier to remain in Seoul, regardless of the ",p:120,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Communist advance, had fed south across the Han River.8 ",p:120,x:115,y:425,w:430,h:20},
{t:"When the people tried ",p:120,x:145,y:453,w:185,h:20},
{t:"to ",p:120,x:337,y:453,w:18,h:20},
{t:"follow after the assembly ",p:120,x:361,y:453,w:207,h:20},
{t:"members, the panicked ROK forces prematurely blew out the ",p:120,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bridge over the Han River to delay the advance of the North ",p:120,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Koreans.9 The citizens of Seoul were entrapped on June 28, ",p:120,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"1950, without any knowledge of what was going on. Overnight, ",p:120,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their world had changed. ",p:120,x:114,y:590,w:188,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon hurried toward the Seoul railroad sta-",p:120,x:145,y:618,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tion. Although they were the enemy, he thought, they are still ",p:120,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"human. If we ask them for help for the wounded, they might ",p:120,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"give us some special allowance. With this hope, he felt a new ",p:120,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"determination. ",p:120,x:114,y:728,w:113,h:20},
{t:"Passing ",p:120,x:145,y:755,w:59,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:120,x:212,y:755,w:27,h:20},
{t:"Yumchung Bridge, he met a panicked ",p:120,x:248,y:755,w:320,h:20},
{t:"nurse. ",p:120,x:114,y:783,w:51,h:20},
{t:"“Where are you going, Mr. Mang? Don’t go to the ",p:120,x:169,y:783,w:399,h:20},
{t:"8. ",p:120,x:115,y:881,w:12,h:15},
{t:"Goulden, pp. 71, 79.",p:120,x:133,y:881,w:109,h:15},
{t:"9. ",p:120,x:115,y:897,w:12,h:15},
{t:"Ibid, p. 89.",p:120,x:133,y:897,w:58,h:15},
{t:"116",p:121,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:121,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"hospital if that’s what you are intending. We must escape ",p:121,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"immediately.”",p:121,x:115,y:123,w:103,h:20},
{t:"“What happened?” he asked, dismayed that he had slept ",p:121,x:145,y:150,w:424,h:20},
{t:"in.",p:121,x:115,y:178,w:19,h:20},
{t:"“They’ve occupied the hospital. I went home before dawn ",p:121,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"for a break and went back to the hospital a moment ago. They ",p:121,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were dragging our wounded soldiers out into the backyard to ",p:121,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"shoot them! Oh God . . .” Overwhelmed with tears, she could ",p:121,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"not fnish. Mang Eui-Soon started to leave her to head toward ",p:121,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the hospital, but she hung on to him. “It’s useless. Even if you ",p:121,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"go there, they won’t listen to you. If you go there, your life will ",p:121,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"end with a gunshot. Don’t go, please. Trust me.”",p:121,x:115,y:398,w:347,h:20},
{t:"“I have to see for myself.”",p:121,x:145,y:425,w:187,h:20},
{t:"“Then I will go with you.”",p:121,x:145,y:453,w:186,h:20},
{t:"After crossing at the Seoul railroad station, they followed a ",p:121,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"hill and hid in the bushes. The trees were fresh after the over-",p:121,x:115,y:508,w:450,h:20},
{t:"night rains, and everything could be clearly seen in the sun-",p:121,x:115,y:535,w:450,h:20},
{t:"light. Behind the tile-roofed houses, they could see Severance ",p:121,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Hospital. They saw soldiers dressed in drab, mustard-colored ",p:121,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"uniforms pulling out the wounded, dragging or pushing them ",p:121,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"out, and throwing them beside a wall. ",p:121,x:115,y:645,w:280,h:20},
{t:"“Soon we will hear shots. And it will be over,” she said.",p:121,x:145,y:673,w:400,h:20},
{t:"“Aren’t they going to treat them as POWs? How could this ",p:121,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"happen?”",p:121,x:115,y:728,w:69,h:20},
{t:"“To the Communists the wounded are a nuisance. It would ",p:121,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"be a headache to feed and care for them as POWs. They might ",p:121,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"need the hospital to accommodate their own men. The staff ",p:121,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who spent three straight nights there were sent home for a ",p:121,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"break, but the others remained there without any choice in ",p:121,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the matter.”",p:121,x:115,y:893,w:87,h:20},
{t:"117",p:122,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:122,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"“What will happen to them?”",p:122,x:145,y:95,w:212,h:20},
{t:"“They will be kept under watch.”",p:122,x:145,y:123,w:240,h:20},
{t:"“How terrible it is for all of them.”",p:122,x:145,y:150,w:249,h:20},
{t:"“Yes, especially on this brilliant morning.”",p:122,x:145,y:178,w:306,h:20},
{t:"“Ah, why is the sky so blue . . . why the sun so dazzling?” ",p:122,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"thought both Mang and the nurse. Her whole body shaking, ",p:122,x:114,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the nurse held Mang’s hands in her own as she said goodbye.",p:122,x:114,y:260,w:444,h:20},
{t:"On the street, everything was becoming even more chaotic. ",p:122,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Civilians were being forced onto the street without knowing ",p:122,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"why and made to lift their hands and shout “Hurrah,” fearing ",p:122,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the consequences if they refused. Continuing down through ",p:122,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the street were the growling tanks, cannons, howitzers, and ",p:122,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"guns of the occupiers.",p:122,x:114,y:425,w:159,h:20},
{t:"“How can we survive?” he said to himself. “Survive, what ",p:122,x:145,y:453,w:424,h:20},
{t:"does that mean? To live?” He thought about his mother, his ",p:122,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"older sister, his older brother, and his younger sister—all ",p:122,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"dead. Suddenly it occurred to him that they might be lucky. ",p:122,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"To be alive meant to suffer and to continue to suffer. Why am ",p:122,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I alive, thought Mang, if only to suffer? What awaits me? He ",p:122,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"lifted up his head, looking into the sky.",p:122,x:114,y:618,w:281,h:20},
{t:"Hiding on Chungnung Mountain",p:122,x:178,y:684,w:323,h:26},
{t:"The sun was blazing and the earth was dry and dusty as Mang ",p:122,x:115,y:732,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon climbed Chungnung Mountain near Seoul. Reverend ",p:122,x:115,y:759,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Bae from Namdaemun Church climbed with him. They were ",p:122,x:115,y:787,w:453,h:20},
{t:"searching for a safe place deep in the mountains to avoid ",p:122,x:115,y:814,w:453,h:20},
{t:"capture by the Communists. Shade from the trees offered little ",p:122,x:115,y:842,w:453,h:20},
{t:"respite from the sun. ",p:122,x:115,y:869,w:156,h:20},
{t:"118",p:123,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:123,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"“I cannot go on anymore. Let’s take a rest and have some ",p:123,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"water,” said a pale Reverend Bae. While pouring water, Mang ",p:123,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon looked at his hands and laughed bitterly, remem-",p:123,x:114,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"bering his stepmother and what she had said in their last ",p:123,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"moments together. “Rub your hands, both the back and palm ",p:123,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with dirt. When the soldiers catch people, they frst examine ",p:123,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the hands to see whether they are laborers or not.” Then she ",p:123,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had rubbed the backs and palms of his hands mercilessly with ",p:123,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"coarse sand. ",p:123,x:114,y:315,w:94,h:20},
{t:"The four then had held a worship service. As Reverend ",p:123,x:144,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Bae and Mang Eui-Soon were leaving, the elder Mang had ",p:123,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"looked at his son with a deep sadness. “Continue to pray to ",p:123,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"seek courage and wisdom. God is with you,” he had said, his ",p:123,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"eyes flled with compassion. ",p:123,x:114,y:453,w:209,h:20},
{t:"His stepmother’s words were: “Pray, whether you are ",p:123,x:144,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"walking, sitting, awaking, or slumbering. Pray constantly. And ",p:123,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"let the words of the Bible not depart from you. Whatever hard-",p:123,x:114,y:535,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ship we may have, it is the will of God. Just give thanks to God, ",p:123,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"lest you grieve him.” ",p:123,x:114,y:590,w:154,h:20},
{t:"He looked at his rough hands again. “How can my disguised ",p:123,x:144,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"hands fool the Communists? I’ve never used them for labor.” ",p:123,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Reverend Bae, exhausted, was asleep against a pine tree. Mang ",p:123,x:114,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon watched the older man sleep and wondered about ",p:123,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"him. At forty years of age, he was in the prime of life, but this ",p:123,x:114,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"difcult traveling had tired him so quickly. He had devoted his ",p:123,x:114,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"life to saving souls and not to physical labor either.",p:123,x:114,y:783,w:371,h:20},
{t:"He checked to see how much food was left in the bundle he ",p:123,x:144,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"was carrying on his back: a few loaves of wheat bread, some ",p:123,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"roasted barley powder his stepmom had prepared, some salt, ",p:123,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"119",p:124,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:124,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"and a few pounds of rice. That was all. How long this would ",p:124,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"support them? The steamy weather amplifed their distress. ",p:124,x:115,y:123,w:440,h:20},
{t:"Just six days after Seoul had been abandoned, the enemy ",p:124,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"also captured Suwon, and it had already been a week since the ",p:124,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"next line of our defense had been established. How far had ",p:124,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"our government retreated? Communist radio bragged of the ",p:124,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"imminent liberation of Busan, but our radio announced that ",p:124,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the army had retreated. If the government’s announcement ",p:124,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"could be trusted, the enemy was having a hard time in the ",p:124,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Suwon battle, but who knew the truth? ",p:124,x:115,y:343,w:288,h:20},
{t:"In Seoul, starvation was pervasive. The only ones who ",p:124,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"walked confdently were rife-carrying Communists and the ",p:124,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"few collaborators. Grain felds at their peak ready to be har-",p:124,x:115,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"vested were devastated by gunfre and tanks. The war would ",p:124,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"kill more people by starvation than by bullets and bombs. ",p:124,x:115,y:480,w:425,h:20},
{t:"At night, they had to worry about the persistent mosqui-",p:124,x:145,y:508,w:419,h:20},
{t:"toes. Mang Eui-Soon wondered, “How can such little suckers ",p:124,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"enjoy the taste of blood!” Still, this mountain seemed like a ",p:124,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"paradise compared to hiding under the foor of Hapdong ",p:124,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"house. There were stars overhead instead of a miasma of fungi ",p:124,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"penetrating the skin and the piercing smells from the mixture ",p:124,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of fungi and sweat. ",p:124,x:115,y:673,w:143,h:20},
{t:"The Communists had detailed lists of people who had fed ",p:124,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to the South before the start of the war in 1950, numbering ",p:124,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"about two million people. An extensive search was under-",p:124,x:115,y:755,w:450,h:20},
{t:"taken. In the middle of the nights before he and Reverend Bae ",p:124,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"set out, enemy soldiers had searched houses, cruelly attacking ",p:124,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"like nocturnal animals. He and his family had been attacked ",p:124,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"twice, but they had hidden under the foor and were not ",p:124,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"discovered. In the darkness at the sound of the army boots ",p:124,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"120",p:125,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:125,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"trampling above him on the foor, Mang Eui-Soon had felt as if ",p:125,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he were in a deep sea of fear, like a man just before drowning. ",p:125,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Why, Lord? What is your will for me? Why do I feel that you ",p:125,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are not here? Why do you hide me in the midst of uncountable ",p:125,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"deaths and destruction? For what purpose am I hiding in this ",p:125,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"place?”",p:125,x:115,y:233,w:53,h:20},
{t:"It had seemed as if time did not exist there. Stuck in a ",p:125,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"dingy, smelly, damp pit and overtaken by despair, he had said, ",p:125,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"“God, I am not so much loving you as I am afraid of you. It is ",p:125,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"said that God works in everything for good with those who ",p:125,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"love him, those who are called according to his purpose, but ",p:125,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"what good can this darkness be?”",p:125,x:115,y:398,w:243,h:20},
{t:"But now on the mountain, he looked at the stars, a little ",p:125,x:145,y:425,w:424,h:20},
{t:"window through which to see eternity. If we all could just look ",p:125,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"up at the stars in the sky three times a night, he thought, we ",p:125,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wouldn’t kill each other.",p:125,x:115,y:508,w:173,h:20},
{t:"He had not encountered any North Korean troops yet, but ",p:125,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he assumed that they were not different in the color of their ",p:125,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"blood or in their feelings, although their ideology was so dif-",p:125,x:115,y:590,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ferent from that of the South. They had the same skin color, ",p:125,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"used the same language, ate the same kimchi and rice, and ",p:125,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wore the same kinds of clothes as he did—as they all did. So ",p:125,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"why should they be playing the role of killers? Are their dying ",p:125,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"soldiers crying for their mothers? ",p:125,x:115,y:728,w:249,h:20},
{t:"I am still alive, Mang Eui-Soon thought. I am still breathing, ",p:125,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"eating, and looking at the stars in the night sky. But for what ",p:125,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"purpose? People are being killed, and I am in hiding. Where and ",p:125,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"how will my life be used? Am I alive to keep the words from ",p:125,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Psalm 150: “Let everything that breathes praise the Lord”? Is ",p:125,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"my soul praising the Lord? But how can I praise you, Lord, when ",p:125,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"121",p:126,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:126,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"I think of so many deaths and so much bloodshed? Why have ",p:126,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"you made me see such devastation? Lying down in despair and ",p:126,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"crying with clenched fsts, he was not able to overcome the ",p:126,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"darkness that surrounded him, inside and out.",p:126,x:115,y:178,w:339,h:20},
{t:"Day one, day two, and day three went by. They seemed ",p:126,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to go slowly while the food ran out quickly. Mang Eui-Soon ",p:126,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"felt pain in his heart for Reverend Bae when he realized that ",p:126,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he was grappling with problems of his own. “Accept this as a ",p:126,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"blessing,” Reverend Bae said. “God is testing our people. We ",p:126,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have to humble ourselves in the face of suffering. Suffering is ",p:126,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a path leading to God’s blessings.”",p:126,x:115,y:370,w:246,h:20},
{t:"“These words are too valuable for me to have all to my-",p:126,x:145,y:398,w:419,h:20},
{t:"self,” responded Mang Eui-Soon.",p:126,x:115,y:425,w:236,h:20},
{t:"“Well, if God spares me, I will tell them to my congregation. ",p:126,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"And I believe we will talk about you as a lesson in Christian ",p:126,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"living, in the future. Here on this mountain we have an op-",p:126,x:115,y:508,w:450,h:20},
{t:"portunity to cry out to the Lord. We have to remember that ",p:126,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"God brought us here to pray, not to escape the danger.”",p:126,x:115,y:563,w:401,h:20},
{t:"The nearly empty food bag had held enough for three ",p:126,x:145,y:590,w:423,h:20},
{t:"days. After that they had to survive on just water from the ",p:126,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"valley. “Reverend Bae, let’s go down the mountain,” said Mang ",p:126,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon.",p:126,x:115,y:673,w:69,h:20},
{t:"“How can we go? There are so many guards on the street. ",p:126,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Christians are their most detestable enemy. Maybe you can go ",p:126,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"down south straight from here if you think you should leave. ",p:126,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"If you penetrate the frontlines and reach the place where our ",p:126,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"troops are stationed, you will be safe.”",p:126,x:115,y:810,w:279,h:20},
{t:"Penetrate the front? That was unthinkable, thought Mang ",p:126,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon. But just at that moment, they heard shots being ",p:126,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"fred, breaking the summer silence. The two men stood up, ",p:126,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"122",p:127,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:127,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"the grass where they had been lying slowly returning to its ",p:127,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"former state. In the distance they saw Communists walking ",p:127,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"up the trail, carrying rifes, searching here and there in the ",p:127,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bushes to pull out people from hiding places.",p:127,x:115,y:178,w:327,h:20},
{t:"“There must be other people hiding on this mountain,” ",p:127,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"said Reverend Bae. Maybe our retreating soldiers from the ",p:127,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Miari hill battle have come here.”",p:127,x:115,y:260,w:245,h:20},
{t:"More gunfre cracked, and they heard the soldiers nearby, ",p:127,x:145,y:288,w:424,h:20},
{t:"shouting orders.",p:127,x:115,y:315,w:119,h:20},
{t:"Reverend Bae dropped his head, holding on to a pine tree. ",p:127,x:145,y:343,w:423,h:20},
{t:"As Mang knelt beside him, he prayed, “Lord, what should I ",p:127,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ask, how should I pray at the moment? Should I pray to pre-",p:127,x:115,y:398,w:450,h:20},
{t:"serve my life, or should I seek your righteousness? God, in this ",p:127,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"situation, I don’t know what is happening to us, but I only seek ",p:127,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"your will.”",p:127,x:115,y:480,w:77,h:20},
{t:"Through the trees, Mang and Reverend Bae could see ",p:127,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"some enemy soldiers dragging captured South Korean soldiers ",p:127,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and civilians down the mountain, while others continued to ",p:127,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"search the ridge and valleys. The two did not move. The water ",p:127,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in their bottle had long ago run out, and now their empty ",p:127,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"stomachs were dry and twisted. Finally the saving darkness of ",p:127,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"night encompassed them. ",p:127,x:115,y:673,w:190,h:20},
{t:"They listened as enemy troops walked by them, shouting, ",p:127,x:145,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“Poke into every crevice, and don’t miss those trees!”",p:127,x:115,y:728,w:385,h:20},
{t:"Soldiers waded into the bushes, whirling a fashlight that ",p:127,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"seemed brighter than a searchlight. “Come out with your ",p:127,x:115,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hands up!”",p:127,x:115,y:810,w:79,h:20},
{t:"Reverend Bae and Mang held their breaths. Someone was ",p:127,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"detected. Pow! Pow! Gunshots pierced the darkness.",p:127,x:115,y:865,w:380,h:20},
{t:"123",p:128,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:128,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"“Next it is our turn,” whispered Mang as gunfre scattered ",p:128,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"in all directions, and fashlights were oscillating through the ",p:128,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"darkness. Their tongues parched and throats choking in thirst, ",p:128,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the two lay prostrate beside the trunk of the tree. ",p:128,x:114,y:178,w:362,h:20},
{t:"Is this the end? Is my last moment to be like this? wondered ",p:128,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon. “Lord, forgive my unfaithfulness. Have mercy ",p:128,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"on me. Be all in me,” he prayed. He wept before God for his ",p:128,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sense of failure, even as the searchers passed them by, some ",p:128,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"nearly stepping on them. Soon it was quiet and calm. The ",p:128,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"searchers were gone, and there was only darkness. ",p:128,x:114,y:343,w:376,h:20},
{t:"In the Courtyard of the  ",p:128,x:223,y:409,w:243,h:26},
{t:"Hyangrinwon Orphanage ",p:128,x:212,y:436,w:260,h:26},
{t:"The two men slipped away from Chungnung Mountain and ",p:128,x:115,y:484,w:454,h:20},
{t:"made their way back to Hapdong house in Seoul. Seoul was ",p:128,x:115,y:511,w:454,h:20},
{t:"being bombed again. Arriving safely home, they learned that ",p:128,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki, the president of the church student council, had ",p:128,x:115,y:566,w:453,h:20},
{t:"just left. ",p:128,x:115,y:594,w:63,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon rose immediately to go after him.",p:128,x:145,y:621,w:357,h:20},
{t:"Kwonsa La rose after him. “The bombing is rampant,” she ",p:128,x:145,y:649,w:423,h:20},
{t:"said. “It isn’t safe out there.”",p:128,x:115,y:676,w:206,h:20},
{t:"“The harder the bombing, the less thorough the search ",p:128,x:145,y:704,w:424,h:20},
{t:"becomes,” answered Mang with determination. Reverend Bae ",p:128,x:115,y:731,w:453,h:20},
{t:"agreed and decided to go with him.",p:128,x:115,y:758,w:257,h:20},
{t:"The air-raid warning had been lifted, but Seoul seemed ",p:128,x:145,y:786,w:424,h:20},
{t:"paralyzed. As they were crossing the street to Jeodong neigh-",p:128,x:115,y:813,w:450,h:20},
{t:"borhood, a bomb from an airplane dropped with no warning, ",p:128,x:115,y:841,w:453,h:20},
{t:"causing the ground to shake from the explosion. Even the ",p:128,x:115,y:868,w:453,h:20},
{t:"124",p:129,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:129,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"sunlight was momentarily blotted out by the thundering ex-",p:129,x:115,y:95,w:450,h:20},
{t:"plosion. Buildings nearby were shattered and burning. People ",p:129,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"on the streets ran in all directions, not knowing where to fnd ",p:129,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"shelter. Then a voice cried out to them, “Sir, over there; Chang-",p:129,x:115,y:178,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Hyun has fallen!”",p:129,x:115,y:205,w:127,h:20},
{t:"Chang-Hyun had had one arm blown off. Mang Eui-Soon ",p:129,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"could see it lying on the blood-smeared rubble. Mang threw ",p:129,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him over his shoulder, listening for his heartbeat and praying ",p:129,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"as he ran. The students running with him panted, “This way! ",p:129,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"There is a clinic!”",p:129,x:115,y:343,w:126,h:20},
{t:"They found it already in pandemonium. “We don’t have ",p:129,x:145,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"drugs, and we need more doctors,” said a nurse, stamping her ",p:129,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"feet in frustration.",p:129,x:115,y:425,w:134,h:20},
{t:"Several students surrounded her and said, “We will pro-",p:129,x:145,y:453,w:419,h:20},
{t:"vide blood. Give us the names of drugs you need. We will get ",p:129,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"them from drugstores somehow.”",p:129,x:115,y:508,w:244,h:20},
{t:"At that moment, the ground shook violently as the bomb-",p:129,x:145,y:535,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ing started again. Mang Eui-Soon quickly put Chang-Hyun ",p:129,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"under the bed. “Everyone, on the ground!” he ordered. “And ",p:129,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"watch for shrapnel!”",p:129,x:115,y:618,w:150,h:20},
{t:"While they lay there, Mang Eui-Soon asked the doctor ",p:129,x:145,y:645,w:424,h:20},
{t:"to write the names of the drugs that were needed and to get ",p:129,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ready to take blood. “Anyone with type O blood should stay ",p:129,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"here. The rest of you try to get medicine.” ",p:129,x:115,y:728,w:306,h:20},
{t:"When the airplane disappeared, the students went out to ",p:129,x:145,y:755,w:424,h:20},
{t:"get what medications they could. The doctor returned to work ",p:129,x:115,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"with determination. “You have given me new confdence and ",p:129,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"faith.” Someone said with relief, “Chang-Hyun is alive.”",p:129,x:115,y:838,w:402,h:20},
{t:"—",p:129,x:286,y:751,w:106,h:189},
{t:"125",p:130,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:130,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"At dawn Park Yong-Ki, Mang Eui-Soon’s student from ",p:130,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"church school, visited him by stealth to escape danger. Soon ",p:130,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"after this, Mang Eui-Soon and Park Yong-Ki fed to the moun-",p:130,x:114,y:150,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tains north of Seoul to avoid capture by the Communists. The ",p:130,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"terrain was steep. Sweltering under the trees, with heat rising ",p:130,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in waves over the rocky earth, they stopped for a break. “Mr. ",p:130,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang,” Park Yong-Ki asked, wiping away his sweat, “why was ",p:130,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Reverend Bae so adamant about telling us to fee south?”",p:130,x:114,y:288,w:422,h:20},
{t:"“That is the conclusion he came to after prayer.”",p:130,x:144,y:315,w:352,h:20},
{t:"“Why did you choose to go north instead?”",p:130,x:144,y:343,w:310,h:20},
{t:"“In this situation how can we dare go south? We would be ",p:130,x:144,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"easily detected and shot to death.”",p:130,x:114,y:398,w:249,h:20},
{t:"“You said they were God’s words. How can you tell which ",p:130,x:144,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"are God’s words?”",p:130,x:114,y:453,w:131,h:20},
{t:"“Maybe we will hear his voice while we are going up this ",p:130,x:144,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"mountain.”",p:130,x:114,y:508,w:83,h:20},
{t:"Park sighed. “I am really confused. The enemy troops are ",p:130,x:144,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"using our church for their stables. Their horses are trampling ",p:130,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"down our church and relieving themselves there. Chang-Hyun ",p:130,x:114,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"encountered misery and lost his arm when he was going to ",p:130,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"worship service, and you know his kind heart and his faithful-",p:130,x:114,y:645,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ness. I am really bewildered.”",p:130,x:114,y:673,w:217,h:20},
{t:"Mang responded by citing Isaiah 55: “For my thoughts are ",p:130,x:144,y:700,w:423,h:20},
{t:"not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. . . . For as ",p:130,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher ",p:130,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”",p:130,x:114,y:783,w:395,h:20},
{t:"“I don’t know, sir. Faced with this danger, I can only think ",p:130,x:144,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"of running away. When facing trials, I forget about the cross ",p:130,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of Christ entirely. If only we had time, then we could seek the ",p:130,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"126",p:131,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:131,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Lord and pray, but we are in danger of being bombed to death ",p:131,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"right now.”",p:131,x:115,y:123,w:81,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki had a big build, big bright eyes, and an asser-",p:131,x:145,y:150,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tive mind. He could be aggressive and blunt, but he was hon-",p:131,x:115,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"est. He had come from Manchuria to Pyongyang and then to ",p:131,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Seoul and had missed early schooling, so he was two or three ",p:131,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"years older than his classmates. Now, with his uniform off, he ",p:131,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"didn’t look like a student but more like a mature young adult.",p:131,x:115,y:288,w:448,h:20},
{t:"They started up Samgak Mountain, familiar with the ter-",p:131,x:145,y:315,w:419,h:20},
{t:"rain. The US forces had already intervened, and sixteen UN ",p:131,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"member countries had sent contingency forces to fght along ",p:131,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with South Koreans, so there was hope that the war would ",p:131,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"soon be over. But days wasted away without any improve-",p:131,x:115,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ment in the war situation. As their food supply became less, ",p:131,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their fear and anxiety grew. And even though they sensed that ",p:131,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the Communists were not searching the area, Mang decided to ",p:131,x:115,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"go deeper into the mountain. ",p:131,x:115,y:535,w:216,h:20},
{t:"“Maybe we should have fed south along with Reverend ",p:131,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Bae,” questioned Park, obviously irritated.",p:131,x:115,y:590,w:309,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon was beginning to feel annoyed and ignored ",p:131,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"his comment. “I think we will be safer here.”",p:131,x:115,y:645,w:326,h:20},
{t:"Another day passed by. For breakfast, they drank a spoon-",p:131,x:145,y:673,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ful of barley mixed with cold water, but by noon they were ",p:131,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"exhausted. They stopped talking since that exhausted them ",p:131,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"even more. They tried to breathe slowly and lightly. Park ",p:131,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki closed his eyes to block out the blistering sun. ",p:131,x:115,y:783,w:396,h:20},
{t:"“Hands up!”",p:131,x:145,y:810,w:89,h:20},
{t:"Two Communist soldiers, wearing grubby, drab uniforms, ",p:131,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"along with three young civilians, had surrounded them. They ",p:131,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dragged them to the courtyard of an orphanage, prodding their ",p:131,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"127",p:132,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:132,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"backs and sides with the barrels of their guns as they went. One ",p:132,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of them yelled, “You sons of *******, hiding traitors, escaping ",p:132,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"your homeland, defecting from the People’s Liberation Front! ",p:132,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"We’ll beat you pigs to death to save bullets!”",p:132,x:115,y:178,w:320,h:20},
{t:"About ffty people were already in the courtyard of ",p:132,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Hyangrinwon Orphanage. Most of them were young, stone ",p:132,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"faced, and stooped over in fear. The Hyangrinwon Orphanage ",p:132,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"house was empty except for a few blank-eyed little children ",p:132,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sitting in one room. Soldiers sat around a table in the middle ",p:132,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of the yard. They searched and interrogated people and rum-",p:132,x:115,y:343,w:450,h:20},
{t:"maged through their belongings.",p:132,x:115,y:370,w:239,h:20},
{t:"They were divided into two lines. Park Yong-Ki entered ",p:132,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the yard; his face was dark, and desperation flled his eyes. ",p:132,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"When he saw Mang Eui-Soon, he said in a lowered voice, ",p:132,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Please tell them we came here to pray. Tell them this even if ",p:132,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they threaten to kill you.”",p:132,x:115,y:508,w:186,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki was pulled away by the neck. Mang Eui-Soon ",p:132,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"closed his eyes and prayed, “Lord, strengthen him, and grant ",p:132,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him courage and confdence as your child.”",p:132,x:115,y:590,w:316,h:20},
{t:"He watched as Park Yong-Ki was interrogated and his ",p:132,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"packages rummaged through. No hope is left for us, he thought. ",p:132,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"When Reverend Bae suggested we fee south, I should have lis-",p:132,x:115,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tened to him . . . oh, what will happen to us? ",p:132,x:115,y:700,w:317,h:20},
{t:"Why are we afraid of death? he thought. Why have we de-",p:132,x:145,y:728,w:419,h:20},
{t:"cided that the bright side is for life and the dark side for death? ",p:132,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"When we claim ownership of our life, and we think it is taken ",p:132,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"away, then we are afraid. But are our lives really ours? If our ",p:132,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"birth was not by our own will, how then can our lives belong to ",p:132,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"us? Actually, if I am not my own, then why am I worrying? ",p:132,x:115,y:865,w:418,h:20},
{t:"128",p:133,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:133,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"When the inquisition of everyone in the line was over, ",p:133,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki and Mang Eui-Soon were told to leave. “Don’t ",p:133,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"look back! Walk straight ahead! Let’s get out of here as fast as ",p:133,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we can!” Park Yong-Ki blurted, pulling Mang Eui-Soon. ",p:133,x:114,y:178,w:401,h:20},
{t:"The six of them, now released, walked hurriedly, hardly ",p:133,x:145,y:205,w:424,h:20},
{t:"daring to breathe. As soon as the orphanage was out of sight, ",p:133,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they ran so fast that they almost collapsed in exhaustion. Even ",p:133,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"though they were quite far away from the orphanage, the echo ",p:133,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of gunfre gave their bodies a deathly chill. ",p:133,x:114,y:315,w:316,h:20},
{t:"Mang halted and gazed up at the sky. “Park Yong-Ki, we ",p:133,x:145,y:343,w:424,h:20},
{t:"are alive, right? We can see sky and earth.”",p:133,x:114,y:370,w:314,h:20},
{t:"“I don’t know why we were spared . . . I found this in my ",p:133,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"package.”",p:133,x:114,y:425,w:70,h:20},
{t:"He took out his student ID card from Manturia Teachers’ ",p:133,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"College. “The guy who searched my package asked me how long ",p:133,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"I was in the school and if I knew a teacher and his nickname,” ",p:133,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki said. “Then he whispered in my ear, ‘I graduated ",p:133,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"from that school, and while I was a student, that teacher—we ",p:133,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"called him a “white pig”—struck me on the cheeks.’ He was so ",p:133,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"amused, as if one of his long-dead ancestors had appeared to ",p:133,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him. Then he told me to promise the interrogator that I would ",p:133,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"join the volunteer army for the homeland liberation front.” ",p:133,x:114,y:673,w:436,h:20},
{t:"“The Lord has delivered us from death,” said Mang Eui-",p:133,x:145,y:700,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Soon. “It was only possible because of God.”",p:133,x:114,y:728,w:320,h:20},
{t:"Shots echoed behind him, and the ffty young people in ",p:133,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the courtyard were gone. He asked himself, “So why am I joy-",p:133,x:114,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ful?” He suddenly sat down by the roadside. He could not walk ",p:133,x:114,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"anymore. He did not know where he should go or why. Seoul ",p:133,x:114,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"seemed very far away. ",p:133,x:114,y:865,w:167,h:20},
{t:"129",p:134,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:134,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"The Lord Keeps You",p:134,x:240,y:94,w:199,h:26},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon managed to return home once more to hide ",p:134,x:115,y:141,w:454,h:20},
{t:"under the foor of Hapdong house. Compared to the outdoors ",p:134,x:115,y:169,w:454,h:20},
{t:"it was comfortable enough, and he wished he could stay ",p:134,x:115,y:196,w:453,h:20},
{t:"there. He shuddered at the memory of being pursued in the ",p:134,x:115,y:224,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Chungnung valley and captured on Samgak Mountain. ",p:134,x:115,y:251,w:402,h:20},
{t:"During Mang Eui-Soon’s absence, two students had come ",p:134,x:145,y:279,w:424,h:20},
{t:"to stay at the house: Lee Sung-Soo and Bae Sook-Kyung. ",p:134,x:115,y:306,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Because of the war, the roads to their homes were blocked, ",p:134,x:115,y:334,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and they could not stay in the boarding rooms, so they had ",p:134,x:115,y:361,w:454,h:20},
{t:"sought shelter. Food had run out, however, and Kwonsa La ",p:134,x:115,y:389,w:454,h:20},
{t:"had to carry clothes, utensils, and dishes on her head to ex-",p:134,x:115,y:416,w:450,h:20},
{t:"change for barley or four in Seoul or beyond. She would lock ",p:134,x:115,y:444,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the house, and, if she could not return that day, the others had ",p:134,x:115,y:471,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to spend the night in the space under the foor with just water. ",p:134,x:115,y:499,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Kwonsa La herself lost a lot of weight and looked like a dried ",p:134,x:115,y:526,w:454,h:20},
{t:"leaf. Her feet had become swollen and sore. She brought in ",p:134,x:115,y:554,w:453,h:20},
{t:"corn, pumpkin, and potatoes—anything that was edible. She ",p:134,x:115,y:581,w:453,h:20},
{t:"walked miles in the summer heat, but still she gave a tearful ",p:134,x:115,y:609,w:453,h:20},
{t:"thanks to God for what she could fnd.",p:134,x:115,y:636,w:278,h:20},
{t:"On the night of July 30, Park visited the Hapdong house. ",p:134,x:145,y:664,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“As Reverend Bae suggested, we should go south by breaking ",p:134,x:115,y:691,w:453,h:20},
{t:"through the frontline. As our troops have retreated further ",p:134,x:115,y:719,w:453,h:20},
{t:"down, we should leave as soon as possible. The longer we ",p:134,x:115,y:746,w:453,h:20},
{t:"delay, the further the frontline is away from us. I am ready ",p:134,x:115,y:774,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to go. My stepmother gave me all her food. At dawn, I will be ",p:134,x:115,y:801,w:453,h:20},
{t:"leaving Seoul.”",p:134,x:115,y:829,w:108,h:20},
{t:"130",p:135,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:135,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Elder Mang’s house was under constant scrutiny and had ",p:135,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"been searched several times. Lee Sung-Soo spoke up. “I would ",p:135,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"like to leave with Park.”",p:135,x:114,y:150,w:174,h:20},
{t:"“I will follow them,” said Bae Sook-Kyung.",p:135,x:145,y:178,w:306,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon lowered his head. He was afraid to move ",p:135,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"anywhere. He wanted to stay home. “I will stay with my dad,” ",p:135,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang wanted to say. ",p:135,x:114,y:260,w:153,h:20},
{t:"“Eui-Soon,” Elder Mang called to his son. “I think what ",p:135,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Reverend Bae said was right. Leave; the four of you can help ",p:135,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"each other. God will be with you. God will entrust you with the ",p:135,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"work you must do.”",p:135,x:114,y:370,w:143,h:20},
{t:"“But, Dad, I would like to take care of you and stay with ",p:135,x:145,y:398,w:424,h:20},
{t:"you.”",p:135,x:114,y:425,w:38,h:20},
{t:"“It is God who keeps me,” he said, as he raised his bushy ",p:135,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"eyebrows. ",p:135,x:114,y:480,w:79,h:20},
{t:"It was a painful night for him as he listened to his father’s ",p:135,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"breathing and thought about leaving him the next day. At ",p:135,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"dawn, the four of them were ready to slip out of the house ",p:135,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"separately, promising to meet at the main intersection of ",p:135,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Seodaemun gate.",p:135,x:114,y:618,w:124,h:20},
{t:"The father charged his son, ",p:135,x:145,y:645,w:225,h:20},
{t:"“I ",p:135,x:375,y:645,w:16,h:20},
{t:"will not worry about ",p:135,x:396,y:645,w:172,h:20},
{t:"you anymore. I believe that God will take care of you. But I ",p:135,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have something to say to you. Don’t look back. Go forward. ",p:135,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Whatever befalls you, do not feel regret. All that happens is ",p:135,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"necessary for you. Please believe that. Now leave and have ",p:135,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a safe trip, my son.” His father held him frmly and prayed ",p:135,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"again. It would be another long, hot day in the middle of ",p:135,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"July. ",p:135,x:114,y:838,w:36,h:20},
{t:"131",p:136,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:136,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"Escape to the South",p:136,x:241,y:94,w:197,h:26},
{t:"None of the local roads or highways connecting other villages ",p:136,x:115,y:141,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was safe anymore, so they took to the hillsides, staying close to ",p:136,x:115,y:169,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the main roads to keep track of their location. Bombs dropped ",p:136,x:115,y:196,w:453,h:20},
{t:"unpredictably, raining like fre and brimstone from the sky, ",p:136,x:115,y:224,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with a shrieking, ominous sound. Black columns of smoke ",p:136,x:115,y:251,w:454,h:20},
{t:"would billow like a grotesque beast, and the surrounding area ",p:136,x:115,y:279,w:454,h:20},
{t:"became a sea of fre, consuming trees, felds, animals, and ",p:136,x:115,y:306,w:453,h:20},
{t:"people. ",p:136,x:115,y:334,w:57,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki sighed, “It is absurd that more than ten UN ",p:136,x:145,y:361,w:423,h:20},
{t:"armies joining the battle cannot expel a single North Korean ",p:136,x:115,y:389,w:453,h:20},
{t:"army and rescue us from this misery!” Mang Eui-Soon ap-",p:136,x:115,y:416,w:450,h:20},
{t:"preciated his assertive and open mind. He made the journey ",p:136,x:115,y:444,w:454,h:20},
{t:"more interesting. ",p:136,x:115,y:471,w:130,h:20},
{t:"They encountered the North Korean People’s Army (NKPA) ",p:136,x:145,y:499,w:423,h:20},
{t:"carrying hundreds of recruits in trucks, and the four of them ",p:136,x:115,y:526,w:453,h:20},
{t:"lay fat between the bushes and pines of a lower hillside and ",p:136,x:115,y:554,w:454,h:20},
{t:"watched them. “Oh my goodness, those recruits are just kids!” ",p:136,x:115,y:581,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki exclaimed.",p:136,x:115,y:609,w:177,h:20},
{t:"“What do those young boys know about pulling triggers? ",p:136,x:145,y:636,w:423,h:20},
{t:"They were forcibly drafted to be disposable bullet shields. Oh ",p:136,x:115,y:664,w:454,h:20},
{t:"God, help them,” Bae Sook-Kyung moaned. The long August ",p:136,x:115,y:691,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sun was setting, and the earth, releasing its heat, was suffocat-",p:136,x:115,y:719,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing to the exiles. ",p:136,x:115,y:746,w:122,h:20},
{t:"“We should eat at least one meal of rice a day,” said Park ",p:136,x:145,y:774,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki. “If we don’t, where will we get enough energy? Please, ",p:136,x:115,y:801,w:453,h:20},
{t:"let’s stay here. I will go and fnd some frewood.”",p:136,x:115,y:829,w:354,h:20},
{t:"Lee Sung-Soo and Bae Sook-Kyung appreciated Park Yong-",p:136,x:145,y:856,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Ki’s insistence. They took out prewashed dried rice, hot pepper ",p:136,x:115,y:884,w:453,h:20},
{t:"132",p:137,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:137,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"paste, sesame leaf pickles, and cucumber pickles from their ",p:137,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"knapsacks and looked for a suitable freplace that wouldn’t be ",p:137,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"noticed while Park Yong-Ki went for the frewood. But when ",p:137,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he returned with a water jar but no frewood, his confdent ",p:137,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"look was gone. His feet were dragging, and his eyes and mouth ",p:137,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were downcast. ",p:137,x:115,y:233,w:119,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki sat down and explained, “I found the owner ",p:137,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"of a house who had piles of frewood. But what a greedy ",p:137,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"guy! He wouldn’t give or sell me any of it. He said he didn’t ",p:137,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have enough to get through the winter. He has no idea about ",p:137,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"tomorrow, the poor creature. With all this bombing, it will ",p:137,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"become a pile of ashes, anyway. I doubt if he’ll live through ",p:137,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the winter.”",p:137,x:115,y:425,w:89,h:20},
{t:"At dawn, they rose and continued their journey. They ",p:137,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"walked through the barren hillsides, fearful of losing sight of ",p:137,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the highways, yet also fearful of coming across them. They ",p:137,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had a map, but it was hard to tell which town was which as ",p:137,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they went along, and it would be dangerous to ask directions ",p:137,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of anyone.",p:137,x:115,y:590,w:76,h:20},
{t:"They roughly estimated their location from the position ",p:137,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"of the sun at that time of the day and from any visible signs ",p:137,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"on the township ofces. Each day, as they continued on, they ",p:137,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"noticed with sadness the devastated countryside. Rice paddies ",p:137,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and felds near the cities were abandoned. Weeds grew every-",p:137,x:115,y:728,w:450,h:20},
{t:"where, with corn and millet withered among them. Peppers ",p:137,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"were crushed to the ground. Farmers’ huts were deserted. ",p:137,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"With the land so ravaged, they wondered how any people left ",p:137,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"would survive. ",p:137,x:115,y:838,w:113,h:20},
{t:"In a remote village, they met a farmer working in the ",p:137,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"felds, removing vines from cucumbers and melons. He gave ",p:137,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"133",p:138,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:138,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"them several melons the size of a fst. They found a group of ",p:138,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"bushy pines where they sat down and talked with him. ",p:138,x:115,y:123,w:404,h:20},
{t:"“We have land and seeds, and therefore, we sow and take ",p:138,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"care and harvest and share with others. That’s so simple,” the ",p:138,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"farmer said. “Why are we engaged in beating, breaking, pun-",p:138,x:115,y:205,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ishing, and killing each other? By the way, my young friends, ",p:138,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"why do you venture into such danger?” he asked, creasing his ",p:138,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"brow.",p:138,x:115,y:288,w:42,h:20},
{t:"“We were students in Seoul, but we lost our chance to ",p:138,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"escape and were stuck there. Now we are returning to our ",p:138,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hometowns,” they said.",p:138,x:115,y:370,w:170,h:20},
{t:"The farmer stared at the sky and said, “I really don’t care ",p:138,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"if I get killed while I am planting or taking care of my crops. A ",p:138,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"farmer’s life is in the felds or paddies. I feel no remorse about ",p:138,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"dying in a time of war. I live the way I live, and for now, I am ",p:138,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"alive.”",p:138,x:115,y:508,w:46,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki did not join in the conversation. He had taken ",p:138,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"off his running shoes and was examining his blistered feet. Lee ",p:138,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Sung-Soo took off his worn-out leather shoes. The soles of his ",p:138,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"socks were gone; only the tops and upper parts were left. He ",p:138,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ripped the blanket and wrapped the strips around his feet. ",p:138,x:115,y:645,w:431,h:20},
{t:"“Oh, that smells!” Bae Sook-Kyung said, frowning. “Why ",p:138,x:145,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"don’t you take your socks off far away from us?” ",p:138,x:115,y:700,w:357,h:20},
{t:"“Sis, why are you troubled with this smell? I suggest you ",p:138,x:145,y:728,w:424,h:20},
{t:"have olfactory training in advance. You never know what ",p:138,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"potent odors are ahead of us,” he teased. “Besides, all my toes ",p:138,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"need a break, and the skin on my heel is all peeled off!”",p:138,x:115,y:810,w:403,h:20},
{t:"Day in and day out, they had been covering more than ",p:138,x:145,y:838,w:424,h:20},
{t:"forty kilometers, but now they could walk less and less. They ",p:138,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were lucky to have even one meal a day. Whenever they ",p:138,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"134",p:139,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:139,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"received potatoes from someone, they bowed down many ",p:139,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"times in appreciation. The weather remained hot and humid. ",p:139,x:115,y:123,w:451,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki was dropping farther and farther behind ",p:139,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"them. The others became so exhausted that they stopped look-",p:139,x:115,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing back to see where he was, and sometimes he disappeared ",p:139,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"from view. Everyone had blisters, not only on their feet, but ",p:139,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"also in their mouths and hearts, and no one uttered a word as ",p:139,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they marched. ",p:139,x:115,y:288,w:109,h:20},
{t:"From Juksan to Geumwang City, they never came across a ",p:139,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"highway or any local route. When they entered Eumseong City, ",p:139,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the terrain around the villages became hilly, and the mountain ",p:139,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"trails were rough. Bae Sook-Kyung, who had waited for Park ",p:139,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki several times, started to grumble half jokingly and ",p:139,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"half seriously, “Oh my goodness, you have a huge body, but ",p:139,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"you are a pain. Maybe we will have to leave you behind if you ",p:139,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"keep slowing us down.”",p:139,x:115,y:508,w:172,h:20},
{t:"“Sis, I am not pretending. Look, ",p:139,x:145,y:535,w:253,h:20},
{t:"it’s ",p:139,x:402,y:535,w:24,h:20},
{t:"like someone has ",p:139,x:431,y:535,w:137,h:20},
{t:"peeled off my skin and sprayed hot pepper on my feet.”",p:139,x:115,y:563,w:404,h:20},
{t:"“Give me your pack,” Mang Eui-Soon said to him, pulling ",p:139,x:145,y:590,w:424,h:20},
{t:"it off his back. Mang Eui-Soon tried an exchange of shoes, but ",p:139,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they were too small. Mang Eui-Soon’s feet were blistered, too.",p:139,x:115,y:645,w:447,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang,” said Bae Sook-Kyung, “you didn’t say anything ",p:139,x:145,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"about your own feet.”",p:139,x:115,y:700,w:159,h:20},
{t:"“It’s not a big deal. I can still walk. Let’s walk, praising God ",p:139,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and reciting psalms. That will relieve your pain.”",p:139,x:115,y:755,w:357,h:20},
{t:"Meanwhile, Lee Sung-Soo and Bae Sook-Kyung were ",p:139,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"walking along the winding mountain trails far ahead of them. ",p:139,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki’s feet felt as though he was walking over burn-",p:139,x:115,y:838,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing charcoal. Carrying Park Yong-Ki’s knapsack as well as his ",p:139,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"own, Mang Eui-Soon’s feet didn’t feel much better, and beads ",p:139,x:115,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"135",p:140,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:140,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"of sweat fowed down his face. They had no fxed destination, ",p:140,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and they felt desolate, as if heaven and earth were against ",p:140,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them.",p:140,x:115,y:150,w:42,h:20},
{t:"They found a brook and flled their water jars. An old ",p:140,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"man over seventy was tending a vegetable garden. “Grandpa, ",p:140,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"where does this mountain trail lead?” asked Lee Sung-Soo.",p:140,x:115,y:233,w:425,h:20},
{t:"“Over the hill is Sadamri village,” he responded. He was ",p:140,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"suntanned, dark, and short, and he was confdent in thought ",p:140,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and speech. “Where are you young people heading for on this ",p:140,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"trail?”",p:140,x:115,y:343,w:45,h:20},
{t:"“We are students in Seoul. We are going back home to our ",p:140,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"parents, to escape the war. Is the Communist army around ",p:140,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"here?”",p:140,x:115,y:425,w:47,h:20},
{t:"“Do you think that they would miss us on the mountain-",p:140,x:145,y:453,w:419,h:20},
{t:"sides? They swept this poor mountain village, and many sym-",p:140,x:115,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"pathizers suddenly turned up. For several days it was quiet ",p:140,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"while they took our boys and gave them rifes. They either ",p:140,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sent them to the front or dragged them away somewhere. My ",p:140,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"young friends, watch out, because this area is already Red. ",p:140,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Good luck.”",p:140,x:115,y:618,w:84,h:20},
{t:"The old man tucked a handful of green hot peppers and ",p:140,x:145,y:645,w:424,h:20},
{t:"several cucumbers into their bundles and gave them direc-",p:140,x:115,y:673,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tions to a lone, empty house up ahead.",p:140,x:115,y:700,w:280,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki, who had been dragging his feet like a crimi-",p:140,x:145,y:728,w:419,h:20},
{t:"nal in shackles, grinned as if he had received a reprieve from ",p:140,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"death. “Tonight we can sleep under a roof! We can cook that ",p:140,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"last handful of rice that we have and eat it with cucumbers ",p:140,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and green hot peppers!” Suddenly, his walk was energized as ",p:140,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"he went ahead of them toward the house.",p:140,x:115,y:865,w:303,h:20},
{t:"136",p:141,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:141,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"They sat down against the crumbling wall of the deserted ",p:141,x:145,y:95,w:424,h:20},
{t:"house without talking or moving, enjoying the unexpected rest ",p:141,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and peace. At that moment, the four forgot completely why ",p:141,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they were here and where they were going. They even forgot ",p:141,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the feeling of hunger. They were so tired that even if this ",p:141,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"became their last moment in life, they would die contented. ",p:141,x:114,y:233,w:438,h:20},
{t:"“Hold it! Don’t move!” ",p:141,x:145,y:260,w:164,h:20},
{t:"Suddenly, men appeared at the door. Rife barrels were ",p:141,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"pushed before their eyes. Two Communist soldiers in grubby ",p:141,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"uniforms and carrying rifes and three young men in civilian ",p:141,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"clothes carrying bamboo spears and sticks surrounded them. ",p:141,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon rose slowly, wondering who had betrayed ",p:141,x:114,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them. ",p:141,x:114,y:425,w:46,h:20},
{t:"Lurking Devils",p:141,x:265,y:492,w:149,h:26},
{t:"They walked over eight kilometers at gunpoint. Although ",p:141,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"it was downhill, they were pricked and pushed by the rife ",p:141,x:115,y:567,w:453,h:20},
{t:"muzzles to hurry along. Suddenly, Park Yong-Ki crumbled to ",p:141,x:115,y:594,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the ground. ",p:141,x:115,y:622,w:89,h:20},
{t:"“Hey, you son of a *****!” yelled one of the soldiers. ",p:141,x:145,y:649,w:378,h:20},
{t:"“Shoot him!” yelled the other soldier. Park Yong-Ki could ",p:141,x:145,y:677,w:423,h:20},
{t:"not get up. They kicked him and beat him with their rifes.",p:141,x:115,y:704,w:425,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon gave one of his bundles to Lee Sung-Soo ",p:141,x:145,y:732,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and the other to Bae Sook-Kyung. Then he turned his back ",p:141,x:115,y:759,w:453,h:20},
{t:"toward Park Yong-Ki.",p:141,x:115,y:787,w:155,h:20},
{t:"“Who told you to carry him piggyback, you cheeky son of ",p:141,x:145,y:814,w:423,h:20},
{t:"a *****?”",p:141,x:115,y:842,w:65,h:20},
{t:"137",p:142,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:142,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"He kicked Mang Eui-Soon, who fell forward. “Please let ",p:142,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"me carry him on my back. My friend hurt his feet severely.”",p:142,x:114,y:123,w:436,h:20},
{t:"The soldiers suddenly became silent for a moment, staring ",p:142,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"into Mang Eui-Soon’s face. “Can you carry him all the way?” a ",p:142,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"soldier yelled.",p:142,x:114,y:205,w:102,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, I think I can walk now.” Park Yong-Ki got up ",p:142,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"with a sudden vigor and limped along, one step at a time. Mang ",p:142,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon held on to him, and they walked together. “Beyond ",p:142,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"there, is our Lord waiting for us? Is this how we get to be like ",p:142,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Jesus?” Park Yong-Ki whispered tearfully.",p:142,x:114,y:343,w:300,h:20},
{t:"By the time they got down the mountain road and followed ",p:142,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the highway to Goesan, the sun had already set. They were led ",p:142,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to a tile-roofed house that had a sign: “People’s Committee.” ",p:142,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"It was well known that the People’s Committee was made ",p:142,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"up of convicts from military and civilian prisons. They were ",p:142,x:114,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"thrown into a dark room where the smell almost choked them. ",p:142,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Something in the room was moving! People! Silent, suspicious ",p:142,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"people—their sweat causing the odor. ",p:142,x:114,y:563,w:279,h:20},
{t:"A subdued voice surfaced above the darkness. “Who are ",p:142,x:145,y:590,w:424,h:20},
{t:"you, newcomers?”",p:142,x:114,y:618,w:134,h:20},
{t:"“We are trying to fee the war,” replied Lee Sung-Soo. ",p:142,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“How long have you been here?”",p:142,x:114,y:673,w:239,h:20},
{t:"“It varies. Each day, some have been dragged out and ",p:142,x:145,y:700,w:424,h:20},
{t:"tortured.”",p:142,x:114,y:728,w:72,h:20},
{t:"At that moment, someone outside screamed at them. ",p:142,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“Who’s talking in there? You want to get slashed?”",p:142,x:114,y:783,w:364,h:20},
{t:"Everyone went quiet. Time stood still. It was all darkness, ",p:142,x:145,y:810,w:423,h:20},
{t:"heat, body odors, and silence.",p:142,x:114,y:838,w:215,h:20},
{t:"138",p:143,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:143,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Then the door was fung open, and a rough voice blurted ",p:143,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"out, “The woman who just came in, you come out here in a ",p:143,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hurry.” They meant Bae Sook-Kyung.",p:143,x:114,y:150,w:268,h:20},
{t:"Bae Sook-Kyung’s screams of distress pierced through the ",p:143,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"wall. They tried to plug their ears, but her shrieks of terror ",p:143,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"penetrated to their very bones. Then the door banged open, ",p:143,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and the three were called out. ",p:143,x:114,y:260,w:222,h:20},
{t:"In the bedroom of the tile-roofed house, lit by kerosene ",p:143,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"lamp, Bae Sook-Kyung sat on a chair, her hands strapped ",p:143,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"behind her. Her dark blue skirt was ripped, and her thighs ex-",p:143,x:114,y:343,w:450,h:20},
{t:"posed. Her legs were cut and bleeding. Her hair was drenched ",p:143,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in sweat, which rolled down her face. Her eyes were swelling ",p:143,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"shut.",p:143,x:114,y:425,w:36,h:20},
{t:"“Take off your clothes!”",p:143,x:144,y:453,w:171,h:20},
{t:"The three did so, down to their underwear. The fickering ",p:143,x:144,y:480,w:424,h:20},
{t:"light of the lamp revealed their nakedness clearly. “Listen, you ",p:143,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"fellows,” said one of the interrogators. “If you answer honestly, ",p:143,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"you can live, but if not, you take the consequences.” Mang Eui-",p:143,x:114,y:563,w:449,h:20},
{t:"Soon was questioned frst. “You are a retreating South Korean ",p:143,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"soldier?”",p:143,x:114,y:618,w:64,h:20},
{t:"“No, sir.”",p:143,x:144,y:645,w:65,h:20},
{t:"“You said, ‘No’?”",p:143,x:144,y:673,w:118,h:20},
{t:"“No, sir.”",p:143,x:144,y:700,w:65,h:20},
{t:"“Still ‘No’?”",p:143,x:144,y:728,w:81,h:20},
{t:"He swung at Mang Eui-Soon with his stick, smashing into ",p:143,x:144,y:755,w:424,h:20},
{t:"his waist. “No, sir. No, sir.” After several more hits, he fell fat, ",p:143,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but he never screamed. He only said, “No, sir,” each time he ",p:143,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was asked. The two interrogators panted as they lashed him ",p:143,x:114,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"with sticks and punched and kicked him. His nose bled, and ",p:143,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"his fesh was broken and bleeding profusely. ",p:143,x:114,y:893,w:329,h:20},
{t:"139",p:144,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:144,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"“Are you out for revenge against us who were freed by the ",p:144,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"People’s Liberation Army?”",p:144,x:114,y:123,w:199,h:20},
{t:"“No, sir.”",p:144,x:145,y:150,w:65,h:20},
{t:"When they got bored with beating him, they began tortur-",p:144,x:145,y:178,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ing him. They did a leg screw on him. They inserted a stick ",p:144,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"between the crook of his knees and stepped and trampled on ",p:144,x:114,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"it.",p:144,x:114,y:260,w:14,h:20},
{t:"The torture continued by beatings with a stick and a ",p:144,x:144,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"leather whip, then with water being poured into his mouth ",p:144,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"while he was hanging upside down. When they were fnished ",p:144,x:114,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with him for the moment, they tortured Lee Sung-Soo and Park ",p:144,x:114,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki in the same way. Mang Eui-Soon, hearing their groans, ",p:144,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"prayed, “Dear Lord, help them to overcome their pain. Help ",p:144,x:114,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them not to be defeated. Let them see Jesus climbing the hill ",p:144,x:114,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of Golgotha. When Jesus was hit with a studded leather whip, ",p:144,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"his skin was ripped off with each strike. We are suffering this ",p:144,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hardship because of our sins, but you suffered because of our ",p:144,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sins. Let them remember the words ‘He was wounded for our ",p:144,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities; upon him ",p:144,x:114,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was the chastisement that made us whole, and with his stripes ",p:144,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"we are healed.’”",p:144,x:114,y:645,w:117,h:20},
{t:"The interrogator could not bear the idea of Mang Eui-Soon ",p:144,x:144,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"not screaming in pain. So he spat on his hand, held the stick ",p:144,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with greater determination, and struck him recklessly on the ",p:144,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"shoulder, waist, and other parts of the body. In the midst of ",p:144,x:114,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"his fickering consciousness, Mang Eui-Soon was sure that he ",p:144,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"would die. His body would return to the earth, and his soul ",p:144,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"would travel to his Lord. It was all beyond his control. The ",p:144,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"men took turns beating Mang Eui-Soon so that they could each ",p:144,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have a break. When day broke, they stopped the beatings and ",p:144,x:114,y:893,w:454,h:20},
{t:"140",p:145,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:145,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"threw the four people into the rear building with the others, ",p:145,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"who were still sleeping, despite the screaming that had rever-",p:145,x:115,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"berated through the darkness. ",p:145,x:115,y:150,w:224,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, are you still listening under these conditions? ",p:145,x:145,y:178,w:424,h:20},
{t:"Are you still listening to God?” Park Yong-Ki asked.",p:145,x:115,y:205,w:369,h:20},
{t:"“Even though they smash my body, they cannot crush my ",p:145,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"spirit. My ears are open more widely.”",p:145,x:115,y:260,w:279,h:20},
{t:"They learned that the people imprisoned with them, about ",p:145,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"thirty altogether, were neighbors from the local village who ",p:145,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"knew each other very well. “Most of those who beat us were ",p:145,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not from the North Korean army but our own neighbors who ",p:145,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"left home to study in the cities and then came home colored ",p:145,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in red,” said one person. Now they are much more cruel than ",p:145,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the NKPA.”",p:145,x:115,y:453,w:80,h:20},
{t:"At noon, water and a loaf of cooked rice, which was more ",p:145,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"than half wheat, were shared out. Coarse bits of salt in the rice ",p:145,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"loaf made it taste like sand. ",p:145,x:115,y:535,w:203,h:20},
{t:"As night advanced, they called the four out again and ",p:145,x:145,y:563,w:424,h:20},
{t:"seemed to never tire of beating them. ",p:145,x:115,y:590,w:293,h:20},
{t:"“Are you Christians? ",p:145,x:410,y:590,w:158,h:20},
{t:"The Bible, hymnbooks, is that all you know? You will like this ",p:145,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"better than singing hymns,” they said, laughing.",p:145,x:115,y:645,w:348,h:20},
{t:"They swung their whips, slashing the empty air in the ",p:145,x:145,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"darkness, and derisively telling them to listen to the songs ",p:145,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"made by the sweeping strokes. On the ffth day, Lee Sung-Soo ",p:145,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and Bae Sook-Kyung were released. Lee Sung-Soo returned to ",p:145,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the room and whispered earnestly to Mang Eui-Soon and Park ",p:145,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki, “We cannot leave you behind, although we have been ",p:145,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"told to.”",p:145,x:115,y:838,w:57,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon’s face was smashed and swollen, but his ",p:145,x:145,y:865,w:423,h:20},
{t:"eyes were peaceful and tranquil. He replied, “No, don’t worry, ",p:145,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"141",p:146,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:146,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"please, Mr. Lee. Leave here as soon as possible. If we pray ",p:146,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"fervently for each other, we are together wherever we are. ",p:146,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Whatever befalls you, overcome it with faith. The Lord be ",p:146,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"with you.”",p:146,x:115,y:178,w:75,h:20},
{t:"Each time it got dark, for ten more long days, the swearing ",p:146,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and torture continued. Park Yong-Ki’s face was so swollen that ",p:146,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"he could even not open his eyes. “Mr. Mang, we are becoming ",p:146,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"pickled vegetables,” he smiled feebly. “If we admit what is not ",p:146,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"true, they will kill us, but if we keep denying it, we will die ",p:146,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"from the beatings. Mr. Mang, are you going to say as Jesus did ",p:146,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"on the cross, ‘Father, forgive them. They don’t know what they ",p:146,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"are doing’?” ",p:146,x:115,y:398,w:91,h:20},
{t:"“I have no choice but to keep silent. How far wickedness ",p:146,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"can drag humans down!”",p:146,x:115,y:453,w:184,h:20},
{t:"A few days later, as night fell, a North Korean army of-",p:146,x:145,y:480,w:419,h:20},
{t:"fcer, accompanied by several soldiers and young men from ",p:146,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the People’s Committee, rushed in and pulled out the two. That ",p:146,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"night, the swearing and torture reached a new height. They ",p:146,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"took out more than half of the imprisoned people. Gunshots ",p:146,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"reverberated in the darkness, followed by silence. ",p:146,x:115,y:618,w:368,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon blacked out temporarily while he was ",p:146,x:145,y:645,w:423,h:20},
{t:"beaten that night, and when he came to, he heard, “If these ",p:146,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"******** are alive after they are beaten, we will let them go, ",p:146,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"but if not, this place will be their graves.” Again he lapsed into ",p:146,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"unconsciousness. It was the next morning before he regained ",p:146,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"consciousness. After being beaten and trampled on, they’d ",p:146,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"been thrown back into the cell. ",p:146,x:115,y:810,w:230,h:20},
{t:"At sunrise, two soldiers with rifes and a man from the ",p:146,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"People’s Committee ran in. “You two, get up and come with us! ",p:146,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Are you listening to us?”",p:146,x:115,y:893,w:178,h:20},
{t:"142",p:147,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:147,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"They could not rise. It felt easier to stay where they were ",p:147,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and get beaten up. Their faces were slashed and swollen, their ",p:147,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"broken skin smeared with blood made their clothes stick to ",p:147,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"their scars, and their hair was like straw.",p:147,x:114,y:178,w:298,h:20},
{t:"“Move!” ordered a soldier, thrusting a muzzle at them. ",p:147,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon tried to lift his legs, but he couldn’t.",p:147,x:114,y:233,w:371,h:20},
{t:"“You want to live, don’t you? If so, move!”",p:147,x:145,y:260,w:303,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon thought about the cross on the hill, and ",p:147,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"slowly, he started to walk. But Park Yong-Ki could not move at ",p:147,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"all. Maybe he is paralyzed, thought Mang Eui-Soon.",p:147,x:114,y:343,w:368,h:20},
{t:"A soldier turned his rife upside down and lashed him on ",p:147,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the head with its butt. “Son of a *****, are you making fun of ",p:147,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"me?” he barked. Park Yong-Ki blacked out. ",p:147,x:114,y:425,w:314,h:20},
{t:"“Pour water over him,” said another soldier. ",p:147,x:145,y:453,w:328,h:20},
{t:"He slowly regained consciousness, and Mang Eui-Soon ",p:147,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"put his arms around him to carry him into the room. It was ",p:147,x:114,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the frst time they had seen the room in daylight. Everyone ",p:147,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was busy working as if they had never beaten anyone. “Wash ",p:147,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"yourself frst,” the man said.",p:147,x:114,y:590,w:206,h:20},
{t:"Two basins of water were brought in, and they washed ",p:147,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"themselves slowly and cautiously, wondering about this sud-",p:147,x:114,y:645,w:450,h:20},
{t:"den twist in their situation. After washing, they were led into a ",p:147,x:114,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"room where they were offered rice and meat-and-potato soup, ",p:147,x:114,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"set on a table in the middle of the foor.",p:147,x:114,y:728,w:286,h:20},
{t:"“Sorry for the trouble you have had during the past ",p:147,x:144,y:755,w:424,h:20},
{t:"weeks,” the man said. “We, the people of the Liberation Army, ",p:147,x:114,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"who got orders from General Kim Il-Sung to come down to ",p:147,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"liberate the South, had never beaten or harassed any civilians. ",p:147,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Unfortunately, some comrades, showing excessive loyalty to ",p:147,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the party, ran into trouble. Forget about what’s happened. ",p:147,x:114,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"143",p:148,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:148,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"Go home, take a few days of rest, and then come and join our ",p:148,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"army as people’s combatants. I will give you certifcates for ",p:148,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"your travel.”",p:148,x:115,y:150,w:92,h:20},
{t:"They handed them certifcates that said these two had ",p:148,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"taken the people’s training courses faithfully during the last ",p:148,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"twenty days and would become faithful people and go to the ",p:148,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"war as people’s combatants. What a puzzling turnaround! ",p:148,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"During the last twenty days, these men had inficted brutal ",p:148,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"torture on them and tried to make them confess that they had ",p:148,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"helped the enemy, but now they had suddenly changed their ",p:148,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"attitude. Why were they being released?",p:148,x:115,y:370,w:294,h:20},
{t:"A Long Journey to Canaan",p:148,x:209,y:437,w:261,h:26},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon and Park Yong-Ki rested under the green ",p:148,x:115,y:484,w:453,h:20},
{t:"leaves of an apple tree laden with fresh apples, and between ",p:148,x:115,y:512,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the leaves, they could see the bright sky and the burning sun. ",p:148,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"What was happening with the war situation? Were slaughter, ",p:148,x:115,y:567,w:454,h:20},
{t:"destruction, and torture still going on? But here it is serene and ",p:148,x:115,y:594,w:453,h:20},
{t:"comfortable—a kind of paradise, thought Mang Eui-Soon.",p:148,x:115,y:622,w:412,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, where are we now? And why are we here?” ",p:148,x:145,y:649,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki asked with his eyes still closed.",p:148,x:114,y:677,w:323,h:20},
{t:"“God has allowed us to taste this bit of paradise, and to meet ",p:148,x:145,y:704,w:424,h:20},
{t:"an angel, in order to give us rest for the next assignment.”",p:148,x:114,y:732,w:422,h:20},
{t:"There was silence between the two as they relaxed a ",p:148,x:145,y:759,w:424,h:20},
{t:"little longer on the hazy, baked earth under the scorching and ",p:148,x:114,y:787,w:453,h:20},
{t:"incandescent sky.",p:148,x:114,y:814,w:127,h:20},
{t:"“You look hungry.” They sprang up at the sound of a soft ",p:148,x:145,y:842,w:423,h:20},
{t:"voice. An elegant woman in her mid-forties approached them ",p:148,x:114,y:869,w:453,h:20},
{t:"144",p:149,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:149,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"quietly. Her manner, with its grace and dignity, suggested she ",p:149,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was the wife of the farm owner. ",p:149,x:115,y:123,w:237,h:20},
{t:"“Have some water frst, or you will choke,” she now said ",p:149,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"as Mang and Park stood up from under the apple tree. “I don’t ",p:149,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have a lot to fll your stomachs. If I had saved some chickens, ",p:149,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"how nice it would have been.”",p:149,x:115,y:233,w:220,h:20},
{t:"She took them to her house and brought in steamed pota-",p:149,x:145,y:260,w:419,h:20},
{t:"toes and pumpkin pancakes on the trays. As they ate, she cried, ",p:149,x:115,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"telling them about her son, who had gone to the war as an ",p:149,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ROKA ofcer. And she hadn’t heard from her husband for ten ",p:149,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"days, ever since he had been taken to the People’s Committee. ",p:149,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"She was also anxious about her daughter, who attended the ",p:149,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"university in Seoul and had been there when war had broken ",p:149,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"out. Only she and the family of her orchard caretaker were ",p:149,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"left.",p:149,x:115,y:480,w:28,h:20},
{t:"They ate so voraciously and hurriedly that they suddenly ",p:149,x:145,y:508,w:424,h:20},
{t:"felt ashamed. She left briefy to bring a bottle of sesame oil and ",p:149,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"some ginger juice. She proceeded to pour sesame oil on their ",p:149,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"knees and calves and to spread ginger juice on their wounds.",p:149,x:115,y:590,w:445,h:20},
{t:"The wife of the caretaker was stunned when she saw her ",p:149,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"bringing out the sesame oil. “Madame, you said the sesame oil ",p:149,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"is the last commodity we have, and it is being saved for your ",p:149,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"son.” ",p:149,x:115,y:700,w:40,h:20},
{t:"But the woman used it up generously to treat them. “I ",p:149,x:145,y:728,w:424,h:20},
{t:"believe that these two are very special people whom God has ",p:149,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"helped. It is a miracle that they have no broken bones or inter-",p:149,x:115,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"nal bleeding.” They stayed at the orchard farm for three days, ",p:149,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and the wounds and hurts healed almost completely. ",p:149,x:115,y:838,w:389,h:20},
{t:"Then at dawn, the “angel” saw them off. For three days, ",p:149,x:145,y:865,w:424,h:20},
{t:"she had taken them into her home and cared for them. She ",p:149,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"145",p:150,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:150,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"felt sadness at their leaving, as if they were her own sons. “I ",p:150,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"am happy to help you any way I can. Watch out, and keep safe ",p:150,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in your future.” ",p:150,x:115,y:150,w:118,h:20},
{t:"—",p:150,x:286,y:64,w:106,h:189},
{t:"The wheat bread they had brought from the orchard was ",p:150,x:145,y:254,w:424,h:20},
{t:"gone in a day, and their hunger now made walking more dif-",p:150,x:114,y:282,w:450,h:20},
{t:"cult. And the more severe the hunger became, the heavier their ",p:150,x:114,y:309,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bodies felt. The pass through the mountains still seemed still ",p:150,x:114,y:337,w:454,h:20},
{t:"so far away, while the terrain was getting steeper and rougher. ",p:150,x:114,y:364,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, I’m sorry to say this, but I never expected this kind ",p:150,x:114,y:392,w:453,h:20},
{t:"of road. If I had known this, I never would have come.”",p:150,x:114,y:419,w:402,h:20},
{t:"“A road is a road,” answered Mang Eui-Soon. “The road we ",p:150,x:144,y:447,w:423,h:20},
{t:"are walking along is ours. Keep quiet and walk, please.”",p:150,x:114,y:474,w:406,h:20},
{t:"As they crossed over the third and fnal crest of the pass, ",p:150,x:144,y:502,w:423,h:20},
{t:"they met a clean-shaven young man dressed in shaggy clothes. ",p:150,x:114,y:529,w:453,h:20},
{t:"It was apparent that he was hiding his status to escape danger. ",p:150,x:114,y:557,w:454,h:20},
{t:"He trusted them in an instant and told them both his status ",p:150,x:114,y:584,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and his name without hesitation. He was Myung Hyung-Churl, ",p:150,x:114,y:612,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the son of a well-known government ofcer. Now they had ",p:150,x:114,y:639,w:453,h:20},
{t:"another companion. ",p:150,x:114,y:667,w:152,h:20},
{t:"Hunger and thirst were ever present, a punishment they ",p:150,x:144,y:694,w:423,h:20},
{t:"had to endure. Because of the severe drought, even when they ",p:150,x:114,y:722,w:454,h:20},
{t:"broke off a corn stem, there was no sweet juice to wet their ",p:150,x:114,y:749,w:453,h:20},
{t:"mouths. Army troops had swept through the paddy felds, ",p:150,x:114,y:777,w:453,h:20},
{t:"leaving nothing. Swarms of other refugees had fed over the ",p:150,x:114,y:804,w:454,h:20},
{t:"felds and trampled on them. As they approached the hillside ",p:150,x:114,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"near Nakdong-Myeon District, Park Yong-Ki collapsed beside ",p:150,x:114,y:859,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the road. The sky was burning like a white-hot fame. “Mr. ",p:150,x:114,y:887,w:454,h:20},
{t:"146",p:151,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:151,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Mang, please let me stay here. Leave me and just go. I cannot ",p:151,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"believe there is a Promised Land.” Myung Hyung-Churl col-",p:151,x:115,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"lapsed beside Park Yong-Ki. ",p:151,x:115,y:150,w:204,h:20},
{t:"“Look,” encouraged Mang Eui-Soon. “There’s a town just ",p:151,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"over there. Maybe there will be some food for us.”",p:151,x:115,y:205,w:366,h:20},
{t:"They approached the town cautiously, crawling rather ",p:151,x:145,y:233,w:424,h:20},
{t:"than walking. At the town entrance, a feeling of bleak fear ",p:151,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"compelled them to stop. The town seemed to be abandoned. ",p:151,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Where was everyone? Had murderers slaughtered all of the ",p:151,x:115,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"people? ",p:151,x:115,y:343,w:60,h:20},
{t:"“Maybe they left something to eat in an empty house,” ",p:151,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Myung Hyung-Churl whispered as he stood up. Along a fence ",p:151,x:115,y:398,w:454,h:20},
{t:"by a house, a sunfower and some myrtle bloomed, like ar-",p:151,x:115,y:425,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tifcial fowers arranged for consoling those who mourn the ",p:151,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"dead. The town roads were strewn with ripped straw mat-",p:151,x:115,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tresses, straw ropes, broken pieces of ceramic jars, patched ",p:151,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"quilts, and rags. ",p:151,x:115,y:535,w:119,h:20},
{t:"“Look, over there!” Myung Hyung-Churl cried as he ran ",p:151,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"toward a dead horse. He and Park Yong-Ki groped in their ",p:151,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bundles for their knives. Fears disappeared. Only a desper-",p:151,x:115,y:618,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ate craving for food controlled their bodies and minds. After ",p:151,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they had cooked it and had a meal, they took as much of the ",p:151,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"leftovers as they could carry.",p:151,x:115,y:700,w:210,h:20},
{t:"Continuing on, they arrived at Indong-Myeon District, ",p:151,x:145,y:728,w:424,h:20},
{t:"then Sangju City. A river guided them from Sunsan City to ",p:151,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Indong City. Before the river became too wide, they crossed ",p:151,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"it, planning to go down to Daegu City through Waegwan City. ",p:151,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"But there they encountered a large Communist supply force ",p:151,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"camped in the barren mountain near an empty town. There ",p:151,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"147",p:152,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:152,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"were tanks, midrange artillery, trucks carrying ammunition, ",p:152,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and even oxcarts.",p:152,x:115,y:123,w:128,h:20},
{t:"Finding a public cemetery, they hid against a tomb. They ",p:152,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"were desperately hungry. It was a long time ago since they ",p:152,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had eaten the horse meat; the leftovers had soon spoiled in the ",p:152,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"heat. Park Yong-Ki said, “I saw an apple farm across the street ",p:152,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"when we came in here. Shall I go and get some?”",p:152,x:115,y:260,w:355,h:20},
{t:"Myung Hyung-Churl was terrifed. “The hills are full of ",p:152,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Communist troops. Are you crazy?”",p:152,x:115,y:315,w:258,h:20},
{t:"“I know, but when it gets dark, I will go.” ",p:152,x:145,y:343,w:300,h:20},
{t:"As the sky darkened, it began to rain. They agreed to go ",p:152,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"into the orchard together. The instinct for food blinded them ",p:152,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to any danger. They would move stealthily and not shake the ",p:152,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"branches, so no apples would drop onto the ground. They ",p:152,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"looked around but could see nothing in the dark. The darkness ",p:152,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and the rain helped give them cover as they brought back as ",p:152,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"many apples as they could carry. They bit hungrily into the ",p:152,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"apples, but they were bitter and not juicy and hard to swallow ",p:152,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"since they were not ripe yet.",p:152,x:115,y:590,w:206,h:20},
{t:"It started to pour heavily, and there was no place to escape ",p:152,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the rain. Their sweat-soaked clothes became drenched and let ",p:152,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"off a stuffy, fshy odor, and the soaking rain chilled them. Mang ",p:152,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon tipped his head, collecting raindrops in his mouth, ",p:152,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and answered, “Today is September 3, and Sunday.” He was ",p:152,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"counting the days so that he would not forget the Lord’s Day. ",p:152,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"“And for the sacrament, we are served apples and rain,” he ",p:152,x:115,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"added.",p:152,x:115,y:810,w:49,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki sighed as if he could not bear anymore. “Let’s ",p:152,x:145,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"go down to the town. Maybe the soldiers have moved toward ",p:152,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the frontline. If we stay here, this chilly rain will penetrate ",p:152,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"148",p:153,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:153,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"into our bones and empty stomachs, and the three of us will ",p:153,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"drown in this graveyard. I think the town might be empty now, ",p:153,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and if we can get dry, we might live. Also, we have certifcates ",p:153,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"from the Honorable People’s Combatants, saying we have ",p:153,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"completed twenty days of training and will become faithful ",p:153,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"people’s combatants when we return to our hometown.”",p:153,x:115,y:233,w:411,h:20},
{t:"It was raining so heavily that they could not easily see ",p:153,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"where they were going. When they reached the town, all was ",p:153,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"quiet. They entered a thatched house that had its doors open. ",p:153,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"In the kitchen, they found some frewood and some matches. ",p:153,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"When they reached under the frewood, they uncovered a few ",p:153,x:115,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"jars of glutinous rice and sesame seeds. They added the gluti-",p:153,x:115,y:398,w:450,h:20},
{t:"nous rice and sesame seeds to a kettle, poured in water, and ",p:153,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"set the fre. They were able to dry their clothes and personal ",p:153,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"belongings before the fre. While the others were busy cook-",p:153,x:115,y:480,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ing and drying wet clothes, Mang Eui-Soon sat despondently. ",p:153,x:115,y:508,w:446,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, is anything wrong?” asked Park Yong-Ki.",p:153,x:145,y:535,w:380,h:20},
{t:"“When the owners of this house come back and fnd ",p:153,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"these jars, they will be greatly disappointed!” Mang Eui-Soon ",p:153,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"answered. “I can just imagine their expressions and feelings. ",p:153,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"We are getting along by stealing from others.”",p:153,x:115,y:645,w:334,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang, you are too sentimental! We are stuck in a ter-",p:153,x:145,y:673,w:419,h:20},
{t:"rible war, and life vanishes like leaves falling from trees. All ",p:153,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that is ours has been taken away, and here you are, worried ",p:153,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"about a few handfuls of rice. I have an idea. Write on a piece ",p:153,x:115,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"of paper that we were so hungry, we took food. After this war, ",p:153,x:115,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we will repay what we have taken. We can leave our names ",p:153,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and addresses.”",p:153,x:115,y:838,w:115,h:20},
{t:"“Wow,” he said, “the smell of that rice cooking is making ",p:153,x:145,y:865,w:424,h:20},
{t:"me crazy! I’ve never known such a wonderful smell!” The ",p:153,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"149",p:154,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:154,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"three young men ate the rice voraciously, making sure they ",p:154,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"grabbed every last grain of rice. Their stomachs were full, ",p:154,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and their wet clothes had dried. The sound of the rain on the ",p:154,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"roof made everything cozy, and soon they lay fat on the warm ",p:154,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"foor in a deep sleep.",p:154,x:115,y:205,w:151,h:20},
{t:"—",p:154,x:286,y:119,w:106,h:189},
{t:"“Get up, you stupid sons of *******, or I’ll shoot you!”",p:154,x:145,y:309,w:384,h:20},
{t:"The muzzles of the guns of fve Communist soldiers sur-",p:154,x:145,y:337,w:419,h:20},
{t:"rounding them prodded them in the ribs several times to wake ",p:154,x:114,y:364,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them up.",p:154,x:114,y:392,w:65,h:20},
{t:"The three, now fully awake, put their hands on their heads ",p:154,x:144,y:419,w:424,h:20},
{t:"as they were searched. It was dawn, and the rain had stopped. ",p:154,x:114,y:447,w:453,h:20},
{t:"What price will we pay for eating a scanty bit of rice and having ",p:154,x:114,y:474,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a sound sleep under a roof? wondered Mang Eui-Soon.",p:154,x:114,y:502,w:392,h:20},
{t:"“Where are you coming from?” asked one of them, as two ",p:154,x:144,y:529,w:423,h:20},
{t:"young civilians joined the soldiers.",p:154,x:114,y:557,w:253,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki explained the situation as convincingly as ",p:154,x:144,y:584,w:423,h:20},
{t:"he could. “Here are our certifcates. We missed the chance ",p:154,x:114,y:612,w:453,h:20},
{t:"for joining the People’s Combatants. Our hometown is Jinju ",p:154,x:114,y:639,w:453,h:20},
{t:"City, and when we arrive there, we are prepared to devote ",p:154,x:114,y:667,w:453,h:20},
{t:"ourselves to the People’s Liberation. Look at this, sir.”",p:154,x:114,y:694,w:390,h:20},
{t:"It was apparent that these people were in a hurry to fee ",p:154,x:144,y:722,w:423,h:20},
{t:"from something, because the soldier took a quick glance at the ",p:154,x:114,y:749,w:453,h:20},
{t:"certifcate and then hurriedly left. They were free!",p:154,x:114,y:777,w:367,h:20},
{t:"It was still early morning, but the sky was clear. Across the ",p:154,x:144,y:804,w:423,h:20},
{t:"village street, they saw advancing diesel tanks, which shrieked ",p:154,x:114,y:832,w:453,h:20},
{t:"along, the noise almost piercing their eardrums. Some tanks ",p:154,x:114,y:859,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were carrying big, beaklike cannons, kicking back the muddy ",p:154,x:114,y:887,w:454,h:20},
{t:"150",p:155,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:155,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"clay, wet from last night’s rain, as they went. The short, stark ",p:155,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"howitzers were uncovered, and the trucks carrying the mid-",p:155,x:115,y:123,w:450,h:20},
{t:"range cannons were terrifying. ",p:155,x:115,y:150,w:230,h:20},
{t:"Leaving the village, they entered the barren mountains, ",p:155,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"but someone followed them. Their hearts jumped. Would they ",p:155,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"be detained again? It was one of the civilians who had been ",p:155,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"with the soldiers. ",p:155,x:115,y:260,w:130,h:20},
{t:"The civilian saw their fear and rushed to speak, “You ",p:155,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"should tear up the certifcates. People carrying these papers are ",p:155,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"deemed suspicious and are at anyone’s disposal. The soldiers ",p:155,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"had been at the front and did not know about the certifcates. ",p:155,x:115,y:370,w:454,h:20},
{t:"I ran after you to inform you and am almost out of breath. ",p:155,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Please believe me and destroy them. Heaven helped you. Near ",p:155,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Waegwan City, there is a ferce battle across the Nakdong ",p:155,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"River. Take care.” Then he ran back down to the village.",p:155,x:115,y:480,w:407,h:20},
{t:"“Oh my goodness, we carried our own death sentences!” ",p:155,x:145,y:508,w:423,h:20},
{t:"cried Park Yong-Ki, tearing up the certifcate he had so cher-",p:155,x:115,y:535,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ished. Passing the area where the battle scene was still fresh, ",p:155,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"they saw the destroyed army tanks of the North Koreans and ",p:155,x:115,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"a dead Communist soldier in his mustard-colored uniform, ",p:155,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"smeared with blood, fallen beside a smashed mortar. A ",p:155,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bombed tent appeared to have been the feld headquarters. ",p:155,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"They were confused about where to go. Evidently the frontline ",p:155,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was not far away. But how could they reach the South Korean ",p:155,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"army? How could they break through the enemy line?",p:155,x:115,y:755,w:394,h:20},
{t:"—",p:155,x:286,y:669,w:106,h:189},
{t:"Again they were captured. This time they were taken to a ",p:155,x:145,y:859,w:423,h:20},
{t:"place where the Communist army and civilians were working ",p:155,x:114,y:887,w:454,h:20},
{t:"151",p:156,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:156,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"on military supplies. Their examination was not a rigorous ",p:156,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"one, and it seemed that helping hands were needed so badly ",p:156,x:115,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"that whether they were enemies or strangers didn’t matter. ",p:156,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"They were put to work. The three young men were allocated ",p:156,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to the kitchen, where they washed and cooked a pile of rice as ",p:156,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"high as a mountain. ",p:156,x:115,y:233,w:148,h:20},
{t:"It wasn’t all bad, for there was a brook and woods nearby, ",p:156,x:145,y:260,w:424,h:20},
{t:"and they had food to eat. Sometimes when the cooked rice ",p:156,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was too hard, they pounded it with salt in a mortar in order to ",p:156,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"make rice loaves. ",p:156,x:115,y:343,w:130,h:20},
{t:"They heard the enemy soldiers discussing the war when ",p:156,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"they came to eat the rice, and Park Yong-Ki, pounding a pestle, ",p:156,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"whispered to Mang Eui-Soon, “There’s going to be an end to all ",p:156,x:115,y:425,w:454,h:20},
{t:"this soon.”",p:156,x:115,y:453,w:76,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon smiled and continued to make loaves ",p:156,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"earnestly. The hot summer weather had changed, and once ",p:156,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the rain started, it continued. A tent was put up where the ",p:156,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"loaves were made, but rain splashed in and it became cold. ",p:156,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Each time his hands pressed rice into a loaf, he nodded as if he ",p:156,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were bowing. The graceful silhouette of Mang seemed carved ",p:156,x:115,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"in the light from an electric bulb. “Are you sleepy? Or are you ",p:156,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"beating the rhythm to lighten the load?” Park Yong-Ki asked ",p:156,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him, pounding a mortar. Mang Eui-Soon was quiet awhile and ",p:156,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"replied in a whisper, “I am praying.”",p:156,x:115,y:728,w:266,h:20},
{t:"“Whom are you praying to? To this loaf?” ",p:156,x:145,y:755,w:304,h:20},
{t:"“I pray to God to preserve those who eat these loaves and ",p:156,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"to let them realize the wickedness and vanity of the war and ",p:156,x:115,y:810,w:454,h:20},
{t:"be awakened to love.” ",p:156,x:115,y:838,w:164,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki thought this was sad and futile. He felt en-",p:156,x:145,y:865,w:419,h:20},
{t:"raged instead. He threw a handful of sand into the rice when ",p:156,x:115,y:893,w:453,h:20},
{t:"152",p:157,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:157,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"he bent to pound the mortar. He wanted to hit Mang hard, ",p:157,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"but instead he pounded the mortar harder. Suddenly, he felt ",p:157,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"that all their miseries were caused by the ineptitude of Mang ",p:157,x:115,y:150,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon. ",p:157,x:115,y:178,w:73,h:20},
{t:"As the frontline moved, so did the kitchen, often in the ",p:157,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"middle of the night. But the cooking job did not continue. The ",p:157,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"three young men were next made to carry cannonballs in the ",p:157,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"dark of night along the riverside. When it occurred to him that ",p:157,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cannonballs kill many people when they explode, Mang Eui-",p:157,x:115,y:315,w:450,h:20},
{t:"Soon stopped a moment.",p:157,x:115,y:343,w:179,h:20},
{t:"He was hit on the back by a rife butt. “Why are you so ",p:157,x:145,y:370,w:424,h:20},
{t:"slow? Work faithfully and see the completion of the war! You ",p:157,x:115,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"reactionary *******, don’t you try to run!”",p:157,x:115,y:425,w:303,h:20},
{t:"His shoulder, protected only by a thin summer shirt, ",p:157,x:145,y:453,w:423,h:20},
{t:"could not withstand the hit, and he stumbled. He was cut and ",p:157,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"bruised. Park Yong-Ki and Myung Hyung-Churl approached ",p:157,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"him and whispered, “Don’t get too far from us. Even if they ",p:157,x:115,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"hit you, stay close to us. Since it’s dark, it will be easy to avoid ",p:157,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"being seen. When we fnd a chance, we will escape.” ",p:157,x:115,y:590,w:386,h:20},
{t:"After midnight, a signal fare illuminated the darkness, ",p:157,x:145,y:618,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and bombing followed. Park Yong-Ki and Myung Hyung-Churl ",p:157,x:115,y:645,w:454,h:20},
{t:"took advantage of the chaos to take Mang Eui-Soon and crawl ",p:157,x:115,y:673,w:453,h:20},
{t:"out of the place. “The Communist frontline is in disarray,” said ",p:157,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki confdently. ",p:157,x:115,y:728,w:187,h:20},
{t:"“The frontline is somewhere around here, and ",p:157,x:145,y:755,w:373,h:20},
{t:"if ",p:157,x:523,y:755,w:14,h:20},
{t:"we ",p:157,x:543,y:755,w:25,h:20},
{t:"can cross it, then we will be all right,” Myung Hyung-Churl ",p:157,x:115,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"responded. ",p:157,x:115,y:810,w:85,h:20},
{t:"“We ",p:157,x:145,y:838,w:34,h:20},
{t:"are worthy ",p:157,x:185,y:838,w:91,h:20},
{t:"to ",p:157,x:283,y:838,w:18,h:20},
{t:"be called experienced ",p:157,x:307,y:838,w:175,h:20},
{t:"warriors,” ",p:157,x:490,y:838,w:78,h:20},
{t:"boasted Park Yong-Ki. “We have two day’s worth of food be-",p:157,x:115,y:865,w:450,h:20},
{t:"153",p:158,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:158,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"cause when the ******** gave out the loaves, I tricked them ",p:158,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and saved some extra for us.”",p:158,x:115,y:123,w:216,h:20},
{t:"The next morning when they bit the loaves, they couldn’t ",p:158,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"chew any of them. They were full of sand.",p:158,x:115,y:178,w:305,h:20},
{t:"The Curse of Misunderstanding",p:158,x:181,y:244,w:317,h:26},
{t:"The ferce and decisive battle continued. The Communists, ",p:158,x:115,y:292,w:454,h:20},
{t:"who had taken all of South Korea except Daegu and Busan, ",p:158,x:115,y:319,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were pushing to engulf whatever remained. Meanwhile, the ",p:158,x:115,y:347,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Korean and UN armies were desperate to push them back and ",p:158,x:115,y:374,w:453,h:20},
{t:"recapture the land, using the last two cities as springboards. ",p:158,x:115,y:402,w:442,h:20},
{t:"The three friends advanced during lulls of artillery fre, ",p:158,x:145,y:429,w:423,h:20},
{t:"but otherwise, they hid themselves and waited. Airplanes ",p:158,x:115,y:457,w:454,h:20},
{t:"ceaselessly shook the sky and thrashed the ground with ",p:158,x:115,y:484,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bombs. After each bombing, machine-gun fre followed. The ",p:158,x:115,y:512,w:454,h:20},
{t:"air was cloudy because of gunpowder smoke, and the ground ",p:158,x:115,y:539,w:453,h:20},
{t:"was dug up and turned over, so they could not discern their ",p:158,x:115,y:567,w:454,h:20},
{t:"direction. ",p:158,x:115,y:594,w:74,h:20},
{t:"It was early morning when they came to a town by a bridge ",p:158,x:145,y:622,w:424,h:20},
{t:"spanning a river near Waegwan City. On the street, things ",p:158,x:115,y:649,w:454,h:20},
{t:"were strewn everywhere, indicating pandemonium: ",p:158,x:115,y:677,w:411,h:20},
{t:"rice, ",p:158,x:533,y:677,w:35,h:20},
{t:"quilts, gourd bowls, spoons, pans, and shoes sat like orphans, ",p:158,x:115,y:704,w:453,h:20},
{t:"evidence that refugees must have very recently fed the area.",p:158,x:115,y:732,w:445,h:20},
{t:"They swept some rice into a bag, planning to cook it later. ",p:158,x:145,y:759,w:423,h:20},
{t:"On the road along the riverbank, smashed motorbikes, appar-",p:158,x:115,y:787,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ently belonging to Communist troops, were lying about, and ",p:158,x:115,y:814,w:453,h:20},
{t:"bleeding bodies were spread out like laundry on the boulders. ",p:158,x:115,y:842,w:454,h:20},
{t:"154",p:159,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:159,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"They dashed by, covering their mouths and noses with their ",p:159,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hands.",p:159,x:115,y:123,w:48,h:20},
{t:"Finding no place and no time to hide, they kept on run-",p:159,x:145,y:150,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ning. Arriving at a village in fames, they saw no troops, ",p:159,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"neither enemy nor friend, although they sensed it was a place ",p:159,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"where their own troops had been stationed. A pile of ration ",p:159,x:115,y:233,w:454,h:20},
{t:"boxes sizzled in the fre, and stray oxen and pigs rushed about ",p:159,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"frantically. ",p:159,x:115,y:288,w:82,h:20},
{t:"They were amazed to fnd some rice boiling in a kettle, in ",p:159,x:145,y:315,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the middle of courtyard, over a fre. “Oh, what nice people! ",p:159,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"They’ve cooked rice for us,” exclaimed Park Yong-Ki. ",p:159,x:115,y:370,w:386,h:20},
{t:"Myung Hyung-Churl dashed to the kettle. “This is re-",p:159,x:145,y:398,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ally a gift from God, who has favored Mr. Mang for his good ",p:159,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"conduct.”",p:159,x:115,y:453,w:69,h:20},
{t:"But turning his back on them, Mang Eui-Soon stood with ",p:159,x:145,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"his head bowed.",p:159,x:115,y:508,w:119,h:20},
{t:"“Why are you standing there? Our troops seem to have ",p:159,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"abandoned this place only recently. We should hurry to catch ",p:159,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"up with them.”",p:159,x:115,y:590,w:109,h:20},
{t:"In a nearby trench lay the dead body of a boy about six ",p:159,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"years of age. His eyes were closed and his face clean. The ",p:159,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"blood seeping from his stomach was still warm.",p:159,x:115,y:673,w:347,h:20},
{t:"“Let’s bury him.”",p:159,x:145,y:700,w:123,h:20},
{t:"“No, it’s too dangerous. The enemy could show up at any ",p:159,x:145,y:728,w:423,h:20},
{t:"moment.”",p:159,x:115,y:755,w:72,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki and Myung Hyung-Churl were angry. The ",p:159,x:145,y:783,w:423,h:20},
{t:"midday sun was burning hot, and the pungent smell and heat ",p:159,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"coming from the burning buildings and fames choked them.",p:159,x:115,y:838,w:443,h:20},
{t:"155",p:160,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:160,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"“Then you go frst, and I will follow you,” said Mang Eui-",p:160,x:145,y:95,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Soon. “I’ll meet you at the corner of the mountainside.” And he ",p:160,x:114,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"left, entering an empty house to fnd a shovel. The two could ",p:160,x:114,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not leave him, however, so they anxiously waited for him. ",p:160,x:114,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"He came out with the shovel and dug the ground beside the ",p:160,x:114,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"furrow. ",p:160,x:114,y:233,w:59,h:20},
{t:"“That’s good enough. Bury him,” Park Yong-Ki urged impa-",p:160,x:145,y:260,w:419,h:20},
{t:"tiently. Mang Eui-Soon quietly continued digging. The ground ",p:160,x:114,y:288,w:454,h:20},
{t:"was soon deep enough to cover the dead boy. Park Yong-Ki ",p:160,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and Myung Hyung-Churl lifted the boy and gave him to Mang ",p:160,x:114,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon, who embraced him in his arms and closed eyes.",p:160,x:114,y:370,w:421,h:20},
{t:"“Lord, you took this little life in the midst of all this misery ",p:160,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"and saved him and received his soul. I believe you took his ",p:160,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"soul to give him rest.” The two took him and placed him in the ",p:160,x:114,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"earth and hurriedly shoveled in the dirt. ",p:160,x:114,y:480,w:299,h:20},
{t:"The next afternoon, they found another abandoned vil-",p:160,x:145,y:508,w:419,h:20},
{t:"lage, lying naked under the early autumn sun. The desolate ",p:160,x:114,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"village had been stripped and plundered. They entered it very ",p:160,x:114,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cautiously and fearfully, but they met no one. Park, who had ",p:160,x:114,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"walked a bit ahead of them, shouted, “Look, ",p:160,x:114,y:618,w:346,h:20},
{t:"it’s the South ",p:160,x:464,y:618,w:104,h:20},
{t:"Korean fag!”",p:160,x:114,y:645,w:96,h:20},
{t:"“We broke through the frontline! We are over it! This is ",p:160,x:144,y:673,w:424,h:20},
{t:"our land for sure!” exclaimed Myung Hyung-Churl, jumping ",p:160,x:114,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"into the air.",p:160,x:114,y:728,w:85,h:20},
{t:"“Then where are they now?” asked Mang Eui-Soon. “Why ",p:160,x:144,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"is no one here? We’d better look around and check on the situ-",p:160,x:114,y:783,w:450,h:20},
{t:"ation rather than moving on recklessly.”",p:160,x:114,y:810,w:293,h:20},
{t:"156",p:161,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:161,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Suddenly, a door was fung open, and two rife muzzles ",p:161,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"were pointed at them. “Hands up!” said two Americans in ",p:161,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"English.",p:161,x:114,y:150,w:58,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon stepped forward and calmly explained ",p:161,x:145,y:178,w:423,h:20},
{t:"in English that they were civilian refugees. The Americans ",p:161,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"seemed curious and amused with Mang Eui-Soon because of ",p:161,x:114,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the way he spoke English. They talked through their wireless ",p:161,x:114,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"transmitter while Mang Eui-Soon answered their questions, ",p:161,x:114,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"calmly and simply. Then a US military jeep drove up to take ",p:161,x:114,y:315,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them to the camp.",p:161,x:114,y:343,w:131,h:20},
{t:"“What a relief! Maybe they will take us in a car in ap-",p:161,x:145,y:370,w:419,h:20},
{t:"preciation of our toil and sweat. We are war veterans,” said ",p:161,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a grinning, rejuvenated Park Yong-Ki. Behind them, fames ",p:161,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"rose up from the mountains. The three young men breathed a ",p:161,x:114,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"sigh of relief. If the Americans had not found them, they might ",p:161,x:114,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"have ended up as a handful of ash.",p:161,x:114,y:508,w:253,h:20},
{t:"“God has delivered us from hellfre,” exclaimed Park ",p:161,x:144,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki. ",p:161,x:114,y:563,w:64,h:20},
{t:"“The Americans are angels sent by God!” Myung Hyung-",p:161,x:144,y:590,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Churl cried. “They are God’s messengers to deliver us from ",p:161,x:114,y:618,w:453,h:20},
{t:"hell. I am sure that the God of Mang and Park is the God of ",p:161,x:114,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"love.”",p:161,x:114,y:673,w:41,h:20},
{t:"“Yes, and he is your God, too. He is pleased with your con-",p:161,x:144,y:700,w:419,h:20},
{t:"fession,” said Mang Eui-Soon, looking back over the sea of fre. ",p:161,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Then he whispered, “But there is a reason we have survived ",p:161,x:114,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and a reason for the hellfre. Once we understand the reasons, ",p:161,x:114,y:783,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we will have a mission to do something about it.” ",p:161,x:114,y:810,w:362,h:20},
{t:"A second-generation Japanese-American sergeant was ",p:161,x:144,y:838,w:423,h:20},
{t:"sent to them as an examiner. Although he was also Asian, he ",p:161,x:114,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"157",p:162,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:162,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"treated the three as if they were another race. He looked with ",p:162,x:115,y:95,w:454,h:20},
{t:"suspicion at Mang Eui-Soon, who spoke in English and Japanese ",p:162,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"as he described their history in detail. “We are students from ",p:162,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Seoul. We were captured, tortured, recaptured, imprisoned, ",p:162,x:115,y:178,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and made to do compulsory labor. We have brought a Bible ",p:162,x:115,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"and a hymnbook.”",p:162,x:115,y:233,w:134,h:20},
{t:"The examiner was as cold as steel as he threw a barrage of ",p:162,x:145,y:260,w:423,h:20},
{t:"questions at them about the routes the three had taken. “We ",p:162,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"have actually captured many Communist spies who were car-",p:162,x:115,y:315,w:450,h:20},
{t:"rying Bibles,” he said. “You don’t have any identifcation. And ",p:162,x:115,y:343,w:453,h:20},
{t:"we know how spies can fabricate identifcation.”",p:162,x:115,y:370,w:355,h:20},
{t:"Several other ofcers came in. They listened to what he ",p:162,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"explained to them and then signed some papers. What was ",p:162,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"there on the signed paper? the three wondered as they watched ",p:162,x:115,y:453,w:454,h:20},
{t:"the examiner’s eyes. Soldiers came in a jeep, and the sergeant ",p:162,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"showed them the papers and spoke to them briefy, saying that ",p:162,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the fate of the three would be determined in Daegu. ",p:162,x:115,y:535,w:381,h:20},
{t:"“What is going on here?” yelled an outraged Park Yong-Ki. ",p:162,x:145,y:563,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“How can they treat us like this? Maybe they cannot award us ",p:162,x:115,y:590,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the prizes we deserve, but still, what are they doing to us? Do ",p:162,x:115,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"they really think we are Communist spies?” ",p:162,x:115,y:645,w:321,h:20},
{t:"“Let’s calm down,” said Mang Eui-Soon. “Remember, we ",p:162,x:145,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"are at the frontline. When we get to Daegu, we can talk to the ",p:162,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"people in Korean, and they will understand us. They will be ",p:162,x:115,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"different from the foreigners. It’s no use to protest here, so ",p:162,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"let’s leave quietly.”",p:162,x:115,y:783,w:135,h:20},
{t:"As they rode along in the jeep, they watched as villages ",p:162,x:145,y:810,w:424,h:20},
{t:"and riversides, sky and earth, all became a sea of fre. It was ",p:162,x:115,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"after sunset when they arrived at the Daegu police station. ",p:162,x:115,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"158",p:163,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:163,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"People were shouting, screaming, and running up and down, ",p:163,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and babies were crying. They were taken inside, and their ",p:163,x:115,y:123,w:454,h:20},
{t:"papers were thrown down on a desk, and the jeep left in a ",p:163,x:115,y:150,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cloud of dust. ",p:163,x:115,y:178,w:102,h:20},
{t:"“Where are you coming from?” a man asked them gently. ",p:163,x:145,y:205,w:421,h:20},
{t:"“From Waegwan,” answered Mang Eui-Soon. “We met the ",p:163,x:145,y:233,w:423,h:20},
{t:"US soldiers, who examined us and sent us here.”",p:163,x:115,y:260,w:352,h:20},
{t:"“Then you are prisoners of war. The United States consid-",p:163,x:145,y:288,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ers anyone caught within two miles of the front, refugees or ",p:163,x:115,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not, as war prisoners.”",p:163,x:115,y:343,w:165,h:20},
{t:"“Are you sure?” Park Yong-Ki and Myung Hyung-Churl ",p:163,x:145,y:370,w:423,h:20},
{t:"laughed. ",p:163,x:115,y:398,w:67,h:20},
{t:"But by morning, they realized how serious the situation ",p:163,x:145,y:425,w:423,h:20},
{t:"was. It seemed everyone was suspect. They saw women, ",p:163,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"children, old people, and even a whole family among those ",p:163,x:115,y:480,w:454,h:20},
{t:"imprisoned. Later, the mothers, grandmothers, and children ",p:163,x:115,y:508,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were released, but not the men. “How can you treat us like ",p:163,x:115,y:535,w:453,h:20},
{t:"this? We have clear identifcation. Let us go!” But their protests ",p:163,x:115,y:563,w:453,h:20},
{t:"were coldly ignored.",p:163,x:115,y:590,w:149,h:20},
{t:"They implored a policeman who came with a ration of a ",p:163,x:145,y:618,w:424,h:20},
{t:"rice loaf, but he bluntly said he knew nothing about it. In the ",p:163,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"afternoon, they were called out. Maybe now they could get a ",p:163,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"review of their case! But it was a three-quarter-ton army truck ",p:163,x:115,y:700,w:454,h:20},
{t:"that awaited them. ",p:163,x:115,y:728,w:141,h:20},
{t:"“Where are you taking us?” Mang Eui-Soon asked an ",p:163,x:145,y:755,w:423,h:20},
{t:"armed soldier who carried bundles of documents.",p:163,x:115,y:783,w:364,h:20},
{t:"“To Busan.”",p:163,x:145,y:810,w:85,h:20},
{t:"“Why should we go to Busan?” he inquired. ",p:163,x:145,y:838,w:353,h:20},
{t:"“We are ",p:163,x:501,y:838,w:67,h:20},
{t:"civilian refugees from Seoul, students. Why don’t you re-",p:163,x:115,y:865,w:450,h:20},
{t:"159",p:164,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:164,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"view our cases here? Why are we under surveillance and ",p:164,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"suspicion?”",p:164,x:115,y:123,w:86,h:20},
{t:"“You talk too much,” the frenzied soldier yelled. But Mang ",p:164,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Eui-Soon continued: “Why waste manpower in this time of ",p:164,x:115,y:178,w:454,h:20},
{t:"war? We are truly students. You can handle our case here. ",p:164,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Please present our case to those who could make a decision. ",p:164,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"We are students who have suffered so much hardship to come ",p:164,x:115,y:260,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to our fatherland.”",p:164,x:115,y:288,w:136,h:20},
{t:"“Shut up with your nonsense. You are compulsory labor-",p:164,x:145,y:315,w:419,h:20},
{t:"ers for the Communists, or you are spies. This paper proves it. ",p:164,x:115,y:343,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Get on the truck!”",p:164,x:115,y:370,w:129,h:20},
{t:"At that moment, Park Yong-Ki roared like a ferce beast. ",p:164,x:145,y:398,w:423,h:20},
{t:"“Why on earth don’t you believe us? What’s the use of that ",p:164,x:115,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"paper? Americans made that all up. We are Koreans. We are ",p:164,x:115,y:453,w:453,h:20},
{t:"students who love this country. What can such a stupid paper ",p:164,x:115,y:480,w:453,h:20},
{t:"tell about us?”",p:164,x:115,y:508,w:104,h:20},
{t:"The soldier smashed Park Yong-Ki in the back with the ",p:164,x:145,y:535,w:423,h:20},
{t:"butt of his rife. “Get on the truck,” he said, pointing his rife ",p:164,x:115,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"at him.",p:164,x:115,y:590,w:51,h:20},
{t:"They arrived at ",p:164,x:145,y:618,w:133,h:20},
{t:"the Daegu railroad station, where ",p:164,x:285,y:618,w:283,h:20},
{t:"several black cargo cars were waiting. There were many ",p:164,x:115,y:645,w:453,h:20},
{t:"other people about to be loaded onto the train. Ranks were ",p:164,x:115,y:673,w:454,h:20},
{t:"formed and the numbers counted. When the doors of the ",p:164,x:115,y:700,w:453,h:20},
{t:"cargo cars were opened, they were pushed and pulled and ",p:164,x:115,y:728,w:454,h:20},
{t:"beaten by clubs to get aboard without the help of a ramp. ",p:164,x:115,y:755,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Inside the ramshackle car, Communist soldiers in tattered, ",p:164,x:115,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"drab uniforms were strewn about like rags, looking out the ",p:164,x:115,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"door with blank expressions on their faces. Heaps of trash ",p:164,x:115,y:838,w:454,h:20},
{t:"lay in the corner. The pungency of excrement flled their ",p:164,x:115,y:865,w:454,h:20},
{t:"nostrils.",p:164,x:115,y:893,w:61,h:20},
{t:"160",p:165,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:165,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki yelled to one of the two guards, “Why are ",p:165,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"you taking us along with Communist prisoners? This should ",p:165,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not happen!”",p:165,x:114,y:150,w:95,h:20},
{t:"“You *******, shut up,” the guard yelled back.",p:165,x:145,y:178,w:328,h:20},
{t:"“Oh, kill me now!” Park Yong-Ki wailed like a wounded ",p:165,x:145,y:205,w:423,h:20},
{t:"beast. ",p:165,x:114,y:233,w:46,h:20},
{t:"“Is ",p:165,x:169,y:233,w:23,h:20},
{t:"this ",p:165,x:199,y:233,w:30,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:165,x:237,y:233,w:27,h:20},
{t:"gift ",p:165,x:272,y:233,w:28,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:165,x:307,y:233,w:9,h:20},
{t:"receive ",p:165,x:324,y:233,w:57,h:20},
{t:"from my country, my ",p:165,x:389,y:233,w:179,h:20},
{t:"fatherland?”",p:165,x:114,y:260,w:92,h:20},
{t:"From somewhere in the dark, someone hurled piercing ",p:165,x:145,y:288,w:423,h:20},
{t:"words at him in the North Korean dialect. “You son of a *****. ",p:165,x:114,y:315,w:453,h:20},
{t:"You dirty pig, betraying your comrades. When you’re cap-",p:165,x:114,y:343,w:450,h:20},
{t:"tured, you’re captured. What are you crying for? Do you deny ",p:165,x:114,y:370,w:453,h:20},
{t:"you are from the People’s Army? If you are not NKPA, then get ",p:165,x:114,y:398,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the **** out of here. We don’t want to be considered the same ",p:165,x:114,y:425,w:453,h:20},
{t:"as you. Just get the **** out.” ",p:165,x:114,y:453,w:213,h:20},
{t:"Myung Hyung-Churl slumped down and buried his face in ",p:165,x:144,y:480,w:423,h:20},
{t:"his hands, while Mang Eui-Soon held on to the frenzied Park ",p:165,x:114,y:508,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Yong-Ki. He closed his eyes and prayed quietly, “We have no ",p:165,x:114,y:535,w:454,h:20},
{t:"place to stand. We have nowhere to go. Lord, what is this for? ",p:165,x:114,y:563,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Lord, help us to be resolute. Hold us fast. I know that this is just ",p:165,x:114,y:590,w:454,h:20},
{t:"part of what we have to go through. Help us to listen humbly ",p:165,x:114,y:618,w:454,h:20},
{t:"to you and to wait silently on you.” ",p:165,x:114,y:645,w:258,h:20},
{t:"Then he whispered to Park Yong-Ki, “When we get to ",p:165,x:144,y:673,w:423,h:20},
{t:"Busan, we will prove ourselves students. Don’t get discour-",p:165,x:114,y:700,w:450,h:20},
{t:"aged. War is like that. Everyone is in a panic. Be patient and ",p:165,x:114,y:728,w:453,h:20},
{t:"wait in silence. The way will open up to us. Actually, those who ",p:165,x:114,y:755,w:454,h:20},
{t:"are captured here are more desperate. We should comfort ",p:165,x:114,y:783,w:454,h:20},
{t:"them and pray for them. If we are rowdy here, they might ",p:165,x:114,y:810,w:453,h:20},
{t:"harm us. Don’t annoy them. Act with discretion. Our country ",p:165,x:114,y:838,w:453,h:20},
{t:"suspects us and threw us in here beside people who consider ",p:165,x:114,y:865,w:453,h:20},
{t:"us their enemy.”",p:165,x:114,y:893,w:119,h:20},
{t:"161",p:166,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"How Long, Oh Lord?",p:166,x:400,y:55,w:194,h:17},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki sobbed, “It’s all right. I’ll be quiet. I’ll endure ",p:166,x:145,y:95,w:423,h:20},
{t:"the suffering and pray ceaselessly. Then we will get what we ",p:166,x:114,y:123,w:453,h:20},
{t:"deserve.”",p:166,x:114,y:150,w:68,h:20},
{t:"“Any prize we get will be from heaven,” said Mang Eui-",p:166,x:145,y:178,w:420,h:20},
{t:"Soon as the door of the freight train slammed shut and all ",p:166,x:114,y:205,w:454,h:20},
{t:"went dark. The stench was overpowering.",p:166,x:114,y:233,w:306,h:20},
{t:"A page of Mang Eui-Soon’s sermon notes",p:167,x:70,y:50,w:304,h:21},
{t:"163",p:168,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"PART THREE",p:168,x:272,y:227,w:134,h:32},
{t:"My Cup Overfows ",p:168,x:203,y:259,w:281,h:43},
{t:"Chang Hyung-Jin:  ",p:168,x:275,y:307,w:135,h:20},
{t:"The Story of Our Friendship Continues",p:168,x:199,y:328,w:281,h:20},
{t:"POW",p:168,x:315,y:395,w:49,h:26},
{t:"In March 1951 in Busan I heard about his imprisonment in ",p:168,x:115,y:443,w:453,h:20},
{t:"a war camp. It was just a few days after I had returned to ",p:168,x:115,y:470,w:454,h:20},
{t:"Busan from Cheju Island, where I had fed. The news came to ",p:168,x:115,y:498,w:454,h:20},
{t:"me immediately as if it had been waiting for me. On that day ",p:168,x:115,y:525,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the dusty winds of March powdered the city and the sea and ",p:168,x:115,y:553,w:454,h:20},
{t:"unearthed debris, throwing everything around, and seemed ",p:168,x:115,y:580,w:453,h:20},
{t:"to blurt out the news about this man who might end up suf-",p:168,x:115,y:608,w:450,h:20},
{t:"focated under the weight of the tyranny of history.",p:168,x:115,y:635,w:367,h:20},
{t:"No visitors. After exploring every avenue to reach him, ",p:168,x:145,y:663,w:423,h:20},
{t:"I was able, at last, to contact Captain Yu Chung-In, who was ",p:168,x:115,y:690,w:453,h:20},
{t:"working at the Third Army Hospital in Busan. She became the ",p:168,x:115,y:717,w:454,h:20},
{t:"bridge between Mang Eui-Soon and me. Although she took ad-",p:168,x:115,y:745,w:450,h:20},
{t:"vantage of her status as an active army captain, it was not that ",p:168,x:115,y:772,w:453,h:20},
{t:"easy for her to contact him in person. She had to fnd someone ",p:168,x:115,y:800,w:453,h:20},
{t:"else who would be able to exchange books and letters with ",p:168,x:115,y:827,w:453,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon. Sometime in April, Captain Yu Chung-In sent ",p:168,x:115,y:855,w:453,h:20},
{t:"164",p:169,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:169,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"me a bundle of Mang Eui-Soon’s letters, along with a brief note ",p:169,x:115,y:95,w:453,h:20},
{t:"and her ofce address through another person.",p:169,x:115,y:123,w:345,h:20},
{t:"Hoping that someday I would receive his letters, he had ",p:169,x:145,y:150,w:423,h:20},
{t:"written to me in his neat hand, one paragraph following an-",p:169,x:115,y:178,w:450,h:20},
{t:"other. Pencil and paper were so scarce that he had written on ",p:169,x:115,y:205,w:453,h:20},
{t:"the backs of charts or on the rough paper used for packages, ",p:169,x:115,y:233,w:453,h:20},
{t:"which he would then glue together. His letters came to me like ",p:169,x:115,y:260,w:454,h:20},
{t:"miraculous butterfies, against all odds, and I found I could ",p:169,x:115,y:288,w:453,h:20},
{t:"not read them at frst. I wept in despair. ",p:169,x:115,y:315,w:295,h:20},
{t:"Forced Confession",p:169,x:247,y:382,w:185,h:26},
{t:"September 1950",p:169,x:115,y:433,w:144,h:16},
{t:"Dear Hyung-Jin,",p:169,x:160,y:464,w:107,h:20},
{t:"I wonder how different it is to be alive or to be dead. ",p:169,x:190,y:492,w:379,h:20},
{t:"Is it true that to be alive is light, and to be dead is dark, and ",p:169,x:160,y:519,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to live is joy, and to die is sorrow? Are you alive, and if you ",p:169,x:160,y:547,w:408,h:20},
{t:"are, what are you doing? My longing for you and my anxiety ",p:169,x:160,y:574,w:409,h:20},
{t:"about you have made a deep furrow in my heart. But that ",p:169,x:160,y:602,w:408,h:20},
{t:"feeling of yearning and anxiousness arises because I am ",p:169,x:160,y:629,w:408,h:20},
{t:"alive. You may wonder what I had to go through to secure ",p:169,x:160,y:657,w:409,h:20},
{t:"paper and pencil to write. I have realized through all this ",p:169,x:160,y:684,w:409,h:20},
{t:"difculty that life is limited in means, and death is the one ",p:169,x:160,y:712,w:409,h:20},
{t:"way to freedom. You, my friend, live in my heart, whether ",p:169,x:160,y:739,w:408,h:20},
{t:"you are in this world or in heaven. You mean a great deal to ",p:169,x:160,y:767,w:408,h:20},
{t:"me, more than I can say. ",p:169,x:160,y:794,w:174,h:20},
{t:"I am a prisoner of war. I became a prisoner of war ",p:169,x:190,y:822,w:378,h:20},
{t:"although I have neither grabbed a rife nor confronted ",p:169,x:160,y:849,w:408,h:20},
{t:"anyone as an enemy. They stamped POW on my clothes, ",p:169,x:160,y:877,w:409,h:20},
{t:"165",p:170,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:170,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"so whatever I wear, I am indelibly branded as a prisoner of ",p:170,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"war, which for me means a criminal of war. I have become ",p:170,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"one of the throngs of stigmatized POWs, and I watch them ",p:170,x:160,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"helplessly with sadness. I ask myself how many of them ",p:170,x:160,y:178,w:408,h:20},
{t:"really wanted to take up rifes. ",p:170,x:160,y:205,w:212,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:170,x:190,y:233,w:9,h:20},
{t:"feel calm—some might think this a defant atti-",p:170,x:204,y:233,w:360,h:20},
{t:"tude—about the unfair treatment I have received. I frmly ",p:170,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"believe that I am not a war criminal. I am innocent. But I ",p:170,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"ask myself, am I innocent of all that was happening around ",p:170,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"me? Did I contain any seeds of war in myself, such as greed, ",p:170,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"wickedness, jealousy, arrogance, boasting, justifcation, and ",p:170,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"self-centeredness? If I cannot stand my ground without a ",p:170,x:160,y:398,w:408,h:20},
{t:"pang of conscience before those questions, I cannot truth-",p:170,x:160,y:425,w:404,h:20},
{t:"fully declare that I did not make any contribution to the ",p:170,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"outbreak of war. ",p:170,x:160,y:480,w:117,h:20},
{t:"I decided to resign myself to being a prisoner, that I ",p:170,x:190,y:508,w:379,h:20},
{t:"would confess to being a war convict and live with that. As ",p:170,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"I accepted this, all the things that have happened to me ",p:170,x:160,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"suddenly merged together as precious, beautiful, and pu-",p:170,x:160,y:590,w:404,h:20},
{t:"rifying. When I came to this understanding, my eyes were ",p:170,x:160,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"clearly opened to the immense grace bestowed on me. I am ",p:170,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"looking at you now with a new insight. It’s a miracle that I ",p:170,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"have a friend. That miracle has transformed me, unlocked ",p:170,x:160,y:700,w:408,h:20},
{t:"my soul, and opened up my heart like a budding fower. ",p:170,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"This is like starlight in a place of darkness. I write to you ",p:170,x:160,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"believing that once we were in the grip of fear and anxiety, ",p:170,x:160,y:782,w:409,h:20},
{t:"but now we are united, and you are listening to me, and I ",p:170,x:160,y:810,w:408,h:20},
{t:"am listening to you. ",p:170,x:160,y:837,w:139,h:20},
{t:"People call this place Kojeri. It’s a name that alludes to ",p:170,x:190,y:865,w:379,h:20},
{t:"waterside embankments, but we cannot see the sea nearby. ",p:170,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"166",p:171,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:171,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"If there were embankments, the sea would be near, and we ",p:171,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"would smell ocean breezes and hear the sound of waves, ",p:171,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"but that is just a wishful dream.",p:171,x:160,y:150,w:217,h:20},
{t:"In place of ocean waves, we have waves of tents that fll ",p:171,x:190,y:178,w:379,h:20},
{t:"the feld. Hundreds or maybe thousands of green US Army ",p:171,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"tents are being set up in the feld. When we arrived here, we ",p:171,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"heard that the US Army had launched the Inchon landing ",p:171,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"operation. At this news, we instantly shouted “Bravo,” but ",p:171,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"then we found ourselves prisoners, captured by our own ",p:171,x:160,y:315,w:408,h:20},
{t:"army, prisoners of South Korea. When we were unloaded ",p:171,x:160,y:343,w:408,h:20},
{t:"from the freight train at the Busan Railroad Station and ",p:171,x:160,y:370,w:408,h:20},
{t:"transported to this place, we felt consumed by the unfair-",p:171,x:160,y:398,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ness of it. We longed for our refugee claimant status to be ",p:171,x:160,y:425,w:408,h:20},
{t:"reviewed. We believed that once our cases were reviewed, ",p:171,x:160,y:453,w:408,h:20},
{t:"we would be declared innocent from these false accusa-",p:171,x:160,y:480,w:404,h:20},
{t:"tions and set free.",p:171,x:160,y:508,w:124,h:20},
{t:"This place was a model of hell—pandemonium, a ",p:171,x:190,y:535,w:379,h:20},
{t:"demonic ",p:171,x:160,y:563,w:63,h:20},
{t:"battlefeld, ",p:171,x:231,y:563,w:77,h:20},
{t:"with ",p:171,x:317,y:563,w:33,h:20},
{t:"multitudes ",p:171,x:359,y:563,w:78,h:20},
{t:"of ",p:171,x:445,y:563,w:17,h:20},
{t:"bloodstained, ",p:171,x:471,y:563,w:97,h:20},
{t:"wounded Communists, soldiers in ragged uniforms, prison-",p:171,x:160,y:590,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ers with dirty faces, all indistinguishable from one another ",p:171,x:160,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"in shared misery. They were the North Korean Communist ",p:171,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Army, Chinese soldiers, and civilians. The authorities in the ",p:171,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Korean and US armies were quite at a loss as to how to ",p:171,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"deal with them. The intelligence agent of the US Army was ",p:171,x:160,y:727,w:408,h:20},
{t:"in charge of the claimant review, and he worked with an ",p:171,x:160,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"interpreter. The three of us—Park Yong-Ki, Myung Hyung-",p:171,x:160,y:782,w:404,h:20},
{t:"Churl, and me—were to be processed at the same time. ",p:171,x:160,y:810,w:387,h:20},
{t:"When they heard our account of why we were carrying ",p:171,x:190,y:837,w:378,h:20},
{t:"the ammunition and rice loaves before meeting up with ",p:171,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the US Army, the examiner and interpreter appeared to be ",p:171,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"167",p:172,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:172,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"relieved. When we were asked to repeat that statement, we ",p:172,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"described the scene more vividly and passionately because ",p:172,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"we thought this might bring a favorable decision to us. ",p:172,x:160,y:150,w:378,h:20},
{t:"“That was complicity with the enemy. That was against ",p:172,x:190,y:178,w:379,h:20},
{t:"the national interest. You gave beneft to the enemy.” The ",p:172,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"interpreter’s eyes grew large, and he stared at the three of ",p:172,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"us. ",p:172,x:160,y:260,w:24,h:20},
{t:"“How can you call that an act of complicity with the ",p:172,x:190,y:288,w:379,h:20},
{t:"enemy?” said Park Yong-Ki. ",p:172,x:160,y:315,w:194,h:20},
{t:"“We were taken by force and ",p:172,x:356,y:315,w:212,h:20},
{t:"pushed at gunpoint and coerced to work to save our lives. ",p:172,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"If you were in that situation, do you think you could disobey ",p:172,x:160,y:370,w:408,h:20},
{t:"such a command?”",p:172,x:160,y:398,w:129,h:20},
{t:"The interpreter appeared older than us by only one or ",p:172,x:190,y:425,w:379,h:20},
{t:"two years. He had a strong physique and was a handsome ",p:172,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"young man. He looked very serious, but could he appreciate ",p:172,x:160,y:480,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the course of action we had taken? He frowned in disap-",p:172,x:160,y:508,w:404,h:20},
{t:"proval and said in an intimidating voice, “Listen, you idiots. ",p:172,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Who do you think was the target of the ammunition you ",p:172,x:160,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"were carrying on your blistered backs? And what about the ",p:172,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Communist ******* who ate the rice loaves that you sup-",p:172,x:160,y:618,w:404,h:20},
{t:"plied? Who were they fring their guns at? Who did they try ",p:172,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to kill?” He blatantly considered us to be nothing but scum. ",p:172,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"The review court would determine whether we lived or died. ",p:172,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Park Yong-Ki could not remain quiet. He alternated between ",p:172,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"rage and pleading, stressing that he was a student.",p:172,x:160,y:755,w:348,h:20},
{t:"Our review continued the following afternoon. It was ",p:172,x:190,y:782,w:379,h:20},
{t:"not actually continued, but postponed, as if they were tired ",p:172,x:160,y:810,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of our case. They called us in, and then pushed us back, and ",p:172,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"then called us in again as if they had suddenly remembered ",p:172,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"us. This was repeated several times. Finally, the interpreter ",p:172,x:160,y:892,w:408,h:20},
{t:"168",p:173,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:173,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"tried to persuade us. “Sign here, and you can enjoy a com-",p:173,x:160,y:95,w:404,h:20},
{t:"fortable life.”",p:173,x:160,y:123,w:89,h:20},
{t:"He slid the document across the desk, and I examined ",p:173,x:190,y:150,w:379,h:20},
{t:"it thoroughly. It had been issued by the US Eighth Army and ",p:173,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"claimed that we were spies for North Korea. I said, “No, this ",p:173,x:160,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"is not true. We cannot sign that. We are not afraid to die, ",p:173,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"but we cannot admit to these terrible acts. We won’t sign ",p:173,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"this.”",p:173,x:160,y:288,w:34,h:20},
{t:"The interpreter was annoyed and seemingly resolute ",p:173,x:190,y:315,w:379,h:20},
{t:"in coercing us to sign. I realized why he was so desperate. ",p:173,x:160,y:343,w:408,h:20},
{t:"He did not want to risk releasing us until our identity had ",p:173,x:160,y:370,w:408,h:20},
{t:"been cleared. It was easier for him to imprison us. We real-",p:173,x:160,y:398,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ized that this was not the court to discern black from white ",p:173,x:160,y:425,w:409,h:20},
{t:"through reasoning and logic. Our quantity and quality of ",p:173,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"truth did not matter, and we could not avoid the outcome ",p:173,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"in front of us. They returned my hymnbook and Bible to me ",p:173,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"without saying anything and gave us clothes emblazoned ",p:173,x:160,y:535,w:408,h:20},
{t:"with the letters POW. ",p:173,x:160,y:562,w:149,h:20},
{t:"In love, ",p:173,x:159,y:598,w:54,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon",p:173,x:159,y:625,w:103,h:20},
{t:"October 1950",p:173,x:114,y:684,w:126,h:16},
{t:"Dear Friend,",p:173,x:159,y:715,w:84,h:20},
{t:"I heard that Seoul was recaptured. Where and how did ",p:173,x:190,y:743,w:378,h:20},
{t:"you struggle in the war? When we meet, we can take our ",p:173,x:159,y:770,w:408,h:20},
{t:"time talking things over, as there are a multitude of untold ",p:173,x:159,y:798,w:409,h:20},
{t:"stories in the letters. I am assigned to the fourth camp, ",p:173,x:159,y:825,w:408,h:20},
{t:"and both Park Yong-Ki and Myung Hyung-Churl are in the ",p:173,x:159,y:853,w:409,h:20},
{t:"ffth camp, right next to mine, so we have a chance to meet ",p:173,x:159,y:880,w:408,h:20},
{t:"169",p:174,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:174,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"from time to time. These camps are apparently designated ",p:174,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"as prisoner wards to receive wounded soldiers and general ",p:174,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"patients. Most of the patients are in very serious condition. ",p:174,x:160,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"After being moved to the fourth camp, I was selected ",p:174,x:190,y:178,w:378,h:20},
{t:"as a hospital aide. The nurses are mostly from the US Army ",p:174,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and need interpreters. Since I speak simple English, they ",p:174,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"frequently look to me to interpret, and I assist in flling out ",p:174,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the medical charts.",p:174,x:160,y:288,w:131,h:20},
{t:"Dear friend, how can I describe all that I am going ",p:174,x:190,y:315,w:379,h:20},
{t:"through every day? We often emphasize the stress of ",p:174,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"mental suffering more than the physical, and inevitably ",p:174,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"we reach the conclusion that physical pain can be endured ",p:174,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"more easily than mental suffering. But how can I express ",p:174,x:160,y:425,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the suffering and the agony that exist in the mutilated and ",p:174,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"smashed bodies of these patients? Here, they classify as ",p:174,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"“light” the cases of gunshot wounds or shrapnel embedded ",p:174,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"in the body. It is agony to hear the cries of patients who ",p:174,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"have had their limbs amputated or who have lost their ",p:174,x:160,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"eyesight. ",p:174,x:160,y:590,w:65,h:20},
{t:"I cry for the sad faces around me. Is there any other ",p:174,x:190,y:618,w:378,h:20},
{t:"real existence than pain? Pain is a defnitive driving force ",p:174,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"by which we realize the existence of our humanity and by ",p:174,x:160,y:673,w:408,h:20},
{t:"which we carve out that existence clearly. What do they ",p:174,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"have to look forward to? They can only return to the con-",p:174,x:160,y:727,w:404,h:20},
{t:"fnement of this camp after having their limbs amputated ",p:174,x:160,y:755,w:408,h:20},
{t:"or losing their eyesight.",p:174,x:160,y:782,w:161,h:20},
{t:"A soldier whose two arms had been amputated shouted ",p:174,x:190,y:810,w:379,h:20},
{t:"in rage, with wide eyes and a foaming mouth, “You sons of ",p:174,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"dead pigs! Come out, I’ll kill you! Give me back my arms, ",p:174,x:160,y:865,w:408,h:20},
{t:"my arms! I have to go back to my hometown, and I have to ",p:174,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"170",p:175,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:175,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"work on my farm!” Yelling frantically he wept and pleaded, ",p:175,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"“I have old parents and a simple, hardworking wife and two ",p:175,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"children. If I don’t work, they will starve to death. Get my ",p:175,x:160,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"hands back. Get them back!”",p:175,x:160,y:178,w:195,h:20},
{t:"For whom did they give their arms? For whom did they ",p:175,x:190,y:205,w:379,h:20},
{t:"give their legs? They are not so much prisoners of war as ",p:175,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"prisoners of pain, prisoners of fear, sorrow, and loneliness. ",p:175,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"This is a hellish place, full of suffering. There are so many ",p:175,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"wounded soldiers as well as patients with internal health ",p:175,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"problems. In addition to external wounds, many suffer ",p:175,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"from infammation and suppuration. Innumerable patients ",p:175,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"suffer from tuberculosis and ",p:175,x:160,y:398,w:217,h:20},
{t:"liver ",p:175,x:383,y:398,w:33,h:20},
{t:"and gastrointestinal ",p:175,x:422,y:398,w:146,h:20},
{t:"diseases. The US surgeons were shocked by the discovery ",p:175,x:160,y:425,w:408,h:20},
{t:"of so many parasites inside the gastrointestinal tracts. To ",p:175,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"them these patients seemed dirtier than animals and like ",p:175,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"such a nuisance.",p:175,x:160,y:508,w:113,h:20},
{t:"It is too much to expect compassion from them. I ",p:175,x:190,y:535,w:378,h:20},
{t:"understand that Americans are not solely to blame for ",p:175,x:160,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"their insensitivity. I don’t think they are inhumane so much ",p:175,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"as overwhelmed with the enormous number of patients ",p:175,x:160,y:618,w:408,h:20},
{t:"swarming into the clinic and the severity of chronic diseases, ",p:175,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"untreated for so long. Compared to the number of incoming ",p:175,x:160,y:673,w:408,h:20},
{t:"patients, doctors are in very short supply. The schedule of ",p:175,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the medical team seeing the new patients was so tight that ",p:175,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the doctors were not available for the bedridden patients ",p:175,x:160,y:755,w:408,h:20},
{t:"who anxiously waited for them. ",p:175,x:160,y:782,w:220,h:20},
{t:"“Why can’t these people wait their turn?” grumbled a ",p:175,x:190,y:810,w:379,h:20},
{t:"meticulously clean and handsome US surgeon, a major, ",p:175,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"disapprovingly. “Even if they miss their turn, we cannot do ",p:175,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"much about it. The patients in this tent are not the war-",p:175,x:160,y:892,w:405,h:20},
{t:"171",p:176,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:176,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"wounded. They had illnesses before the war and came here ",p:176,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"with them. We are providing them with a special favor, so ",p:176,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"why can’t they just calmly wait in line?”",p:176,x:160,y:150,w:266,h:20},
{t:"I almost choked on this gross insult. Why do these ",p:176,x:190,y:178,w:379,h:20},
{t:"surgeons so arrogantly put down these patients? I wept as ",p:176,x:160,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"I struggled to move the poor patients back to their beds to ",p:176,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"wait their turn.",p:176,x:160,y:260,w:102,h:20},
{t:"To be continued . . .",p:176,x:145,y:315,w:142,h:20},
{t:"My Dear Friend,",p:176,x:160,y:378,w:109,h:20},
{t:"When the daily routine is over, I am supposed to return ",p:176,x:190,y:405,w:378,h:20},
{t:"to my assigned place, but I like to stay with the patients to ",p:176,x:160,y:433,w:409,h:20},
{t:"attend to them. But that is against the rules, so I soon have ",p:176,x:160,y:460,w:408,h:20},
{t:"to return to my tent.",p:176,x:160,y:488,w:140,h:20},
{t:"Inside the tent, there are only straw mats. Clutching ",p:176,x:190,y:515,w:378,h:20},
{t:"their small bundles, the prisoners sleep, curling themselves ",p:176,x:160,y:543,w:409,h:20},
{t:"up to protect their belongings. The United States is a rich ",p:176,x:160,y:570,w:408,h:20},
{t:"country, but of what use are its riches? They are embar-",p:176,x:160,y:598,w:404,h:20},
{t:"rassed by the war; therefore, they are having difculty ",p:176,x:160,y:625,w:408,h:20},
{t:"being compassionate to the prisoners of war.",p:176,x:160,y:653,w:311,h:20},
{t:"There is no light in any of the prisoners’ tents, and bat-",p:176,x:190,y:680,w:375,h:20},
{t:"teries are supplied only to the guards at the entrance to ",p:176,x:160,y:708,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the tent city. People confned inside the tents rather enjoy ",p:176,x:160,y:735,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the darkness, I think, and are able to release their thoughts ",p:176,x:160,y:763,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and emotions, confned for so long, through fancy pictures ",p:176,x:160,y:790,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of imagination. When they fall asleep, I kneel down on the ",p:176,x:160,y:818,w:409,h:20},
{t:"mat, as I have a healthy body in the midst of the suffering ",p:176,x:160,y:845,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and agony. I pray for those who have lost limbs or eyes, ",p:176,x:160,y:872,w:408,h:20},
{t:"172",p:177,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:177,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"who groan in pain from their infestations, or who cry miser-",p:177,x:160,y:95,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ably because they were not allowed to die. In this valley of ",p:177,x:160,y:123,w:408,h:20},
{t:"suffering, a prisoner prays for the prisoners.",p:177,x:160,y:150,w:304,h:20},
{t:"Yet sometimes I feel lost and cannot clearly understand ",p:177,x:190,y:178,w:379,h:20},
{t:"what I should seek. With my body intact and healthy, how ",p:177,x:160,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"am I able to perceive their pain and agony and pray for ",p:177,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"them? How can I seek help for those who are sunk in a fath-",p:177,x:160,y:260,w:404,h:20},
{t:"omless despair, who have accepted their hopelessness as ",p:177,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"an eternal punishment? My prayers seem to be powerless. ",p:177,x:160,y:315,w:408,h:20},
{t:"Should I pray for their health and strength to be restored, ",p:177,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"or for their life to end immediately so their suffering could ",p:177,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"be taken away? ",p:177,x:160,y:398,w:109,h:20},
{t:"In these moments, I am always too distressed to in-",p:177,x:190,y:425,w:375,h:20},
{t:"terpret the love of God in relationship to these people who ",p:177,x:160,y:453,w:408,h:20},
{t:"have survived so many perils and so much death, only to ",p:177,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"be slashed, ripped, infested, and covered with blood and ",p:177,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"pus. I’ve lost the faith that God is love—and lost my will to ",p:177,x:160,y:535,w:408,h:20},
{t:"understand the meaning of it all. I cannot understand the ",p:177,x:160,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"meaning of carnage and the war that caused bodies to be ",p:177,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"mutilated and lives crushed.",p:177,x:160,y:618,w:194,h:20},
{t:"My dear friend, where are you, and what are you doing ",p:177,x:190,y:645,w:379,h:20},
{t:"now? I miss you. Our country that we shared together has ",p:177,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"been abandoned to ruin. Our hearts have been devastated ",p:177,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"by hatred and grievances, and they have become barren ",p:177,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"with mistrust. From the depths of my exhausted soul, I cry ",p:177,x:160,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to God. And I call to you, my friend, in a soft voice. ",p:177,x:160,y:782,w:350,h:20},
{t:"With love to you, ",p:177,x:160,y:817,w:119,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon ",p:177,x:160,y:845,w:107,h:20},
{t:"173",p:178,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:178,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"Life behind Barbed-Wire Fences",p:178,x:177,y:94,w:324,h:26},
{t:"October 1950",p:178,x:115,y:145,w:126,h:16},
{t:"My Dear Friend,",p:178,x:160,y:176,w:109,h:20},
{t:"Two layers of barbed wire surround our prison camp. ",p:178,x:190,y:204,w:379,h:20},
{t:"The dimensions of this confned area are unknown to me, ",p:178,x:160,y:231,w:408,h:20},
{t:"but I can see that the barbed wire is wrapped around frmly ",p:178,x:160,y:259,w:409,h:20},
{t:"planted concrete posts. Inside this barbed-wire fence a new ",p:178,x:160,y:286,w:409,h:20},
{t:"human community has been created. Prisoners sometimes ",p:178,x:160,y:314,w:409,h:20},
{t:"go outside the camp to work, unloading military supplies ",p:178,x:160,y:341,w:409,h:20},
{t:"at the piers, building embankments, or cutting trenches at ",p:178,x:160,y:369,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the foothills of the mountains near Busan. Ironically, some ",p:178,x:160,y:396,w:409,h:20},
{t:"prisoners have had to set up the barbed wire under the ",p:178,x:160,y:424,w:409,h:20},
{t:"careful watch of the guards, thus reinforcing their own ",p:178,x:160,y:451,w:409,h:20},
{t:"confnement.",p:178,x:160,y:479,w:91,h:20},
{t:"The expanse of blue sky and the continuous mass of ",p:178,x:190,y:506,w:378,h:20},
{t:"earth were always there, but the two layers of barbed wire ",p:178,x:160,y:534,w:408,h:20},
{t:"that surround our camp create a stark separation between ",p:178,x:160,y:561,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the outside world and us. Every day, new POWs arrive; the ",p:178,x:160,y:589,w:408,h:20},
{t:"number of prisoners is increasing enormously. It makes ",p:178,x:160,y:616,w:409,h:20},
{t:"me think that if the North Korean government mobilized ",p:178,x:160,y:644,w:409,h:20},
{t:"this number of troops, the war should have ended by now. ",p:178,x:160,y:671,w:409,h:20},
{t:"People coming to this place are, without exception, initially ",p:178,x:160,y:699,w:409,h:20},
{t:"perplexed. They shake their heads left and right in fright, ",p:178,x:160,y:726,w:409,h:20},
{t:"but they soon adapt to the grim environment and look ",p:178,x:160,y:754,w:409,h:20},
{t:"forward to any opportunity for work outside the camp.",p:178,x:160,y:781,w:376,h:20},
{t:"The sky was blue yesterday, is blue today, and will ",p:178,x:190,y:809,w:379,h:20},
{t:"be blue tomorrow. A camp entrance looks across the ",p:178,x:160,y:836,w:408,h:20},
{t:"Koje stream and the plain of reeds and paddy feld. The ",p:178,x:160,y:864,w:409,h:20},
{t:"mosquitoes harassed us for a while when we arrived here. ",p:178,x:160,y:891,w:409,h:20},
{t:"174",p:179,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:179,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"I assume that this place used to be a swamp and lowlands, ",p:179,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"as far off I see fuffy white reeds futtering in the wind. ",p:179,x:160,y:123,w:378,h:20},
{t:"I heard Seoul had been recaptured and our troops ",p:179,x:190,y:150,w:379,h:20},
{t:"were advancing northward, but I wonder how and where ",p:179,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and under what conditions this war might end. I believe ",p:179,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"that God created each one of us according to his will, but ",p:179,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"we painted this small country with layers of blood, and ",p:179,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"before that blood was dry, blood of foreigners was also ",p:179,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"poured out. I don’t know how God will use this country in ",p:179,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the future. ",p:179,x:160,y:343,w:77,h:20},
{t:"It feels like fall now, as the color of the sky has changed. ",p:179,x:190,y:370,w:379,h:20},
{t:"I am going to send you my heart along with songs of au-",p:179,x:160,y:398,w:404,h:20},
{t:"tumn. Please take them. ",p:179,x:160,y:425,w:170,h:20},
{t:"Yours sincerely, ",p:179,x:160,y:460,w:111,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon ",p:179,x:160,y:488,w:107,h:20},
{t:"November 1950",p:179,x:114,y:546,w:137,h:16},
{t:"Dear Friend,",p:179,x:160,y:578,w:84,h:20},
{t:"The persimmon ",p:179,x:190,y:605,w:119,h:20},
{t:"trees ",p:179,x:316,y:605,w:38,h:20},
{t:"growing on ",p:179,x:362,y:605,w:88,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:179,x:457,y:605,w:26,h:20},
{t:"foothill ",p:179,x:491,y:605,w:52,h:20},
{t:"of ",p:179,x:551,y:605,w:17,h:20},
{t:"Chungmyo Mountain here have started to change to their ",p:179,x:160,y:633,w:409,h:20},
{t:"fall colors, and I can imagine the ripening fruit on them. ",p:179,x:160,y:660,w:409,h:20},
{t:"The mountains, now draped in their dark, drab, and lifeless ",p:179,x:160,y:688,w:409,h:20},
{t:"winter clothes, are depressing. I am in a stalemate; I can’t ",p:179,x:160,y:715,w:409,h:20},
{t:"pray properly. Fall has made my soul miserable and deso-",p:179,x:160,y:743,w:404,h:20},
{t:"late. In the daytime, I am overwhelmed with the immensity ",p:179,x:160,y:770,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of the patients’ pain, a suffering that simmers like boiling ",p:179,x:160,y:798,w:409,h:20},
{t:"water. But in the night, I pray, “Why? Why? Why?” and I feel ",p:179,x:160,y:825,w:408,h:20},
{t:"abandoned. My lips freeze, and songs of praise dry up in ",p:179,x:160,y:853,w:408,h:20},
{t:"my mouth. Hymns, which used to soften and unlock my ",p:179,x:160,y:880,w:409,h:20},
{t:"175",p:180,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:180,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"soul, have become cold. I cannot fnd the melodies, and the ",p:180,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"words feel strange to me.",p:180,x:160,y:123,w:175,h:20},
{t:"You will remember how hymns were always a comfort ",p:180,x:190,y:150,w:378,h:20},
{t:"and strength to me, how they renewed my life. How often ",p:180,x:160,y:178,w:408,h:20},
{t:"we sang those hymns to God, who took away my burden ",p:180,x:160,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"of sins, gave a true peace, gave a true comfort, and hid my ",p:180,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"soul in the cleft of the rock!",p:180,x:160,y:260,w:187,h:20},
{t:"Now my soul is naked, wandering, without shelter, ",p:180,x:190,y:288,w:378,h:20},
{t:"cold and alone. It’s not because I became a POW, nor is it ",p:180,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"because I am being watched and confned by two layers of ",p:180,x:160,y:343,w:408,h:20},
{t:"barbed-wire fence, but rather because of the great despair ",p:180,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of the people here in the prison camp that I am in such a ",p:180,x:160,y:398,w:408,h:20},
{t:"state. ",p:180,x:160,y:425,w:41,h:20},
{t:"The number of ailing people is staggering. Patients, ",p:180,x:190,y:453,w:379,h:20},
{t:"desperately waiting for doctors and medicine, battle each ",p:180,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"other to be the frst in line to get help. And they have needs ",p:180,x:160,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"not only for food, daily supplies, medicine, and doctors’ at-",p:180,x:160,y:535,w:404,h:20},
{t:"tention, but something else. I know them. Their bodies are ",p:180,x:160,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"brutalized, and their souls are naked, deprived, deserted, ",p:180,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and shrunken. I know what I should offer to them, but I ",p:180,x:160,y:618,w:408,h:20},
{t:"agonize over my inability to bring them comfort. When I ",p:180,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"kneel to pray, I feel helpless. In trying to pray, I become de-",p:180,x:160,y:673,w:404,h:20},
{t:"spondent and overwhelmed at the immensity of it all. How ",p:180,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"can my solitary prayer alleviate the depth of the tragedy? ",p:180,x:160,y:727,w:408,h:20},
{t:"Inside this barbed wire, there is no room to accommodate ",p:180,x:160,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"anyone’s ",p:180,x:160,y:782,w:64,h:20},
{t:"uniqueness ",p:180,x:231,y:782,w:83,h:20},
{t:"of ",p:180,x:321,y:782,w:17,h:20},
{t:"personality, ",p:180,x:346,y:782,w:84,h:20},
{t:"character, ",p:180,x:437,y:782,w:72,h:20},
{t:"career, ",p:180,x:517,y:782,w:51,h:20},
{t:"education, or family genealogy. All human attributes are ",p:180,x:160,y:810,w:409,h:20},
{t:"completely absent. People are reduced to their basic sur-",p:180,x:160,y:837,w:404,h:20},
{t:"vival instincts, fghting against friends or neighbors for a ",p:180,x:160,y:865,w:408,h:20},
{t:"spoonful of soup or a grain of rice. I feel I have no defnitive ",p:180,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"176",p:181,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:181,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"answer to offer them, and even if I did, would they be ",p:181,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"receptive to it?",p:181,x:160,y:123,w:101,h:20},
{t:"One time as I knelt in the dark, a stranger approached ",p:181,x:190,y:150,w:379,h:20},
{t:"me from where he’d been hiding in a corner. He said, “It’s ",p:181,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"wrong, wrong! The God who loved you absolutely and whom ",p:181,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"you love, loves blood. If he is the creator of everything, ",p:181,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"then he also created war and made the hearts and hands of ",p:181,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"those who kill humans as if they were killing fies. He wants ",p:181,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to taste blood continuously. Does he now give you peace? ",p:181,x:160,y:315,w:408,h:20},
{t:"He let his Son get nailed on the cross to save you. The cross ",p:181,x:160,y:343,w:408,h:20},
{t:"of Golgotha redeemed sin. So if his love is so complete, why ",p:181,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"is there still slaughter on this earth? Do you still think God ",p:181,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"is love when he gives birth only to rip his children apart ",p:181,x:160,y:425,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and open the gates of hell for them? They die screaming! ",p:181,x:160,y:453,w:408,h:20},
{t:"It’s all wrong, wrong. Furthermore, your prayers are useless ",p:181,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to help anyone. So stop doing it. It’s ridiculous. God has ",p:181,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"turned his back on you completely. Do you really think you ",p:181,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"can move God with your prayers in this situation? Never!”",p:181,x:160,y:563,w:395,h:20},
{t:"As this continued, I became afraid. I decided not to ac-",p:181,x:190,y:590,w:375,h:20},
{t:"cept my rations. That didn’t mean I wanted to fast, just that ",p:181,x:160,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"my inner confict suddenly made it too painful to continue ",p:181,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to eat. After I had missed one, two, and then three meals, ",p:181,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"I became totally preoccupied with my empty stomach and ",p:181,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"food. I started to be really thankful for food. Gratitude tore ",p:181,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"down the walls of my inner confict, and it sprouted a new ",p:181,x:160,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"shoot. A new skin formed over my wounds. I had an op-",p:181,x:160,y:782,w:404,h:20},
{t:"portunity to look into the state of my soul.",p:181,x:160,y:810,w:290,h:20},
{t:"Being so hungry, ",p:181,x:190,y:837,w:128,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:181,x:322,y:837,w:9,h:20},
{t:"had an opportunity to see the ",p:181,x:336,y:837,w:232,h:20},
{t:"shame of my hard-shelled spiritual life. I realized that I ",p:181,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"had no right to eat a meal every day, a meal that wasn’t ",p:181,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"177",p:182,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:182,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"really mine anyway. I was surprised at the simplicity, that ",p:182,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"all my thoughts were preoccupied with a craving for food. ",p:182,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"I asked myself if I had ever realized that my heart was as ",p:182,x:160,y:150,w:408,h:20},
{t:"poor as my present stomach, longing only for God. No, ",p:182,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"I had not. I had measured the world with my own eyes, ",p:182,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"by my own ruler, and was in despair. To despair is an act ",p:182,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"of arrogance toward God, overriding God’s authority and ",p:182,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"blocking prayer. Despair had flled me up, leaving no room ",p:182,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"for God to speak to me. I had learned that faith means to ",p:182,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"trust God rather than oneself, but I had not pursued that. I ",p:182,x:160,y:343,w:408,h:20},
{t:"had not let God be God. My judgment and despair blocked ",p:182,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"my thinking process. I had judged the world from my own ",p:182,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"perspective. My unplanned fasting developed into the fast-",p:182,x:160,y:425,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ing of repentance, and repentance crumbled the walls of ",p:182,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"despair.",p:182,x:160,y:480,w:55,h:20},
{t:"I asked myself probing questions. Do you think that ",p:182,x:190,y:508,w:378,h:20},
{t:"what you see and hear and know is everything there is? You ",p:182,x:160,y:535,w:408,h:20},
{t:"cannot see the universe and understand the earth that con-",p:182,x:160,y:563,w:404,h:20},
{t:"tains you and moves around the sun and rotates by itself. ",p:182,x:160,y:590,w:408,h:20},
{t:"“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ",p:182,x:160,y:618,w:408,h:20},
{t:"ways my ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher ",p:182,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and ",p:182,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"my thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55).",p:182,x:160,y:700,w:308,h:20},
{t:"My soul was asking endless questions of why, regarding ",p:182,x:190,y:728,w:378,h:20},
{t:"afictions and calamities, but I began to realize that silence ",p:182,x:160,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"is the beginning of emptying my thoughts and questions ",p:182,x:160,y:783,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and of flling God in me. The silence in itself is a prayer and ",p:182,x:160,y:810,w:409,h:20},
{t:"a stepping-stone to enter into God’s presence. ",p:182,x:160,y:838,w:321,h:20},
{t:"I began to see my arrogance in being indignant about ",p:182,x:190,y:865,w:379,h:20},
{t:"my powerlessness and my inability to solve the miseries of ",p:182,x:160,y:893,w:408,h:20},
{t:"178",p:183,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:183,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"the human condition around me. I forgot the truth that life ",p:183,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"is not based on its own condition, but on God’s covenant ",p:183,x:160,y:123,w:408,h:20},
{t:"with his people. Repentance broke open a dike of held-back ",p:183,x:160,y:150,w:408,h:20},
{t:"tears and reinforced a prayer in which I was ready to offer ",p:183,x:160,y:178,w:408,h:20},
{t:"my precarious life back to God.",p:183,x:160,y:205,w:214,h:20},
{t:"The days have become shorter, and darkness comes ",p:183,x:190,y:233,w:379,h:20},
{t:"quickly. ",p:183,x:160,y:260,w:56,h:20},
{t:"I ",p:183,x:221,y:260,w:9,h:20},
{t:"eventually got permission from the hospital ",p:183,x:236,y:260,w:332,h:20},
{t:"authority to go in after work to visit the tents to witness ",p:183,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and to hold worship services. (First, though, I pray fervently ",p:183,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"outside the tent.) Not only am I allowed my pastoral care, ",p:183,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"but I am also offered special favors to receive the supplies ",p:183,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"needed for my activities. I feel so thankful for that. Did man ",p:183,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"plan that by himself? No. God prepared everything and ",p:183,x:160,y:425,w:409,h:20},
{t:"waited for me.",p:183,x:160,y:453,w:99,h:20},
{t:"I have started to visit the surgical ward, where most ",p:183,x:190,y:480,w:378,h:20},
{t:"of the patients know me. Except for a few ofcers, most of ",p:183,x:160,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"patients are young teens. Their bodies are haggard, bony, ",p:183,x:160,y:535,w:408,h:20},
{t:"drab, and swollen; but their eyes are clear and shiny.",p:183,x:160,y:563,w:363,h:20},
{t:"My dear friend, you can easily imagine their faces—the ",p:183,x:190,y:590,w:379,h:20},
{t:"faces of our younger brothers. They were born of parents ",p:183,x:160,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"who had lived under Japanese oppression. They are boys ",p:183,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"who should have been playing and learning at school ",p:183,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and nurturing their dreams. Among them are clever boys ",p:183,x:160,y:700,w:408,h:20},
{t:"with straight foreheads, sparkling eyes, closed lips, and a ",p:183,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"determination to overcome hardships. Most of them are ",p:183,x:160,y:755,w:408,h:20},
{t:"still playful and eager teenagers, just now developing their ",p:183,x:160,y:782,w:409,h:20},
{t:"physical maturity; yet many have now lost their arms or ",p:183,x:160,y:810,w:408,h:20},
{t:"legs. Their dreams and hopes have been ruined. Can we call ",p:183,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"them POWs? Can we brand them war criminals?",p:183,x:160,y:865,w:329,h:20},
{t:"179",p:184,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:184,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"They welcomed my appearance with a smile and ",p:184,x:190,y:95,w:379,h:20},
{t:"asked for medicine. I stood there and opened my mouth ",p:184,x:159,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"cautiously. “I have brought medicine which is not taken in-",p:184,x:159,y:150,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ternally or applied externally, but which will give you peace. ",p:184,x:159,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"I won’t talk. I will sing hymns and read the Bible for you. You ",p:184,x:159,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"just remain where you are on the beds and listen, please.” I ",p:184,x:159,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"prayed shortly in silence and began singing.",p:184,x:159,y:260,w:301,h:20},
{t:"All the way my Savior leads me. ",p:184,x:190,y:288,w:220,h:20},
{t:"What have I to ask beside?",p:184,x:190,y:315,w:182,h:20},
{t:"Can I doubt his tender mercy, ",p:184,x:190,y:343,w:208,h:20},
{t:"who through life has been my guide? ",p:184,x:190,y:370,w:258,h:20},
{t:"Before I’d fnished one verse, someone screamed like a ",p:184,x:159,y:398,w:408,h:20},
{t:"thunderbolt: “Be quiet! Shut up!”",p:184,x:159,y:425,w:224,h:20},
{t:"The voice was shockingly loud. The voice seemed not ",p:184,x:190,y:453,w:379,h:20},
{t:"just to detest hearing the hymn or to reject me, but to ",p:184,x:159,y:480,w:408,h:20},
{t:"be a desperate wailing. It was not the voice of rage but a ",p:184,x:159,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"death throe. When I saw the source of the scream, I was ",p:184,x:159,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"shocked again. He was a handsome ofcer with his right ",p:184,x:159,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"arm amputated. I remembered that his last name was ",p:184,x:159,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Chung. He used to be quiet, expressionless. But now, his ",p:184,x:159,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"whole body spouted a fountain of melancholy and anxiety, ",p:184,x:159,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"too transparent and unapproachable for us. ",p:184,x:159,y:673,w:306,h:20},
{t:"The reason I remembered his last name is that he spoke ",p:184,x:190,y:700,w:378,h:20},
{t:"fuent English. One day when the US surgeons were making ",p:184,x:159,y:727,w:408,h:20},
{t:"their rounds, the ofcer blurted out, “Because you don’t ",p:184,x:159,y:755,w:408,h:20},
{t:"show compassion, we cannot trust you.” He did not express ",p:184,x:159,y:782,w:408,h:20},
{t:"any enmity toward them, nor did he expect anything from ",p:184,x:159,y:810,w:408,h:20},
{t:"them. The doctors looked at each other in embarrassment. ",p:184,x:159,y:837,w:408,h:20},
{t:"They were surprised at his fuent English as well as his re-",p:184,x:159,y:865,w:404,h:20},
{t:"marks. Then he added, “You are doing us a favor. But what ",p:184,x:159,y:892,w:408,h:20},
{t:"180",p:185,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:185,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"hurts is your attitude of superiority toward us. That does ",p:185,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"not serve any beneft or therapeutic purpose.” And then he ",p:185,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"sealed his mouth. Since then, I had never seen him speak ",p:185,x:160,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to them. ",p:185,x:160,y:178,w:62,h:20},
{t:"When he screamed out at me, time seemed to stop, ",p:185,x:190,y:205,w:379,h:20},
{t:"and the silence lingered as if sucked into a vacuum. I met ",p:185,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"his gaze, and I felt my inner pillar, which barely supported ",p:185,x:160,y:260,w:408,h:20},
{t:"me, collapse. I had nothing solid to hold on to. I slumped ",p:185,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to the ground.",p:185,x:160,y:315,w:98,h:20},
{t:"Then I heard a whispering voice: ",p:185,x:190,y:343,w:237,h:20},
{t:"“You yourself are a ",p:185,x:429,y:343,w:139,h:20},
{t:"source of power. A world is out there, waiting for you. You ",p:185,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"can make money, enjoy married life, attain honor, and have ",p:185,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"children. You were born to enjoy life.”",p:185,x:160,y:425,w:259,h:20},
{t:"But a young soldier shook me and whispered, “Sir, ",p:185,x:190,y:453,w:379,h:20},
{t:"please stand up. The ofcer is lonely. He cries out because ",p:185,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"he is lonely. Let’s sing together and give praise, for God ",p:185,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"is weeping with us.” And he started to sing, his face wet ",p:185,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"with tears. He had just one leg, bushy hair growing out of ",p:185,x:160,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"a shaven head, a clean and charming face. The ofcer who ",p:185,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"had screamed turned his back on us, but I could see his ",p:185,x:160,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"trembling. ",p:185,x:160,y:645,w:75,h:20},
{t:"Then the answer came from God: ",p:185,x:190,y:673,w:246,h:20},
{t:"“I am who I am.” ",p:185,x:439,y:673,w:129,h:20},
{t:"God, who is too big for us to see, nonetheless cares for ",p:185,x:160,y:700,w:408,h:20},
{t:"each small thing, even though we cannot see him with our ",p:185,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"human eyes. I rose and made new steps toward God.",p:185,x:160,y:755,w:366,h:20},
{t:"After that incident, I continued my visitations to the ",p:185,x:190,y:782,w:379,h:20},
{t:"wards, but there was always strong jeering. “Hey, hey, you ",p:185,x:160,y:810,w:409,h:20},
{t:"said, ‘Jesus and heaven.’ It’s ********! Stop it. I don’t want ",p:185,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to hear it anymore.”",p:185,x:160,y:865,w:137,h:20},
{t:"181",p:186,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:186,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"The weather became cold, and I noticed that some ",p:186,x:190,y:95,w:378,h:20},
{t:"prisoners were hopping around in bare feet, trying not to ",p:186,x:159,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"touch the cold ground. The Americans had provided plenty ",p:186,x:159,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of shoes, and they had diligently and abundantly delivered ",p:186,x:159,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"such supplies. But here they were, walking barefoot, and I ",p:186,x:159,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"wondered what they had done with their shoes and socks. ",p:186,x:159,y:233,w:404,h:20},
{t:"Then one day I found out that people from the outside ",p:186,x:190,y:260,w:379,h:20},
{t:"were bringing such commodities as sushi, taffy, liquor in ",p:186,x:159,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"small glass bottles, rice cakes, and cooked sweet potatoes ",p:186,x:159,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to the barbed-wire fence. People inside the camp ap-",p:186,x:159,y:343,w:404,h:20},
{t:"proached the barbed wire with socks, shoes, and occasion-",p:186,x:159,y:370,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ally unstamped underwear to exchange for the savory food ",p:186,x:159,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"items they craved. ",p:186,x:159,y:425,w:129,h:20},
{t:"How strange to see a person exchange a pair of shoes ",p:186,x:190,y:453,w:378,h:20},
{t:"for a loaf of sushi or a rice cake. Bargaining and shouting ",p:186,x:159,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"took place across the barbed wires, and I found myself ",p:186,x:159,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"among the crowd of people, standing on tiptoe, shoving ",p:186,x:159,y:535,w:408,h:20},
{t:"and being shoved, and reaching out our hands, achieving ",p:186,x:159,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"only a moment of satisfaction while the people outside ",p:186,x:159,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"earned some petty cash.",p:186,x:159,y:618,w:168,h:20},
{t:"I tried to make sense of why I was here. I knew I should ",p:186,x:190,y:645,w:378,h:20},
{t:"not venture out until I saw, knew, and comprehended ",p:186,x:159,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"more. There was only one way to prevent them from gob-",p:186,x:159,y:700,w:404,h:20},
{t:"bling up shoes and underwear, and I looked up to heaven ",p:186,x:159,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and prayed, “For he will hide me in his shelter in the day of ",p:186,x:159,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"trouble . . . to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire ",p:186,x:159,y:782,w:409,h:20},
{t:"in his temple” (Psalm 27).",p:186,x:160,y:810,w:174,h:20},
{t:"Sincerely, ",p:186,x:160,y:845,w:69,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon ",p:186,x:160,y:873,w:107,h:20},
{t:"182",p:187,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:187,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"The Wilderness Church",p:187,x:221,y:94,w:237,h:26},
{t:"November 1950, a frosty day",p:187,x:115,y:145,w:256,h:16},
{t:"I have some important news. I met Lee Hoe-Jin here. He ",p:187,x:189,y:169,w:378,h:20},
{t:"used to attend our Bible class for middle-school students. ",p:187,x:159,y:196,w:408,h:20},
{t:"You might recall him—slender, charming, with an excellent ",p:187,x:159,y:224,w:409,h:20},
{t:"voice. He was dressed in a baggy POW uniform when he ",p:187,x:159,y:251,w:408,h:20},
{t:"came to see me at the hospital headquarters. ",p:187,x:159,y:279,w:316,h:20},
{t:"“Mr. Mang.” He hugged me. I felt his upper body trem-",p:187,x:189,y:306,w:375,h:20},
{t:"bling and thought he was crying. But then I realized he was ",p:187,x:160,y:334,w:409,h:20},
{t:"laughing.",p:187,x:160,y:361,w:63,h:20},
{t:"“Now it’s all right. I knew that I would fnd you here. ",p:187,x:190,y:389,w:379,h:20},
{t:"God led us here as a shepherd drives his sheep into a ",p:187,x:160,y:416,w:409,h:20},
{t:"sheepfold.” He was confdent, and his tearful eyes were ",p:187,x:160,y:444,w:409,h:20},
{t:"laughing. He still had the clean face of a young teen, but he ",p:187,x:160,y:471,w:408,h:20},
{t:"looked more matured than in his church school days.",p:187,x:160,y:499,w:366,h:20},
{t:"He told me his story. On graduation from high school, ",p:187,x:190,y:526,w:378,h:20},
{t:"he ",p:187,x:160,y:554,w:21,h:20},
{t:"worked ",p:187,x:188,y:554,w:55,h:20},
{t:"for ",p:187,x:250,y:554,w:23,h:20},
{t:"the ",p:187,x:281,y:554,w:26,h:20},
{t:"American ",p:187,x:315,y:554,w:69,h:20},
{t:"International ",p:187,x:392,y:554,w:94,h:20},
{t:"Telephone ",p:187,x:493,y:554,w:75,h:20},
{t:"Company. When the Korean War broke out, he thought ",p:187,x:160,y:581,w:409,h:20},
{t:"that the “old man,” Korean president Rhee, would need him ",p:187,x:160,y:609,w:408,h:20},
{t:"when he wanted to make phone calls to the United States, so ",p:187,x:160,y:636,w:408,h:20},
{t:"he bravely stayed on the job. When he heard someone was ",p:187,x:160,y:664,w:408,h:20},
{t:"needed to repair the phone system in the Taejon telephone ",p:187,x:160,y:691,w:408,h:20},
{t:"ofce after it was bombed, he volunteered to go there. En ",p:187,x:160,y:719,w:409,h:20},
{t:"route to Taejon, he was captured by Communist volunteers. ",p:187,x:160,y:746,w:409,h:20},
{t:"He surrendered to UN forces around the Honam province ",p:187,x:160,y:774,w:408,h:20},
{t:"and was sent here immediately. When he arrived here, ",p:187,x:160,y:801,w:408,h:20},
{t:"this was a camp in name only; it was still a barren desert ",p:187,x:160,y:829,w:409,h:20},
{t:"lacking accommodations and facilities. Since then, so many ",p:187,x:160,y:856,w:409,h:20},
{t:"improvements were made that it seemed like paradise. ",p:187,x:160,y:884,w:409,h:20},
{t:"183",p:188,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:188,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"Now, he was comparatively happy living the prisoner’s life. ",p:188,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"In addition, thanks to his ability to speak English, he was ",p:188,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"assigned to the prisoner review committee to keep fles and ",p:188,x:160,y:150,w:408,h:20},
{t:"records. ",p:188,x:160,y:178,w:60,h:20},
{t:"Lee Hoe-Jin laughed and confdently confded in me, ",p:188,x:190,y:205,w:379,h:20},
{t:"“Although I was captured and am imprisoned in this place, ",p:188,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"I believe there is a defnite will and meaning for this. Just ",p:188,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"recently, I met Park Yong-Ki working at the meal tent in the ",p:188,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"ffth camp, and he told me about you. I thought, Aha! God ",p:188,x:160,y:315,w:408,h:20},
{t:"has a great sense of humor. Mr. Mang, now that I see you ",p:188,x:160,y:342,w:408,h:20},
{t:"here, I have a strong feeling that something important is ",p:188,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"happening.”",p:188,x:160,y:398,w:82,h:20},
{t:"I felt the living presence of the Lord in so many encoun-",p:188,x:190,y:425,w:375,h:20},
{t:"ters. Joy energized my body. One after another, friendly ",p:188,x:160,y:453,w:408,h:20},
{t:"faces began to appear, like stars in the night sky. I found a ",p:188,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"senior student of Choson Seminary working at POW com-",p:188,x:160,y:508,w:404,h:20},
{t:"pany headquarters, and I heard through the grapevine that ",p:188,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"there were many other people here. God again gave me a ",p:188,x:160,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"reason to smile through the presence of Lee Hoe-Jin.",p:188,x:160,y:590,w:362,h:20},
{t:"Sincerely, ",p:188,x:160,y:625,w:69,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon ",p:188,x:160,y:653,w:107,h:20},
{t:"November 1950, on a moonlit night",p:188,x:115,y:711,w:310,h:16},
{t:"A church has been built here on barren land. A cross ",p:188,x:190,y:735,w:379,h:20},
{t:"has been raised over the tent beside the ward that accom-",p:188,x:160,y:763,w:404,h:20},
{t:"modates the patients. We called her the Wilderness Church ",p:188,x:160,y:790,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to remind us that we are in the wilderness. Park Yong- Ki, Lee ",p:188,x:160,y:818,w:408,h:20},
{t:"Hoe-Jin, Pastor Koo (a senior student at Choson Seminary), ",p:188,x:160,y:845,w:408,h:20},
{t:"and I obtained pieces of wood to make a pulpit and chairs. ",p:188,x:160,y:873,w:409,h:20},
{t:"184",p:189,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:189,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"At our frst worship service we praised God with tears of ",p:189,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"joy. We also envisaged the wilderness lying ahead of our ",p:189,x:160,y:123,w:409,h:20},
{t:"people before we can reach Canaan, the Promised Land. I ",p:189,x:160,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"pray that this church will be the tabernacle of our people in ",p:189,x:160,y:178,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the wilderness. ",p:189,x:160,y:205,w:108,h:20},
{t:"While building this church, we suffered much scorn and ",p:189,x:190,y:233,w:379,h:20},
{t:"ridicule. “Stop this complete nonsense! Be what you are: ",p:189,x:160,y:260,w:408,h:20},
{t:"prisoners. Have they said they’ll let you out if you hold on ",p:189,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"to the Yankee’s Devil? It would be better to offer a sacrifce ",p:189,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"to the spirits,1 so we can have rice cakes.”",p:189,x:160,y:343,w:284,h:20},
{t:"As they ridiculed us, I thought about Noah. While ",p:189,x:189,y:370,w:379,h:20},
{t:"Noah was building the ark, people were enjoying banquets ",p:189,x:159,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and parties and weddings and building up their wealth. ",p:189,x:159,y:425,w:409,h:20},
{t:"They scorned him and wagged their fngers at him as if ",p:189,x:159,y:453,w:408,h:20},
{t:"he were crazy! Then Noah went into his ark one sunny ",p:189,x:159,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"day, and seven days later the food covered the earth. ",p:189,x:159,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"What do these seven days mean? God waited seven days ",p:189,x:159,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"for the people on the earth, who were full of wickedness, ",p:189,x:159,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"to return to him. He allowed them a last chance before ",p:189,x:159,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"destroying the earth. ",p:189,x:159,y:618,w:150,h:20},
{t:"Maybe this prison camp is like those seven days after ",p:189,x:189,y:645,w:379,h:20},
{t:"Noah entered the ark. This could be the last chance given to ",p:189,x:159,y:673,w:408,h:20},
{t:"us. We don’t consider ourselves to be as righteous as Noah. ",p:189,x:159,y:700,w:408,h:20},
{t:"We believe that the door is open to anyone who wants to ",p:189,x:159,y:728,w:408,h:20},
{t:"enter into the ark of grace. It’s our responsibility to shout ",p:189,x:159,y:755,w:409,h:20},
{t:"1. ",p:189,x:115,y:847,w:12,h:15},
{t:" In Korean culture, food and alcoholic beverages are traditionally offered to ",p:189,x:133,y:847,w:422,h:15},
{t:"the spirits of dead ancestors. This is a ritual expression of respect, and after a ",p:189,x:115,y:864,w:431,h:15},
{t:"formal presentation, these items are then shared by the participants in a celebra-",p:189,x:115,y:881,w:449,h:15},
{t:"tory feast.",p:189,x:115,y:897,w:55,h:15},
{t:"185",p:190,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:190,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"at them at the top of our lungs that the ark of grace waits ",p:190,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"for them. ",p:190,x:160,y:123,w:68,h:20},
{t:"Yours sincerely, ",p:190,x:160,y:158,w:111,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon ",p:190,x:160,y:185,w:107,h:20},
{t:"Enter the Communist Chinese ",p:190,x:189,y:252,w:306,h:26},
{t:"January 1951",p:190,x:115,y:303,w:123,h:16},
{t:"One cold, windy day toward the end of the year, packed ",p:190,x:189,y:327,w:378,h:20},
{t:"truckloads of refugees were unloaded along the other side ",p:190,x:159,y:354,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of the barbed wire like troops of ants pushed from an ex-",p:190,x:159,y:382,w:404,h:20},
{t:"cavated anthill. Most of them wore layers of clothing, and ",p:190,x:159,y:409,w:409,h:20},
{t:"some carried parcels on their backs or heads. We could tell ",p:190,x:159,y:437,w:408,h:20},
{t:"that they had left their homes in a rush. ",p:190,x:159,y:464,w:277,h:20},
{t:"“Where are you all coming from?” someone asked.",p:190,x:189,y:492,w:347,h:20},
{t:"A middle-aged woman holding on ",p:190,x:189,y:519,w:261,h:20},
{t:"to ",p:190,x:458,y:519,w:18,h:20},
{t:"the barbed ",p:190,x:482,y:519,w:86,h:20},
{t:"wire responded in a heavy Hamkyung province dialect, “I ",p:190,x:159,y:547,w:409,h:20},
{t:"boarded a boat in Heongnam. Where are we now?” After a ",p:190,x:159,y:574,w:409,h:20},
{t:"brief exchange of information, she anxiously asked, “Ah, do ",p:190,x:159,y:602,w:408,h:20},
{t:"you know Kim Chang-Ma, a young guy?” Her words were a ",p:190,x:159,y:629,w:409,h:20},
{t:"catalyst for an outpouring of heartbreaking inquiries from ",p:190,x:159,y:657,w:409,h:20},
{t:"all quarters. People on both sides crowded around, scream-",p:190,x:159,y:684,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ing and craning their necks to look for people they knew. ",p:190,x:159,y:712,w:408,h:20},
{t:"When those on our side learned that these people were ",p:190,x:159,y:739,w:408,h:20},
{t:"countrymen of Hamkyung province, there was a boisterous ",p:190,x:159,y:767,w:409,h:20},
{t:"commotion of people speaking the Hamkyung dialect.",p:190,x:159,y:794,w:370,h:20},
{t:"They had put on as many layers of clothing as they ",p:190,x:189,y:822,w:379,h:20},
{t:"could, including hats of dog or rabbit hair. Their faces were ",p:190,x:159,y:849,w:409,h:20},
{t:"greasy and dirty, as if they hadn’t had showers for a long ",p:190,x:159,y:877,w:409,h:20},
{t:"186",p:191,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:191,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"time. Their eyes were shining with the joy and relief of be-",p:191,x:160,y:95,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ing alive, although they were cold and hungry and afraid. ",p:191,x:160,y:123,w:408,h:20},
{t:"Strangely enough, some wore a familiar US Army steel ",p:191,x:160,y:150,w:408,h:20},
{t:"helmet on top of their winter hat. It made us laugh to see ",p:191,x:160,y:178,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the helmets wobbling on their heads. ",p:191,x:160,y:205,w:260,h:20},
{t:"Amid the shouts, someone inside the barbed-wire ",p:191,x:190,y:233,w:378,h:20},
{t:"fence was curious about the helmets. “Where did you get ",p:191,x:160,y:260,w:408,h:20},
{t:"the helmets? Did the US soldiers give them to you?” he ",p:191,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"called again and again.",p:191,x:160,y:315,w:157,h:20},
{t:"Finally, someone answered him: “They were strewn all ",p:191,x:190,y:343,w:378,h:20},
{t:"over the road. This is a very useful thing. I can use it as a ",p:191,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"bowl as well as a chamber pot. If I survive, I will keep it as a ",p:191,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"household treasure.” ",p:191,x:160,y:425,w:148,h:20},
{t:"The helmets must have been taken from dead American ",p:191,x:190,y:453,w:378,h:20},
{t:"soldiers. It is unthinkable for live soldiers to give up their ",p:191,x:160,y:480,w:408,h:20},
{t:"helmets, so they were probably taken from dead soldiers as ",p:191,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"they lay in a feld, by the roadside, or in the mountainside, ",p:191,x:160,y:535,w:408,h:20},
{t:"neither knowing nor caring that someone was taking off ",p:191,x:160,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"their helmets. ",p:191,x:160,y:590,w:99,h:20},
{t:"Imagine! These refugees, taking a perilous route by ",p:191,x:190,y:618,w:378,h:20},
{t:"boat, carried the helmets, initially worn by US soldiers, and ",p:191,x:160,y:645,w:408,h:20},
{t:"now were using them as bowls as well as chamber pots. ",p:191,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"And someday they would set them aside as household ",p:191,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"treasures with no thoughts for the soldiers who wore the ",p:191,x:160,y:727,w:408,h:20},
{t:"helmets. ",p:191,x:160,y:755,w:63,h:20},
{t:"“We can’t afford to be concerned about the dead. It’s ",p:191,x:190,y:782,w:378,h:20},
{t:"nonsense,” some might say if you asked about that. “Let’s ",p:191,x:160,y:810,w:409,h:20},
{t:"not bother with anything serious while we are still alive.” ",p:191,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"This is what their faces told me. It was frightening to see ",p:191,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"187",p:192,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:192,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"humans that cold hearted. Who and what made them like ",p:192,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"that?",p:192,x:160,y:123,w:34,h:20},
{t:"A bone-chilling wind came from the north. The news ",p:192,x:190,y:150,w:378,h:20},
{t:"that Seoul had fallen into the hands of the enemy made us ",p:192,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"even colder. If our troops had not been defeated so fast, ",p:192,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"I might have had a chance to hear about my parents and ",p:192,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"you and other friends. And I know my parents and you will ",p:192,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"be anxious to hear about me. I shudder to think that poor ",p:192,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Seoul is again in the hands of the enemy and undergoing ",p:192,x:160,y:315,w:408,h:20},
{t:"further hardships. ",p:192,x:160,y:343,w:128,h:20},
{t:"The Chinese Communists had attacked like a tidal wave. ",p:192,x:190,y:370,w:379,h:20},
{t:"They rushed into a land already burned several times by the ",p:192,x:160,y:398,w:408,h:20},
{t:"fres of war. Their intervention slashed any optimistic views ",p:192,x:160,y:425,w:409,h:20},
{t:"on the war. At a conservative estimate more than 1.2 million ",p:192,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Chinese soldiers poured into Korea. Their airpower, com-",p:192,x:160,y:480,w:404,h:20},
{t:"munication equipment, artillery, and transport equipment ",p:192,x:160,y:508,w:409,h:20},
{t:"were very poor, so they walked, mostly at night. Armed with ",p:192,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"assorted rifes made in Russia, Japan, or the United States, ",p:192,x:160,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"they crossed over the rough mountains, carrying food and ",p:192,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"ammunition on their backs. Their communication system ",p:192,x:160,y:618,w:409,h:20},
{t:"was made up of bugles, futes, and drums. Our troops were ",p:192,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"bafed at not being able to spot them. ",p:192,x:160,y:673,w:268,h:20},
{t:"Oxen or horses carried military supplies, but when ",p:192,x:190,y:700,w:378,h:20},
{t:"these were unavailable, they carried rifes, mortars, and ",p:192,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"machine guns on their own heads. But still they moved as ",p:192,x:160,y:755,w:408,h:20},
{t:"if they were running. They couldn’t carry middle-range can-",p:192,x:160,y:782,w:404,h:20},
{t:"nons, so these were left behind. At dawn, they concealed ",p:192,x:160,y:810,w:408,h:20},
{t:"everything. At dusk, they started to move in a huge, devil-",p:192,x:160,y:837,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ish mass. They crossed the Yalu River so craftily that the ",p:192,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"188",p:193,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:193,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"American air force, which few over North Korea every day, ",p:193,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"did not notice. ",p:193,x:160,y:123,w:103,h:20},
{t:"Sometimes I become impatient. I enjoy more freedom ",p:193,x:190,y:150,w:378,h:20},
{t:"than any others inside the camp; I have better food and ",p:193,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"receive clothes and personal care supplies earlier than ",p:193,x:160,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"others. But I ask myself if I am giving my all to them in ",p:193,x:160,y:233,w:408,h:20},
{t:"return for these privileges. I stopped eating in the hospital ",p:193,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and started dining with the prisoners at the general food ",p:193,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"service. The time after work and before sleep is so short to ",p:193,x:160,y:315,w:408,h:20},
{t:"visit the patients’ tents, and I must also think of the others. ",p:193,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Lee Hoe-Jin is working full-time as a caretaker of the church. ",p:193,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"The three of us, including Kang Hui-Dong, visit the tents for ",p:193,x:160,y:398,w:408,h:20},
{t:"prayers, and it has become our evening routine to return to ",p:193,x:160,y:425,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the church for prayers after the night roll calls. “Stay awake ",p:193,x:160,y:453,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and pray. Stay awake and pray,” I am ceaselessly hearing ",p:193,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the Lord say.",p:193,x:160,y:508,w:88,h:20},
{t:"A few nights ago, two patients passed away. No one ",p:193,x:190,y:535,w:379,h:20},
{t:"stayed with them. They all hate the dying for inviting the ",p:193,x:160,y:563,w:409,h:20},
{t:"god of death to them, so instead of extending condolences ",p:193,x:160,y:590,w:408,h:20},
{t:"or praying for their souls, they brand them an omen of mis-",p:193,x:160,y:618,w:404,h:20},
{t:"fortune and send them hatred or frowns to fend off the bad ",p:193,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"luck. The exuberant and genuine joy of family and friends ",p:193,x:160,y:673,w:408,h:20},
{t:"at their birth ends here with a burial in strange frozen soil ",p:193,x:160,y:700,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and a few scoops of dry earth.",p:193,x:160,y:727,w:207,h:20},
{t:"Since that night I usually go around the patient tents ",p:193,x:190,y:755,w:379,h:20},
{t:"at one or two in the morning and check on them. Some ",p:193,x:160,y:782,w:409,h:20},
{t:"paramedics are around, but they seldom help the patients ",p:193,x:160,y:810,w:408,h:20},
{t:"in trouble; they fulfll only their assigned job. We have ",p:193,x:160,y:837,w:408,h:20},
{t:"civilian doctors and nurses coming from outside to help us, ",p:193,x:160,y:865,w:408,h:20},
{t:"but they have very tight schedules in the surgery room and ",p:193,x:160,y:892,w:408,h:20},
{t:"189",p:194,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:194,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"hospital headquarters. There just isn’t enough staff to fully ",p:194,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"care for patients through the night. ",p:194,x:160,y:123,w:246,h:20},
{t:"I walk through the different areas, carrying gauze, ",p:194,x:190,y:150,w:379,h:20},
{t:"cotton balls, and antiseptics supplied by the hospital. The ",p:194,x:160,y:178,w:408,h:20},
{t:"paramedics snore under a dim, incandescent light and ",p:194,x:160,y:205,w:409,h:20},
{t:"don’t bother me. Patients who have passed a critical stage ",p:194,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"manage to sleep in peace in the cold, dark night, but the ",p:194,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"serious ones are a different case; they continue to grapple ",p:194,x:160,y:288,w:409,h:20},
{t:"with their pains in the face of a menacingly imminent death.",p:194,x:160,y:315,w:405,h:20},
{t:"“Lord, you are watching these people. Have mercy on ",p:194,x:190,y:343,w:378,h:20},
{t:"them and strengthen them with your power of love and life. ",p:194,x:160,y:370,w:409,h:20},
{t:"Have them see you through their sufferings. Touch your ",p:194,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"hands on them so that they are able to sleep.”",p:194,x:160,y:425,w:317,h:20},
{t:"I pray ceaselessly as I exchange the pads or clean the ",p:194,x:190,y:453,w:378,h:20},
{t:"bloody pus or massage the painful parts of the body. It’s ",p:194,x:160,y:480,w:409,h:20},
{t:"not me; I just make myself available to the Holy Spirit, who ",p:194,x:160,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"is working in me. When I fnish with one patient, I move ",p:194,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"over to another one, wiping my hands thoroughly with anti-",p:194,x:160,y:563,w:404,h:20},
{t:"septics. Sometimes when I clean their faces and hands with ",p:194,x:160,y:590,w:409,h:20},
{t:"hot water and pray for them aloud, I see tears fowing down ",p:194,x:160,y:618,w:408,h:20},
{t:"their cheeks. I cry when I see them fall asleep peacefully. I ",p:194,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"afrm with thankfulness the love and power of the Lord. I ",p:194,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"know that his presence is with us through all this misery. He ",p:194,x:160,y:700,w:408,h:20},
{t:"washes our afiction with his tears. I am so joyful for the ",p:194,x:160,y:727,w:409,h:20},
{t:"grace that gives me understanding. ",p:194,x:160,y:755,w:245,h:20},
{t:"Sometimes I look at the starry sky on a cold winter ",p:194,x:190,y:782,w:379,h:20},
{t:"night. Wiping away my tears and listening, I am able to ",p:194,x:160,y:810,w:409,h:20},
{t:"hear a profound mystery of heaven. Oh, my friend, there is ",p:194,x:160,y:837,w:409,h:20},
{t:"nothing in this world that God has made that is not beauti-",p:194,x:160,y:865,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ful. I am amazed at the mystery of starlight, traveling for ",p:194,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"190",p:195,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:195,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"several light-years to reach my eyes. In praising the Lord, I ",p:195,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"overcome misery. My dear friend, I see you in the starlight. ",p:195,x:160,y:123,w:408,h:20},
{t:"I am enabled to believe that wherever you are, I am with ",p:195,x:160,y:150,w:409,h:20},
{t:"you, and it reassures me to think that your spirit is beside ",p:195,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"me. Don’t be sad, and keep active.",p:195,x:160,y:205,w:234,h:20},
{t:"Sincerely, ",p:195,x:160,y:240,w:69,h:20},
{t:"Mang Eui-Soon ",p:195,x:160,y:268,w:107,h:20},
{t:"The Visit of Captain Yu",p:195,x:224,y:334,w:230,h:26},
{t:"February 1951 ",p:195,x:115,y:385,w:136,h:16},
{t:"Dear Friend,",p:195,x:160,y:417,w:84,h:20},
{t:"Today for the frst time I visited a camp of Chinese ",p:195,x:190,y:444,w:378,h:20},
{t:"Communist POWs. Every day they are unloaded, and among ",p:195,x:160,y:472,w:409,h:20},
{t:"them are many invalids. These Chinese are mostly simple, ",p:195,x:160,y:499,w:409,h:20},
{t:"naive country kids and have only the clothes they came in. ",p:195,x:160,y:527,w:408,h:20},
{t:"They looked different from us, with prominent cheekbones ",p:195,x:160,y:554,w:408,h:20},
{t:"and wondering eyes taking in their surroundings. They ",p:195,x:160,y:582,w:408,h:20},
{t:"exhibited neither fear nor hostility, staring at me without ",p:195,x:160,y:609,w:409,h:20},
{t:"any emotion, as if they were seeing strangers with a strange ",p:195,x:160,y:637,w:408,h:20},
{t:"culture in a strange land. ",p:195,x:160,y:664,w:175,h:20},
{t:"Who could call them Communists? Carrying antiquated ",p:195,x:190,y:692,w:379,h:20},
{t:"rifes, these country kids had walked thousands of miles to ",p:195,x:160,y:719,w:409,h:20},
{t:"the front on a loaf of rice or a piece of wheat cake without ",p:195,x:160,y:747,w:409,h:20},
{t:"even knowing why they had been conscripted. They walked, ",p:195,x:160,y:774,w:409,h:20},
{t:"hid, and battled like work oxen without complaining or ",p:195,x:160,y:802,w:409,h:20},
{t:"questioning why their government called them to war. They ",p:195,x:160,y:829,w:408,h:20},
{t:"moved as they were told to move and seemed unaware of ",p:195,x:160,y:857,w:409,h:20},
{t:"any difference between east and west. Even though they ",p:195,x:160,y:884,w:408,h:20},
{t:"191",p:196,x:565,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"My Cup Overflows",p:196,x:420,y:55,w:174,h:17},
{t:"had been taken as POWs, they were still being fed and ",p:196,x:160,y:95,w:408,h:20},
{t:"cared for, and their biggest worry now seemed to be about ",p:196,x:160,y:123,w:408,h:20},
{t:"whether these new people might be mad at them.",p:196,x:160,y:150,w:344,h:20},
{t:"Many suffered frostbite, and their feet or hands had to ",p:196,x:190,y:178,w:378,h:20},
{t:"be amputated, even though they had no gunshot wounds. ",p:196,x:160,y:205,w:408,h:20},
{t:"Their quilted uniforms seemed very old and worn out ",p:196,x:160,y:233,w:409,h:20},
{t:"and white with the enormous amount of DDT powder for ",p:196,x:160,y:260,w:409,h:20},
{t:"personal hygiene. As the patients received their supplies, ",p:196,x:160,y:288,w:408,h:20},
{t:"including new uniforms, and were transferred to other ",p:196,x:160,y:315,w:409,h:20},
{t:"tents, they jumped for joy like children and giggled when ",p:196,x:160,y:343,w:409,h:20},
{t:"they saw their old clothes being burned in the fre. They ",p:196,x:160,y:370,w:408,h:20},
{t:"were relaxed because they were fed, kept warm, and did ",p:196,x:160,y:398,w:409,h:20},
{t:"not have to use rifes or walk. They didn’t seem like strang-",p:196,x:160,y:425,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ers but like neighbors from a long time ago.",p:196,x:160,y:453,w:300,h:20},
{t:"Because of the language barrier, they presented prob-",p:196,x:190,y:480,w:375,h:20},
{t:"lems for the medical personnel. I wanted to speak to them, ",p:196,x:160,y:508,w:408,h:20},
{t:"and they wanted to say something to me. I chose as an ",p:196,x:160,y:535,w:409,h:20},
{t:"interpreter a Chinese POW who claimed to speak English, ",p:196,x:160,y:563,w:408,h:20},
{t:"but communication with him was very difcult.",p:196,x:160,y:590,w:323,h:20},
{t:"I had two strange feelings when I frst met the Chinese ",p:196,x:190,y:618,w:378,h:20},
{t:"POWs. They are not enemies invading our country with ",p:196,x:160,y:645,w:409,h:20},
{t:"rifes, but sheep that God has driven along. By that I mean ",p:196,x:160,y:673,w:409,h:20},
{t:"that God has called them here. I envisioned myself kneel-",p:196,x:160,y:700,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ing to serve them. I tried to ignore the idea, to treat it as ",p:196,x:160,y:727,w:408,h:20},
{t:"nothing, but the vision compelled me to kneel. I asked its ",p:196,x:160,y:755,w:408,h:20},
{t:"interpretation. I wanted to shake myself out of that vision, ",p:196,x:160,y:782,w:408,h:20},
{t:"but I couldn’t. Someone was holding me down frmly.",p:196,x:160,y:810,w:367,h:20},
{t:"That night, when I visited them, I began to realize a ",p:196,x:190,y:837,w:379,h:20},
{t:"very important and serious truth. God had started the work ",p:196,x:160,y:865,w:409,h:20},
{t:"of salvation on billions of Chinese people living behind the ",p:196,x:160,y:892,w:409,h:20},
{t:"192",p:197,x:85,y:939,w:29,h:13},
{t:"Free On the Inside",p:197,x:85,y:55,w:175,h:17},
{t:"iron curtain. The iron curtain was a man-made evil, but God ",p:197,x:160,y:95,w:409,h:20},
{t:"had led these young men out from their captivity. We had ",p:197,x:160,y:123,w:408,h:20},
{t:"to sow the seed of the gospel in their hearts. How wonder-",p:197,x:160,y:150,w:404,h:20},
{t:"ful is God’s plan! Through the wonderful grace of God I have ",p:197,x:160,y:178,w:409,h:20},
{t:"been entrusted with this opportunity. ",p:197,x:160,y:205,w:261,h:20},
{t:"Think about the Western missionaries who went into ",p:197,x:190,y:233